wipe the ice and fire

The first thing poured out of it was a small red book, face down.He didn't know what was going on in his mind, and with a faint hope, he turned the document to the front.

The gilded "divorce certificate" met the light of the flashlight, which almost blinded him.Du Qingshao's heart skipped a beat, and he quickly took out the other things in the bag to check - the divorce agreement, the child support agreement, and a paternity test.

He sniffed, took a deep breath and read the documents one by one.The paternity test was done seven years ago, which proved their father-son relationship. The divorce agreement was drawn up five years ago, awarding him to the father, requiring the woman to pay [-] a year in child support until the child reaches adulthood.

Five years ago, April 4 happened to be the day I entered the national youth training team.Looking at the familiar numbers in the red book, Du Qingshao remembered the endless quarrels between his parents during that time, his heart ached as if a knife had been stabbed in him, and he even stirred it up a few times.

So the huge amount of living expenses that his mother calls him every month is actually alimony.

In fact, Du Qingshao had already noticed that something was wrong at home, but he didn't expect it to start so early...

"Xiao Shao, where are you? Dinner is ready!" Before he could react, he heard his mother calling him for dinner.He adjusted his breathing, reset the thing with one hand with difficulty, walked outside calmly, lifted the cover of the TV, switched the Unicom power supply to the legal channel, and then shouted outside: "Mom, I'm watching TV in the room .”

"Oh? What good-looking TV is there now?" Mom pushed the door open and saw the saying of the day on it, and said with a smile, "You still like to watch this kind of thing after so many years. The assembly is a lawyer."

Du Qingshao had mixed feelings in his heart, and smiled bitterly at her: "Then if I really become a lawyer, would you like it?"

"Don't you like to study mathematics? I think it's better for you to be a mathematician." Mom also smiled at him, and drove him to eat, while habitually testing the temperature of the back cover of the TV.

Du Qingshao took everything seriously, walked out of the room silently, and sat down at the dining table.The table is full of rich fish and meat, and my mother is very busy adding vegetables to his meal.

"It's been a long time since I cooked, so I have to search for tutorials on the Internet. Don't laugh at my mother if it's not delicious."

He picked up a piece of braised pork, took a bite, and smiled indifferently: "It's delicious, I like it."

"As long as you like it, eat more."

"Hmm..." He buried his head very low and patted the rice without saying a word.

The plaster cast on his right shoulder hadn't been removed, and he couldn't lift his hand, and he couldn't support the bowl to eat, making the sound of ping-pong.Seeing this, my mother asked, "Does your hand still hurt?"

"It's okay, the doctor said the operation was a success, and you can start rehabilitation after a while."

"I'm sorry," Shen Huilan's voice choked up, "If I knew I would never have let you learn to skate, seeing you get hurt all over at a young age, my mother really couldn't bear it."

But Du Qingshao shook his head, called his mother, and paused for a long time: "This is something I like, and I am willing to pay for it. Besides, there is no occupation that will not fall into the root of the disease. Being a teacher doesn't mean you have to eat!" Chalk dust?"

"But if you train so intensively every day, you will overdraw your health for the rest of your life."

"Don't worry, take good care of your body after retiring, and you won't lose your life." Du Qingshao replied straightforwardly.

Now it was my mother's turn to be silent, and she put it on the table for a long time before she asked again: "What do you plan to do after you retire? Be a coach like your father?"

"No, I want to go to university for further study."

"Adult college entrance examination?"

Du Qingshao shook his head: "I want to apply directly to foreign universities. They pay more attention to the overall quality of students. If you have good grades in the military, you should be able to apply to a good school."

"Department of Mathematics?"

"Almost," Du Qingshao took a bite of his meal and asked, "You should be satisfied with this arrangement, right?"

"Well, our Xiaoshao already learned everything well." Mom nodded thoughtfully.Du Qingshao carefully observed her movements, took out the divorce certificate from his pocket and pushed it in front of his eyes: "Mom, please explain this matter to me."

Shen Huilan saw Xiao Hongben in front of her stare for a moment, and laughed with emotion: "You were looking through my things just now."

