Cyber ​​robbery

When Luo Lin was distracted, I immediately broke free from his arm.He looked at me in a daze as I fled to Roja's side, and Roja hid in the quilt and laughed secretly. "Ah Feng is shy~~"

I tugged at the corners of my mouth, I didn't want them to see my panic, just think I'm shy...

On the way back to the hospital, I hugged Roya all the time. Even after entering the hospital, Luo Lin wanted Roya to sit in a wheelchair, but I refused.Of course Roja was very happy, he kept his arms around my neck, and I had all the more reason to carry him back to the ward.I don't want to give Luo Lin any more space to approach me...

After placing Roja and waiting for Dr. Pan to finish his examination, except for a little fatigue, Roja's spirit is still good.I was standing by the bed, Luo Lin leaned over, I was a little sensitive and wanted to step aside.

I turned around and walked to the water dispenser without a trace, and poured a glass of water.Luo Lin glanced at me, but he didn't have any complaints. He sat by the bed and talked with Luo Ya.

I must... leave...

After Roja fell asleep, Luo Lin immediately followed me into the room.

He gently hugged my waist from behind, and I tried to break away awkwardly, but he hugged me even tighter.He whispered in my ear: "You haven't given me the answer to the question at noon yet."

My face changed slightly, but fortunately he was hugging me from behind and couldn't see my expression.I tried to use a relaxed tone and said to him: "Now is not the time to talk about this kind of issue. Let's think about it carefully after Xiaoya's operation is completed, okay?"

Luo Lin turned my body to face him, and he looked at me seriously. "I just want an answer, is it difficult?"

I want to run away again.But no, I can't show my fear in front of him.I quickly closed my eyes and sighed softly, "Give me some time, okay?"

Although I closed my eyes, I could feel his scorching gaze never leaving my face.Finally, I heard his disappointed voice.

"Okay. I'll give you time. As soon as Xiaoya's operation is completed, I hope you can give me a complete answer."

"Thank you." I said sincerely.I breathed a sigh of relief in my heart, and put my head on his chest, I didn't want to face his face.unable to face...

In the evening, we received a gift from the United States.At first, we thought it was from Roja's mother, but Roja said that his mother had sent him the gift two days ago.Therefore, we suspect that this gift may only be sent by another person.

Roja opened the box and saw the beautiful patchwork teddy bear and the handwritten card inside.

"It's the second brother..." Roja held the card, tears falling on Little Bear's body. "Is he in America..."

"Don't cry. Your second brother will give you a gift, doesn't that mean your second brother is doing well now?" Wiping his tears away, I could only comfort him softly.

"Brother, the second brother is in the United States. He must be in the United States. Can you go find him and come back? Brother...third brother..." Luo Ya grabbed the hands of his two brothers and kept begging.

Luo Lin pressed Roja's hand, frowning. "Xiaoya, it's not that the elder brother doesn't want to find him back. If your second elder brother behaves according to his behavior, it is absolutely impossible for him to let us know his whereabouts so easily. He must not be in the United States now."

"But..." Roja looked at the gift in his arms, but still didn't understand.

"Xiaoya, elder brother is right. This gift can be sent from another place, and I don't think second elder brother would be so stupid as to let mother catch him by revealing his whereabouts so easily." Luo Hu explained.

"Is this really the case..." Roja still couldn't quite believe what his brothers said, but he knew that they wouldn't lie to him.Therefore, he chose to remain silent.

After leaving Roja's room, I grabbed Luo Lin and asked. "Royle is really not in the United States? Your mother really pushed him to this point?"

Luo Lin frowned and nodded.

"...Family love is nothing more than that..."

My heart throbbed uncontrollably.It made me think of my own home, my own parents.Who is persecuting whom...

"Ah Feng, don't think too much."

Obviously, Luo Lin saw my emotions, and I could barely give him a not-so-good-looking smile.I can only change the subject.

"Has the date of Xiaoya's surgery been decided?"

"It's decided. In ten days."

"Ten days...then there are a lot of things to prepare..."

"Yes. I've been running all day today, so you should rest earlier."

He leaned over and wanted to kiss my mouth, but I leaned slightly and kissed my face. I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at him directly.He smiled and said, "There's no one here, why are you shy."

I looked up at him, smiled without answering, pushed him to the door, and said "good night" softly.

After closing the door and leaning against the door panel, I really wanted to throw off all the masks and let myself vent happily, but I couldn't.Because, there are monitors everywhere...

I walked into the bathroom expressionlessly, took off my clothes, and stood under the shower head, letting the cold water wash over my troubled mind, and let the tears flow away with the cold water.

In the days that followed, I tried my best not to reveal my inner anxiety and struggle, and let myself appear more relaxed.

