apical nevus of robbery

Su Rui didn't look at Cheng Jun, and said in a low voice, "No, I don't have the gift money to attend, my family has been a little bit difficult recently."

Cheng Jun looked at Su Rui quietly. Su Rui was very quiet, with fair skin and dark eyes like a pool of deep well water. On such a hot day, he didn't sweat a little. He sat there quietly, with a touch of sadness on his body.

Cheng Jun really wanted to hug him at that time, and he really did.

He leaned over and hugged Su Rui, which shocked Su Rui, and quickly pushed him away. Cheng Jun was pushed back against the wooden handrail, and frowned in pain.

Su Rui stood up angrily and pointed at the doorway, "What are you doing, go out."

Seeing that he was so angry, Cheng Jun blushed as Su Rui blushed. Although he couldn't help himself, he still said, "I just saw that you were sad just now, and I just wanted to comfort you."

Su Rui said with a straight face, "No, you go out."

Cheng Jun was in a dilemma, and said, "My teacher appreciation banquet does not accept gift money, so you must come."

Su Rui kicked him out and did not attend his teacher appreciation banquet in the end.

Su Rui didn't like other people's touch very much since he was a child, and when he discovered his secret, he couldn't tolerate other people's touch even more.

Around February of this year, he suddenly felt that his lower body was a little strange, and then he observed it by himself in the bathroom. It seemed that one side was a little swollen and raised, and he didn't know why it happened.

But because this change appeared in that hidden place, he couldn't go home and tell his mother, so he had to hide it, thinking that the swelling would go away later, but he didn't expect that things were not what he thought at all, the changes in his lower body On the contrary, it became more and more obvious, and it was a bit like what a boy should have.

He was very panicked and didn't know what to do, but he found that his normal life was not affected by the changes in his lower body, so he first studied hard to take the college entrance examination, and planned to tell his mother after the college entrance examination, but unexpectedly Mother Su got breast cancer and passed away. Now, Su Rui didn't know who to tell about it.

He looked at the photo of Su's mother in the room, and felt very hesitant. Although he was not very close to Su's mother since he was a child, in this family, he was only slightly close to Su's mother.

If it was to his father, or to his younger brother, he would have no way to talk about his problems.

After all, he is a girl, how can he tell his father about his lower body problem.

After all, Su Rui has his own way. Before the college entrance examination, he secretly went to the Internet cafe to check his situation, and the answer he got was that it might be hermaphroditism. When he was a child, he showed a female reproductive system, but now he started to show male external genitalia. up.

He also looked at his own neck many times, and he didn't develop his Adam's apple, he didn't grow a beard, and his voice didn't become very masculine.

He was deeply worried about his body, but he didn't know what to do.

It's no use being an ostrich. Papa Su doesn't work the day shift that day. When he wakes up from a nap at noon, Su Rui goes to cut watermelon for him. Watching Papa Su sitting on the sofa watching TV, he also sits over and says to Papa Su , "Dad, I just do some housework at home every day, and I have nothing to do when I'm free. Or, tell uncle, let me work as a cashier in their supermarket."

Father Su glanced at him and said, "You're going to school soon, so you're going to be a cashier. Besides, your uncle is just a small shareholder, and it's not up to him to arrange you to go to work alone."

Su Rui said, "Mom is gone. I'm afraid that my tuition fees will be too expensive, which will increase the burden on the family. I think it's good if I can earn a little money."

Speaking of this, when he thought of Su's mother saying that it was gone, he would have a sore nose and almost cried.

When Su's mother died of illness, he didn't cry very much. He didn't know why, and he couldn't cry very much. mood.

At that time, he also heard people from his grandmother's side say that he was not filial, that he had raised such a daughter for nothing, and that his mother would not cry when she died.

Papa Su said, "You still have money for your studies. Don't think too much about it. It's time to buy a train ticket to S City in a few days."

Speaking of this, he glanced at Su Rui and smiled, "S University is very good. Everyone heard that my daughter was admitted to S University, and they were very envious. They said that you have good grades and can study, and you will have a big future." Promising. Your younger brother is not good enough. He only knows how to play games. At your uncle’s house, your aunt said that she kept guarding the computer and didn’t move her nest. .”

Su Rui nodded with tears of gratitude.

