Huff [other world]

Chapter 41

Aphra raised her head, tried her best to let the tears roll back into her eyes, raised her hand to wipe her eyes, and stuffed the unopened letter back into the envelope, slowly and carefully.She stood up tremblingly from the dilapidated small sofa, and staggered towards her bedroom.

Morena's long golden hair stood up casually. She was cleaning the room when she saw Aphra walk in and grinned.He glanced at the letter in Aphra's hand, his eyes lit up, and he immediately moved towards it.

But this time Aphra did not share the news sent back by her brother as usual.Aphra suddenly slapped her hand that was stretching towards the envelope, and the back of her soft hand immediately turned red.

"Don't touch it." Aphra said hoarsely, "You go out first."

Morena was kicked out of the room, and she stood helplessly at the door holding a wet mop, while Afra closed the door hard and locked it.Staring puzzled at the mottled and faded wooden door.

Morena was taken aback, her pupils shrank suddenly... Gradually, her head drooped weakly.As soon as he let go, the mop fell to the ground with a muffled sound.

Sudden.

"what……"

"Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah!"

Bang bang bang!

Morena knocked on the door frantically, opened her mouth and howled hoarsely, she bent her back in pain, clutched her broken throat with her left hand, and cried mournfully.

Lei Nuo and Shan Jiu heard the noise, looked up at each other for a moment, and then walked outside quickly.

Morena sat slumped in front of Aphra's room door, scratching her throat with one hand, and scratched out red marks with her nails angrily. She was so sad, but she... couldn't speak, couldn't cry!

"Moreina!" Seeing her masochistic behavior, Shan Jiu immediately rushed up and grabbed her wrist. The red scratches on the skin were shocking. He frowned and said softly, "Don't do that, what happened?"

Morena lowered her head and refused to look at him, crying with trembling and emaciated shoulders, one drop after another, wet and hot tears falling to the ground.

"Hey, don't be like this." Shan Jiu stroked her hair, then patted her on the back lightly, "Tell me, what happened?" Looking at the closed door, "Have you been taught a lesson by Aphra? "

Morena shook her head, covered her face with her hands, and leaned towards Shan Jiu, resting her forehead on his shoulder, crying bitterly.

Feeling the instant wetness on his shoulders, Shan Jiu raised his head to look at Renault at a loss.

Renault shook his head slightly, indicating that he didn't know what to do.Staring at Morena whose back was shaking from crying, and thinking for a while, Lei Nuo took out a few tissues and handed them to Shan Jiu.

Shan Jiu was stunned, then stuffed the tissue into Morena's hand, "Wipe...wipe your nose."

Regardless of her image, Morena grabbed a tissue and squeezed her snot hard, then retreated into Shan Jiu's arms and continued to cry, sobbing and hiccupping.

Faced with this situation, the two big men had no way of doing anything. They looked at each other for a long time, Shan Jiu lowered his head, sighed, lifted Morena's shoulders, and made her look at him, "Tell me what happened first, otherwise the shoulders will not be borrowed." Here you go."

Morena twitched, reaching out to scratch her throat unconsciously.Shan Jiu grabbed her arm in time and said softly, "Don't hurt yourself like this, tell Lei Nuo."

After finishing speaking, he put his hand through Morena's armpit, half hugged and half dragged her, and finally brought her from the ground to the sofa.Patted her on the shoulder, "If you feel sad, just tell him." Pointing to Lei Nuo, "Don't look at him, but he's actually very dull, don't be afraid."

Morena was not amused, she looked helplessly at Lei Nuo with red and swollen eyes, and then turned her head to look at Shan Jiu again.

"If you think there are too many people, I'll go and stay aside." Shan Jiu stood up and dragged Lei Nuo to sit next to Morena, "Just talk to him."

Morena bowed her head, clenched her fingers tightly, and her fingertips were entangled with each other.

Renault patted her on the shoulder and gestured to him, and Morena shook her head.

Lei Nuo hesitated, and made another sign language to her. Morena's tears fell even more in an instant. She bent her back, put her arms on her thighs, and buried her head in pain.

what happened?

Shan Jiu couldn't understand sign language, so he huddled in the corner and watched them. Seeing that Lei Nuo took the time to turn his head to look at him, he immediately gestured with his eyes and asked him how the situation was.

Renault shook his head, signaling Shan Jiu to keep quiet.

He stayed obediently in the corner, and suddenly felt that his trousers were being pulled. He looked down, and saw that it was his own cute product.

The little guy felt that the atmosphere was not right, and he didn't dare to run around. After thinking for a long time, he decided to go to Shan Jiu, who was the best for him.

"Guji..."

"Shh."

Shan Jiu raised a finger at it, and the yellow hair immediately shut down obediently, and the dull hair on the top of its head seemed to be affected by the low air pressure in the house, drooping listlessly.

Sighing, bent down and hugged it into his arms, Shan Jiu looked at Afra's closed door, and then at Lei Nuo who had been patiently signing with Morena, his heart also became heavy.

Suddenly, Lei Nuo patted Morena on the shoulder, got up and walked towards Shan Jiu.

Shan Jiu immediately straightened his waist, even the yellow hair in his arms subconsciously sat upright, Shan Jiu asked, "How is it?"

"Not good." Lei Nuo said softly, "It should be her brother, who died in battle."

Shan Jiu was taken aback for a moment, his eyes darkened, he lowered his head, and did not speak.

Renault said again, "I'm going to prepare lunch and see if I can call Aphra out." After a pause, "I think she's the saddest one."

Shan Jiu nodded, walked to Afra's door, knocked on the door, but there was no response.