I can smile and let Luo Lin kiss my face, I can smile and listen to him saying that he seems to be inseparable from me more and more, I can smile and feel his warm embrace...

But I can't... I can't smile and say, "I'd like to stay with you..."

I have to leave, I can't stay by his side anymore.I'm bound to sink, and I know if I don't stop myself, I won't be able to do without his tenderness, his thoughtfulness, his everything.I can not……

"Feng?"

Luo Lin's voice suddenly came from behind, and the water glass I was holding almost fell to the ground in fright.

"What are you in a daze for? You've been standing here for quite a while."

"Ah... no, it's nothing..." I was a little flustered, trying to hide my uneasiness, and turned my head to leave.

"What's wrong?" Luo Lin grabbed my hand and turned me to face him. "You don't seem to be in a particularly good spirit these days. Are you feeling unwell?"

"No. I'm fine." Gently pushing away his hand, keeping a little distance from him without any trace, I smiled and said, "Don't think about it, I'm just a little worried about Xiaoya's operation two days later." Putting the glass on the table, I knew he didn't suspect anything else of my uneasiness.

Luo Lin came to me, hugged me, and kissed my hair. "Don't worry, it will be fine."

I froze, but still smiled. "Yes, it will be fine, it will be fine..."

Roja's situation has been maintained in the best condition.His spirits are good and he has a lot of confidence in himself.

On the short way into the operating room, I held his left hand, and Luo Lin held his right hand. The three of them looked at each other and smiled.Roja took the hands of my brother and me, and gently put them together.

"happiness."

Roja's smile disappeared behind the closed operating door, and his hand, and mine, were inseparable.

Luo Lin wrapped my fingers tightly, and there were thousands of emotions flowing in his eyes.I know, but I can't bear it...

I really want to break free from his hand, but my heart greedily absorbs his warmth.Tears welled up in my eyes, but I held back.

happiness……

I don't need now...

More than ten hours.From ten o'clock in the morning to eight o'clock in the evening, nearly eleven hours of surgery, we seem to have waited as long as a century.

This time, the situation is different from last time.Even though I was thinking of leaving...

Feeling the warmth of Luo Lin's embrace, listening to his strong heartbeat.

It's time to leave... This shouldn't belong in my arms...

Looking up, I saw Luo Lin looking at me with gentle eyes.

Thank you for so much tenderness, so much thoughtfulness, so much love.

thanks……

I know I'm conflicted, I know I'm cowardly.The current me is not good enough for you, Luo Lin.

Although I am leaning in your arms now, you are still so far away from me...

I know you can feel it, so you always try your best to bring our relationship closer.I know it, I know it all.

You always work so hard, but I can't be like you.

Luo Lin...

Right now, I'm really powerless...

Whether it's your family, or my family.

I can't do anything to change anything.I can't, I haven't had the slightest chance to try.I don't have a chance...

please forgive me……

Give him back the gentlest smile I want to show him from the bottom of my heart.

Forgive me for leaving...

The operation was a success.This is to be expected.In addition, Roja's physical strength has recovered to a very good level, so the postoperative results are very satisfactory.

The next few days are a busy recovery period.Luo Lin's work is now in a period of adjustment, and Luo Hu's mother went to the United States, and Luo Lei is not there, so he must now be responsible for all the affairs of his mother's parent company in Malaysia.So both of them are in a very busy period after Roja's surgery.Therefore, the burden of taking care of Roja is almost entirely on me.

Although a little tired, I feel pretty good.At least, I can spend my mind on Roja without having to think about those things and feel sad.

Luo Ya's mother, Luo Wenqing, did not appear before and after Luo Ya's operation.After learning about the situation with Luo Lin through a few phone calls, he seldom said anything.I can't understand her behavior, but Roja and the others seem to be used to it.After Luo Ya listened to what Luo Lin conveyed for his mother, he just smiled quietly.I was worried that he would be sad, but he came to comfort me instead, always smiling and saying "it's okay".

During this period, Luo Lin also had less time to stay by my side.His company is very busy, listening to his tone, it seems that the company is undergoing some reform.He said that he would take advantage of this time to make a good change in his direction.I have no interest in his company at all, so I never interfere in his affairs.After he came to the hospital to see Roja, he often went to my room to catch up on sleep, but we rarely had time to get bored together.He just sometimes secretly hugged me from behind, gave me a superficial kiss, and then hurried back to the company.

I would often be so frightened by him that I would cover my chest with a racing heart and watch his back as he walked away in a daze.

That's good...so there will be less intersection...

Roja's recovery is going well.

