[Kuroko's basketball] Dear Sei

I pass it on to you. "

"Him?" How could Dai Qianxun ask Heizi to bring him something?What's more, the debt of favor between them has been paid off, right?Moreover, how did Heizi meet him?

But Kuroko didn't give Akashi a chance to ask questions at all, or he knew that Akashi would never ask, so he bowed politely, then turned and left.A little puzzled, he opened the book of boiled cowhide, and Akashi was taken aback. He was very familiar with the handwriting, it was Titian.

Tiziano de Diario

……journal?

At that moment, the beating of the heart stopped, and then it started working again frantically, making Akashi dizzy for a while.Dai Qianxun would give this to him, or rather, Titian's family and Hongcun would agree that such a precious relic should be passed into his hands.

With trembling fingers, Akashi leaned against the corridor and turned backwards.When he was not paying attention, a photo fell out of it.The black and white ones fell lightly onto the brown wooden floor, and Akashi bent down to pick them up, only to find something wrong—not a photo, but... a B-ultrasound image?Akashi was a little startled, and turned back, his whole body couldn't help shaking.

April 8

Seijuro, I'm pregnant.This is the first picture of the baby.I'm really looking forward to his birth, hope it's a boy, and like you...

April 9

... I counted on my fingers when you will come back to see our mother and son, and then I found that my hands and feet are not enough.The wait is really long.I used to feel lonely when I was waiting for you, but not now, because we are two people waiting together.The baby said that he misses his father very much...

April 9

...Actually, the doctor said that I am not suitable for pregnancy.Because there are too many things that need to be paid attention to during this period, and once the disease cannot be controlled, it is likely to kill two people.Seijuro will surely blame me when he hears this, right?But I thought about it, even if I don't want him, I might die.How can I abandon him?He is your and my child, I must let him survive, I want to give birth to him for you, and I will work hard with him until the day when Dad comes home.

April 9

...I am eating well, cooperating with treatment well, exercising well, waiting for you to come back, waiting for him to be born...

April 10

... I can't help it, I have a strong premonition that I can't live anymore, I will die.It seemed that even he felt the strong anxiety. I started to vomit, and I started to have a pregnancy reaction. He felt that I was torturing him, so he started to toss me too... But this shows that his vitality is very strong, and I am actually very happy... If he survives, what shall we name him?No, what name did you think of?

11.1

Miocaro, Tiamo, Vogliovederti (Darling, I love you, I miss you so much)

11.16

Sei, Midispiace (Levy, Sorry)

12.20

Sei, Hopaura (Levy, I'm Scared)

The more later, the more illegible the handwriting, and even can only use letters to write.It took Akashi a lot of effort to recognize these words, and then, his heart contracted bit by bit, and his throat was so tight that it hurt him.

In the diary on his birthday, she said she was afraid, what was she afraid of?Not even gunfire, war, all the evils in the world had frightened her, she told him in her diary, she was afraid.

Is it because you are afraid that you will never see him again, or because you are afraid that he will be sad?But she clearly knew how she would react, but she still left him.

why?Is it to blame her for not taking risks with her life, or to blame those gangsters?Or condemn the rampant virus?Or condemn the madness of this world?

He didn't even know what it was that took her away, so who could he turn to to vent?He raised his hand to cover his eyes, his fingers were slowly soaked, and the red-haired soldier cried for the first time since joining the army.Curled up alone in the corridor falling into the sun, like a wolf, healing alone.

By the time Akashi dragged his suitcase back to his hometown, it was already snowy winter.The scarf she wove by herself is still around his neck, and in such a place he is very familiar with, there is no longer that figure that would rush towards him in the bustling crowd, he can't hear her say that she misses him, and he can't see her With a teary smile, she couldn't feel her body temperature.The cold air almost made his hands lose consciousness, as if the coolness from ice cubes spread upward from his fingertips to the bottom of his heart.

