Mr. Butler on the catwalk

Alfred didn't particularly hide from Raul about dating Lilian.

Perhaps for some obvious facts, covering up is not the best way - you can make up many lies, but in the end you still can't find a reasonable explanation.Alfred would not let himself become so embarrassed, so when Raul mustered up the courage to question him, he just looked into Raul's eyes with the calmest expression and said, "I need her to help me Career. Maybe you think I'm mean, but it's not my intention to disappoint you."

His voice was low and tired when he said this.But the way he looked at Raul was still calm and calm.

Lauer hadn't foreseen Alfred's response like this.After all, he was a simple-minded little model who didn't even go to college-he hadn't seen many con artists and actors, and he wouldn't expect to meet someone who was both.He could only be like a stupid goose. After being stunned for a while, he almost forgot what his other problems were.After a long time.He lowered his head and asked in confusion: "...then why are you still sleeping with me?"

Alfred smiled helplessly: "People are creatures who want to sleep with the person they like. Stop asking such silly questions."

There is something wrong with such an explanation.Raul still tried hard to continue: "But you can't be with me and her at the same time..."

"...I need her. And with you, I am very happy." Alfred put his hand next to Raul's ear, paused with his fingertips, but still did not touch Raul's cheek.He smiled bitterly, and then whispered: "...I'm sorry."

……

All the successful businessmen, politicians and con artists in the world - all use the same brilliant technique.That is to use the most sincere language to confuse the mind of the listener, and finally make you accept their behavior that deviates from logic, ethics and justice.

Raul was never smart.So after that, he didn't realize his situation at all, but was complacent, not only claiming to be Alfred's secret lover, but also gave Alfred the key to his own small apartment.

Only Alfred never went.

They rarely saw each other, usually when Lauer was desperately trying to squeeze into a catwalk with Alfred—they met backstage, pretending to be strangers to each other.Then after work, Alfred puts Raul on a shoddy motel bed and stalks him roughly, almost impatiently.It's not that Raul was not without doubts, but when he looked into Alfred's eyes, he could still see the so-called, deep, love.

Those eyes are so sincere and warm, it is almost the limit that a person can imagine.

...But no matter what, Alfred's attitude towards Raul has slowly changed since entering LGM together.

First, Raul began to become eccentric and neurotic-he couldn't concentrate on training, always suffered criticism, and then became a waste without any progress.He thinks he only needs to protect his Alfred, forgetting that he should have friends too.

Alfred didn't talk to him much anymore.The attitude changed from promise to perfunctory, until after working together, Alfred looked at Raul's face coldly because of Raul's drag, and walked away without saying a word.

Raul was still confused, but he became more and more stubborn in his feelings for Alfred—he had already paid so much, and it would be too scary to think of ending this matter.

Even when he saw the news of Lilian and Alfred's engagement in the newspaper that day, he was still happy—Alfred had put in so much effort, and finally got what he had planned so hard.

Lauer was trying so hard to hypnotize himself because that was the only source of happiness for him.

……

In fact, if Raul hadn't picked up this dusty book from the ground today, his hopeless love for Alfred might have persisted.

——This book is the only thing Raul gave Alfred.And now it's under the bed, its pages bent and looking pitiful.

Raul said to himself, perhaps Alfred forgot to return the book to himself.

While giggling dryly, he picked up the book and dusted it.It was only after he accidentally opened the title page that he discovered that his own name, which had been signed earlier, was now covered by the coil drawn by the pen.

Raul had known Alfred for a long time after all.So he knew that one of Alfred's quirks was his aversion to using other people's used things.

—Is it because reading my book makes him feel sick, so he wants to cross out my name?

Raul suddenly felt cold.A smile froze on his face, and his hands began to tremble.

……

It's just a small thing.But in the end, it became what Raul has been avoiding, the last straw that can crush all his fantasies.

……

Regarding his past, Raul did not tell Luo Lin about his mental activities.But just the objective facts he repeated, it was as if his self-esteem had been laid flat on the ground, and then he stepped on it with his own feet.

These unexpected events, as well as Raul's slightly numb expression, made Luo Lin feel that his chest was tight.

Portway bowed his head and apologized to Raul in a low voice.The three of them remained silent until Luo Lin asked Raul, "...what do you want me to do for you?"