During the recovery period of more than ten days, the occasional shortness of breath and chest tightness have basically disappeared, and the symptoms of asthma are expected to be greatly improved.And his physical strength is slowly recovering, and his mental condition is getting better and better.His pale face gradually turned a little red, and the cyanosis on his lips had completely receded.The current Roja, apart from looking thinner, is not much different from an ordinary healthy child.

His spirit has improved a lot, and he often lies on the bed and pesters me to chat with him.

He likes to listen to me talking about the outside world, and he always has endless questions, always pestering me to answer his questions one by one, if the answer does not satisfy him, he will frown and curl his lips, with a bitter face Mutually.Sometimes I really can't stand his questions, so I can only go to Dr. Pan to borrow his computer to look up information on the Internet.

Life is considered easy, Roja's situation is also gratifying, everything is moving in a good direction.

Only I...hesitating...

"Feng? Feng?!"

Roja's voice suddenly entered my ears, and I suddenly came back to my senses, only to find that I was in a daze again.

"Feng, are you okay?" Roja looked at me worriedly.

I hurriedly shook my head and comforted him with a smile: "I'm fine."

"You don't look very good, are you too tired?" He still looked at me worriedly, and held my hand tightly. "Do you want to rest?"

"Maybe a little..."

rest?When I heard this sentence, I suddenly thought that this may or may not be a good opportunity.Maybe... I can take this opportunity to... leave...

"Are you really tired? Isn't it very hard?! You've been taking care of me recently, and you haven't been able to take a good rest! This must be what made you so tired, it must be! I... I'll call my elder brother, you Go rest, okay?"

When Roja heard that I was tired, he was very worried and tried to push me to rest.I smiled and comforted him and said, "You don't have to be so nervous. It's okay, it's just a little tired, it's not a big deal, just get some sleep and you'll be fine. Don't be nervous."

"But you really don't look very good recently, and you are often in a daze. You must be too tired! It's all because you have to take care of me... It makes Ah Feng so tired..."

"No, don't think about it. It's really all right, I have other things..."

"Other things? What is it? Can you tell me? Ah Feng, does it bother you?"

"It's not very troublesome... a little bit..."

"what is it then?"

"It's your elder brother... Didn't you hear all that day? Your elder brother has been urging me to give him an answer...but I haven't figured out how to answer him..."

"Ah~~? Is it difficult? Don't you, Afeng, also like my elder brother? Wouldn't it be fine if you promised?" Roja said with a disapproving smile when he heard it.

"But... I think it's better to be more cautious..."

Did not dare to look directly at Roja's face.Forgive me for lying to you, Xiaoya. . . . . .

"Is that so... is that why you've been bothered?"

"That's right." I laughed weakly.Indeed it is. . .I don't know how to face the current Luo Lin with this mentality.

"So have you decided what to do?"

I shook my head and said, "I haven't been able to figure out how to talk to your brother. Before, it was because of your body and your elder brother is very busy, so I haven't been able to find a chance to talk about it. Now... .Your body is already very stable, and I feel relieved a lot. No matter what happens in the future, with your current situation, you should be able to control your emotions, right?"

"Well! I'm much better now. So Afeng don't have to worry about me, I'm much stronger than before!" As if to show how healthy he is, Roja stretched out his hand, clenched it into a fist and squeezed it tightly show me.

I looked at Roja with satisfaction and smiled. "That's right, now little Ya is healthier and stronger than before. In the future, he can live well and work hard on his own, right?"

"Of course!! I can rely on myself!" Roja smiled so innocently.

"That's great. This way I don't have to worry about Xiaoya anymore. The only thing I worry about is Xiaoya. Now that Xiaoya is so healthy, I can finally be completely relieved. I believe Xiaoya will get better and better in the future."

With infinite emotion, I hugged Roja and held on for a long time.

I can finally leave now with peace of mind. . . . . .

"Ah Feng? What's wrong with you? It's so strange to talk today."

"No. Hehe~ I just feel that Xiaoya is becoming more and more like an adult now. Hehe~"

"Really?" Roja asked with a smile.

"Yes. So, can you take care of yourself now? I'll call your elder brother to come over to accompany you in a while. I'll go to rest first, okay?"

"Of course! I can. Even if my elder brother doesn't come, I can take care of myself."

"Well! Then I can go to bed with peace of mind!"

"Don't worry! Ah Feng, go quickly."

Smiling and kissing his forehead, his face, his lips.

"I love you." And, bye...

"I love you too."

Bye now.Roja, Luo Lin... and everything here...

I don't belong here, and this doesn't belong to me.

So, goodbye...

Place the farewell letter by your bedside.I didn't bring anything, only my passport, identity card, and a group photo of the three of them when they were playing that day.

Goodbye……

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