Suhang

Moved the body, enduring the sharp pain as if the body was disassembled and reassembled, crawled to the end of the bed one by one, grabbed the pants on the ground tremblingly with bloody fingers, ignored the liquid and stinging pain flowing out from under the body, trembling carefully Put your pants on.

No clothes... Suhang stared blankly at the black shirt at his feet, slowly bent down to pick it up, and put it on.

He leaned on the wall and walked out step by step.

Every step I take, my body hurts.The legs are weak, Suhang always thinks that he will fall because he can't bear it in the next moment, but he always takes a step forward in embarrassment...

In the end, the body was actually used to the pain, and the speed was getting faster and faster.

The corridor was very quiet, finally out of that room, Suhang stared blankly for a while at the corridor he was struggling to crawl through, and then turned around and walked out step by step.

Although it was not yet dawn at this time, there were already people walking on the road.The sky was still dark, and the sky was slightly white again. Su Hang stood outside the hotel for a long time before turning around and walking towards the school step by step.

Because of walking, the fluid flowing out from under the body slowly flowed to the thigh, it hurts, but I don't know where the pain is... is it the body or the heart.

He was raped, but because of this deformed body, he didn't even dare to alarm the other person... He could only run away, far away, hoping never to see that person again.

Never again.

... Suhang, nothing happened last night, just like any other night, nothing happened.

Forget it all, forget it all!

……

The hotel is about an hour's drive away from the school. Suhang walked for a long time in a daze before realizing that he can't go back to school... People will see what happened to him in this state.

And he would rather bury this wound and rot than let people know how deformed his body is.

Slowly digging through his trousers, the money in the bag was not lost... Suhang raised his head, stared blankly at the busy traffic around him, and walked towards a hotel after a while.

……

In the bathroom of the hotel, Su Hang sat in the bathtub, holding a towel inch by inch, washing himself over and over again.

There are many marks on the body... blue and purple, bite marks, finger marks.Suhang wiped these places over and over again until blood oozes from them, and only the red color of blood can be seen before he goes to another place.

Because of the force, the wound on his arm was bleeding again. Coupled with the blood drops from other parts of the body, the water in the bathtub showed a faint red color.Suhang sat in the water, not letting go of his toes, scrubbing inch by inch.

Finally, I reached out to pick at the ugly place.

Because of the overexpansion and friction, not only were there several lacerations, but it was also tortured to the point where it was red and swollen.No matter how Su Hang wiped it, or moved his body, there would always be a liquid that made him sick.

Suhang stared blankly at a certain place in the void, and stretched out his trembling hands under his body, biting his lower lip to force himself to poke in, and pick out the things inside.

Then he wore the bathrobe provided by the hotel, moved to the bed step by step, and lay down stiffly.

…He was still sane yesterday, but his body was no longer under his control.No matter how much he loathes and fears those hands moving around his body, he can only let the opponent invade without moving.

He remembered every move of that man on him, as if it had been recorded in his mind, no matter how much he tried to make himself forget it, he couldn't... He remembered that no matter how disgusted he was, the strange desire was still under the hands of that man Shengteng also remembers the nausea that was rampant at the same time.

He remembered the sharp pain when he was entered, his body being pushed against him involuntarily, the man's gasping for joy...he remembered how his soul fell into hell.

Suhang opened his eyes abruptly, curled up and opened his mouth to breathe heavily.After a long time, I heard a knock on the door gradually and clearly.

Suhang blinked, propping the bed to get up, but his arms suddenly bent, and the whole person fell directly on the bed, obviously at such a height, his eyes turned black for a while, and the pain under his body gradually recovered.

The knocking outside the door did not know when it stopped. Su Hang squirmed and curled up into a ball. Soon, the door was suddenly opened, and the hotel waiter came in with a spare key. Su Hang, whose cheeks were flushed from burning, became nervous.

But just as she stretched out her hand to touch Suhang's forehead, Suhang suddenly opened his eyes, and looked at her with bloodshot eyes.

The waiter was completely unprepared, screamed in shock, and took a big step back.

There was silence in the room. After a while, the waiter suppressed the shock in his heart and said, "Sir, you have a fever. Do you want me to call a car to take you to the hospital?"

fever?Suhang froze for a moment, then stretched out his hand to touch his forehead, felt that the temperature was lower than usual, but even under the quilt, he felt very cold, his head hurt, and his whole body hurt.

