How to face the past calmly

Well, especially Ravenclaw.

James used his special way of praise to give Snape a high evaluation: "A strong smell of clothes and beasts hits my face."

"It's done." Sirius was very satisfied with his finishing touch.

"Why do I find the glasses so familiar?" Lucius looked at Snape thoughtfully.

"Because it's yours, or do you think I'm the kind of person who pretends to wear a pair of glasses even if I'm not near-sighted?" Sirius replied not to mention being sincere.

Lucius gritted his teeth: "I'm so sorry, I'm the kind of person who likes to pretend to wear glasses without myopia!"

Alphard and Snape looked at each other and smiled, watching Sirius being given a tarantella dance by Lucius, and began to dance wildly with his legs and feet uncontrollable.

And then Sirius danced all the way to the Slytherin common room which was turned into a dance hall again.

Whenever someone looked at him, Sirius would always stare back viciously: "What? Haven't you seen someone dressed as a hellhound who loves to dance tarantella?!"

Tarentella is both a mischievous spell and an Italian folk dance known for its upbeat rhythm and varied leg movements.

This out-of-the-ordinary knowledge came from Liszt's explanation to him in Alphard's memory.That was the first time Alphard saw the young Liszt, with a cynical smirk on the corner of his lips, his violet eyes were both passionate and ruthless, and he always looked like a rich young man who had nothing to worry about, he said to Alphard The first sentence is: "You are as beautiful as a painting, do you mind being my model?"

Liszt also said this to many people, and with this impression, more fragments of Liszt's past began to appear in Alphard's mind.

The newly transferred aristocrat quickly got his first girlfriend, second girlfriend, and Nth girlfriend, and finally successfully overwhelmed Abraxas to board Hogwarts in the fifth grade. No. [-] on the list of sons, his best record is to maintain ambiguous relationships with eight women at the same time within a week.

Liszt even dated Alphard's cousin Lucretia for a while, but they soon broke up amicably.

In Lucretia's words, Liszt would definitely not be a good marriage partner, but he is a good lover, he can play well, knows how to play, and no one needs to be responsible for each other. Who didn't like this when they were young? How about a sense of freedom?

Probably because of Liszt's playful attitude, almost no one thinks that he will seriously fall in love with someone.

Including Alphard in memory.

That's why Mr. Borroux insisted that Liszt led Alphard badly. In the Vanity Fair of Playboy, there are always sluts from generation to generation, each leading the way for decades.Liszt replaced Abraxas of Bad Infamy, and Alphard replaced Liszt.

Back in reality, the Slytherin common room had completely changed. If Alphard hadn't known the destination early in the morning, he felt that even if someone told him that it was a famous palace ballroom, he would not doubt it.

The gleaming marble floors, resplendent decorations, exquisite snacks, and delicious drinks no longer show that "I am expensive, I am luxurious, and I am a great ball that ordinary people can't hold in their lifetimes." "Such similar information intimidates bystanders and honors participants.

This is Slytherin, born noble and graceful.

Standing under the crystal chandelier, Voldemort didn't need any embellishments, he had already become the focus of the audience, dominating the world.

Chapter 28 The World's No.20 Eight Times of Malice: The Legendary Dark Lord's Dance Partner Is a Hot Topic

At this time, Voldemort is surrounded by many high-end people who look completely different from the campus painting style. It is said that these are former alumni who were invited to attend, but it is obvious that they are not going back to Hogwarts to miss their lost youth, but just want to go back to Hogwarts. To seize the second spring of their careers - Voldemort.

The heirs of the Slytherin seniors, who used to have high eyesight, are also trying to fit into this small circle that looks tall at first glance, flattering every word of conversation, including punctuation marks.They were willing to bow their proud necks for Voldemort, and guarded him devoutly, as if he was the Lord who could rule over them all, and was their only faith in this life.What's even more amazing is that no one thinks this is wrong.

In our life, we will always meet a few people who have the aura of the leader, which will make you or others madly greet everyone around you (approximately equal to selling, brainwashing) him, and pull people into the religion.

This will only lead to two results, first, to really join the religion and worship the leader together; second, to be extremely disgusted with the leader who has been amlied continuously, even if the leader has actually done nothing. (PS: If it is really difficult to understand, you can replace it with a very famous author, or a very popular novel. Some people regard it as a classic, but some people even feel physical disgust when they see the name.)

