in the center of the universe

Ma Qianjia was stunned at the door, shaking the plastic bag in his hand, his palms were sweaty.

"How did you get in here?"

Guan Zang looked up at him and smiled, "It's not difficult." Then he lowered his head and stroked the cat's back, "You've raised it so well, it still knows me. Okay little cat, let's go down, I've held you for a long time."

The cat is reluctantly driven off its knees.Guan Zang stood up and walked towards him, Ma Qianjia took a step back and slammed his back against the door.

Guan Zang took the things in his hand, looked at them, and said, "That's how bachelors are. You can deal with it by yourself. It's not good for your health." Putting it on the tea table for him, he asked, "Why don't you come in?"

Ma Qianjia swallowed his saliva, changed his slippers, opened the dining table and chairs and sat down.

Guan Zang paced slowly in the room, picked up the photo frame on the table and said, "You still have the photo with my mother, how many years has it been?" Gently wiped his mother's face with his fingertips: "My mother It's so pretty, my sister looks a lot like her."

Ma Qianjia quietly wiped off the sweat from his hands on his pants, "You are also very similar to her."

"where?"

Ma Qian's family didn't answer, so Guan Zang asked and answered, "I know, it's similar everywhere." The cat came to look for Guan Zang again, and rubbed a pile of cat hair against his trouser legs. Guan Zang had no choice but to hug him again.

"Uncle Ma, I trust you very much, and I have always listened to you since I was a child. I really treat you as a father, so I am willing to cooperate with you and share beautiful news with you." Guan Zang listened to the cat purring on his shoulder. , moved his ears closer to listen, "It's not for you to investigate Meimei."

The only sound in the room was the purring of the cat.

"I know you've been asking about him these days. Whether it's for grandpa or me, I'm not very happy. Uncle Ma, I've never had such a good time. I don't think anyone is qualified to decide whether I can enjoy this This kind of pleasure—my grandfather can’t either. Isn’t it, Uncle Ma?” The cat buried its face on the side of Guan Zang’s neck, and he happily helped it scratch its chin.

"Guan Zang, your family is not an ordinary family, and you are not an ordinary person either."

After holding back for a long time, Ma Qianjia squeezed out such a sentence.

Guan Zang smiled: "Before you told me: Guan Zang, you are an ordinary person. Now you tell me that you are not an ordinary person. Which sentence should I listen to?"

Ma Qianjia was speechless.

"Or what you want to say is not ordinary, but 'normal'?" Guan Zang looked down at the cat's eyes, scratched its forehead and asked it: "Do you think so?"

"You have always been a normal person! A normal ordinary person!" Ma Qianjia was suddenly excited, and he didn't know why.

Guan Zang rested the tip of his chin on the cat's head, and couldn't help laughing.Bend down to let the cat jump off his arm, sat across from Ma Qian's house, and comforted him with some helplessness: "Okay, I am what I am, and I didn't say I was not."

He leaned close to Ma Qianjia's ear and whispered: "Uncle Ma, tell my grandfather: don't be too anxious, my research is just beginning. I must have time to prepare, I don't want to be too hasty."

Ma Qianjia stared straight ahead with his eyes wide open, not speaking.

Guan Zang patted the back of his hand, stood up and went to the door to change his shoes: "Okay, I'm going back." The cat came again, and he patted the cat's back reluctantly, and said, "By the way, Uncle Ma, I'll buy it." A few pieces of marinated chicken livers are in your refrigerator, Meimei said they are delicious, suitable for drinking."

Ma Qianjia nodded, watched him say "goodbye" to the cat, and said without end before closing the door: "Also, don't always put the keys in the coat pocket."

Through the door, I heard the sound of the old elevator switching.

Ma Qianjia took a deep breath, took out the white wine from the plastic bag, unscrewed it, took a big gulp, and choked up tears.Shivering all over, he found that the back of his shirt was soaked.Reaching out to touch the inner pocket of the coat, the key is still there.He collected himself, opened his notebook to look at the information, and it was still there; he searched the house all over, went downstairs and opened the car to check inside and out, but found nothing.I drove to the maintenance center, removed everything that could be disassembled and cleaned it, and replaced the driving recorder with a new one.

Sure enough, there were several pieces of marinated chicken livers in the refrigerator, wrapped in plastic bags.Ma Qianjia directly opened the packaging bag and took a bite. It was very fragrant and a little salty for drinking, but he didn't care.Sitting in front of the notebook with wine and marinated chicken liver, he opened the recording folder of the last two months, and listened to it while eating.

September 9th - 15:8pm:

"You feel very different today, has something happened?"

"Uncle Ma, I'm very happy. I met someone who attracts me very much."

"Oh, how attractive are you? This is the first time I've heard you describe a person like that."

"I have a desire for him."

"..."

"Surprised? I was surprised too."

"Can you tell me what kind of desire it is?"

"Touch, enter, taste his desire."

"Like what you've 'been doing before'?"

"Yes."

"Can you describe her to me?"

"Very cute, lively and beautiful. By the way, his name is Meimei."

"Meimei, is that all?"

"Alive, exuberant life—I like it, very, very much."

"Can you tell me in detail?"

"He danced in the funeral acting class. He wore a red jacket and a little skirt, like a little flame. I like the way he looks at people and the vibe he gives off."

"What look, what atmosphere?"