Su's father and Su Rui had very little communication, maybe because Su Rui was an adopted daughter, and she was a grown-up girl again, so he couldn't get too close to her.

Su Rui took the train to S city at the end of August of this year. After more than 20 hours of hard seats, he arrived in this bustling metropolis and became one of the thousands of people in this city of opportunity and desire. one of.

Su Rui didn't get someone to give it to him. He didn't have much to bring, so he reported to S University with a suitcase.

Because of his own health, Su Rui only wanted to study medicine. When he was filling out his volunteer application, Su's mother happened to be ill. He filled out the medical profession, and his family was very supportive.

However, his score failed to pass the eight-year clinical practice, and instead he was assigned to a basic medical major.

The dormitory is the same as the quadruple room in high school, but fortunately there is a table and wardrobe under the upper bed, so the personal space is more obvious.

As soon as Su Rui passed by, she hung a mosquito net on her bed and drew a specially sewn cloth curtain.

Because of his own health, he suddenly became very inferior. He didn't know whether he should be with girls or boys.

I also read a report about a person in the same situation as him in a magazine. It said that a girl was very good at sports in junior high school and was recommended to the provincial team. After going to the hospital for an examination, it was confirmed that he was a boy, so he was sent back by the provincial team, because if he was a girl, his grades would be excellent, but if he was a boy, his grades would be mediocre.When he returned to his original school, everyone knew that he had changed from a girl to a boy, so the girls who used to sleep with him were all ashamed and angry, and they didn't want to contact him again. He was rejected by his classmates, and finally had to leave school and go away. I don't know where I went.

So now Su Rui is very afraid that others will know her situation.

The courses of basic medicine are very heavy, and the study is very hard. Most of the students in the same class are not only in class but also in self-study.

When I was a freshman, it was practiced that senior seniors lead freshmen. Most of the seniors said that it is difficult to find a job in basic medicine, or take the postgraduate entrance examination, or change majors now.

As a result, the college life that I had longed for had been cast in the shadows since I first entered the school.

The school has very strict requirements on the students of clinical medicine, and implements the final elimination system, which gives opportunities to students of other related majors. Before the junior year, because the courses of the basic medical school and the clinical medical school are almost the same, the basic medical school is allowed. The students transferred to the School of Clinical Medicine.

But there are only two places every year. Those who want to transfer to clinical practice, everyone is staring at these two places. There is no other way but to study hard.

At least in Su Rui's heart, that's how things are.

From Monday to Friday, he wakes up early to go for a run, eats breakfast, attends self-study, attends classes, and then does not return to the dormitory until past eleven o'clock in the evening, not only him, but also other students in the dormitory.

They were all the pride of heaven, but when they came to school, they found that they were on the same starting point as everyone else, and there was nothing but hard work left.

Su Rui and the classmates in the dormitory are nodding acquaintances, and the relationship with the classmates in the class is even weaker.

There are also some activities organized in the class. In order to save money, he seldom participates.

So after one semester, he was labeled as arrogant and withdrawn.

On Saturdays and Sundays, he was doing part-time jobs almost all the time, tutoring, being a hostess lady, distributing leaflets, and when he was a sophomore, he also found a part-time job as a teacher in a vocational school, and the salary was slightly better. How many jobs did he have when he was an undergraduate? Not only did he have to earn living expenses and tuition fees, but he also had to earn money for medical treatment.

Since he was in college, he has gained a clearer understanding of his physical condition. He knows that he is a true hermaphrodite patient. Because his breasts do not develop and he has never had menstruation, he knows that he has no female fertility; The organs are not well developed, and he has been worried that the cryptorchidism in his body will become cancerous. He must go to the hospital for a thorough examination, and he may have to undergo surgery soon.

He needed the money and wanted to keep it a secret from others.

For Su Rui, college life never feels like being in an ivory tower, it seems that she is always busy and not worried.

In the freshman year, two places for clinical transfer were taken away by a girl in the same class and a boy in another class.

Changing majors requires not only a written test, but also an interview, which has a lot of maneuverability.

Su Rui only took the third place in the written test. During the interview, he felt that he could not speak English very well, so he didn't pass. He accepted the result calmly, but in the first semester of his sophomore year, his classmates kept saying that The girl was looking for a relationship, and she gave the counselor a red envelope of 3000 yuan.