In the original book, the grown-up Sirius obviously belongs to the second situation. When the whole family adored Voldemort extremely fanatically, he rebelliously chose the completely opposite belief from his family.

If someone dared to say that it wasn't rebellion, but that they had the right beliefs in their hearts. After all, the Order of the Phoenix was much better than the black Death Eaters, and Alphard would definitely slap that person in the face.At an age when Sirius still takes pleasure in teasing his classmates and attracting girls' attention, do you think he will determine the correct world outlook, outlook on life and values?Where is the brain circuit? !

Compared with the so-called abandoning the dark and turning to the bright, Alphard believes that Sirius was just opposing for the sake of opposing at first, but he accidentally hit and walked into the right team.

But Sirius still couldn't get a good ending, because he was born in Black, which was his lifelong label. When it was rumored that he had betrayed the James and his wife, none of his former friends stood up to speak for him, even in court. He was sentenced to life imprisonment without even asking, because who made him Black.

At this moment, although the first-year Sirius has not shown much rebellious emotion, he is also very unimpressed with Voldemort, so when everyone is looking at Voldemort like a dream, only Sirius is asking Alphard: "Professor Voldemort, what is this costume? A Slytherin student?"

Voldemort was wearing a low-key black robe, with no other decorations except the Slytherin crest on his chest, which was very incongruous with this Halloween ball where demons and ghosts frequently appeared.

"Salazar Slytherin, he played the role of Slytherin, one of the Big Four." Alphard explained.

"...he's so uninspired," James said with Sirius. "Like Snape."

"Student of Ravenclaw" Snape lay down without any pressure, and he even felt a little proud. Being able to be compared with Voldemort was really a treat for a fan of Voldemort like him. It's a great honor.

Alphard silently thought in his heart that it wasn't that Voldemort was as uncreative as Snape, but that when he made excuses for Snape not dressing up, the first thing he thought of was Voldemort back then, and said confidently: "Hogg Watts' school uniform has not changed much in 1000 years, and according to the historical materials I have consulted, the Hogwarts school uniform is inspired by Slytherin, who is known for his aristocratic and elegant, so we have reason to believe that Master Slytherin usually and The students should be dressed similarly."

That sentence blocked his other three little friends, who were speechless and powerless to argue.

Only Alphard complained: "The reason why you suggested that the four of us dress up as the Big Four is not just for your own convenience?!"

Voldemort smiled.

Now, this person who has always tried his best to dress up concisely, once again came out of the arena in a foolish Slytherin costume, and was sought after by everyone. The flattery was so ambiguous that he couldn't bear to look directly at it.

When the time was almost up, the dance finally started. The opening dance was of course started by Voldemort. As for his partner...

All the competing pure-blooded ladies were expecting that person to be themselves, because Voldemort hadn't invited anyone to be his partner for the whole ball before coming.

Alphard and his relatives stood very close to Voldemort to watch the king choose his concubine, taking advantage of Lucius' favor.Then the eyes of the two of them met unexpectedly in the air, even through the mask Voldemort recognized Alphard at a glance, because the familiar female costume had been dreamed countless times.He hooked his lips into a smile, and stepped forward.

Alphard's heart skipped a beat. Although he knew that the possibility of the Dark Lord inviting him was very small, he still wanted to pray to Merlin affectionately, don't choose him, don't choose him, if he becomes popular because of his fetishism All over the pure-blood circle, Walburga would have killed him.

In a daze, Voldemort had already stood still in front of Alphard, and said in a magnetic voice: "Do I have the honor to ask the beautiful lady to dance?"

Fortunately, in the end Voldemort's hand reached out to Narcissa who was beside Alphard, wearing a long silver dress, swaying like a mermaid's long tail.

"Do you mind if I invite your fiancée to the opening dance?" Voldemort said to Lucius with a tilted head and a smile.

Lucius said with trepidation: "This is my honor."

Although Lucius' father and Voldemort are very good friends, Lucius is still very nervous about Voldemort, because he is his idol and the No.1 he has dreamed of since he was a child. Treat Voldemort like an ordinary uncle.Of course, with Voldemort's current status, it is impossible to be equal to an ordinary uncle.

