wipe the ice and fire

Du Qingshao didn't receive Luo Ming's reply for a long time, seeing that it was almost time to turn off the lights, he couldn't help but feel irritable.

He looked through the previous chat records, and after more than 20 consecutive days of his stalking, Luo Ming has developed the habit of saying goodnight at a fixed point.

And according to Luo Ming's work and rest habits, there must be no rest now.

After hesitating for a moment, he still called Luo Ming.After a long wait, the phone automatically hung up.

Du Qingshao was lazily lying on the bed, but he jumped up from the bed and pressed the dial button again.

After tossing and tossing several times, the call was finally connected.

"Mr. Du?" It was someone's probing voice that greeted him.

Du Qingshao knew what happened as soon as he heard it, and immediately became alert, and asked coldly, "What's wrong with him?"

"The young master has been busy all day and has already fallen asleep."

asleep?Du Qingshao didn't believe the other party's nonsense at all, and listened carefully to the background sound on the phone.

[Invite the 21-bed patient to...] Ears caught a few vague syllables.

"Which hospital are you in?" Du Qingshao didn't say a word of nonsense.

"Mr. Du,... I'm sorry." The butler sighed softly, but he had no choice but to tell the whole thing.

Du Qingshao didn't know what kind of mood he was in to finish listening. After hanging up the phone, his mind went blank.I was as confused as if I hit the ice and broke a few bones. I couldn't breathe because of the pain, and I didn't know where I was lying.

He felt that the world was falling apart: every time the game ended, when he jumped to Luo Ming, all his efforts to cover up were wiped out.For this reason, he also specifically told the two team doctors, but he didn't expect that his hard work would be ruined by a single sentence like this.

It was time to turn off the lights and close the library, so he had no choice but to ask Pan Lishu for help.

When he received the call, he was still reading documents in the office, with his big golden cat sleeping drowsily leaning on his shoulder.

Du Qingshao briefly told what happened, and Pan Lishu knew that he couldn't persuade him, so he could only agree to take him on a trip.

After getting in the car, Du Qingshao sat in the back with his arms crossed, without saying a word.He usually had a playful smile on his face, but now he was sullen and silent, with a cold aura exuding from his whole body.

"Xiao Du, she is your mother after all, don't talk nonsense." Seeing him like this, Jin Cheng reminded him earnestly.

"I don't want to talk to her at all, I just don't know how to face him..." Mentioning Luo Ming made him feel more and more confused, and he gritted his back teeth and cursed fiercely.

Sports competition is a cruel game, not to mention a sport like figure skating that challenges the limits of human physiology.All the relatives and friends who knew he had this problem were worried about his safety, but Du Qingshao could persuade them with his own optimism and persistence.

Only Luo Ming couldn't.

His nerves were too fragile, and he would easily overbreath when he was nervous and frightened, and he couldn't bear the torment that was life-threatening.

There is no more noise on the road in the middle of the night. Looking at the quiet and receding trees beside the road, Du Qingshao deduced thousands of possibilities in his heart-how should he choose between protecting him and his own dreams.

The answer is no solution.He couldn't utter a word of these two sentences.

At the time of turning around, the car had already driven to the gate of the hospital.Du Qingshao looked up at the number plate of the inpatient department, and walked in sullenly.

The corridor was very quiet, and he ran into his mother as soon as he stepped out of the stairs.The moment they looked at each other, she looked like a child who did something wrong, avoiding her eyes in a panic.

"Xiao Shao, I..." / "How is he now?" Du Qingshao didn't want to get angry with her, so he restrained his tone and interrupted mercilessly.

Shen Huilan's eyes flickered, she seemed a little surprised: "He's fine, the doctor gave him medicine and he's resting."

After being in the business field for a long time, her words always revealed a calm and calm, but at this moment, it was extremely harsh to Du Qingshao's ears.He suppressed all the anger in his heart and gently pushed open the door of the ward.

Luo Ming fell asleep, only a ring of golden hair was exposed under the snow-white quilt.The oxygen mask was covered with uniform white mist, but it couldn't make Du Qingshao feel at ease.

