Yama

After being stunned, grandma hurriedly asked, "Who told you?"

Even if Yan Cheng had doubts before, seeing his grandmother's pale face now, he knew that this matter could not be faked.

Grandma asked again, "Who said that?" There was a strong anger in the words, obviously very angry.

Yan Cheng was silent, grandma thought about it, and almost guessed it, this matter is not a secret, there are only a few people in the Yan family, except for Yan Cheng, they all knew what they should have known back then, but they were the only ones who really knew the inside story People, and she is the only one here who can chew their tongues and chew them messily.

I didn't expect to hide it after all these years.

Yan Cheng looked gloomy, looked at grandma and said, "Aren't you going to tell me?" Grandma sighed, the child is grown up, and she does have the right to know the truth.

"Let's go back to your room."

After entering Yan Cheng's room, grandma closed the door and sat down on a sofa, but Yan Cheng stood upright by the window, motionless.

Grandma said, "Tell me first, what do you know?"

Yan Cheng remembered what his second aunt had said to him, and his brows furrowed deeply.

The second aunt's words were caught by Yan Cheng. She was reluctant to say anything at first, but Yan Cheng forced her with the matter of her precious nephew. There is definitely no way, of course, there may not be a way if you say it.

The second aunt really has no choice. As long as Yan Hongzuo doesn't let go, no one here will dare to help him. If Yan Cheng is willing to plead with the old man for them, that's the only way out, and it's true, she It's not a nonsense fabrication. What else can we do to them after the real fall?

After thinking about it for a while, the second aunt opened her mouth.

"The relationship between your parents has always been bad, and you must have known it. Of course, it must have been good at first, or your mother would not have caused such troubles for your father and the family, but after getting married, this situation can It’s different. You must know your mother’s personality better than me. She can give you a few knives and make you feel uncomfortable, let alone living together for many years. I am the Yan family, so I love your father and your mother. I really don't know how to serve people, especially after having you, my temper can change three times a day, no one can stand it, your father can't even stay in this house, I just saw your mother throw things in the room several times It's as good as not staying, it's no wonder you said this marriage can last."

Listening to her scolding Tanying every sentence, even if this mother was never so competent in Yan Cheng's heart, Yan Cheng couldn't listen, so he interrupted her directly and said, "So what?!"

"So, on your father's condition, what do you think? Your mother can't look down on people, and accidents will happen naturally. I don't know if it's because she is aloof or overconfident. She usually looks at such a shrewd person, but her husband is biased." She didn't notice it in advance, anyway, when someone came to the door with a big belly, your mother realized that it was too late to regret it."

Yan Cheng's face was livid.

The second aunt gave him a sideways glance, and said after consideration, "I heard that the other party's family background is good, but in the end they were taken away, and they were sent abroad with the child. Your mother didn't even show your father a look." , and never came back in the end. I heard that he was still a younger brother. However, your father was cruel enough, and he didn’t mention this matter again. How can you say that this scholar is very good, and your mother still has a way. This Your second aunt, I honestly admire her from the bottom of my heart."

Seeing Yan Cheng's fists clenched tightly, the second aunt added fuel to the fire, "The relationship between the two has never been better since then. I think it's because of this matter that your mother treats you as well." I can’t like it anymore, when I was young, I almost…”

"Almost what?" Yan Cheng's voice was extremely cold.

The second aunt swallowed, "Almost...almost strangled you to death. I, I am not talking nonsense, the doctors in the hospital can prove it. I saw the black circle around your throat back then."

……

After Yan Cheng finished speaking, he looked at his grandmother and asked softly, "Is this true?"

Yan Cheng didn't really care about his younger brother, but the last sentence was where his heart knot was. Was his biological mother really so cruel?

The expression on grandma's face changed from bluish white at the beginning to reddened later, and finally regained her composure slowly, with even a sarcastic smile on the corner of her mouth.

She stared at Yan Cheng coolly, "An outsider's words, compared to your own mother who gave birth to you for 18 years, ask yourself, who do you believe?"

Yan Cheng was taken aback.

Looking at the suspicion flashing across his face, grandma felt mixed feelings for a moment, sadness flooded into her eyes, and she said sadly, "I can't blame you for this, but I can't blame your mother either, Yan Cheng, remember, there is nothing wrong with this world. , no one loves you more than her."

Yan Cheng had heard this sentence many times, his lips parted slightly, as if he wanted to refute, but when he saw grandma's sharp gaze like an arrow, he closed his mouth abruptly.

Grandma shook her head and slowly talked about the past.

"Remember what I told you, most children are always more cruel than adults. This sentence applies to you now, and it also applies to your mother back then."

It is really impossible to repeat all the efforts that Tan Ying spent in getting together with Yan Hongzuo, and grandma couldn't bear to recall it carefully. She can only say that when they returned to City A, Tan Ying's health was already very poor.At first, Yan Hongzuo was busy with affairs, the couple got together less often and separated more, and they had to rest and recuperate their bodies. Tan Ying, who was already an advanced mother, could be said to have exhausted all her efforts to conceive Yan Cheng in the end, but she still suffered so much during childbirth. .

