Little Gold Cup and Big BMW

When Helanba woke up again, it was already dawn, and Kaimolong was not there. He got out of bed with his slippers on, and opened the door with a yawn. Surprised, because he hadn't heard any movement in the living room, he thought Kaimeron had already gone out.

Kai Molong was wearing a black shirt and trousers. He didn't know whether he was planning to go out or had come back. He didn't seem to notice him walking out of the study. He just silently looked down at a photo in his hand. He didn't know how long he had been looking at it like this. , I always feel as if I haven't blinked my eyelashes for a long time.

"What's that?" He Lanba couldn't hold back his curiosity, but he also felt that Kai Molong was in such a state that he couldn't rush to see it.

"It's nothing." Kai Molong put the photo away and put it in the pocket of his trousers, then raised his head and said to the screenwriter at Bird's Nest, "I have something to tell you."

Seeing Kai Molong's serious expression, He Lanba nodded, "Well, I'll come as soon as I wash my face."

The two sat side by side on the sofa, Kai Molong still arched his back, clasped his hands on his knees, stared ahead, as if he was thinking about something, He Lanba didn't bother to urge him, he knew he was about to hear something very The important thing, even Kaimelong, needs time to prepare.

"You have always wanted to know my secret. The reason why I didn't tell you before is because I still have a tough battle to fight. That world is far away from you. I don't want you to be implicated." After a long time, Kaimeron finally spoke, "I know you may have guessed something, but if I tell you personally, it must mean something different to you." He pursed his dry lips and turned to look at the people around him, "I can tell you Some truths, but not all, and I will tell you the whole truth when I have removed all unsettling elements."

He Lanba couldn't help being distracted from staring at Kai Molong's eyes. Although he hadn't heard the so-called truth yet, the eyes reflecting his face were already clean without reservation.Suddenly he felt that it didn't matter whether he said it or not. It turned out that all he cared about was Kaimeron's attitude towards him. He didn't care about Kaimeron's secrets or who he was as much as he imagined. "Okay." He nodded.

"I told you that I was an orphan, it's true," Cameron said slowly, "My parents passed away before I could remember, and later I was adopted by an organization. As I hide in Tibet, I often stay in one city for less than a few months, and then go to another city. From childhood to adulthood, I have no relatives, no friends, no companions, I live a very strange life, every day As long as I can eat enough and sleep, I don’t seem to have anything else to do. It’s probably because my self-destructive appearance is disgusting, and no one has ever liked me, and I don’t know what it means to like.” He looked around with a surprised expression He Lanba, who is different, smiled, "When you only eat and sleep in your life, except for scolding and ignoring, you will also feel that liking is a superfluous thing."

He called his guardians "sir," but they were more like watchmen, who taught him the basics and didn't send him to school until he was 13 years old, settled, and sure he wouldn't run around.At that time, he was completely unable to adapt to life among the crowd, but he didn't need to adapt, because he had never successfully completed a school year in any school.

When he saw He Lanjin for the first time, he was actually quite surprised. This seemingly talented and perfect boy had such deep-rooted social phobia that he couldn't even tie a bow tie.There is a little bit of the same feeling.So it is fate that the two of us will come together.

But He Lanjin always wanted to change him, and wanted him to join that so-called warm group.But I don't need them at all, we don't need them at all, as long as I have you, as long as you have me, it's so simple, why do you always resist?

He didn't understand He Lanjin, and even felt that he had given him enough patience, why was this person still stubborn.It was not until many years later, when he quickly learned the rules of this world in just a few years, that he realized for the first time in his life that it was not He Lanjin's fault, but because of his lack of knowledge at that time. common sense.

He never felt that homosexuality was a strange thing, and he just felt strange when he had a physical reaction to He Lanjin, without any sense of shame, and even because of that strange pleasure, he would repeatedly imagine himself hugging this person naked.

I used to be that kind of guy, Kai Molong recalled up to this point, looking at Helan Ba ​​beside him, it's really lucky that you could bear me at that time.

"What's wrong?" He Lanba was puzzled by Kai Molong's gaze.

"Nothing." Thank you.Thank you for putting up with me.

After doing it last night, he didn't fall asleep at all, and he didn't even expect that Helan Ba ​​would suddenly start talking after he thought he was asleep.After waiting for so long, the words that he had been waiting for since the moment he formally met Helan Ba ​​outside the garage that night, arrived when he had completely given up.

It came more surprising and sweeter than imagined, as if a person who has been deaf for many years and has died peacefully is suddenly brought by a thunderstorm to the long-lost world, the sound of wind, rain, and clouds... …He must be dying of happiness.

When you said the word "love me", I was so happy that I was about to die.

I don't want to respond to this confession, I just want to keep listening and pray it won't be too short, pray that if I don't talk, you'll keep talking about how much you love me, how you fell in love with me early on, just didn't in time to tell me...

You said you wanted to reciprocate once, but you don't have to.Helanba, all you have to say is enough.Just saying those three words has already made me want to die countless times.

After Helanba fell asleep, he got out of bed, took out the old photo album from the bedside table, and found the photo taken on the roof of the school as soon as he opened the first page. Now only half of the sky is left. The photo was flipped to the back, and at that moment I finally understood it all.The phrase "That's not me, I'll come back" that he left to Helanba just happened to be completely burned by the fire.

Kneeling on the floor, he turned his head to look at the otaku screenwriter who turned over on the bed and fell asleep because of the lack of load on his body. He suddenly didn't know what expression to make. It was anger, grievance, or sadness. , still heartbroken.

Kang Chen showed him the death photo of "Caesar", which is now in his trousers pocket. It was the first time he saw the photo of his own dead body. It was unavoidably disgusting, he couldn't help imagining He Lanba's mood when he confirmed the corpse with his own eyes at the police station, and he could only comfort himself, fortunately, He Lanba knew it wasn't him.

