Gather light

Li Ming woke up from a dream, and just opened his eyes to see a familiar face beside him, he rubbed his eyes, and saw Jiang Xiao's fair face with blue lines and a smear of blackness at the corners of his eyes.

"You..." Li Ming was a little confused.

Seeing that he woke up, Jiang Xiao leaned her butt towards him, and said softly, "Did you have a nightmare?"

Li Ming was a little confused when he heard the words, he shook his head: "No, it was a sweet dream."

"I dreamed that I went to count the stars with my grandparents when I was a child." Li Ming smiled lightly and said, "It's just like you counted the stars for me yesterday."

It was early morning, and the sun was slowly rising, blocked by fog, but its outline was invisible.If it weren't for those few rays of summer light, maybe I really couldn't tell the difference.

"What time is it?" Li Ming asked.

"It's four o'clock."

Li Ming smiled and replied, "It's so early."

Jiang Xiao nodded.

"What did I say when I fell asleep?"

Jiang Xiao lowered his eyes, his long eyelashes covered half of his eyes, like the sycamore branches outside the window growing wildly, Li Ming couldn't help but want to pull one out.

"It's nothing, you just kept talking about grandma, and you still looked aggrieved, like a kitten." Speaking of this, Jiang Xiao nodded his forehead, "I thought you were having a nightmare."

"No, I just dreamed about being a child." Li Ming said with a smile, "Grandma always likes to wear a lot of flowers for me, so I feel wronged...it can't be wronged."

Jiang Xiao couldn't imagine his head full of flowers, but he must be so cute.

"That's great." Li Ming sighed.

"What's the matter?"

Li Ming's gaze passed through the window, watching the surging wind and fog, the fluctuations in his heart became more and more intense, like thorns crawling across his heart in the scorching sun, but the thorns were so soft that his heart still felt a little itchy.

"Anyway, it's great that I met you, it's great that I joined this class." Li Ming suddenly stopped and didn't say anything, Jiang Xiao just wanted to speak, but he suddenly said abruptly, "It's really good that there are only two of us in the dormitory assigned."

"It's so convenient to do something bad." Li Ming pointed to his lips and said in a soft voice, "Xiaoxiao, you still owe me a kiss."

The sweetness of chocolate filled the mouth, the flowers of thorns bloomed quietly, and fell to the ground. This kiss was long and gentle, like gently wiping a treasure, but it couldn't help becoming nostalgic. The sound of breathing intertwined and mixed with the morning fog , fresh and refined.

"It's still early." Li Ming poked Jiang Xiao's sleeve, the silky cloth rubbed against his fingertips, "Tell me a story."

Jiang Xiao smiled dotingly, looked at the person who kept approaching him, and leaned against the wall side by side with him: "What are you listening to?"

After careful consideration, Li Ming shook his head and said dissatisfiedly, "I forgot, all the stories you tell are like Little Red Riding Hood."

Jiang Xiao's heart skipped a beat, and this person's casual words seemed to be coquettish, scratching his heart itchy: "Then... what should I do?"

A smirk appeared in the corner of Li Ming's eyes: "Then tell me about your secret love history in freshman year of high school."

"This……"

"Xiaoxiao, Teacher Xiao, Boss Xiao, at the same table." Li Ming tugged at his clothes, the window was not closed too tightly, a few wisps of mist blew in, and Li Ming's eyelashes got a little bit wet.

Jiang Xiao was completely defeated by him, and couldn't hold on for a second.

There is nothing to say about having a crush on this thing, it's like eating grapes, sour and sweet for a while, trying to restrain myself, but can't help but taste the next one.

Jiang Xiao was very patient at that time, every time he pretended to pass by the restaurant casually, and the corners of his mouth couldn't help but raise when he heard the melodious sound of the piano.When the sound of the zither fell, he hurriedly hid behind the tree and watched his figure leave, and his heart would always feel empty, even he himself didn't know why he felt this way.

After learning his name, I quickly looked up everything about him. Knowing that he is so good, I feel even more disappointed.Occasionally, I would meet him a few times, and there would always be many girls around him to watch, and he would smile and push everyone away, reflecting the scorching summer sun, which couldn't help but make people's hearts flutter.

In countless moments, they passed by each other, his breath brushed his cheeks, even the air was sweet.That sense of satisfaction has always been hidden in the deepest part of his heart.

But people's desires are endless. After he added Li Ming's WeChat, he found that Li Ming didn't seem to play WeChat very much, but he would also send some chatter. He searched for these chatter to explore his mood. Just send him some messages of encouragement.

Most of these news flooded the sea of ​​people. On an accidental day, Li Ming might have turned on his phone inadvertently, saw his messages, and saw so many words, he felt a little warm in his heart, and he didn't know why. His QQ.

This was a great surprise for Jiang Xiao, and he also became more cautious. Li Ming's QQ space is very different from Moments, and will record more of his mood.

Jiang Xiao set him as his only special concern, looking at the people passing by and the people in the space, he couldn't help smiling.

He lived in the dark, and he never imagined that after struggling for so long, just a few pieces of music lit up his sky. He wanted to catch it, but he was too afraid of the heat and the burning hand pain.So I can only wait and see silently from a distance, which is enough to be pleasantly surprised.