As soon as these words spread, the entire department became restless, and finally even made a fuss in the principal's office. It was when someone asked Su Rui to sign with a collective signature that Su Rui learned about it.

Su Rui didn't specifically inquire about the result of this matter. It is said that the two people who transferred were not re-examined, but this time the sophomores were given a comprehensive score in the final exam. Everyone felt that this was much fairer, and there were a total of ten. For several courses, no one can bribe most of the teachers to give high marks.

There is still no Su Rui among the sophomores who changed their majors. He is busy with part-time jobs. When other classmates go to the library from morning to night on weekends, he is busy earning living and medical expenses outside, and he simply fails the exam. Those academic masters.

And this year, their class had an outstanding student with an average score of 95, which made everyone amazed. Seeing that she was only 89 points, Su Rui could only sigh silently.

In my junior year, I could no longer change my major, and the learning atmosphere in the class became more relaxed. Many students began to look for labs to do research projects, especially those who wanted to go abroad, and hoped to publish SCI papers during their undergraduate years. , which can increase the weight of applying for a good school.

Su Rui was at a loss for his future. He had never thought about going abroad, and the employment prospects of their undergraduates were really not good. After graduation, they went to a drug research and development company. Only when they entered a good company could they get 5000 yuan. City S, this amount of money is enough for one person to live on.

Postgraduate study is already an imperative choice.

When I was in my senior year, it was a common practice in my class to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination.

Su Rui doesn't go home every summer vacation, stays at school to work part-time, and only goes back to her hometown during the winter vacation.

Seeing that my younger brother has been ineffective, and my father is getting old day by day.

Su's father is nearly sixty years old, but he is still doing physical labor. Every time Su Rui sees the white hair mixed with his black hair and the thick calluses on his palms, his heart aches unbearably.

Although he hardly ever asked for money from his family after he went to college, and even took out a scholarship to buy a good dress for his father and a mobile phone for his younger brother, but he still couldn't simply tell his father that he Want to go to graduate school.

During the winter vacation of my senior year, my family went to my uncle’s house to pay New Year’s greetings. My uncle kept saying that the industry was highly competitive and the profits were getting lower and lower. He also said that the two children in the family were not up to date, didn’t want to do any work, and spent money like water. Turning the topic to Su Rui, saying that he is good at studying, and asking what plans he has for the future, Su Rui faltered and didn't say anything...

After Su's mother passed away, the relationship between the family and several aunts' families weakened. It was only because Su's father was begging for life under his uncle that the relationship remained better.

After returning home from her uncle's house, Su Rui went to the hot water to soak Papa Su's feet, while Su Wei sat on the sofa and played with her mobile phone. For some reason, the two father and son quarreled.

When Su Rui came out of the kitchen, the two of them almost started fighting.

Su Rui pulled the two of them apart, only to hear Su's father say Su Wei, "Look at you, what else do you do besides playing games. What kind of work are you going to do then?"

Su Wei said, "I know what to do, don't worry about it."

Papa Su was so angry that he threw the slippers on his head, "I don't care, I don't care about you, you will break the law and get shot."

Su Wei began to refute again, and in the end Su Rui had no choice but to push Su Wei into the bedroom, and the house became quieter.

Father Su sighed repeatedly while sitting on the sofa, and then came to ask Su Rui, "Your uncle asked you what you will do after graduation, what do you think?"

Su Rui sat on another sofa and answered after a long time, "I want to go to graduate school."

Su's father was stunned for a moment, and Su Rui quickly explained, "There may be a scholarship for graduate students, which can reduce tuition fees, and I can also do some part-time jobs myself."

Papa Su said, "It's good if you have your own ideas. If you need money, the family can still get some out. It's just that your brother is not up to date. I am full of anger when I see him now."

Su Rui had no choice but to say that Su Wei was still young, and it would be fine when he grew up.

Su Rui was relieved that his father didn't care too much about his going to graduate school. Although he always felt that there were various problems in this family when he stayed here, he only thought about it when he was away from here.

Since going to college, he has never thought about his biological parents again.

When he was young, he felt that the Su family was not his home, but now for him, this is his real home.

The father is here, the younger brother is here, and all the memories of childhood are here.