Avenue Of Rebirth

[You can love and be loved. 】

In the sixth year of Huangchu, that is, in 225 A.D., in October, I traveled to the ancient city of Guangling, and watched the soldiers by the river. There were more than [-] soldiers and hundreds of miles of banners.In the severe cold that year, the waterways froze, and the boats were not allowed to enter the river, so they were led back.During the period, they passed through Yongqiu, went to Cao Zhi's place, and met Cao Zhi. No one knew what the two brothers talked about. At the end, I only know that Cao Pi ordered to increase Cao Zhi's household by five hundred afterwards.

In the first lunar month of the seventh year of Huangchu, Cao Pi returned to his palace in Luoyang.On Bingchen in May, that is, on June 6, Cao Pi was seriously ill, and Chen Qun, Cao Zhen, Cao Xiu, and Sima Yi were ordered to accept the will and jointly assist the heir Cao Rui.Let the harem Shuyuan and Zhaoyi who have been laid off go back to their homes.On Dingsi Day in May, Cao Pi passed away at the age of 28. According to his statement before his death, he was buried in Shouyang Mausoleum without trees or graves.

At this point, Cao Pi's role is completely over.

The shooting time of more than three months is not too long, but on the day of wrapping up, Su An is still a little bit disappointed.

He knows how much he has paid for this role, watching "Three Kingdoms" and "Three Kingdoms", studying "Wei Wendi Collection", "Dian Lun" and "Yan Ge Xing", trying to figure out this from the barnyard official history and Cao Pi's legacy works. The character of the character, and tried his best to bring himself into the role of Cao Cao's eldest son, making a reasonable and "Su'an" style interpretation.

Finally able to take a rest, Su An and Han Jiabi, who had already finished before him, went out to have fun for a few days.

It is said to be crazy, but the places that public figures like them can go to are really limited. If it is really crazy, it is probably two people wearing hats, sunglasses and scarves, climbing the Great Wall in full armor.

After calling Lu Shuangshuang and Han Dongyun out, the four of them played mahjong with great interest, and even ordered takeaway without going outside the gate, and even played all night.

In the end, Bjork really couldn't stand the lazy and depraved ghosts of his artists, so he angrily accepted an upper-middle-level costume drama for Su An, and even found a music program for him to be the long-term host.

And Han Jiapi, Bjork began to plan his solo album.

At this point, Bjork no longer intends to forcefully sell Su An and Han Jiabi in a package.The reason why the group was established at the beginning is because in the mixed entertainment industry, and there has been no strong newcomers appearing for a long time, two-man boy groups are really rare. Bjork may not have taken a gamble.

From the talent show "Voice of China" to the idol drama "Star Academy", and from the album "The Other Side" to the historical drama "Aspirations", the group Byan has already gained enough popularity. He is an artist who can stand on his own, but with a solid acting skill and an amazing singing voice, there is no need to continue to be tied together when he already has enough foundation, it will instead become a restriction and a bondage.

Su An received a martial arts drama, because he did not have martial arts skills and enough time to practice martial arts, so Su An played a frail scholar in white clothes in this "Dragon Fighting in the Wild", who was disturbed by chance In the disputes between the rivers and lakes, he was infatuated with the heroine, but he never confessed his true feelings, and just silently guarded the heroine.

This is quite a face-like role, and it can be regarded as a classic male supporting role, and it is not too difficult.Naturally, the cast is not as strong as "Aspirations". The heroine and actor are only second-tier stars, but they are both popular with the audience.

Every actor hopes that each of his works will be a big production, but the ideal is usually just an A cup in reality, even the son of Chairman Mars may not have such treatment.Su An also understands that a newcomer like himself, who has debuted for a year, has received a lot of popularity because of auditions, idol dramas, and scandals. He is very imaginary and easily unstable, so it is also important to pursue quantity while pursuing quality.

After "Aspiration", Bjork did not find a suitable opportunity for Su An, but it is impossible to sit at home and wait for the opportunity. The audience will not wait for you, so a transitional work like "Dragon Battle in the Wild" is also very necessary.

Su An quickly devoted himself to the filming of "Dragon Fighting in the Wild".

In just a few days, it will be mid-April.

In the early spring, the city is full of joyful vitality, like the buds dotted on the branches overnight, the chirping birds one after another, and the nameless flowers blooming in the corner, all revealing the message of spring.

The whole city seems to be gradually waking up in the long and gloomy hibernation, and the sharp high-rise buildings are wiped with sunlight, and they are brand new.

Su An woke up in the middle of the night, only to realize that the death day of his previous life had arrived.

One year ago today, I tasted the taste of death so completely and truly, so powerless, so irreversible, as if everything I did in life was futile, it was a ridiculous struggle, and I was dying. Turned into worthless dust in front of you.

Su An opened his eyes sweating, and looked straight at Su Xitang's peaceful sleeping face beside his pillow.

The whole body trapped in the terrible memory trembled, like a thief guarding the stolen goods, for fear that one day the treasures that he cherished but never really belonged to him would disappear.Fear from the heart, grinding back and forth like a saw.

For a moment, Su An almost woke up Su Xitang, and told him about his past life, his mediocre appearance, his failed career, his ugly voice, and his sad and embarrassing death. The verdict of life is that nothing can be achieved, and it is an extreme failure.

But Su An clenched his teeth tightly the next moment, almost holding his breath.

Too ridiculous myself.Su An told himself mockingly.