Akashi got on the bus with a blank expression, and drove along the seaside for a while, then went around the block, and passed through a tunnel to the town where Titian's family was located.The coastline is as far away as ever, and the undulating waves bend the straight line into a dynamic curve. There is no one on the beach, only seabirds are flying around boringly and making sharp calls; the neighborhood is as lively as ever , the bright orange light shines through the window of the store, and the exquisite and lovely small commodities attract people who come to buy. The TV is on; the tunnel is as long as ever, and there are many small cars passing by, the sound of the tires rubbing against the ground changes from low to high and then to low as they approach and move away, the light passes through the window and casts a shadow on Akashi's face, he is surprised The white eyes are cold, staring straight at the outside, but can't find the focus when looking closely.

The last time he was with her, he also took such a path.They kissed in the car, held hands and stood in front of the window, she sang for him in the tunnel, choked by the blowing wind... everything cut his heart so clearly like a movie projector One wound after another will never heal.Really almost out of breath, he frowned slightly, stretched out his hand and pressed his face reflected in the glass, lifeless.Titian's departure seemed to take away his sunshine, how could she bear it?

Because of the advance greeting, when Akashi arrived, Titian's parents were still waiting under the porch, and her brother handed him the brewed tea when he was welcomed into the house.

"This is the lavender that my sister dried in the last summer. I soaked it according to your preference, although it is not as good as her craftsmanship." His smile was very shallow, even a little forced.

"Thank you." Akashi accepted politely.

Mr. Zhihai and Mrs. Zhihai sat side by side across from Akashi. Mrs. Zhihai still had tears in her eyes. She stared at Akashi as if she wanted to see her daughter.

"Titian...she left a lot of things, I think, many of them were intended for you but didn't have time to hand them over to you. Although we also want to keep them as memories, Akashi-kun should need them more." Mrs. Zhihai said this to Akashi when she led him to Titian's room, and then broke down in tears.

Titian's room was very clean, which should be due to their cleaning.The creamy white bed is covered with plain sheets, ochre-colored curtains, slightly transparent blue bookcases and desks, dark green jellyfish-shaped lamps, and a whole wall of photos with photos she took before and collected Famous photography, more photos of her and Akashi.There was a white men's suit hanging on the clothes rack next to it. It should be the wedding dress she said she made for him. The women's suit was obviously unfinished, and the long trailing tail was scattered with unfinished lace lace.

The bedside table was littered with letters she had written but never sent.Akashi picked up the familiar envelope and letter paper, but most of the letters only had the title "DearSei".

His heart softened suddenly, and he could imagine that she carefully wrote his name, took a pen and thought about what to tell him, or read the letter he sent back, and buried her head in the pillow alone, crying and crying. laugh.The window facing east will welcome the latest sunlight, which will soften her whole body.

"Titian……"

She was buried in a deep cemetery. The tomb was very new and beautiful. There was no trace of impurity in the white stones, forming a soft shape, not eerie at all.Her younger brother said that she got up early on the day she left and saw it was snowing outside, so he insisted on taking her out.Almost wrapped into a ball, she stood alone in the open space outside the institute, looked at the sky and wept, then fell down and never stood up again.Akashi thought, she probably wanted to sleep in that whiteness, that's why she ran into the snow on such a cold day, and then built the purest tomb for her.

In the photo, she is smiling, gentle and bright.There are withered lilies in front of the grave.

Akashi bent down, removed the bunch of withered flowers, and put fresh flowers on it again.He moved her tomb to the cemetery of the Akashi family, even if she and he couldn't be together when they were alive, at least they would be buried together after death.

"You told me you were scared... and then it was really weird, everything you were afraid of became reality. You left, I was alive, I was sad, I was sick...

"You already knew this and left me. You know you are afraid, so live for me...

"Also, why didn't you tell me about your illness? I was the only one in the world kept in the dark. Also, why did you write that letter and make me sad twice? Why didn't you just tell me to come back to accompany you and take care of you Why, you don’t even let me see you for the last time, and you still want to hide it from me...Titian...

"Walking alone on the road over there, are you afraid?"

The winter sun is warm and gentle.Akashi leaned his head lightly on the monument, as if whispering to her, but the person who could hear him was gone.

"With