Accompanied by the amazing live (live singing) of the famous band in the magic world, Voldemort and Narcissa danced in the eyes of everyone.

Narcissa tried her best to calm her emotions and not let her dance steps go wrong, for fear that she would become the biggest joke at the biggest dance tonight.

Voldemort put his arms around Narcissa's waist, and chuckled softly: "Don't be nervous, girl, relax, you dance very well, have more confidence in yourself, although you are cute like this, you always remind me of an old friend, but I believe you will be cuter if you are confident."

"Are you thinking about Uncle Al?" Narcissa regretted it after saying this, damn it, why did she choose such a sentence after so many words!Waiting to court death?

Voldemort was not angry, and even replied in a good mood: "No, it's not him, although I really hope it's him, but... maybe you won't believe it after saying this, since Al has been regulated like a textbook since he entered school, He is the best at whatever he does, learning, entertaining and of course dancing."

Voldemort would never tell anyone in his life that Al taught him all the dance steps he knew.

Probably because they had practiced in private for too long, and there was nothing new for each other, which directly led to the fact that Alphard never appeared nervous and clumsy when dancing with Voldemort like the hero and heroine in the novel. , so good that Voldemort even wondered if Alphard never cared about him.

This is the conclusion Voldemort came to after comparing countless dance partners, because no matter how good your dance moves are, when you dance with the person you admire, the kind of too intimate skin-to-skin contact will always make you a little bit unconscious. nervous.

But Alphard will not.

At first Voldemort didn't think it was a problem. It wasn't until after he danced a song with Lucretia and Walburga that he realized that even the two young ladies who are as good as the Black family are somewhat different. So does it mean that Alphard, who is completely opposite to everyone else, is the one with the problem.

Soon, one song ended and a new one began. Voldemort returned Narcissa to Lucius, and invited another red-haired beauty to dance with him. One song after another seemed to be endless.

Everyone also stepped onto the dance floor with their partners, except for Snape, who had disappeared, and the Alphard trio standing by and watching.

No one isolated Alphard this time because of the women's clothing and the exaggerated mask that covered his face, but he didn't dare to dance with anyone casually. If he got too close, he would definitely be exposed.

Sirius and James stayed behind and insisted on being with Alphard, even though he didn't need it.

"How could we really let you go!" Sirius said angrily, "Mom has already told me about the past between you and Voldemort, in case he intentionally messes up tonight and demolishes you, I can still help you. I really don’t understand why he can’t figure it out, you’re no longer the same as you used to be, you’ve lost your memory, why should you carry the things you did in the past that you don’t remember at all It's wrong, it's not fair, you don't have to care about it at all."

"I don't care, really, on the contrary, I think we should pay more attention to your problems than my problems."

"What's wrong with me?" Sirius found that since he got acquainted with Alphard, he was always in need of constant reflection on what he did wrong.

Chapter 29 The World's No.20 Nine Times of Malice: According to the legend, Voldemort's first love was not actually Alphard himself

"What happened in the dormitory just now? Sif is my friend. We will live together for seven years in the future. I hope you can give him the respect he deserves, OK? If it's because James likes Lily, you should If you treat Sif deliberately like this, I will look down on you two, and so will Lily. Love requires fair competition!"

"Lily, you called her Lily, did she agree with you?!" ← This is James whose focus is never on the topic.

"I didn't want to get revenge on Snape because of James! I swear!" Sirius felt that he was wronged, "I've talked to James a long time ago, if I like Lily, I like Lily, but I won't target you because of it Roommate. I've been trying to be nice to him! Can't you see that?"

For example, every time James provoked Snape, he would wisely choose to shut up and not help each other.

"Revealing others' faults is really not a means of showing goodwill." Alphard said to Sirius.

"Exposing the shortcoming?" Sirius frowned, he didn't understand what Alphard meant.

"You didn't notice Snape's family situation, did you?" It was Alphard's turn to express surprise this time.

"You mean!" Sirius finally had an epiphany. He knew that Snape's family was in a bad situation, but he didn't expect that the other party would be so bad that he couldn't even prepare a Halloween costume.