"Why did you want to divorce dad? Is it because of me?" He asked relentlessly, "I remember when you were first together, you even eloped to Harbin with dad, why now..."

"Xiao Shao, I'm sorry. From the perspective of someone who has experienced it, I can only tell you that falling in love and getting married are completely different. When you get married and have children, you will naturally understand. Your father and I, regardless of education, educational philosophy and economic conditions They are all too different. Temperament and character are things that are engraved in the bones. If you don't like each other, you will not be able to live your life."

"You really look down on my dad, don't you?"

Du Qingshao asked what was in his heart.Grandpa was addicted to alcohol. He was hit and killed by a car when he was drunk in his early years. The vehicle that caused the accident has not been found yet.After the mainstay fell, the Du family fell into a slump. His father was sent to a sports school to make a living before he finished junior high school. Unfortunately, he was unlucky and was assigned to learn ice and snow sports that were like deserts in China at that time. He didn't have any achievements until he retired.

Suddenly, another person's name flashed through his mind.He thought of Lumi Varis, his choreographer teacher.

It's also the love between a poor boy who engages in sports and a famous family. Even if Du Qingshao is a rich second generation, he is nothing in front of Luo Ming, a rich tenth generation.He is still a pauper, from tutoring to living habits to personality, he is very different from a scholarly family like Luo Ming.

Marriage, family, and children who have just grown up have reached that stage of life before they have carefully thought about these two words.This may be why no matter what Du Qingshao does, Luo Ming thinks that the two are just a teacher-student relationship - after all, it is ridiculous to ask a child to promise someone else's life.

Are you really worthy of him?Can you afford to take care of him for the rest of your life?

Du Qingshao's heart trembled, completely shaken.

"The last question, why did the court award me to Dad?"

"The award is the same for anyone. Divorce only removes Du Junjie and I as husband and wife, and will not change our relationship. The money that should have been given to you for so many years is not short, and your surgery notice is also signed by me."

"..." Du Qingshao was speechless, and took out a bank card from his pocket and handed it over, "Mom, here are my salary, competition bonuses, and unspent money from the living expenses you gave me. I saved a total of 10,000+. Although I know that this amount of money is nothing in your eyes, I am still very grateful to you for supporting me. The password is my birthday, so you can take it."

"What does mom want your money for? Since you saved it with great difficulty, save it for your future wife."

Hearing the word daughter-in-law, his face darkened instantly, he gritted his teeth and said, "I don't have a wife anymore."

Shen Huilan narrowed her eyes, but did not point out the problem in the words.Sitting at the table, Du Qingshao felt uncomfortable, got up and walked to the door: "I'm going out for a stroll."

"Where are you going?" Mom also stood up.

"I can bear it very well in my heart, and I don't want to look for life and death, so I just walk around the community, don't worry about it." Du Qingshao calmly left a word, pushed the door and walked out.

This is a group of Western-style villas, with orange lights at night, but the wind is very cold.Du Qingshao casually walked around a few times, sat down on a bench by the side of the road, and took out the silver medal in the World Championships that he had earned with his life from his pocket.

In just a few days, he went from the spotlight to nothing.Kissing the person I like, and even finding out the divorce certificate of my parents five years ago, I can't even be a relative.

Perhaps it was because my mother felt that there was no way out in sports, and she didn't follow the route she expected to become a scientist.Dad was so encouraging himself to become an athlete, was he really using his unfulfilled Olympic dream?

These questions may not be verified.

Du Qingshao pressed the medal to his chest, and felt the cool wind blowing, almost crying again.

"Eh, Xiao Du?"

Hearing a familiar voice, he raised his head in response, saw the two team doctors, and frowned: "You live here too?"

"Yeah, we live in the neighborhood to the east. Didn't expect to be neighbors?"

"Almost, but this is my mother's house. She often travels on business, and I haven't lived there much." Du Qingshao paused when he mentioned the word mother, and sighed softly.

Jin Cheng saw that he was depressed, and pulled Pan Lishu to sit beside him: "Have you had a fight with your family?"