"If you want to see her tomorrow... please ask her if she would like to see me. I will wait... If she says no, then I will go away." Raul said so, with the corners of his mouth trying to rise.Portway tilted his head.

Luo Lin took a long breath, and then said to Raul, I understand.

……

After Raul left, Luo Lin stared at the ceiling of the bedroom, staring blankly for a while.

Portovie seemed to be a little depressed by Raul's story, so he just sat aside frowning, with a bad expression on his face.Sniffing, he turned to Luo Lin and asked, "I know you feel sorry for that child... so you just agreed to let him intervene?"

Luo Lin closed his eyes, and then said in a determined tone: "Yes. Actually, I decided not to have any private contact with Lilian. If Raul told her what I wanted to warn the girl, I would have The goal has been achieved. If Raul is just reminiscing with her...then I will not take the initiative to destroy this girl's current life."

Portov looked at Luo Lin: "...What if Lilian didn't agree to see Raul."

"Then I won't say anything. I just want to be a good housekeeper this time, and put an end to my previous career... It sounds pretty good, right?" Luo Lin breathed out, then stood up , smiled at Portway.

……

On the morning of January [-], Luo Lin woke up before the alarm on his phone rang.

This is the weekend of the fifth week of training and a rare day off.No one else in this house would get up early like Luo Lin, and then stand on the steps outside the house, looking at the remaining snow in the future.

Luo Lin was thinking about many things.For example, the banquet to be held at night, such as the current task points.He was also looking forward to the next week's arrangement, but vaguely didn't want to face the reality that the training camp was coming to an end.But all things that come will come.He also knew that he could only focus on the present.

It was very cold outside, Luo Lin turned around, and saw his own face on the foggy window.It was a slightly frowning face, but not sad or angry.For a moment, Luo Lin felt that the man reflected was not himself, but someone else.

Probably something settled in those eyes, it doesn't seem like I have it.

Luo Lin lowered his head.After a while, he stretched out his hand, and his fingertips touched the cold window glass.His body temperature caused the mist to fade, revealing the fire in the side hall of the house that had not been extinguished all night.The firelight looked very warm, Luo Lin narrowed his eyes.

— as if he had chosen to stand outside the house.He also chose to come to this place by himself, chose to be a model, and chose to start a new life.

And those past experiences, whether they are loved, painful, gloomy or happy—no matter what kind of memory they are, they are all chosen by him.Maybe not as much as he wanted, but no one can blame it.

He chose to change himself.So he should gladly accept all these processes and results.It is his luck to encounter good things, and he should not complain when he encounters bad people and things.Just keep going.

It's not about forgetting where you came from and what kind of person you used to be, but to pack these things and walk with them on your back.

Even if you become a different person from the past, it is not a matter of denying the past.There is nothing to regret.There is nothing to be afraid of either.

——"Luo Lin, we're going out now, you should take care of yourself at home."

Ten years ago, he stood at the door of that house, looking at his master and wife in the yard.The driver had the car ready and the sound of the engine was still clear.Before getting into the car, Madam turned around, waved and smiled at Luo Lin.

At the age of 20, he hasn't learned to be truly stable, but he is just trying to wave his hands, because he only wants to take on his own responsibilities, and his face is a little red.

Now, ten years later, he is reviewing this scene from the perspective of a bystander.He felt that the self at that time was so young that it was difficult to catch the eye, but it was also very cute - it made him feel sour from the bottom of his heart.

Today might be the last chance for him to put on the butler's uniform.Luo Lin felt that time passed so quickly—it was time to say goodbye.For those years, as a housekeeper myself.

Luo Lin felt hot-eyed.He looked at his feet, let out a soft "ha", and showed a smile full of regret and emotion.

……

At five o'clock in the evening on January [-]th.

Luo Lin changed into the four-piece tuxedo in Dillilah's servant room.The vice-manager of the banquet was a young Latino, and he extended his hand to Luo Lin with the gold-plated manager's badge.

A line of words was engraved on it - "Loyalty is my eternal glory." Luo Lin followed it silently, then smiled slightly, pushed open the door, and walked to the long corridor outside the door.

05: 30.