Suhang opened his mouth, but couldn't speak. He wanted to stand up with his hands again, but suddenly he saw the waiter looking at his arm in surprise, then turned his head to look, and saw dark red scratches all over his arm , It was brushed out when he took a shower.

He couldn't help sinking down, covered himself with the quilt so that only his head was left outside, cleared his throat forcefully, shook his head and said hoarsely, "No need." After a pause, he said again, "Is it time to check out? You go out first, I will come out right away."

The waiter nodded and turned to leave.Suhang lay down for a while, then slowly got up.

It seems that he did have a fever, and the fever was still severe... Suhang leaned against the bedside, his head against the wall, and waited for the dizziness in front of him to pass before he staggered towards the bathroom.

The clothes that were taken off yesterday were still piled up in the corner of the bathroom, and they were not wet... Su Hang heaved a sigh of relief, and slowly picked them up.When he saw the black shirt, the horror in his eyes suddenly deepened, and he felt that his body hurt even more.

But he still put the clothes on slowly.

……

After leaving the hotel, Suhang hailed a taxi, and staggered into it slowly like an old man.

When the buttock touched the chair, the pain in that place intensified.

Suhang leaned back on the chair and took a deep breath to relieve the pain.The driver asked him where he was going, but he only heard it when the other party asked for the third time. After a moment of confusion, he said, "Go to XX Road."

Can't go back to school, can't go to the hospital...but he needs treatment now, there's a clinic there.

In a small clinic, he concealed the main reason why he had a fever... the difficulty is much less difficult.

take in

Su Hang is not good at lying, thanks to the bite marks on his arm and the swollen burns on the back of his hand to cover up, and he stubbornly refused to let the doctor touch other parts of him. Facing such patients, it is a small clinic, and the doctor Finally let him go.

It is now the afternoon of the second day after the incident, lying on the hospital bed in the clinic, Su Hang borrowed the phone from the clinic to call the school to ask for leave, holding the phone for a long time to hesitate before dialing the home number tremblingly.

"Hello? Who is it?" The phone beeped several times before a familiar voice came out.

Suhang's tears fell instantly, and he opened his mouth to call Mom, but only made a breathy sound. The mother over there was still wondering who it was, Suhang bit his lips tightly, and blocked his mouth. Crying, took the microphone away, took a few deep breaths, forced myself to be calm, and then said again, "Mom...it's me..."

"Xiao Hang, why didn't you speak just now?" Mother asked reproachfully.

"Hmm..." Suhang grabbed the microphone tightly, "Mom, I miss you, I miss you so much... Shall I go home?"

When Mother Su heard this, she said in surprise, "Go home? You're studying, you're working, don't you want them all?"

"I..." I can ask for leave.

"Xiao Hang, you are an adult now, don't be childish, ah." Mother Su persuaded, "Study at ease, your sister has been working hard recently, and you can learn both piano and piano, don't let her compare you."

Suhang opened his mouth, and finally hummed.

The two were silent for a while, and finally it was Su's mother who said, "Your voice sounds weird, Xiaohang, are you okay?" Hearing this, Suhang's tears flowed out again immediately, and the tears almost forced him to cry. His crazy grievances and fear rushed to his throat, but he swallowed them hard, shaking his head vigorously and said, "It's okay, it's okay... I, I just have a cold and a stuffy nose..."

How can you say it, how can you say it... Because of his body, they already don't like him.If you let them know that he was raped by a man, will they sweep him out like garbage?

How can you say that!

"Oh, then remember to see a doctor." Mother Su said.Because of Suhang's body, the mother and child are not close. Su's mother still sensed that something was wrong with Suhang's mood, but she couldn't find a word to say. It was almost a routine and asked Suhangru if he had eaten and how he was studying. A question, the two became silent again as usual.

Ordinary mother and child, would they be like them?

Suhang asked himself more than once, and imagined more than once, if he was normal...whether his parents would treat him like this.

Every time he thought about it, his heart ached and became colder.

Su Hang stared at the quilt covering his body, his fingers holding the microphone tightened and tightened, and finally said, "That's it...Mom, I'm hanging up the phone."

"Yes." Mother Su replied.The tone became much more relaxed...Su Hang could even feel the sudden relaxation when she broke away from this weird silence.

