[Titanic] I can't help myself

Carl sat motionless on the sofa, looking deeply at my face.

I felt that the atmosphere was a bit heavy, so I stood up with a smile, walked up to him, stretched my arms and said, "How about it, is he handsome?"

His eyes never left my face, and his head slowly lifted as I approached. When I asked this sentence, a faint smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and he stretched out his hand to pull me between his legs. He hugged my waist tightly and buried his face in my stomach.

I hugged his head silently, inserted my fingers into his hair and stroked gently.

Since Archduke Ferdinand was assassinated, Karl's parents sent telegrams many times, hoping that Karl would go home quickly. They were afraid that the sea would be blocked if the war got out of control.But Carl just told his parents he would be safe and had no intention of leaving the UK, he insisted on staying.

Ever since I knew there was going to be a war, I have been feeling very anxious and having trouble sleeping and eating.I must admit that his company has given me so much comfort that I have been able to maintain enough sanity until now.

"Don't worry about me," I said softly, "You heard me too, I'll be transferred to a safe theater soon."

His arms became tighter and tighter, suddenly he stood up suddenly, hugged my head and kissed me fiercely.He bit my lip and tongue, desperately. Suck. Suck.He was panting heavily, hot air in my face, trembling breathing that sounded like crying.

I obediently let him push me down on the sofa, he pressed me hard, and kneaded my whole body with his hands in a disorderly manner.The strength was a bit too strong, and I estimated that my whole body would be covered with bruises after a while, but I didn't refuse, I just hugged his head.He needs to do something to vent his emotions.

His movements became bigger and bigger and more urgent.He sat up and started to undo my belt, almost tearing my trousers in such a rough way.

"Don't worry." I propped myself up with one hand, and stretched out the other hand to caress. His face, trying to make my voice sound softer, "Don't worry, relax a little bit, relax a little bit."

He panted heavily, slowly stopped the movement of his hands, and closed his eyes.I leaned over to kiss his lips, he opened his mouth to hold my tongue, held my waist with both hands, and hugged me.

"Just thinking that you might get hurt, I can't bear it." He said softly, with a hint of sob in his voice.

"I'll come back safely." I smiled and hugged his neck, "I'll ask you to take care of the family."

He nodded, rubbed me into his arms vigorously, and led me into a lingering kiss.

We fell on the sofa again, our bodies were tightly entangled, but there was no lust.I closed my eyes and felt the emotions he conveyed to me in this kiss, his fear, his anxiety, and his love, which made my eyes moist, even with my eyes closed, tears still ooze, breath It's not smooth anymore.

"Don't cry." He kissed my eyelids and coaxed me.It seems that the two of us always need one to comfort the other, and when I start to feel sad, he will suddenly calm down, and when he tears in front of me, I can somehow become stronger.

"I'll wait for you to come home safely."

We stayed in the living room for a long time, but we didn't do anything, and we didn't say much parting words. We just huddled on the sofa, our bodies overlapped, and we kept kissing.We all know what the other party wants to say, but words can't accurately express what we think in our hearts, but a kiss and a eyes that are blurred by tears can clearly convey everything to the other party.

Although I really wanted to lie in his arms like this, and it would be a minute if I could drag it on for a minute, but in the end, I was interrupted by George's knock on the door.Lunch has been prepared, and after lunch, I will go to the military camp, formally enlist in the army, and begin to serve in the country that has gradually ceased to belong to us.

Lunch was depressing and sad, and we could barely eat a bite. Carl and my mother kept looking at me, and every time I met their eyes, I felt the urge to cry.

Although we dawdled, it was finally time to set off.

"Don't worry, Major General Mosley will take care of him. When the war is over, he will definitely return you a healthy Henry." Viscount Stuart comforted, "Then, let's go."

I, Viscount Stuart and George got into the car together.George hoped to be my orderly and continue to take care of me. We made some connections, and finally he continued to follow me smoothly.

When the car was driving slowly on the small road in front of the castle leading to the outside of the manor, I couldn't help but look back and look at my mother and Karl who were still standing at the door through the car window.The mother took two steps forward, and Karl immediately followed her and took her arm.

I kept turning my head until the car turned the corner and I couldn't see them.

"It was like this at the beginning, and it will get better after a while." Viscount Stuart said.

