wipe the ice and fire

Du Qingshao felt that he was useless.

Because at this moment when he saw the ice rink, what he wanted was not to rush up to prove himself, but to just sit on the ground like this, motionless.

A group of people who knew the cause and effect hurried over, Pan Lishu helped him to the chair, and patted him on the shoulder: "It's okay, don't think about it."

He sat on the chair stupidly without saying a word.Seeing this, Pan Lishu could only look back at the coach, and continued, "Even if you really have a conflict with the coach, he wouldn't put such a thing in front of everyone. Don't..."

"I know." Du Qingshao abruptly interrupted the conversation, cast a glance at Song Tanghao behind him from the corner of his eye, and gritted his back molars hard.

"Then why don't you call your French teacher?" Pan Lishu quietly stuffed the phone into his hand.

But he didn't answer, didn't even look at it, and directly refused: "No need, there is no need to make him worry unnecessary."

Now Pan Lishu didn't know what to say, but he had already got up first, squeezed through a group of teammates blocking the door and walked towards the dormitory.

"I'm going back to rest first, you don't have to worry about me."

Closed training before the game is actually beneficial, at least it can block the complicated Internet and media, so that athletes can train with peace of mind.Just like before Du Qingshao saw today's video, he never thought that he fell so badly that day.

He lay on the bed exhausted physically and mentally, looking at the old marks on the ceiling and wall, suddenly realized that he had completely passed the age of carefree skating.

In the past, no matter how hard and tiring, family members were by my side when I was injured, and there were not so many people who disgusted themselves with messy things.Now, his parents don't care about him, and the injuries on his body have become more and more serious over time. The polarized public opinion is either extolling or belittling him, making him exhausted physically and mentally.

Although he knew that this was the only way for everyone to succeed, he still couldn't convince himself in a short time, and lay quietly on the bed until his body couldn't bear the sleepiness.

The athletes of the provincial team arrived the next morning, and they first got used to the field and practiced together.Before the internal test, Du Qingshao only tried a few jumps.Yesterday's video somewhat exposed the scars. He hadn't fully recovered from the last mistake, and he was hit hard again. Whether he can jump out of the quadruple jump is a matter of fate.

And what made him even more disturbed was that he could clearly feel his own resistance—not that he was afraid that he would fall and get hurt again, but that he didn't want to jump at all.

This feeling is not a lack of willpower. He knows very well in his heart that he must not let the opponent's plan succeed like this, but he is really tired, so tired that he can't find any strength to move forward, as if stuck in a winding path. In the snake's cave, there is neither light ahead nor retreat.

The team quiz was messed up by him.When he came on stage, he knew that his skating speed had slowed down a lot. He only completed one of the three jumps in the short program. The gliding transition performance was originally a weak point, but now it looked as soft as skating on cotton candy.

Ye Feihong froze in the air as he wanted to give him a high score as a sign of encouragement.

After that, it was Song Tanghao's game.His repertoire this season is still the same as before. He has experienced several times of China Cup and various B-level competitions, and now he has perfected it.It may be that Du Qingshao's messy performance gave him hope of getting the representative spot, and he was obviously more confident in his performance on the show.

Sitting beside Du Qingshao changing his skates, he listened to the athletes of the provincial team chatting in a "whispered voice" behind them.

"What kind of genius boy? If he really had a strong psychological quality, he would have recovered a long time ago. I think it's a typical example of driving high and low."

"That's right. If he doesn't get a place in the World Championships, he probably won't have enough points for next season. After he wins the third place in the world, he will go nowhere."

……

He could hear it clearly in front of him, and he almost couldn't control the beating hand.But after thinking about it, this time he really gave up the chance to prove himself.

Maybe I still don't like figure skating enough.He thought, if he loves this career enough, even if he has only one breath left, he will definitely finish the game on the ice rink.

The score was naturally unsightly, and after all the athletes finished their performance, Ye Feihong left him alone.

"Do you still want to go to the World Championships?" He asked straight to the point.

"Think." Du Qingshao nodded.

The coach took a deep breath after hearing the words: "I'm sorry for you yesterday, and I've asked someone to check the specific situation. But now that the game is approaching, in order to stabilize everyone's emotions, it is inconvenient for me to report criticism. If you want to blame me, just Get some motivation to skate well."

"I'll give you another chance, think of this place as a venue for the World Championships, and take your free skating seriously."

Du Qingshao didn't want to look up at him anymore, so he nodded wearily, and went back to the sidelines to put on his skates.

The music sounded, he didn't know what he was thinking, and slowly started to slide according to the memory of his body, but when he heard the music, he was dazed again, and he jumped around in a daze, standing on the ground as if his soul had been taken away. In the center of the ice rink.

"Du Qingshao, what are you doing!" Ye Feihong hurried into the ice rink to get him out, "Be sober, what you are going to compete in is a world-class championship!"

"I know." He was like an emotionless dialogue machine, replying mechanically according to the set program.

Ye Feihong wanted to prevent him from trying to change to the previous program, but he realized that this was his first year of promotion, and the programs of the previous youth group were not applicable.

In other words, the kid in front of him has no retreat at all, and if he can't get over the hurdle in his heart, his entire career this season and even after that is over.

Ma Jiabo, who was watching from the sidelines, was also very anxious, patted the coach on the shoulder, and begged for him: "Why don't you give him my spot, anyway, I will..."

"Little Ma, the key now is not that I don't want him to participate, but that I can't watch my athletes go to the battlefield like a dream, which is also to protect him."

"That's right." Ma Jiabo nodded helplessly, and walked to his side, "Why don't I take you to see a psychiatrist tomorrow?"

"I don't like talking to a therapist."

"Du Qingshao, now is not the time for you to be willful, our goals are the same, do you understand?" Ye Feihong stepped forward to persuade him again, "Well, I promise you: as long as you win any A-level match in the future No matter how old you are, I will allow you to fall in love, okay?"

He didn't look up, facing the temptation of the gold medal and his wife, he was surprisingly indifferent.After a long while, he finally moved his Adam's apple, and said slowly: "This is not a question of whether to fall in love or not."

"..." Everyone present was at a loss for words.

"So do you still want to compete?"

"I..." It was a little cold to stand still on the ice, he sniffed and replied, "Just as you said, everything depends on the internal test results."

The rest of the thousands of words were smashed from the throat to the bottom of the heart.Du Qingshao tried his best to control his emotions, his eye sockets were warmed up in time, he grabbed the towel and buried his face in it, and walked back while wiping his sweat.

It seems that I have really seen the limit...

The coach and others stood where they were, looking at everything in front of them in disbelief.No one could believe that he, who was knocked to the ground a month ago and still persisted in the game, would become like this.

The final result also became no suspense, and his two programs ranked third with a disadvantage of five points and two points respectively.Ye Feihong could only submit the list of participants according to the original statement-players: Ma Jiabo, Song Tanghao.

Du Qingshao is temporarily on the bench.

And when this list was made public, there was an uproar in the outside world.