How dare he.The matter of rebirth is bizarre enough, anyone who tells it will only think that he is a lunatic.What's more, in his previous life, he was such a failed person. He was too afraid to let Su Xitang know that he was such a complete coward and loser, and his heart would shrink just thinking about it.

Under the moonlight, Su Xitang's sleeping face is peacefully like a water lily floating on the water. It has a detached indifference, but also has a buoyant lightness and temptation. No matter what you say, you can only watch it from a distance and not play with it. Hold it in the palm of your hand.

The more he looked at it, the more he paled in comparison, Su An only felt a bone-crushing inferiority complex and panic.

As long as he examines himself a little bit, he can make derogatory judgments such as extreme, stubborn, selfish, lazy, arrogant, naive, etc. Maybe he is not without a good side, but he can find all the examples of the ugly side of human nature.

Most of all, he's a liar.

Su Xitang will share with him bit by bit her experiences when she was young, his sufferings and struggles, and reflections on the mistakes she made when she was young and frivolous. These experiences and memories make Su An more aware of Su Xitang's reality and how impeccable her face is. , but there are always troubles and depressions, Su Xitang gradually no longer hides her fragile side from him.

On the other hand, I never dared to mention another name I used to have, and another life behind that name.I always want to show my best side to Su Xitang, I always want to hear Su Xitang's praise and confession again and again, but I am always shy to give the same response, and sometimes I even take it for granted.

Such a self, I'm afraid that Su Xitang will suddenly get bored that day.But the more I thought about it, the more I was afraid, the more I was afraid, the more I thought about it, the more I was afraid, the more I wanted to cover up, the more I covered up, the more I was afraid, it almost became a vicious circle.

Whenever he is free and alone, Su An is always worried about gains and losses and suspicious.In fact, I really dislike this naive and fierce virtue, but I just can't restrain it.

Gradually, Su An took the initiative to ask for sex more and more times, as if this could prove the bond between the two and bring a reliable sense of security.

But Su Xitang's occasional joke or a wandering look in his eyes can make Su An disappear all the information.

It's not that I never thought about sitting down and telling my thoughts to the man bit by bit, but I couldn't open my mouth after all.Too many ordeals have contributed to Su An's introverted personality, which is why he is so sensitive and suspicious. Su An also knows that this is wrong, and he is as unreasonable as a little girl. The floodgates pour out those negative, certain, and hesitant thoughts every day, which are massive, but flowing silently and depressingly.

Su An leaned forward and kissed Su Xitang's tall nose, and closed his eyes wearily.

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I don't know if it was a sudden enlightenment or what, I have been avoiding to contact "Su An", the once familiar but unfamiliar Su An, and finally I can calmly face my former life again.

in front of his tombstone.

In a remote corner of the suburban cemetery.

After inquiring about Su An's former economic company, Su An learned that his friends and colleagues in his previous life jointly held a simple funeral for Su An, and buried him in a remote corner of the cemetery. Although it's because of less money, this corner is extraordinarily quiet, and it's a good place to go.

Su An stared blankly at the name on the tombstone and the slightly blurred photo in the upper right corner.The man in the photo on the blackboard looked at himself silently, neither sad nor happy.

The branches above were rattling, and the ground was covered with unburned paper money and the remains of firecrackers. The dust swept back and forth, quietly settling everything.

At first I was still a little restless, but gradually I could accept the fact that my body, which I had used for 26 years, had turned into a small jar of ashes lying on the ground.

Life is actually unknown. Looking at it this way, anything is possible, and everything that happens is already the truth. There is no need to falsify and refute it. Instead, you should enjoy it. It is a gift from the goodwill of the universe, for example——

The bouquet of flowers in front of the tombstone still has dewdrops on the delicate petals.

Su An never imagined that after the death of a former lonely person like himself, someone would come to his grave to pay his respects, and even bring him a bouquet of flowers in full bloom.

Su An wanted to know who this person was.

Su An's former employee of the brokerage company suddenly flashed in his mind: "Actually, that Su An is quite talented, but his voice is a little short and ugly. Maybe it's because of his low self-esteem. He doesn't usually talk to others. It’s too withdrawn, tell me, in our circle, how could one want to be famous without contacts? In fact, Su An used to be able to succeed, but... oh, but when the funeral was held, I heard that Zhang Liubai Zhang Tianwang also I went..."

It's a pity that there is absolutely no if in life.Su An's greatest fortune is to have a second chance to chase his dreams.

It is possible to love and be loved.

Su An, who walked out of the cemetery, originally planned to go home, but was suddenly drawn by the throbbing in his heart to Wang Fu's company building.

Suddenly want to see very much.

Su Xitang was surprised when the secretary reported that the young master had arrived.Because Su An had never been to the company before, Su Xitang thought that his cat-eyed boy was unwilling to come into contact with these dark things involving the bottom of society, so he seldom talked to him about his work in Wang Fu.

But this time...?

Thinking that something happened, Su Xitang hurried out of the office, but saw the boy standing outside the door with a smile, and handed him a paper bowl.

"Here, the distiller's grains I bought just now have been rinsed with hot water, and it will make you hot after drinking."

Su Xitang took the paper bowl, feeling the scalding heat coming through the thin paper wall, it was extremely ironing.

"Is there something..." Su Xitang spoke after deliberating.

"It's nothing." The boy smiled and said, his hair was softly attached to his forehead, and his clear cat eyes narrowed playfully.

"...I just miss you."