"The eyes that will never reconcile with this world, the atmosphere that it is best for everyone to go to hell together, he allows me to touch his stomach, smiles very sweetly, but his eyes are saying 'Why don't you die, pervert', haha, It's cute, isn't it?"

"She allowed you to touch her?"

"Yes, for a fee. But only on the abdomen. Too bad, I want to touch other places."

September 9 - 22:2am:

"Tell me, why did you appear in such a small hotel that slaughters people?"

"Hahaha, very interesting."

"Interesting? You think it's interesting to be cheated out of your pocket and go home without money?"

"Don't be angry, Uncle Ma, you are beautiful and smart, aren't you?"

"She lied to you several times and took you for a fool. Are you really not angry at all?"

"Why are you angry? I'm a fool in front of him, and he's happy to let me approach me."

"I've only seen her a few times. Are you too obsessed with her?"

"A gold digger found a piece of gold. Do you think he would be overjoyed? Uncle Ma has no desires, so he doesn't quite understand this feeling."

"You mean, she is your dream, the embodiment of desire?"

"You got Uncle Ma wrong, you should say: I only found out that I have desires when I met him."

"..."

"Don't worry, I know how to control myself—by the way, Uncle Ma, can you borrow a car for me so that you won't have to pick me up next time."

September 9 - 29:3pm:

"Can you tell me how you feel right now?"

"..."

"Are you remembering?"

"Yes, it's so beautiful, it's too beautiful to describe. The touch and temperature of the skin, every pore, every hair, every breath reveals vigorous and powerful vitality. Do you know Uncle Ma? His heartbeat, pulse , so strong that it seems to be able to penetrate my whole body!"

"What you are obsessed with is her vitality, vitality, can you understand it this way?"

"It should be said that it is his energy, and life should be like this.

"How do you touch her? Like you did 'before'?"

"Yes, I put my palm on his heart. You know, I like to hear the beating of the heart. I want to feel it stronger, so I want to be closer to it."

"Didn't she struggle? I understand it's a bit of a pain to do that, it's hard to breathe."

"No, he's been watching me. I think he's planning to see what I'm going to do. He's not afraid. He's watching me."

"Maybe she just has a preference in this area?"

"No, he doesn't like it. As I said, I'm abnormal in his eyes."

"do you mind?"

"Why do you mind? Is there anything to mind?"

"Then...she doesn't mind your behavior, why do you think that is?"

"Money, or whatever, I don't know, and I don't care."

"As far as I know, you are very strict with desire, especially sex. Is this why you refuse to have further activities with her?"

"I like to eat my favorite things last. The process of anticipation will enhance the pleasure of tasting, don't you think so?"

"...so you won't say no to sex?"

"To be correct, I will not refuse sex with him, and even start to look forward to it."

October 10th - 7:10 a.m. (surgical ward):

"Does your wound still hurt?"

"It hurts, but it's okay. I'm sorry to trouble you, Uncle Ma, please ask Teacher Kong for leave for me."

"Guan Zang, you really surprised me, because you paid such a high price, I can't explain it to your grandpa."

"There's no need to explain, isn't it already resolved? They just want money."

"That's not the reason, Guan Zang! This time I was slightly injured, what about the next time? What about the next time?"

"Hahahaha, it's not his fault, Uncle Ma, I did it voluntarily. He called me 'husband', so I just wanted to behave better."

"It's obvious that she is just trying to drag you into the water to get herself out, you can't tell the difference, can you?"

"So what, besides, those who speak badly should have been beaten."

"So she knocked someone's head off because of it. Don't you care about such violence at all?"

"This is his charm, like a small bomb, isn't it, hahahaha! Uncle Ma, I really want to see him, I should leave his phone number!"

September 10th - 17:9pm:

"Does your neck still hurt?"

"The tongue hurts too. I made him angry, hahaha."

"He doesn't want to see you anymore, does he?"

"I'm talking too much. It's my fault. I will ask him to forgive me. But he can't escape me, and I will find him."

"What do you know about her?"

"Sorry Uncle Ma, I won't tell you, I promised him."

"..."

"I never hide my affairs from you, but I can't hide other people's affairs. I'm sorry."

"Guan Zang, she didn't hesitate when she chopped you up, did she?"

"Yes Yes!"

"She's violent, and you're obsessed with her violence."

"You're mistaken again, Uncle Ma. As I said, I'm obsessed with his energy. Uncle Ma, he's not a gold nugget, he's a gold mine! It's my treasure!"

"You once said that you know how to control yourself, do you still think so now?"

"No, I failed, Uncle Ma. He will always, always, and always exceed my imagination. The desire for him is always hitting my self-control. I don't want to bear it anymore!"

October 10 - Phone:

"Guan Zang, are you still looking for her?"

"Well, of course."

"She is avoiding you and doesn't want to see you. Why don't you just let it go?"

"I said, he is my treasure. No one will let the treasure go."

October 10 - Phone:

"You haven't been to class for several days, Guan Zang, it's really inappropriate."

"I know, I will go after I find Meimei."

"You're too attached to her, it's not good for you!"

"What's wrong? I'm very happy now, shouldn't I be happy?"

Ma Qianjia heard the last sentence: "Shouldn't I be happy?" He reached out and picked up the photo frame on the table.

The woman in a printed dress held up her skirt and smiled warmly. The young Ma Qianjia looked at the camera cautiously and quietly tilted her head to her side.

"Doctor Ma, shouldn't I be happy?" Before taking this picture, she asked him, "Am I guilty of being happy?"