"I just say this once, and I don't want you to say it. For some people, school gowns are their best clothes, but poverty is not his fault, nor is it a means for you to humiliate and criticize each other. , I hope you will always remember what I said today, don't bully the young and poor!"

"It sounds like Uncle, you are quite touched. Have you ever met? Was revenged?" Sirius is always sensitive where it shouldn't be.

"In the memory that I am gradually recovering, yes." When the Dark Lord first met on the Hogwarts Express, the other party was wearing a school uniform, because it was his best clothes as an orphan.

"I don't know, I'll go and apologize to Snape." Sirius is really a young master who is used to living a good life. It's really hard for him to understand the meaning of many things without experiencing it. For example, he knows The word poverty, but he couldn't understand what it meant to be poor.Fortunately, such a Sirius can still listen to other people's words, as long as you patiently explain to him and persuade him with good words, he will try to change himself and not be so self-willed.

"No, trust me, apologizing will only cause secondary harm. And, I'm sorry, I thought you did it on purpose." Alphard was a little embarrassed by his doubts about Sirius, "Okay, don't stand around here Come on, let's go play, I saw that many girls are very interested in your pair of hell dogs."

"but……"

"No but. I personally prefer to stay in the corner and eat. If you are really doing it for my own good, please don't focus other people's attention on me who is feasting."

"OK." The two black-haired teenagers laughed heartily, and then threw themselves into the lively dance party.

Voldemort was standing on the lively and festive dance floor, just in time to see Alphard wandering alone in a foreign dress, especially lonely, outside the crowd, declining one after another who invited him to dance.

I don't know why, Voldemort, who had planned to just leave Alphard alone, softened again. After another song, he let go of the hand of his dance partner, and without inviting anyone, he left the dance floor and walked towards Alphard. come.

"May I speak a little, charming lady?"

This time Voldemort finally spoke to Alphard.

Alphard looked up at Voldemort, wondering what kind of medicine he was selling in his gourd, because according to his inference, Voldemort should definitely not talk to him tonight, the reason, of course, was his female attire.

All of Voldemort's classmates basically knew that Voldemort and Alphard turned from friends to lovers after they entered the fifth grade. Although they didn't intend to publish high-profile newspapers to let the whole world know, they didn't hide their relationship either. Tucked away, you basically know what you should know, and you can know what you don't know if you ask a little bit.So no one suspected that they had been together for a long time without telling everyone, including their three friends.

And the bud of the love affair is Alphard's second-year girl dressed in female attire.

Voldemort wasn't born gay, well, in fact, in the past, Alphard often joked that Voldemort was a cold personality, no matter male or female, he looked the same in his eyes - so he wouldn't be interested (sexually) funny look.

Rather than getting up to exercise, Voldemort obviously prefers to spend the wasted time on magic research. In his own words: "Why do humans have love? Because of hormone attraction. Why do they produce hormones? Because humans need to mate to conceive Offspring, this situation is commonly known as estrus in the animal world. Neither humans nor animals can live forever, so they need to use this method to achieve the original purpose of life extension. But I am different, what I pursue is immortality, What does it matter if there are no descendants?"

Voldemort never imagined that one day, he would be affected by various chemical elements such as phenylethylamine, dopamine, norepinephrine, endorphins, and love hormones, so that he would fall in love with someone at first sight, or fall in love with someone just because of a hug. You can get a sense of security and satisfaction, and indulge in it crazy and obsessively.

But that's how nonsense happened, the moment Voldemort saw Alphard's dress.

At the beginning Voldemort didn't realize it, he just thought that Alphard who danced with him that night was particularly pleasing to the eye, which made him feel blushing and heartbeating. He thought it was the excitement caused by drinking too much fruit wine that night, But it wasn't until he dreamed of the women's version of Alphard every night that he realized that it wasn't the effect of alcohol, nor was it intoxicated, he was just... just, if Alphard was a girl, he would definitely want him to be him girlfriend.

This kind of thinking reached its peak when Voldemort had his first wet dream in the third year because he dreamed of Alphard's women's clothing.

For this reason, Voldemort even tried to alienate Alphard for a while, because he felt that he was a pervert. Although he was used to being called a devil by the nuns in the orphanage, he would not be used to being a pervert, a crazy hope. My friend is a woman, and then they can be abnormal together.He was terrified that Alphard would hate him if he knew what he thought.

