Rebirth Bias

Su Er looked at Lu Ne and opened his mouth.Lu Na didn't speak, and turned his head to sit down on the bench by the corridor outside the room.

In the ward, Mrs. Lu was lying on her side with her arms pillowed on her arms, and her face was full of depression.Su Er put down his breakfast, because he made the call himself, so he was a little afraid to face Mrs. Lu.Mrs. Lu didn't blame him. Seeing him, she quickly suppressed the expression on her face, and said with a smile, "Mr. Su, I'm sorry, Lu Na is back, so I won't delay you. You should go back and have a good rest. Thank you very much, Lu Na!"

Su Er Nana walked out of the ward, and saw Lu Ne wearing a white sweater and jeans, and a thick army green padded jacket outside. Because he just got off the plane, he looked travel-stained, with a hunched back and red eyes.Su Er stood three steps away, looking at him, seeing the narrow shadow cast by his thick black eyebrows on his face, looking at his lonely and sad side face like a wilderness, feeling a little distressed.

He stood for a while, then turned and walked the other way.When he came back, he had a new bag of breakfast in his hand.Lu Na was still sitting in the original seat. Seeing him, he sniffed and rubbed his frozen face vigorously. He also concealed his emotions and said in a slightly hoarse voice, "Thank you this time. You." After a pause, he asked, "Why are you at my house?"

Su Er refused to say his true intention of wanting to get closer to Lu Ne, so he simply avoided answering, and served breakfast in front of him, raised his eyebrows, and said in a condescending tone as always, "Breakfast."

Lu Na was taken aback, and quickly looked up at him. He paused for a few seconds, and he said, "Thank you, I'm not hungry." He stood up, "I'm going to the doctor's office."

Su Er watched him leave, the breakfast in his hand became cold little by little, as if a hand was digging in his heart.For a moment, hostility surged up, and he wanted to slam the breakfast in his hand against the wall in front of him, but he held back.

Although there was no danger this time, it really frightened Lu Na.He always remembered that Chen Shiyu's grandma fell like this.His rebirth quietly changed the fate of many people. He was afraid that his own butterfly would accidentally fan old lady Lu's lifespan. The thought of such a possibility made him feel terrified.No matter in the previous life or in this life, he has always been rushing forward with a spirit like this, recklessly, stumbling, has succeeded and failed, probably because he knows that no matter how far he goes, there will always be a lamp behind him. The warm lamp will always have a place to return to, so he can go forward like a soldier or a child without being afraid.

Lu Ne walked out of the doctor's office, stood blankly in the corridor for a while, walked to the stairwell, sat on the steps, and took out a cigarette to smoke.The concrete floor was cool and cool, soaking into his bones through the denim fabric.

Suddenly there was a carefree voice from the side, "Hey, when you're not talking, you still look quite profound, a bit like a famous young director!"

Lu Ne turned his head, and through the misty smoke, he saw Su Er leaning on the stairs with his hands crossed and his chest folded. Because of the backlight, he didn't know his expression clearly, but that posture was too familiar. Lu Ne pulled the corners of his mouth and moved He stuffed the cigarette into his mouth and took a puff, staring at a crack in the ground without making a sound.

Su Er was a little stunned and at a loss as he didn't get the usual snarky retaliation. He stared at Lu Ne's hunched back for a while, then walked over and sat down next to him as if nothing had happened, and took the cigarette from his mouth and stuffed it into his own. , inhaled intoxicatedly, then raised his chin slightly, and exhaled two perfect smoke rings in a row, like a teenager eager to join the ranks of adults, keen to play handsome in front of girls, young and straightforward.

Lu Na suddenly felt a little sad.

Seeing Lu Ne's eyes staring at him, Su Er grinned a big smile on his face, like glass beads shining in the sun, without a city, suddenly stretched out his hand and stroked Lu Ne's hair indiscriminately, as if there was a relationship between them. It was as if the previous quarrel and breakup did not exist at all.

But his wrist was grabbed by Lu Ne, and then he slowly put his hand down, looked at him, and said quietly: "Su Yang, don't do this."

Su Er's beautiful fingers held the slender cigarette, and the smoke was lingering. He squinted his eyes slightly as if intoxicated by a nicotine hallucination, and deliberately asked: "How about me?"

Lu Na lowered his head and didn't speak for a long time. Su Er could hardly maintain the expression on his face. Anxiety was running around in his body like a cat. He really wanted to hold it tightly with both hands. , to make yourself appear calm and unrestrained.

Lu Ne's voice was calm and calm, like a quiet and cold river in winter, he said: "No matter why you are there, I am really grateful to you, thank you for showing up at that time, and sending my grandma to you in time. To the hospital, thank you for taking care of her, thank you for not letting her fall into a helpless situation, thank you for not giving me a chance to regret because of negligence..."