Du Qingshao shook his head, just about to speak, when he suddenly remembered that the two of them took him to take pictures and recognized their godfather during the Chinese New Year, and couldn't help wondering: "Did you guys already know about my parents' divorce?"

"What?" Jin Cheng asked back.

"Don't pretend, old man Ye and my dad are friends, it's impossible not to know."

Jin Cheng bit his lower lip when he heard that, and Pan Lishu patted him on the shoulder first: "I didn't expect you to be so calm."

"I have experienced enough things in the past few months, this one is not bad." Du Qingshao sniffed, put the silver medal back in his pocket, and said slowly, "Actually, I want to Think about one thing."

After a pause, he looked up at the two team doctors, and asked clearly and seriously: "Do you think there is really an insurmountable gap between people of different classes?"

"..." As soon as these words came out, the scene was quiet.After a few seconds, Jin Cheng frowned and asked, "After you hit your head, your words have become philosophical?"

"I was just thinking of something to help skating." He was noncommittal.

"It's because of your choreographer teacher." Pan Lishu broke the words and said, "Still thinking about him? Do you think I'm not good enough?"

But he shook his head firmly: "My judgment of myself will never be changed by other words, but this time, I think it is really inappropriate."

"To be honest, if I have the opportunity, I really want to tell you the story of our 18 years of love." Pan Lishu patted him on the shoulder, "When I met the senior, the senior's family was very poor. His brother is going to get married and find a wife. Because the Shang family disliked him and abandoned his business to practice medicine, he felt that being a Chinese medicine doctor would not make money, so he didn’t even pay him the tuition fee. He worked three jobs alone, plus stipends and scholarships to make ends meet. My family is in business. At the beginning, it was also because of the disparity in the family that we separated and reunited several times, but the seniors have been working hard to be financially independent, and after working, we gradually got rid of the shackles of the family, and we became logical. Besides, you are the son of the boss of a multinational company, I don’t think How can you not be worthy of him. Wait for a few years, wait for you to win the world championship, if there is a chance after you retire, maybe you can form a strong alliance to open up the Asian and European markets."

"But...he only treats me as a student. He is willing to take care of me, but he only treats me as a student." Du Qingshao held the silver medal in his pocket, a little incoherently.

"What happened in the toilet that day?" Pan Lishu asked.He didn't evade, and said everything.

After hearing this, Jin Cheng raised his voice first, and scolded him bitterly: "Xiao Du, didn't you say that you can take care of the mentally ill? Putting people in the toilet and kissing them is the way you take care of him!?"

"I thought he liked me too, so I was impatient for a while." He regretted it when he said this, thinking that he knew he was afraid of the dark, so he shouldn't be so excited to turn off the light and fuck him, and even put Xiao Xiaoshao on him rub.

Pan Lishu seemed to have guessed his mind, and added: "It's not necessarily that he doesn't like it. But judging from his reaction, I don't think it's possible to rule out that he committed a crime in sex when he was a child, which led to his avoidance in love. sexual personality."

"An avoidant personality?"

"I think his behavior fits the clinical features. Simply put, he likes you unconditionally, but when he gets your response, he will feel nervous and afraid, and want to escape." Pan Lishu explained to him.

Du Qingshao looked up in disbelief: "Isn't that just flirting and running away, loving very humblely, and being extremely irresponsible to the other party?"

"That's why it's defined as a pathological personality." Pan Lishu spread his hands towards him, "I've made it clear, what are you going to do?"

"I think as long as I don't take the initiative to contact him, I shouldn't have a chance in the future. Maybe I can forget him too. My love is..."

Before the words "unreliable" could be uttered, tears welled up.Du Qingshao got up and kicked the chair fiercely, cursing: "It wouldn't have happened. If he hadn't been born in such a deformed family, he would definitely have become a talented dancer with a healthy personality. live happily ever after."

But now, his happiness can only be given to him by himself.

Everyone was persuading him to let go, obviously there were 1 reasons to retreat, but it was these words that ignited his unwillingness to admit defeat.