"Ha..." Suhang curled his lips and slowly raised a smile. Suddenly, he noticed that the patients beside him were looking at him, so he quickly put down the phone and looked down at the quilt on his body.

The high fever didn't subside until night, and fortunately he had been working for several months, and his wages were all in his card, so it was easy to withdraw money... Otherwise, he might be burned to death.

Although he has been resisting everything related to last night in his mind, Su Hang still remembered that the cause of all this was that the manager of the bar asked him to send that evil Fatty Sun.

The manager should also be involved...Lin Lin also knows...there must never be going there again.

Suhang didn't want to question anyone, as long as he thought of his body's secrets being exposed to the sun, he would be so cold that he could hardly breathe.forget about it!He doesn't think about anything, just pretend, just pretend that there is no such thing at all!

On normal nights, he works at the bar.Now the bar absolutely can't go back, school... He doesn't dare to go back and face those familiar faces now.

No home, no place to go, it's so pitiful.

Suhang was thinking blankly, and when he noticed the scenery around him, he realized that he had actually walked near the refuge of that young man... After such a big incident, he could only meet with someone who was only once. In the house of a stranger who doesn't even know his name?

Suhang laughed again, and slowly raised the corners of his mouth, just like when he was neglected by his parents when he was a child, he forced himself to smile and talk to them with excuses about trivial matters.

Although the fever was forcibly subsided, the wounds in all parts of the body were still in severe pain. Every cell in his body was screaming for pain. Suhang didn't want to bother anymore. Cary still had money. He turned around and planned to go to the hotel again. one night.

But just as he turned around, someone behind him said coldly, "It's you? What are you doing here?"

……

The basement was still the same as last time, empty and quiet.

Suhang sat stiffly along the wall until the boy put the cushion on the ground, and when he looked up, he saw the boy handing over a tube of ointment.

Seeing the shape of the ointment, Su Hang's pupils shrank suddenly.

When he woke up yesterday, the half-deflated tube of ointment he saw at the foot of the bed was almost the same shape as the one in front of him.

That thing was once squeezed into his body by that man...

His heartbeat suddenly beat extremely fast, almost exceeding the load he could bear.But at this moment, the boy threw the ointment on him, and said a little anxiously, "I'll go out first, you can wipe it on yourself."

Suhang seemed to have been scalded, threw the ointment out violently, and said in a trembling voice, "Why are you giving me this, I don't want it!"

Seeing the ointment rolled on the ground a few times, the young man's eyes flashed with hostility, the corner of his mouth twitched, and he said coldly, "What are you pretending to do, it's just that someone took it, do you really think others can't see it?" .”

Su Hang's body suddenly became stiff, his teeth chattered uncontrollably, and he looked at the boy in horror.

Seeing him like this, a trace of regret flashed in the young man's eyes, and he couldn't help picking up the ointment as if to pass it over, but Suhang immediately shrank back, his face became cold again, and he threw the ointment on Suhang, saying, "I'm I won’t go around and say, why are you afraid of being like this.” Seeing that Suhang was even more frightened, he hurriedly said, “It’s just being fucked once, what’s the big deal, remember that person’s appearance, and work hard on your own Climb up, wait until that day, you find seventeen or eight men to kill him in turn!"

As he said that, he smiled sinisterly, "He fucked you once, after that, his life is the interest!"

……

There was no other place to go in Suhang, and the boy didn't chase anyone away, and gave up his only bed to Suhang.

Suhang is actually very afraid of getting along with people now, but he once helped this boy, and the boy is younger than him, although he is a bit cold, he is still very good to him.

Su Hang froze on the bed for most of the night, and then fell asleep vaguely.

Waking up again was thirsty, Suhang looked at the small energy-saving lamps on the wall, and wanted to get up to drink water, but just got up together, and fell back on the bed with a bang... The wooden bed made a loud noise, and took The boy who was sleeping on the mat spread out on the ground bounced up violently, and after seeing Suhang's apologetic expression, he reached out and wiped his face vigorously.

"What do you want to do?" The boy's voice was hoarse after waking up.Suhang moved his dry lips and said hoarsely, "I want to drink water."

The boy stood up and went to the kitchen to pour a glass of boiling water. When he handed it to Suhang, he found that his cheeks were abnormally red. He stretched out his hand, but before Suhang had time to dodge, he had already backed away, "I have a fever, I'll go get the fever reducer." medicine."