He sat in front of the window and looked at the messy hair on Luo Ming's forehead, the slightly raised eyelashes, every tiny arc made his heart burn.

Finally, after watching for a few minutes, he couldn't help but reach out and rub the soft hair.Luo Ming's hair is dense and thin, and it feels good when poked in the palm of his hand, a bit like stroking a cat.But Du Qingshao didn't dare to act recklessly, for fear of waking him up, he carefully brushed away his messy bangs with his fingers, blotted the fine sweat on his forehead with a paper towel, and was so focused that he even breathed much less.

This was the first time he hoped that Luo Ming would lie down for a while longer and not wake up so quickly.

The moment the thought flashed through his mind, something suddenly poked his palm.He withdrew his hands, his lowered eyes were facing Luo Ming's barely opened eyelids.

The two looked at each other without warning.

Du Qingshao let go of his hands at a loss, and the hot towel slammed on Luo Ming's face.But he didn't respond to this, just staring at him with sleepy eyes with difficulty.

"Are you awake?" He quickly picked up the towel and threw it into the washbasin.

Luo Ming just looked along where he was sitting, and there was no movement for a long time, almost making Du Qingshao wonder if he couldn't hear what he was saying clearly.

He turned his head and locked his eyes on the butler standing aside.

"The young master was emotionally unstable before, and he was injected with a tranquilizer. Maybe now... the reaction is a little slow."

"Why do you only give him injections every time you get sick?" Du Qingshao recalled the mode of getting along with him, and asked sharply, "His condition is not so serious that it can't be comforted at all!"

"..." The other party fell silent.

It was only then that Du Qingshao vaguely figured out what Luo Ming meant by "longing for respect" before, recorded this account in his heart, and took his hand and squeezed it gently into the palm of his hand.

He didn't appreciate it, and avoided his hand with all his strength.Due to the medication, he was stuck in the bed and could barely exert any strength, but his consciousness was still clear.

Like Du Qingshao, he didn't know how to face him.

He is angry?The soft force made a sharp stroke in Du Qingshao's heart.He hastened to give in, leaned over and whispered in his ear, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have kept it from you."

When he stood up again, Luo Ming's eye sockets were already flushed.

Du Qingshao's breathing was stagnant, the words of apology were stuck in his throat, and his hands were hanging in the air.

"Why..." Luo Ming squeezed out a few syllables, but couldn't make a sound.That was the first time he saw Du Qingshao's bewildered expression. Even if he was injured or lost a game, he had never been so dazed.

Luo Ming knew that now he should persuade himself to calm down, and then calmly think about countermeasures like his lover and his teacher. Unreasonable fear and cowardice will only make him more distracted and the scene more chaotic.But he still couldn't control his collapsed emotions, desperately trying to make a sound, he was so suddenly gasped by the oxygen mask, he turned sideways and coughed uncomfortably.

"Calm down, I can hear what you want to say." Du Qingshao hugged his slanted body and slowly pressed him back into the bed, while raising his hand to remove the oxygen mask, "If you want to talk, take your time .”

Luo Ming didn't want to make any more trouble, so he gave up making eye contact, and buried himself in the pillow sideways.After a while, he managed to gather enough strength to speak, and asked, "Do you feel uncomfortable during the competition?"

"Actually, it's okay, that's the second half of the free skating..." Du Qingshao was upset, and accidentally jumped out the truth. He was so frightened that his voice fell silent in an instant, and he quickly added the second half of the sentence, "The second half of... Feel a little tired."

After finishing speaking, he felt guilty and rubbed Luo Ming's head through the quilt.

"What exactly is the cause?"

Du Qingshao frowned upon hearing the words: "...It's hard to say. Anyway, it's not myocarditis or heart disease, it's just jumping faster than normal people, and generally you don't need to take medicine. But don't worry, I will go for a physical examination every month."

"What's the use of a physical examination?" Luo Ming raised his voice, "You don't understand your illness at all, so how can you recover?"

I don't know where the lesion is; what medicine to take, I don't know; Luo Ming feels desperate for his ignorant attitude.Heart problems are no joke. I don’t know how many athletes have died suddenly on the court over the years. If this kind of thing really happens...