Luo Lin came to the owner's dressing room on the second floor.After the briefing, he walked into the pale caramel-colored room.A girl sat in front of the dresser, looking sideways at herself.She was thin, and her ivory skirt was clutched in her hands hanging in front of her body-this was Lilian, the daughter of the media mogul and Alfred's fiancée.But such an identity suddenly became unimportant at this moment.Now she is just a nervous host, and the expectation in her eyes is exactly what Luo Lin should respond to.

Luo Lin took out a beautifully packaged candy from his pocket, but it tasted not too sweet and handed it over.Then he said to Lilian in a gentle voice, please rest assured that this will be a successful banquet.

Following his previous instructions, the maid began to check Lilian's makeup and dress.The girl stood up, holding the hem of the skirt hesitantly and slowly turning around.Luo Lin put his right hand on his left chest, then leaned slightly in front of her, and said to her, you are beautiful.

Luo Lin really thought so.And this sincerity is something that can be conveyed - so the girl shrugged slightly, showing a shy but really touching smile.

six o'clock.

The inspection of the interior lights has been completed.Luo Lin inspected the tablecloth on the long table of the main banquet table, and straightened the hanging lines for the remaining cloth at the corner.The spacing between the candlesticks, the angle of the cups, everything is just right.Luo Lin straightened up and looked around at the other people in the house.The maids are already in their positions, and they are standing at the edge of the room where the shadows are getting thicker.The waiters lined up in a vertical row, with their right hands holding the delivery trays flat and their chests outstretched.The bartender at the bar wipes down the last goblet and puts it on the ledge.The cello in the corner made a ready posture, and the last tuned string still left a lingering sound in the air.The deputy manager is on Luo Lin's left, and the mid-level waiter is on Luo Lin's right.

Luo Lin slowly raised his hand.The gate of the clubhouse slowly opened, and the fountain in the courtyard glowed like amethyst under the light.Along with the sound, the lights on both sides of the walkway light up sequentially from the back to the front—for a moment it was like daytime.

It was a small, brightly lit palace.It's about to welcome its first guest tonight.

It was a quarter past six.

The first Limo pulls up in front of the gate.The six girls got out of the car and walked onto the trail with anxious and excited expressions.The male receptionist who had been waiting by the gate for a long time turned sideways, stretched out his hand, and told them to lead them to the door.

The coater took the girls' coats.The middle-level waiter walked over, bowed slightly, and greeted them in the German used by the girls.The musicians started to play - Luo Lin slowly approached under the gaze of the girls.With a humble but not humble expression, he said to his master's guests, welcome.

While staring at his face, the girls whispered to each other.Luo Lin smiled slightly, not minding it, and began to introduce the decorations in the house to them in a low voice.It's just a simple explanation about the paintings and sculptures, and one or two romantic creation stories have been added into it—the girls listened to such narratives very seriously.After Luo Lin finished speaking, they happened to walk into the room where the banquet was officially held.

These girls are almost reluctant to take their seats.They don't know that they are lucky enough - the banquet master does not run around for everyone, and is more often responsible for making guidance decisions and dealing with difficult emergencies.Being able to get in touch with Luo Lin like this is actually the treatment that the next group of girls didn't get.

When a girl sat down, she accidentally pulled the napkin in front of her.The fork fell to the ground, and the plate was held by Luo Lin's white-gloved hand before it hit the ground.

The girl sat almost in embarrassment.Luo Lin put the dinner plate away, bent down to pick up the fork, and then raised his hand.The waiter behind him replaced the fallen fork with a new one from his hand, and Luo Lin put it back where it should be.

Luo Lin heard the girl's apology.He put his hands very lightly on the back of the girl's chair, and whispered to her from a moderate and polite distance, it's all right.

Then he looked up at the girls, looked at their faces, and smiled the most comfortable smile: "It is my honor to serve you tonight. Please enjoy yourself, everything about tonight .”

Someone lit fireworks on the grass, which happened to be visible from the large French windows of the banquet hall.

It's going to be a wonderful night.

The author has something to say: ...Luo Lin's banquet has begun, and the CTM of the national server wow will also be held today.I zeroed in on the line next to Kane's Bloodhoof.Very sad.I hope this feeling has not been brought into the content of this chapter.