The boy's medicine was still in the medicine box in the corner, and he rummaged through it skillfully, then took a few medicines and handed them over.Suhang took it with a blink of an eye.

After taking the antipyretics, Suhang thought that the boy would continue to sleep, but he was still sitting by the bed, staring at Suhang with bright eyes, staring at Suhang until his back felt cold, and he said, "You didn't wipe it off?" Medicine." The tone was affirmative.

Su Hang was stunned, and nodded with some guilt and embarrassment. ——He just wanted to never see, touch or think about that place for the rest of his life, and he never touched it until the end.

"I'll give you two choices." The young man's face darkened instantly, and he glanced at Su Hang, the same eyes as he had when he beat the bastard with a club in a near-miss.Su Hang's body trembled, subconsciously clenching his teeth tightly to keep himself from trembling.

The boy continued, "Either I'll fuck you, or I'll turn my back on you now and you fuck yourself. Choose one."

- Suhang was so embarrassed that he just wanted to find a hole to get in.

His lips moved and wanted to refute, but when they met for the first time, the young man held his head steady, let alone now.

After a long silence, Suhang whispered, "I...I'll go to the toilet and use it myself."

The young man didn't want to push him too hard, so he squinted at him and said, "Will you just pretend to show me again?"

Su Hang gritted his teeth and shook his head, the young man stretched out his hand to help, Su Hang shrank back abruptly, and stammered, "I do it myself."

The boy shrugged needlessly, stepped back a few steps and watched Su Hang staggering into the toilet.

The lower body was still very swollen, and every time the friction caused by walking would bring a burst of pain, Su Hang held on to the ointment tightly, and after a long time of mental preparation, he dipped his fingers in the ointment and rubbed it tremblingly on his lower body.

Today, this deformed place is not like before, it only represents discrimination and disgust, and now it still reminds Suhang of what happened that night, making him want to vomit...but he has to swallow everything with blood.

As for what the boy said about the future...he didn't want to, didn't want to.

As long as he can live peacefully without being looked at strangely...he is willing to endure.

After taking antipyretics and being forced by the teenager to drink a large glass of boiled water, Suhang covered the quilt and sweated quickly.

When he woke up the next morning, his clothes were sweating profusely. Even Suhang himself couldn't smell the smell. The boy even threw his clothes on him and went out.

He was the only one in the room, and Suhang's nerves, which had been tense all the time, relaxed.Looking at the rusty iron door, Su Hang's eyes flashed a warm look, and he walked slowly into the bathroom to take a bath.

When getting dressed, Su Ci realized that these clothes were all new, obviously bought by the young man when he went out in the morning.And even the underwear is bought, the size is abnormally suitable for Suzhou and Hangzhou.

As for Suhang's jeans and the man's shirt, Suhang packed them in bags, carried them slowly towards the garbage dump, and threw them into the garbage dump.

When Suhang walked back, he called the teacher again on the public phone and said that he would continue to ask for leave for a week.

In the teacher's impression, Su Hang was the kind of honest, well-behaved, introverted and withdrawn child. He had no doubts at all and readily agreed.

Although Su Hang's character is generally like this, if it was before, no matter what happened, he would not take leave for such a long time... Now, he really doesn't have the courage to meet those familiar faces.

Even the owner of those faces, many people don't know him.

Suhang hung up the phone and walked back slowly with arms folded.

Back... He suddenly realized that he had used this word, he couldn't help but froze for a moment before moving on.

Because of the pain in his body, Su Hang walked slowly to a place not far from the iron gate. The iron door in the basement suddenly opened, and the young man strode out with a dark face, but just as he lifted his feet, he saw Su Hang standing outside. , couldn't help but snorted coldly, turned around and walked back.

Come back home

When Suhang bought medicine to see this young man and took care of him, he was just fulfilling his own wish.It's just that he didn't expect that when he had nowhere to go, he was the one who took him in.

Suhang laughed at himself while eating the breakfast bought by the boy.At this time, the boy opposite suddenly said awkwardly, "Hey, what's your name." He is not a person who is very curious about strangers, nor is he a good person. Coming over, I couldn't pull my face away, and said coldly with a straight face, "I'm not a good person who is willing to help others. You live in my house now. If I don't even know your name, how can I ask you for a bill in the future."