This memory is too fragmented, Jiang Xiao only picked out his chance encounter with him and how he added him on QQ and talked about it.

"I was quite bored at the time, so I casually flipped through WeChat, and found out why a person sent me so many messages. It felt quite novel, and I was not in a good mood at the time. I was quite moved when I saw it." Li Ming said with a smile.

"Fortunately."

"Fortunately what?" Jiang Xiao asked.

Li Ming plucked his hair to make it tangle with his own: "Fortunately, I met you again in the second year of high school."

Jiang Xiao smiled and replied: "Yes."

"Why did you choose science?" Li Ming asked.

Jiang Xiao thought for a while and replied: "Actually, what they said is true, and it is indeed because of the scholarship."

"If you choose essays and get high test scores, won't there be more scholarships?" Li Ming asked suspiciously.

Jiang Xiao shook his head and replied: "There will be many competitions in the future, both in arts and sciences. Think about it, if a science student goes to participate in a liberal arts competition and gets a very good result, what will happen?"

Li Ming thought for a while, then smiled: "That must be more proud than getting grades in science, the kind that the whole grade is full of wind."

Jiang Xiao tilted his head, hooked his nose, and said, "Yes, that's why the principal said he would give me more bonuses."

"No one would make such a joke about their own future." Li Ming suddenly felt unconsciously disappointed.

Jiang Xiao knew that he would say this a long time ago, and replied: "It's okay, I can still get into a good university if I choose the truth."

"Zi Lian." Li Ming said angrily.

"I learn it from you."

"Xiaoxiao has really gone bad." Hearing this answer, Li Ming's heart was filled with love, and it hit his internal organs.

"Then...it's time for me to ask you." Jiang Xiao looked at the person in front of him and said.

"Ask." Li Ming narrowed his eyes, thinking that there was nothing wrong with him.

"Do you want to take the music or the normal college entrance examination?" Jiang Xiao hesitated for a while, but still asked.

Li Ming was stunned for a long time before slowly answering: "Actually, I don't know, I'm not willing to give up music, but...my parents..."

An awkward atmosphere spread, and the small white flowers outside the window were crumbling and struggling to grow among the emerald green vines.

"I'm asking what you think, not what your parents think." Jiang Xiao said in a gentle tone.

Li Ming shook his head and replied: "I don't know either. My parents... are very kind to me, and I don't want to disappoint them. Music is inherently risky and there are too many variables. If you can’t find the answer, who knows what the future will hold.”

The word "future" sounds full of fantasy and hope, but in fact it is nothing more than an illusory thing, giving you a glimmer of hope, but this hope is too false, invisible and intangible.

Jiang Xiao didn't speak as if he knew the answer a long time ago.

"So which future are you thinking about? Is it the future of our future employment, or how will you rank in the future exam, or..." Li Ming paused, and said word by word, "Or will we be in the future? Together."

Jiang Xiao lowered his head and remained silent.

"You are afraid that this is an illusion, that this is just a short-term love." Li Ming couldn't help but kissed him on the cheek, "You have shown from the beginning that no matter what happens in the future, just grasp the present, and I will I have thought about it countless times at night, and finally waited for me to fully understand it, and you are afraid again, aren't you?"

"I……"

Li Ming didn't give him a chance to continue: "Before we got together, I was always afraid. I was very afraid of giving my heart to others, and I was afraid of being let down. Sometimes I wouldn't even believe Lu Ciyuan. The warmth that was given to me made me feel the truth in this world. I also asked myself if I was gay, but I was afraid that I was, and I didn't know why."

Li Ming shook his head, and continued: "But what I seem to be afraid of is not that I'm gay, and you like me. Because... I like you too, but when I knew you were the rift, my instincts outweighed my reason. One second I was still telling myself that I am not, and the next second I want to be with you right away."

"Aren't you brave before we got together? Why are you so timid now?" Li Ming asked with a smile.

His words filled his heart like beams of light, dispelling the black mist that had just risen.

"I'm not very brave, but after seeing you, I instinctively wanted to be nice to you. I thought I wouldn't dare, but I couldn't help it." Jiang Xiao laughed self-deprecatingly when he said this, "I'm going to What are you thinking about?"

Li Ming tapped the small, almost invisible mole in the corner of his eye: "Who knows."

"I just think all this is too beautiful, and I'm afraid it's fake. It's a bit unfounded." Jiang Xiao smiled.

"Just think about it." Li Ming couldn't help complaining again, "If you go on like this, there will be no way to talk about love."

"Um……"

"The sun is out." Li Ming suddenly pointed to the rising sun outside the window.

"Yeah, it's beautiful."

The sun left the horizon, glowing red, like a dazzling agate disk, moving slowly upwards.Around the red sun, the rays of the sun are completely dyed.The light and rolling clouds, like a girl in red, are dancing.

It is the birth and the future.

The author has something to say:

I originally wanted to make a special episode about Jiang Xiao's secret love history, alas.The plan can't keep up with the changes, I'm so casual.

I'll just talk nonsense, and you can just read blindly.