Yan Hongzuo spends less than one-tenth of the time at home in a month, and he can't be expected to take care of her at all. Fortunately, Tan Ying has been independent since she was a child, but her personality is cold and quiet, she usually talks very little, and her relationship with her mother is not the same. Ordinary people are so sticky because of the birth of their grandson. Grandma went to live in City A for a while, and gradually realized that something was wrong with her.

At that time, "postpartum depression" was a relatively new term, but both grandma and Tan Ying were engaged in biomedicine, so they were no strangers to it. Tan Ying felt that her situation was fine, but grandma was more worried.

Sure enough, despite a series of treatments and drug interventions, Tan Ying's condition has not improved much. This has a lot to do with her personality and her experience in recent years. She is very thoughtful and never talks a lot. Said, even for Yan Hongzuo, if he has been buried in his heart for many years, there will always be an explosion.

The more restrained people are at ordinary times, the more serious the rebound will be when they are close to collapse. She has no one to vent to, except her parents, and she can only vent to Yan Hongzuo.Yan Hongzuo doesn't know how to quarrel with Tan Ying, but he is not a person who can bear his temper. When encountering such a situation, he chooses to avoid it. He thinks that it is for her good not to quarrel with Tan Ying, but he doesn't know that it will only aggravate the disease. .

I don't know if it's really because I can't bear such a moody wife, or because my relationship has faded, or it's inevitable that I have to follow the crowd and do some superficial work in a high position. In short, things are still going in a bad direction.

"Before that woman came to the door, your mother's illness had actually begun to improve, but after all, a husband and wife are husband and wife. Do you think that something that is known to outsiders, and a meticulous person like your mother would not notice it at all? Yan Hongzuo like this Will people be unable to guard against it? Although his subsequent words were inadvertent and exposed overnight, but if I tell you now, will you believe it?"

Yan Cheng was stunned and wanted to ask, "Then why..."

"Why don't you separate?" Grandma snorted, "Yeah, with your mother's temper, why didn't you separate? Why don't you ask your good grandpa." There is no need for grandma to explain, Yan Cheng actually understands when he thinks about it Well, Yan Hongzuo's situation at that time was still unstable. If he really left and made trouble at that time, it would have a great impact on his reputation. He is the reliance of the entire Yan family. Let such a thing happen, who can sacrifice in the end?

Only Tan Ying was left.

Perhaps the former Tan Ying would definitely not agree, she is proud and self-reliant, and cannot tolerate half a grain of sand in her eyes, but all of this was before giving birth to Yan Cheng, after giving birth to Yan Cheng, as a mother, she has to consider even more Duo, what kind of changes will my departure bring to my son, will it be negative, or will it hurt?

If something happens to the Yan family, what good will Yan Cheng do? These are Tan Ying's considerations, so she has no other choice.

Tan Ying had given Yan Hongzuo a hand back then, and only then did he have a smooth sailing in City A. If she let go at that time, it cannot be said that Yan Hongzuo would not be the same today, but the road would definitely be full of ups and downs and twists and turns. The reason for treating her so politely is that she has really paid too much for the Yan family.

However, even if a decision is made, the psychological pain cannot be passed away casually, especially when Tan Ying is still in such an unstable state, her pressure, her grief and indignation are bound to bring about tragic pain. as a result of.

"She didn't treat you like this on purpose. She didn't even know what she did at that time, but she still tried her best to resist the destructive emotions and sent you to the hospital immediately. Sad, I've never seen her blame herself like this, no one will blame him, but when I hugged you to her, she didn't dare to reach out to pick you up..."

Grandma said, with tears welling up in her eyes, "You don't understand what it means to a mother. Even if she cured her illness, she couldn't cure this knot in her heart. The alienation towards you, It's just her self-punishment, she couldn't forgive herself for making such a mistake, and when she wanted to make up, it was too late."

It’s not that Tan Ying has never compromised for her son. In front of Yan Hongzuo who regretted repeatedly apologizing, Tan Ying gave in. Her marriage has been ruined, and she can’t let her son have no family anymore, so she sent the unwelcome child abroad , you can blame her for being cruel, because compared to her own flesh and blood, everything else is really nothing.She also tried her best to continue with Yan Hongzuo. There was no love, but life was still going on, but after several years of trying, it still failed.

Transferring to U City with Yan Hongzuo was Tanying's last effort. She didn't want Yan Cheng to feel that she was indifferent and unreasonable. Tanying's already fragile nerves are always on the edge of the limit in this kind of home.

"If I hadn't discovered it early, you might have a crazy mother."

Grandma said it sarcastically, causing Yan Cheng to feel a little ashamed for a moment.

What was he doing at that time, he didn't notice anything unusual about his mother?All she knew was that she never cared about herself, never got close to him, and would not coax him too much when she was sick.

But my mother has been ill for so many years, but I never knew it?Or they actually know it, but they are unwilling to figure it out, or they deliberately ignore it.

"I always feel that you are still young, so grandma will never blame you, but now that you have made a claim, you should know some things. Why did your mother not leave Yan's house when she returned to u city? Why did she never say anything to you? Don't mention it, Yan Cheng, you have to understand..."

Yan Cheng understood, now he understands.

All this is for himself, all for him...