So Voldemort tried to have an affair with Alphard's black-haired and black-eyed sister Walburga in the third grade for a while, but it was completely useless to quench thirst, and later Voldemort attributed it to Walburga. He chose Lucretia for the reason that Erbuga and Alphard were nothing like each other. Although Lucretia was not black-haired and black-eyed, she had three-quarter resemblance to Alphard, but unfortunately it was still useless.

Not to mention officially dating them, even maintaining an ambiguous relationship was enough to give Voldemort a headache.Later, Walburga and Lucretia fought because of Voldemort, and Voldemort completely ended this chaotic ambiguous relationship.

Although Voldemort actually had nothing to do with them, Lucretia and Walburga still tacitly blamed each other for the failure of their relationship with Voldemort, and their friendship of more than ten years was completely ruined.

The difference between women and men is that men may become friends after a fight, while women may become friends even if they say something wrong.

Alphard had a big fight with Voldemort because of this, but it ended with a kiss that shocked Alphard.

Later, Voldemort and Alphard struggled for a long time, struggled for a while, and finally got together.However, in order to take care of Walburga's emotions, Alphard didn't announce the news that he and Voldemort were together until Walburga's sixth grade (Alphad's fifth grade) announced his engagement to Orion.

Walburga didn't have any doubts, but felt strangely balanced in her heart. There were two reasons. One was that it wasn't that she wasn't attractive enough, but that the other party was a dead gay; Didn't get it, well, that's just right.Lucretia thought the same way.

The turmoil of this matter was completely over.

In fact, Voldemort thought about it afterwards. What he really thought at the time was not that Alphard was a woman, but that Alphard who dressed as a woman opened the door to a new world of their relationship for him. It turns out that apart from being friends, they can also be friends. lovers.

Voldemort, who grew up in an orphanage that believed in Christianity and regarded homosexuality as the source of evil, really didn't know that men could still be with men. He didn't have that kind of cognition at all.It wasn't until Alphard appeared in his life in women's clothing that he realized that he had fallen in love with Alphard at first sight on the Hogwarts Express. friend.

To put it simply, Alphard in women's clothing carries too much of Voldemort's innocence and beauty when he was young, whether it's troubles or happiness, those are too precious memories of Voldemort, a forbidden place that can't be easily touched.

So Alphard thought that when he suddenly appeared in front of Voldemort in this image, Voldemort didn't lose his temper on the spot, which was considered a good cultivation.

But in fact, Voldemort wasn't angry, but he was a little afraid to face Alphard like this.

The old man that Voldemort told Narcissa at the ball was actually himself.The self who found out that he fell in love with his friend nervously and terrifiedly, and carefully tried to balance the feeling that was about to blow out in the friendship.He always felt that at that time he was an acrobat walking a tightrope on a cliff without safety measures, and he might fall to his death at any time, but he still walked happily.

It was his first love and the only love in his life.

Chapter 30 The World's No.30 Malicious Times: Legend has it that Alphard is not happy if he does not die for a day

In the empty corridor, Voldemort asked Alphard: "Narcissa was invited just now, are you disappointed?"

"It's definitely an honor for the Black family." Alphard immediately gave a standard answer.If nothing else is discussed, Voldemort's act of inviting Narcissa to dance is undoubtedly very beneficial to the Black family. A signal that the Demon King and the Black family are getting closer again.

"I'm asking you, not the Black family." Voldemort was not prepared to let Alphard pass by so easily, "Did you feel disappointed just now?"

Alphard looked at Voldemort for a long time, and under the expression on the other side's face that it's not over if you don't answer this, he nodded in frustration, and said something that would definitely please the Dark Lord, which was barely in his mind. The heart of the words: "To be honest, I am a little relieved, but at the same time, there is also a subtle disappointment that cannot be described."

Voldemort raised his head and raised the corners of his mouth without restraint, he couldn't have been more satisfied with this answer.

"Then, charming sir." Voldemort smiled and stretched out his white and slender hand to Alphard, "will you give me a chance to make up for the regret just now?"

"Here?" Alphard looked around the simple corridor. In fact, the decoration of Slytherin is not really "simple" anywhere, but compared with the magnificent and magnificent ballroom, this place is relatively "simple".The most important thing is that this corridor is very narrow, and it is difficult to spread it even in circles.