Su Er let out a chuckle, then stretched out his hand to stroke Lu Ne's hair, "You're too sloppy to be grateful, at least you can agree with me!"

Lu Ne stopped talking again, the long silence made Su Er start to flustered again, the smile on his face faded like the tide little by little, he licked his lips that were a little dry from the smoke, and said dryly : "At least treat me to dinner—" Suddenly remembering Lu Ne's experience of inviting him to dinner twice, he added with lingering fear, "Don't go to those messy places, let me tell you, every time I go to such places It was a great mental challenge for me."

Lu Ne nodded, Su Er laughed, and stretched out his finger holding the cigarette, intending to put the cigarette into Lu Ne's mouth.But Lu Na twisted his head to hide for a while, gently blocked Su Er's hand, still staring at the ground, and said quietly: "Su Yang, I have been thinking a lot, thinking about why we left to this point?"

Su Er's body froze, and he instinctively didn't want to listen to the next words, but Lu Ne's voice continued to be sent to his ears, "Later I figured it out, I was too reckless and sloppy. From the beginning, I I didn't think about how to get along with men, what problems I would encounter, I didn't think about anything, I just plunged into it. I thought that men should understand men, but I found out that I was wrong. It is my fault--"

Although listening to Lu Na's self-reflection, Su Er's heart became cold little by little, and he interrupted Lu Ne anxiously, "It's okay, I forgive you."

Lu Na raised his head, the corners of his eyes were slightly red, he looked deeply at Su Er, and said, "I'm a director, I make movies, deal with actors, producers, and many, many people of all levels, shoot magazines, It’s my job to do interviews, go into deep mountains and old forests, and there will be no news for several months. I like this job very much. When I'm alone and doing nothing, I can't put all the meaning of my life on one person, I can't do what you want."

Su Er's lips were tightly pressed into a straight line, too hard, his cheeks were as stiff as plaster, and the shape of the bones was clearly stretched out.Lu Na lowered his eyelids, and continued after a while of silence, "The biggest problem between us is that the soil we stand on is different, so you can lightly say that if you block Chen Shiyu, you can block Chen Shiyu, and if you say that you can't get along with me, you can't get along. You never thought that what you ruined might be a person's life."

After saying these words, the stairwell fell into an uneasy silence. After a long time, Su Er, who hadn't spoken for a long time, spoke in a hoarse voice, "I make you feel very tired, don't you?"

Lu Ne didn't answer, he stood up and said, "I'll go see the old lady." He stood up and walked towards the exit.

"Lu Ne!" Su Er panicked and called out to stop him without thinking.

Lu Ne's footsteps stopped, and the strong sunlight came in from outside. Lu Ne's black back was like a tree growing towards the sky, hard and resolute. He didn't look back. After a pause of two or three seconds, he still walked out .Just after taking a step, Su Er's anxious and panic voice came from behind him again, "Lu Ne, I love you!"

Lu Na's body froze, and he was dizzy from the impact of this sentence, his heart was full of mixed emotions, and his nose was sore.

Su Er's heart seemed to be tightly grasped by a claw, which made him suffocate in pain. He stood up on the handrail of the stairs, walked a few steps, walked behind Lu Ne, and said again, "Lu Ne I love you, I love you... I just never dared to say it, I didn't dare to say it, I was afraid that if I said it, you would have to panic, and you wouldn't care about me..."

Su Er's nasal voice was thick, with a little crying sound, Lu Ne's heart seemed to be soaked in vinegar, he couldn't imagine that Su Er would cry, and wanted to turn around, but resisted not turning back.Su Er stretched out his hand, pulled Lu Ne's sleeve carefully, and begged, "Lu Ne, let's not separate, okay?"

Lu Na finally turned his head away, and saw Su Er clutching his chest tightly with one hand, his whole face wrinkled in pain, seeing Lu Na finally turned his head to look at him, forced a smile, and said, "Lu Na , I'm in so much pain—"

Lu Na's sentimental mood immediately disappeared, and his heart was furious, "Su Er, can you stop doing this?" As soon as he finished speaking, Su Er suddenly fell to the ground with a lump , curled up, and in just a few seconds, the blood on his face had faded completely, and he was as pale as if he had just been fished out of bleach water. He was panting rapidly, and his body began to twitch slightly.

"Su Er? Yang'er!" Lu Naxian thought that Su Er was pretending again, but there was no way, the wolf had come many times, and Lu Ne became subconscious.But he immediately realized that something was wrong. Su Yang's symptoms were like acute myocardial infarction. He was so frightened that he knelt down beside him and slapped his face, "Yang'er, listen to me, cough hard, cough hard , don't stop!" Turning his head and shouting loudly towards the door.