"Sometimes I feel ashamed," I whispered. "My friends are all so excited to join the army, but I'm the only one who doesn't want to. But, Uncle Patrick, do you really think this war is necessary? Sometimes I feel that I joined the army not because of the nobleman's duty to protect the people, but simply as a victim of the conflict between the interests of the country and the country."

"Don't think too much." Viscount Stuart said immediately, "Remember, it's a foolish thing not to think or see and do things that might make you depressed. Since everything is a foregone conclusion, and you If you can’t change the status quo, then learn to change your mentality. Maybe it’s because the battlefield is in Belgium, which makes you feel that this war is not correct. Then think about it, if they really invaded Britain, it would be What a terrible scene, all the beautiful scenery in front of me will be destroyed."

I looked down and said, "I'm sorry. But... I wish I could be as aggressive as William or James. I'm such a coward."

"That's because you are too soft, child." Viscount Stuart put his hand on my shoulder and patted it lightly, "Don't feel guilty, I also admire those fearless young people, if they still want me, I am also willing to lead a small team to fight on the battlefield. But when the target becomes you, I hope you can stay away from the battlefield and survive in peace. People are selfish, and it is not a sin to want to survive. In the past few months, you must insist on it. As a nobleman, you must have a posture. After a while, you will be safe. After all, you, as the Earl of Richardmond, have not yet given birth to an heir, and the king will not be so cruel to you. "

I nod.Next, Viscount Stewart once again told me what to pay attention to in the barracks, including the situation of Major General Mosley.He has said it many times in the past few days.

The military camp is within the county, and our car didn't drive for too long.After arriving at the barracks, he first verified his identity at the gate, and soon, Major General Mosley rushed over.

"Patrick, old man." He hugged Viscount Stuart, "It's a pleasure to meet you. So, this is the Earl of Richardmond, the new Colonel Bucket?"

"Hello, Major General Mosley." I smiled and shook his hand.

Major General Mosley is about 30 years old, tall and tall, with rough and tough facial features, and looks a bit stern. He has black hair and black eyes like Karl. This familiar color slightly reduces my fear of him.He is the third son of an earl, and by virtue of his military exploits, he has already obtained the title of viscount.

"Are you really an adult?" He looked me up and down suspiciously. After getting my affirmative answer, he sighed and said, "It doesn't look like it. You are still a child. Come on, let's come in and say Bar."

So we sat in the major general's office, and he made us tea himself, and sat on the sofa with us.

"Henry has been in poor health since he was a child. He suffered a major blow to his health when he was not yet an adult. Do you remember the Titanic shipwreck the year before last? I think you may have heard that he died from the sea after the ship sank. One of the survivors who came up." Viscount Stuart said, "Although the indicators in the physical examination are basically qualified, but..."

"I understand. The Earl is indeed thinner than ordinary people, and I will pay attention to it." Major General Mosley nodded in satisfaction.

"Thank you, David." Viscount Stuart said, "I hope you will not be dissatisfied with Henry because of this. He also hopes to serve the country, but the actual conditions really limit his possible achievements in the army. Moreover, Booker The Te family has no other heirs within six generations, and the further offshoots don't know where they are."

"Of course I understand." Major General Mosley said kindly, at least he didn't see any displeasure on his face, "Don't worry, he will be as safe as at home. In fact, this military position is almost half an honorary rank. , His current main task is to learn from my side, and he will never have the opportunity to come into contact with the most dangerous front line."

We dined together in the officers' mess, and Lord Stuart left the barracks.

Major General Mosley looked fierce, but he got along very kindly.He took me to familiarize myself with the barracks and introduced the current situation of the army.

"Before we set off for the front line, our work also includes conscription." Major General Mosley said, "The registration office is just at the north gate of the barracks. We need to show our faces at the registration office from time to time to boost morale. Have you accepted any Military-related training, either theoretical or combat?"

"No, General. Neither."

"Not at all?"

"Yes, General." I began to tense again, "I'm sorry, I'm very sorry."

"God, what are they going to do?" Major General Mosley sighed heavily, "Don't be nervous, I'm not dissatisfied with you, it's not your fault. Well, I will assign you a teacher to teach You have some basic common sense and some military theory. What you have to do is to adapt to the life of the army as soon as possible. Our army has been incorporated into the expeditionary force and will set off for the Belgian front in a few days. Understand what the battle is all about."

The author has something to say: Thanks to Lei from Shisanyin classmate~~

I changed the list today, and it feels like it's going to be miserable soon