"Why not?" Voldemort had already shaken Alphard's hand, "If you think there is no accompanying dance music, I can hum it to you. Believe me, there is no one in the entire wizarding world who pays more for appearances than me. "

This is Nagini's stupid trick for Voldemort. If you want someone to feel pleasantly surprised, you have to snub him first, let him feel the bad mood of being ignored, and then give him unexpectedly at the right time. The feeling that the neglected matter is more important, it is strange that the other party is not moved in a mess.

{In terms of love, you still have something to learn, Voldy, remember, you must wait for him to be ignored for a long time before you can act! }Recalling what Nagini would say before leaving, Voldemort couldn't help but feel a little headache. How should he go back and explain to Nagini?I'm sorry, I still couldn't hold back, ended the neglect of Al early, and failed to take him to a more romantic place you prepared as you expected?

"You want to hum it to me?" Alphard didn't know what Voldemort and Nagini were planning, he only raised his hand to touch Voldemort's forehead when Voldemort hugged him, "I don't have a fever either."

When Alphard leaned forward and approached Voldemort's forehead, Voldemort hugged Alphard deliberately and took a step back. Alphard lost his center of gravity due to a sudden change, and he couldn't help sticking to it, but unfortunately... the black lips touching lips The dragon didn't happen, but Alphard gnawed Voldemort's jaw open.

"..."

"...Should I apologize for being so short?"

After Alphard asked cautiously, he and Voldemort laughed together, and Voldemort, who had been a little weird all night because of Alphard's women's clothing, completely returned to normal.

Voldemort healed his jaw with healing magic, and said with a smile, "Al, this is not like you, it's too substandard."

In the past, no matter what happened in the dance, Alphard always responded immediately and never had an own goal.

"I'm so sorry, I couldn't keep my focus and look like a normal person when you suddenly pulled me on." Alphard became more courageous because Voldemort wasn't angry, and his sarcastic tone came out of his mouth , before he knew it, he had overlapped with the Alphard in his memory.

"Continue?" Voldemort asked.

"Continue!" Alphard inexplicably competed with Voldemort, and after snapping his fingers, the entire corridor was frozen, and the ice sculptures covered in silver brought an unusually low-key luxury, "Dancing always needs a decent ballroom, kindness?"

"I've always been curious about your precise magic power riot." When Voldemort said this, he took Alphard's hand again with one hand and wrapped his arms around his waist with the other, humming a brisk rhythm, and slid to the left, In the narrow corridor, he began to show his excellent dancing skills.

In a world of ice and snow, Voldemort's magnetic low hum and dance steps were skillfully combined.

Alphard had to look up all the time to see Voldemort. He didn't know whether it was because the lights in the corridor were too dim that night, or Voldemort's voice was too alluring. For a moment, he suddenly wished that he could be that Alphard from the past. Love him and charming lover.

This thought only lasted for a few seconds, and Alphard was first struck by his sudden words. He kept telling himself in his heart, of course you will find him attractive, because he is not only Voldemort in the original book, but also you The imaginary Voldemort that you've yelled yourself, of course you'll be fascinated by him.

Voldemort's mood at this time is also very complicated, because this is the first time, from the hug with Alphard, he feels that the other party is also anxious like him, that the other party will dance the wrong steps because of nervousness, and that the other party also cares about him.

"You've changed." Voldemort said suddenly in a low voice when the atmosphere was at its best.

Alphard's face froze, and then he smiled and tried to answer naturally: "Of course I was different when I was 12 years old than when I grew up."

"You never go wrong, especially when you're dancing."

"That's because you couldn't dance at that time. Thank you. Even if I made a mistake, you didn't know it. You were too nervous and only noticed yourself. At that time, you even attributed my mistakes to yourself." Alphard remembered teaching Voldemort to dance because it had happened in first year.

"...is this the truth?"

"What truth?" Alphard looked at Voldemort in confusion, trying to avoid this topic, because although he inherited the original owner's memory, he found that he was not completely the original owner, and most of the three views they were The same, but in some respects they are not the same, such as dancing, the original owner never makes mistakes, just like a robot operating according to a pre-set program, but