But... He Lanba really thought it was him.

"You really thought I was dead..." It must be such a desperate feeling to see someone you love die like that.He raised his hand to caress He Lanba's sleepy hair, and apologized in a low voice over and over again, "I'm sorry, senior, I'm sorry for making you sad for so long..."

The scattered hair was densely tied to the fingertips and palms, and the tingling sensation penetrated all the way to the heart, which was amazingly painful and amazingly happy.He knelt down beside the bed, shuddering with redemption.

He Lanba frowned and looked at Kai Molong who just looked at him and didn't speak. He felt that he was delusional. He always felt that Kai Molong's eyes were covered with moisture: "Kai Molong?" He never knew Kai Molong Long still had such an unbearable past, after listening to it, he was more indignant than surprised, and couldn't help asking, "Why did they adopt you, why did they take you around?"

"Because I am their bargaining chip." Cameron withdrew his thoughts, "My father comes from a very prominent and ancient family. This family's influence on the world has only increased for hundreds of years. Their surnames are considered to be unacceptable. It’s a secret. It sounds fantastic, and I thought it was a joke when I first found out, but this family really exists. Now it is no longer a simple family, but a huge system with the family at its core. You asked me whether it is a group, a chaebol, a family, or a secret association. I said that it is difficult for me to describe it. If I insist, it is like a super program on a super computer, which can use the resources of the global network and computers at will. and power, except that it is not code that writes this program, but capital and currency, and the highest authority to use and write this program belongs to the family."

Helanba could only digest the truth over and over again. Fortunately, Mr. Stepan had vaccinated him, and he had to rely on his own brain and physique, so it would not be particularly difficult to accept.

"My father was expelled from the family, but the family seems to have been looking for me. The purpose of the organization that adopted me is to train me so that I can infiltrate the family one day in the future. This organization and the family are not right. very."

The screenwriter's intuition gave Helan Ba ​​a bad premonition, and he asked calmly, "How did they train you?"

"Because the family got clues that I was in China, the organization had no choice but to transfer me abroad." Kaimeron said, "You should also know that it is an island country. This war-torn small country has always been a natural training ground for the organization. But until At that time, I didn’t even know the purpose of the organization’s adoption. One year before I left the island country, the organization told me everything. After that, I returned to the United States and received various trainings from the organization while studying at Wharton School of Business. The details are down to recipes, expressions and manners. There is no other purpose, just to make me look as perfect as possible. I used to be very resistant to such changes, but this time I have to take the initiative to accept all of them. This is what I have mastered. Your only chance at your own destiny.”

He Lanba roughly figured out the context of the story: "Later you returned to the family smoothly. What about the organization that adopted you?" Obviously, Kai Molong did not follow the organization's plan.

"They thought that they would instill in me the evil theory of the family every day, reminding me over and over again how cruelly the family abandoned me back then, and that I would work tirelessly like a revenge machine to help them achieve their goals." Kaimeron narrowed his eyes. , shaking his head disapprovingly, "But I'm not a machine."

It was only when He Lanba felt relieved that he was pent up in his chest when he heard this. There is no doubt that Kai Molong used the power of his family to organize an army. He gritted his teeth and said, "Good job."

Kai Molong was stunned for a moment, and realized that He Lanba had finished the plot with his own imagination, and said with a smile, "You hate it so much?"

He Lanba frowned, for some reason, the more Kai Molong said lightly, the more uncomfortable he felt.As long as he thinks of that warm man's smile that makes his heart skip a beat, when he first smiled at others, there may be only a cold meaning behind it, and there is an indescribable feeling in his heart: "You don't hate it?"

Kaimelong clasped his hands on his knees: "How should I put it, I don't hate it so much. If I grew up in the family with no worries, how could I meet you?"

"...Wait," He Lanba frowned, feeling wrong, "You met me after returning to the family, right?" What's the matter with the organization?This is a love story made up too much to play off.

Kaimolong didn't answer, but looking at his expression, he didn't seem to feel that he had a logical error. Helanba wanted to ask, but Kaimolong suddenly put down his legs and stood up on his knees: "That's all, I can't say anything else for now. gone."

He Lanba had no choice but to let go of his doubts.Kai Molong should have come back after going out, so he went straight upstairs after saying this, He Lanba was about to go into the kitchen to cook a bowl of noodles, but he saw Kai Molong calling out to him on the stairs: "He Lanba."

"Huh?" He stopped at the kitchen entrance.

"I tell you this because I hope you treat me better." said Cameron who stopped on the stairs.

If Kai Molong had said such things in normal times, He Lanba would probably have sprayed back "I'm not good at you" or "I'm not good enough to swallow an elephant", but after hearing these words now, he realized that he He is seriously reflecting on all the bad things he has done to Kaimelong.

Leaving the erotic prince alone in the supermarket, and another in front of the police station, falling asleep while watching a movie, and it rained within 3 minutes... Fuck, it's a heinous crime...

But we can't blame Kaimelong for always being entangled in these problems. He used to live that kind of life, and it's good if he didn't learn to hate.He even learned to love.

He even felt that Kemeron's desperation to fall in love with anyone, including the unscrupulous dolphin physique, was to make up for what he had missed - he just wanted to feel them doubled.

The screenwriter smiled and shook his head: "You are short of love."

"Then supply it to me." Kai Molong looked at the people downstairs and said seriously.

The author has something to say: After reading the previous chapter, everyone was asking, um, actually, the tenant of the director department is Mr. Cameron’s. Of course, the curtain call will come automatically when the owner comes back, but I forgot to explain, so go here It seems abrupt to make a special explanation, so I just said directly in the author's words, I am an astonishingly unreliable author!