Su Hang swallowed the porridge in his mouth, "My name is Su Hang."

The young man nodded, "Suhang? There is heaven on the top, and Suhang on the bottom... It's a pretty good name."

Actually he lied.

As for Suhang's name and Suhang's school, he found out as early as the second day when he met Suhang.I just want to hear what Su Hang said in person.

Hearing his words, the corners of Suhang's mouth subconsciously raised slowly, lowered his head and laughed in a low voice, "Does it sound good?" He also thought it sounded good before.It was only later that I found out by accident that the origin of his name was just picked up by the father who heard the bad news when he heard others say this sentence.

He once heard from his grandma that before he was born, there were dozens of names for both boys and girls in the family, and it was determined when he was born.

From this we can see how much his deformed body has dealt a blow to his father.

So really...he shouldn't be resentful.

At least, they kept him, didn't give him away, and didn't throw him at the gate of any orphanage.

Su Hang took a breath, looked at the boy, "Then what's your name?"

"Anyang." The boy said two words, bowed his head and drank the porridge.

"Anyang? A very warm name." Suhang said softly.It's just that he is not as good as his name, this child is obviously full of hostility in his bones, how can he be positive.

"Remember to adjust the expression on your face when you say something against your will." The boy, An Yang, gave him a contemptuous look.Su Hang blinked, touched his face, coughed and said again, "What's your last name?"

Anyang didn't say anything, he gulped down the porridge in the bowl, turned around and dragged out the medicine box, and said, "Stretch out your hand, and change your medicine."

Suhang was still curious, but he was taken aback when he heard what he said, and he hesitated to reach out his hand after Anyang put all the medicines on the floor.

Anyang glanced at him, and reached out to remove the dressing on his arm from the bite mark.Suhang hadn't eaten for a while, his teeth clenched his lower lip, his eyes were wide open and he looked at Anyang's slender but callused hands.

As soon as Anyang touched him, his body trembled immediately, subconsciously wanting to shrink back.

But Anyang had sharp eyesight and quick hands, grabbed his hand, quickly and gently removed the dressing with one hand, and said softly, "You are also cruel enough, you can bite yourself to make such a big scar." If he doesn't want to let go , Suhang will absolutely not be able to retreat.Seeing that Suhang's face turned pale in vain because of his touch, he lowered his head and concentrated on applying the medicine to him, and still said slowly, "Suhang, you are less than 20 years old, right? I am younger than you, only 17 years old. But last time I told you to sew stitches clumsily without making a sound, you said that you are an adult, it’s just a change of medicine, there’s no need to tremble like this.”

This reminded Suhang that last time, he was forced by Anyang to sew the wound on his head, but because of fear, he jjj the needle pierced into the flesh several times, and couldn't help being embarrassed, "Do you think everyone Like you..."

Anyang snorted coldly, "But it's not like you, you can bite hard, but now that you change the medicine, you're scared into a mouse again."

Suhang opened his mouth, but didn't reply.But very suddenly, the bottom of my heart didn't respond so much to his touch.

After changing the medicine on the arm and the back of the hand, Suhang breathed a sigh of relief, only to find that there was a cold sweat on his back.Anyang was packing up the medicine box, and suddenly asked casually, "Do you know who that man is?"

Su Hang froze, gritted his teeth and shook his head.

Anyang asked again, "Then what do you plan to do with the manager of your bar and that fat man?"

Suhang raised his head abruptly, and said in shock, "Are you investigating me?"

Anyang paused, then squinted at him, and said flatly, "I'm just a little curious, so I went to check." Then, he took out an ID card from the pocket behind him, "I'll give you your ID card." You are coming back, after dinner, you can go."

Suhang was still shocked that Anyang actually went to investigate and had such a great ability to investigate this matter, but he suddenly turned his face and drove people away, he couldn't help being a little surprised.

But he has no relatives and no reason with him, so it is very good to take him in and take care of him for the past two days. After Suhang hesitated for a moment, he nodded, and then bowed his head to drink porridge.

After a while, Anyang snorted, and before turning around to go out, he hesitated and said, "The expenses for these two days, I..."

"Just as if I fed the dog on the street corner! It's free!" An Yang cut off the words and slammed the door.Suhang was stunned again, only to realize that he was called a dog.

After eating, Suhang tidied up the place, and tidied up the bed where he had slept all night before going out and walking slowly towards the school.