He didn't dare to think about it any more, and at the end of the sentence, he didn't dare to cry a little bit.He bit his lower lip hard, trying to suppress the crying in his throat, leaving only a blush around his eyes.

The long and narrow phoenix eyes are slightly smudged by tears, as if someone clumsily painted a line of cinnabar eye shadow, which is obviously messy, but beautiful.

Du Qingshao looked at him from the corner of his eye, and his breathing gradually became hot.Obviously before, he looked down on the crying big man the most, but in front of this guy, all the principles were completely shattered.He couldn't see Luo Ming crying, he couldn't see him holding back even though he was scared.

His heart has long been melted by the passionate love that had eaten the forbidden fruit for the first time.

The hand fell again.Du Qingshao rubbed Luo Ming's hair and rolled up the messy hairs at the ends of his hair: "I promise you, I will never make fun of my life. If I feel unwell during the game, I will immediately ask to stop the game. If you are worried You don’t have to come to watch my game, just close your eyes and count for 240 seconds, and wait for me to come back.”

"Don't you want the gold medal?" Luo Ming avoided him.

"The gold medal...is not as important as you, nor is it as important as my health." He sighed resignedly, sat on the head of the bed with his chin resting, as if talking to himself, and said vaguely, "Actually, I know this question will shorten my life." In my sports career, I also considered retiring after winning the first gold medal in the adult group. After all, besides skating, I also like mathematics and finance."

Luo Ming blurted out in surprise when he heard the words: "What are you talking about!?"

"I'm telling the truth. I really like and yearn for the life of ordinary people..."

However, when it comes to the three words of ordinary people, the strings in Du Qingshao's mind are completely broken.

He couldn't make it up, he really couldn't make it up.

It is precisely because of his desire to be extraordinary and the hope that Du Qingshao's name can be engraved in the memory of people all over the world that he can survive countless difficult days and nights.The word "giving up" is not in his dictionary, even when facing Luo Ming.

Since ancient times, no one has ever ridiculed a soldier lying drunk on the battlefield, but now the ice is his battlefield.Immortality is the self-consciousness and accomplishment that he should have as a fighter.

He didn't want to stay by Luo Ming's side for one more second, and promise a lie that was impossible to keep.The moment he slammed the door out, there was only anger in his heart.

"Shen Huilan!" His mother's name rang out in the corridor, and he pointed at the ward and cursed, "Look at what you've done!"

Shen Huili was ashamed by her son's furious questioning: "I'm sorry,... Mom didn't know he had anxiety disorder before."

"No, you know." Du Qingshao interrupted decisively, "We are mother and son, and I am very familiar with every look in your eyes. You just want to use him and use our relationship to achieve your goal."

"Xiao Shao..."

"Don't shout so affectionately, you can't bear this responsibility at all." He clenched his hands into fists beside him, "I have never complained about you since I was a child, because I know you want to make more money to live your life I feel comfortable. So I have been working hard to learn the knowledge of university, cooking and housework ahead of time, just to take better care of myself without your company, so as to avoid the tragedy of that day from happening again. But why did you refuse to do it in the end? Let us go?"

But thinking of Luo Ming who was still lying in the ward, and thinking of every detail of how he had to stand with him on the sidelines while dragging his sick body, all of Du Qingshao's calmness collapsed like mountains and seas.His speaking speed was getting faster and faster, and he asked questions step by step, until a certain moment——

The heart throbbed without warning.

"Cough cough." He pretended to cough and sat down on the bench in the corridor.

Seeing this, the team doctor immediately rushed forward to support him: "Are you all right? Calm down."

"I can't calm down, because there is no solution to this matter at all." He sat on the chair with his chest folded, pressed his throbbing chest, and breathed a little relief.

Just like a Mobius ring, from the moment Shen Huili opened her mouth, everyone fell into an endless loop.

In the ward, listening to the noisy quarrels outside, Luo Ming finally couldn't suppress the anxiety and self-blame in his heart, and cried aloud under the quilt.

Nails dug into flesh.He knew that he would eventually become Du Qingshao's... a burden.