Get closer, put your ear against the door, it's quiet inside, there's no sound at all.Shan Jiu frowned, and called Aphra's name a few times, but there was still no response.

How to do?

Shan Jiu lip-synced to Renault.

Lei Nuo beckoned to him, and asked Shan Jiu to come over and stroke his hair, "Let her be alone first."

He reached out to grab Renault's hand and shook it, "Okay."

However, Afra still didn't walk out of the room until the meal at noon was completely cold.

Morena had already calmed down, looking worriedly at the locked door with red eyes, unable to eat at all.Forced by Shan Jiu to stuff something into his stomach, he just sat on the chair and didn't move.

Shan Jiu patted Lei Nuo's arm, leaned close to his ear and whispered something, Lei Nuo's dark golden eyes drooped slightly, and finally, a faint light flashed.

"Okay." Renault replied Shan Jiu, and by the way, he lowered his head and kissed his forehead.

……

Aphra sat on the edge of the bed, with the things sent in the letter scattered on her lap.A death notice with exquisite fonts and neat printing, a suicide note with heavy pen and not too long or too short, and an old photo with frayed and curled corners, stained with a lot of dirt.

In the photo, a woman with a rigid expression stood beside a boy who was not yet childish, her hands lightly clasped on the boy's left and right shoulders.

Aphra can hardly remember when she took this photo. Now that I think about it, it was when his eldest son was just an adult, and he was clamoring for a separate photo of himself and him. brother and sister.

Afula's husband passed away within a year after Morena was born. She raised several children by herself. The pressure of life made her bitter and mean. She lost her smile and looked sad all day long. Impatient.

His fingers gently stroked the face of the eldest son in the photo, and he smiled heartily and cleanly.She couldn't help but recall that when his sons chose to go to the battlefield, they said to her, Mother, we will be your pride, and we will fight for freedom.

By the way, there is also his youngest son, who has not written for a long time...

Afra was very quiet and did not cry.After the tears were forced back into her eyes at first, they could not flow any more.His eyes were dry and bloodshot, and his throat was painfully tight as if he had been punched hard.

But she was extremely calm, she didn't cry, she didn't tear her heart, she just read the first sentence of the suicide note mechanically and numbly: Mother, I love you, but how I wish you didn't see a sentence, Because I am dead.

Her eldest son's handwriting is still so ugly.

Her eldest son never said 'I love you' to her after his father died.

Aphra's back was bent, as if she had aged a lot in an instant, her eyes were no longer sharp, and now they were blurred and cloudy.

Suddenly, the curtain of the bedroom window moved, but Aphra didn't pay attention, she thought it was the wind.

"Meow."

A leopard cat jumped in from the window lightly, with a small basket hanging around its neck, which contained the lunch made by Renault.Leopard cat silently walked to Afra's feet, lowered his head, put down the basket hanging around his neck, and rubbed her old trousers.He walked quietly to the side again, squatted in the corner, and looked at Aphra silently.

Aphra ignored the leopard cat, and didn't even look down to see what was in the basket. She sat silently on the edge of the bed, neither crying nor laughing, neither angry nor cursing.

The leopard cat was as silent as she was, with its long black tail flicking occasionally.

The room fell into dead silence again.

It wasn't until nearly half an hour later that Afra turned her attention to the ocelot squatting obediently in the corner.After casting her gaze on him for a few seconds, she slowly retracted it.

At the end, Aphra's hoarse voice sounded, "Little guy, come here."

The leopard cat walked towards her obediently, and finally jumped onto Aphra's lap. Its flexible body bent into soft lines, obediently nestling and motionless.

Warm heat radiated from his body, and Aphra's cold fingers stroked his soft fur one after another.

"Meow."

The ocelot screamed in a low voice, turned its head, and licked the back of Afra's hand.

……

"I'm a failed mother."

……

"I can't cry."

……

"I don't even know if I have the right to feel sorry for the death of Andre"

The leopard cat's soft ear trembled, stretched its neck, and touched Aphra's thin belly.Suddenly, I felt wet on my back, drop by drop, forming a piece.It was Aphra's tears.

Gradually, Aphra's low sobs turned into heart-piercing wailing.

The leopard cat was silent, trying to use its warm body to bring some warmth to the cold old woman.

……

"Reynolds."

"Ok?"

When Aphra finally fell asleep exhausted, it was already late at night.

Huang Mao stayed in Morena's room to accompany her. The little girl's eyes were red, almost exactly the same as Huang Mao's red eyes.

Shan Jiu and Lei Nuo were covered with the same quilt, hugging each other.

Shan Jiu yelled again, Lei Nuo looked down into his eyes, "What's wrong?"

"Have you ever written?"

"what?"

With a hoarse voice, "Suicide note."

"No." Lei Nuo stroked Shan Jiu's soft hair with his big hand, "I haven't written a suicide note."

Shan Jiu looked up at him.

"I don't know who to write to." Renault continued, "When I was born, in a desolate wilderness, there were no parents around me, only broken eggshells."

Shan Jiu hugged Lei Nuo tightly, feeling that this man was pitiful and cute.

Renault thought for a while and said, "I've always regretted that I didn't take a piece of broken eggshell as a souvenir, and... if there is a need in the future, I will write to you."

"No." Shan Jiu frowned, "We don't need it."

Renault lowered his head, avoided his question, and kissed the top of his head, "It's late, go to sleep."

"Reynolds." Shan Jiu looked at him stubbornly, "In this case, if there is such a possibility in the future, I will also leave a suicide note for you."

"No." Reynolds subconsciously retorted, holding Shan Jiu's arms tightly.

……

"We don't need any."