……

Suhang completely acted as if this incident had never happened. He forced himself not to think about it when he was awake, forced himself to study, found a new job, and was as tired as a dog every day.

But no matter how tired I am, I still have nightmares at night.All night and all night, I dreamed that no matter how hard I struggled, I could only lie motionless on the bed, being abused wantonly.

And he found that he had another problem.

He can't stand being touched by anyone... No matter men or women, others can't touch him at all, otherwise it will cause severe vomiting, including Song Zhuang.

After being touched by others and vomiting a few times, Su Hang became a plague god at school, and Su Hang also paid attention to it and did not come into contact with anyone.

He didn't feel bad about being isolated by everyone.

Not being able to get in touch with Song Zhuang made him sad, but he was even more determined... Song Zhuang was just the sun to him.

Song Zhuang gave him warmth while standing on the edge of the cliff, Suhang liked him and admired him.Sometimes, the distance between the two seems to be within reach, but it is always out of reach.

After more than half a month, the school will be on holiday.

At the beginning, the bar manager stayed in Suhang several times to continue working in the bar during the summer vacation. At that time, Suhang was a little hesitant. He needed money, but he was also homesick...even though that home was not considered a happy one for him.

The work Suhang is doing now is distributing advertisements on the street, and he has to stand from beginning to end, which is very tiring, but if Suhang doesn't want to do it, he can leave at any time.On the day of the holiday, Suhang packed his things and boarded the train.

The train was crowded with people, and Suhang endured the trembling vomiting sensation of being touched, and finally rushed to the toilet to vomit.

The train ticket was specially bought by the window. Suhang sat weakly in his seat, and separated himself from the people next to him with his backpack, finally made it through the train.

When he got out of the car, his face was as pale as paper.

Back home, before he knocked on the door, he heard bursts of crisp laughter coming from the door. Su Hang turned around and walked to the glass window, and saw that Su Shi was giving his father a massage in the room, and his father was always stern in front of him. The father with an unusually serious face was amused by Su Shi's jokes from time to time.

A beautiful picture of family fun.

Suhang blinked, grabbed the backpack strap, walked back to the door and slowly raised the corners of his mouth before knocking on the door.

"Which one?" In the room, Su Shi's voice was still smiling.Su Hang suddenly felt something stuck in his throat. After a while, Su Shi came to open the door, and then he looked at the bright girl in front of him and said softly, "...it's me."

Su Shi was stunned for a moment, then turned around and laughed loudly at her father, "Dad, Dad! Brother is back!"

Su's father had already seen Suhang, and all the smiles on his face were put away. Seeing Suhang walk up to him and call his father, he nodded lightly, "Just come back, you are tired from the train ride, go back to your room Go and rest."

Suhang kept smiling, nodded when he heard the words, and walked into his room with his backpack on his back.

The door was ajar, Su Hang pushed it open, and saw the conspicuous piano in front of the window.The lips that had been raised all the time were very tired, and he pursed his lips, then raised them again, put the backpack on the chair, and packed the things on the bed.

It used to be his bed, but now there are everything on it... Unneeded sheets, unfolded clothes, Su Shi's dolls, Su Shi's snacks, and Su Shi's novels.

Su Shi pushed open the door and saw Suhang tidying up the messy bed she had placed on the bed, she rushed up shyly and pushed him away, "Brother, I'll tidy up, I'll do it."

Su Hang is now tormented by nightmares every night, and his body almost collapses when he is pushed. Being pushed by Su Shi, he staggered back several steps, and hit his back against the cabinet before he stabilized.Hit my back against the cabinet and it hurts.Su Hang touched the place where Su Shi pushed, endured the nausea and slowly inspected the room, and then landed on the piano, which looked extraordinarily beautiful under the sun.

Su Shi has been paying attention to his expression, and when she saw this, she was a little embarrassed and said with a ostentatious smile, "Brother, this is the piano that Dad bought me two months ago, and I begged him for a long time before buying it for me. There is no place to put it at home, so I put it here for you." She dropped the things in her hand, jumped over to open the piano cover and played a few keys at random, and then asked Su Hang excitedly, "Brother, how is it?"

Su Hang nodded slowly, "Very good."

He works outside, saving food and money... Does the family have any money left to buy a piano for Su Shi?

Suhang suddenly felt that he was really exhausted after a night's train ride.Walking to the bed, continue tidying up the bed that Su Shi threw down. After tidying up, he turned to look at Su Shi, and said lightly, "I'm tired, I want to sleep for a while."

"Ah? Oh, then I'll go out first." Su Shi froze for a moment, then hurriedly nodded and went out.

……

Suhang has no friends. In the past, if he was fine at home, he would stay in his room.Here, after closing the door, he no longer has to be careful about other people's emotions.

But now this room is Su Shi's piano practice room.

Su Shi has to practice every day, and if Su's father and Su's mother are free, they will stand by and listen to it.Suhang watched it once, and was not going to be by her side when she practiced.

Since then, every time Su Shi practiced, he would find a reason to go out.

Suhang is not having a good time at home.

Every time he saw his parents, he would subconsciously think about what would happen if they knew that he had been... by a man?

……

Suhang only lived at home for a month, and then boarded the train again to go back to school.

Before he came home, he wanted to go home crazily, and he wanted to go back to the home that people said would never abandon you in his life to heal his wounds.

But he forgot... There is actually no place for him in this home.

After he moved in, there was less laughter at home, and the temper of his parents also increased significantly. Although he never scolded him, most of the time, when he was angry, he would always criticize the other party.

Suhang saw it and just smiled.

Then one day, after being awakened by the nightmare again, he got up to pack his things, and went to buy a train ticket before dawn.

He is physically deformed, he is autistic and cowardly, he is still gloomy now, he is not as lovable as Su Shi, and he will not act like a baby like her... Then leave.

When Suhang left home, the excuse he made was that the place where he worked part-time needed manpower, and they told him to go back. His parents looked surprised, but they didn’t ask him to stay. tuition fees.

Sitting on the train, Suhang recalled the faint guilt in his parents' eyes, buried his head in his knees, and blocked the uncontrollable tears in his eyes.

Are you guilty, but even if you are guilty, they will not get close to him.

Bleeding

There are still many students living in the school who have not returned home, and the dormitory is available.Back at school, I started looking for a job after staying in Suhang for one night.

It's not easy to find suitable jobs, especially in Suzhou and Hangzhou where people can't get in touch with people at all, so the scope of work is limited to a narrow space.

Su Hang searched for two days, either he did not meet the requirements of others, or he was unable to do this.Suhang was discouraged, but there was nothing he could do, so he could only look for it slowly.

A few days later, Suhang finally found a job to place books in the city library.This job is not very easy, but it is a job that only needs to be done diligently and diligently, and the books are sorted out when there is less traffic in the library.There are a lot of books to read in it, which is very suitable for Suzhou and Hangzhou.

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After get off work, Suhang habitually walked towards Anyang's basement.

During the period before the holiday, Suhang wished he could forget who he was, even though he was grateful to Anyang, he still resisted Anyang, the insider.

It was not until he returned to school this time that he had the courage to come to him.

But Anyang disappeared.

In the past half a month since returning to school, I have come to Suzhou and Hangzhou once a day, but I have never met Anyang.At the beginning, Suhang was glad in his heart, but then he became worried, and later he felt a little sad.

Only in front of Anyang, in front of this young man who doesn't seem to take the fact that he was raped by a man seriously, can Suhang have a chance to breathe... He has the courage to tell himself that this is actually not a big deal .

Looking at the rusty iron door in front of him, Suhang reached out and knocked on the door regularly, but there was still no response.Suhang sighed, and just about to knock on the door again, the iron door suddenly opened, and Suhang's hand knocked on Anyang's chest.

Anyang didn't wear a shirt, and Suhang saw his not wide but muscular upper body at a glance. There were many wounds on it. When Suhang turned his eyes, he subconsciously looked at his waist.

There, the hideous wound at the beginning has healed now, leaving only a light red scar.

Suhang observed, Anyang didn't speak, just looked at him expressionlessly, Suhang hurriedly took a step back and said, "You, you are at home."

"What's the matter?" An Yang stood by the door and asked coldly.

Suhang nodded, "Well, how much was the clothes you bought for me last time? And I stayed with you for two days..." Anyang's eyes were too cold, Suhang couldn't bear to lower his head and said, But suddenly saw the reddish marks left on Anyang's body after wiping the blood stains, he couldn't help being startled, moved his head forward, and saw through Anyang's waist that blood was thrown on the ground in the room.