dying every day

The Birth of Two Ming Nine

If you want to talk about the so-called proud sons of heaven, then Naruto Uzumaki will be one of them.It's a pity that I don't know how it came from a joke. He should have a strong father and a gentle mother, but he has become the Jinzhuriki of the tailed beast, named as the birth of responsibility and love. No one has ever asked him if he would like to I want this kind of life.

Perhaps Uzumaki Naruto had already died when Kyuubi was sealed into his body.What remains in the world is only Nine-Tails Jinchuriki.Apparently, his life as Injurik was definitely not smooth sailing. He didn't protect his family, and he didn't understand his friends. The social relationship left by his parents was like a joke, and he didn't enjoy any of it.Alienated, disgusted and incomprehensible, the gazes around him made him despair, he shrank in a small circle, but he was unable to resist.

As long as he can remember, he lived in the cheap house assigned by the village. The house was very dilapidated. As early as when he moved in, the surrounding residents moved out one after another. He lived in a veritable suburb, and the nanny sent to take care of him Not responsible, perhaps his deepest childhood memory is: not changing clothes frequently and always getting red prickly body, always not full stomach and feeling the cold when winter comes.

Residents are always victims, and victims will always suffer, and it is the perpetrators who bear the pain.

He was watched by the Anbu people at every step. Even in the dead of night with his keen facial features, he could still feel the vigilance and murderous eyes focused on him. Innocently hurt, he returned to his own little place with all his injuries, except for bandaging himself and soaking the pillow towel with tears... what else could he do other than cheer up and cheer up again?

He does not have great strength, his chakra is always disobedient, the simplest ninjutsu must put in ten times and a hundred times more effort than ordinary people to be effective, and he lacks the correct guidance for the practice of taijutsu or shuriken. Can't always get the hang of it.He envied Sasuke Uchiha, who was always clean and confident, envied that he had an elder brother who loved him, and imagined that one day his own family would come to him and recognize him.

However, ninjas have never been the children of the gods. Even Sasuke Uchiha, who is so different from him, became the so-called survivor overnight, and Naruto Uzumaki's life continued.He hates himself who is not taken seriously. Those people always ignore him. Maybe someone gave some orders. When he was a child, he would at least call him a fox monster in front of his face. After he entered school, he adopted another method. manner.

But in fact, he would rather go back to the days of being scolded and stoned than being ignored, even being denied existence itself.At least at that time, those people will face up to themselves.I don’t know how many years I spent between pranks. At this time, only Iruka would approach him, invite him to dinner occasionally, and teach him like an ordinary parent. Apologizing to others while beating him, sometimes I really think that if I have parents, it should be like Iruka.

He doesn't like Kakashi-sensei, and it's not right to say that.He likes Mr. Kakashi. His strength and maturity are what Naruto desires, but his indifference and determination are also annoying to Naruto.It brought back a lot of bad memories for him.

Those powerful Anbu will always be in the dark, looking at him with such indifferent eyes, even if he cries, abuses himself or curses, it is so cold, cold... He knows that there is someone beside him, but no matter what he does What, the other party just looks at you coldly, as if looking at some kind of decoration. After a long time like this, Naruto feels extremely frustrated, which is more uncomfortable than loneliness.

I wonder if such a powerful teacher was once a member of those Anbu?Putting on an elder's face and smiling at him like this, could it be just pretending?Because ninjas are good at camouflage.

Trust may have been abandoned long ago, he is used to deceiving himself.As a ninja who is the first in unexpectedness, he has a copy ninja as a teacher, a genius partner, and a cute girl who doesn't know the hardships of life as a partner.Deceiving yourself actually has people who care about you.

Until Sasuke betrays.He actually didn't know the beginning of the matter. At that time, the third Hokage died, the village was overwhelmed, and everyone was in pain. What others didn't know was that Naruto at that time was even his own little boy. They didn't dare to go back to the house, but curled up in the dark of the street day and night, like a stray dog.

The angry and desperate people seemed to remember again that there was a monster in the village who could bully and insult anyone. Cow dung was piled up on the door of his house, the windows were smashed by stones, and the only furniture inside had been shattered. smashed.The emotions of the people who lost their loved ones were uncontrollable. In the invasion planned by Orochimaru, almost all children under the age of 12 died.

A large number of ninjas were killed or injured, when Orochimaru escaped and Sand Hidden Village was found not guilty... Should he accept the fate of being angered like this?He obviously didn't do anything... He tried to find Iruka, but Iruka's house was empty, he tried to find Kakashi, but he didn't know where Kakashi lived, he could only watch from a distance He watched Xiao Sakura stay in his home, playing with his doll carefree, and occasionally when Xiao Sakura's parents saw him, they would slam the doors and windows shut.

He is used to going to the hospital to see Sasuke, the battle between Sasuke and Gaara made him seriously injured and hospitalized, but after seeing Sasuke, there seemed to be nothing but meaningless quarrels.He felt an inexplicable emptiness, and his loneliness was so heavy that he couldn't breathe. He found that he had very few friends and very few people to whom he could confide.

Sasuke defected, he found Sakura who was under control, and then saw a man wearing a whirlpool mask, and when he woke up from the opponent's illusion, Sakura was also awake.Sakura begged him to recover Sasuke, because she was controlled, did something and said something, which made Sasuke decide to leave the village and defect.

But why are you looking for him?Naruto felt that he was weak, although he didn't want to admit it, but he didn't accept Kakashi's teacher's positive teaching, only a half-formed spiral ball ninjutsu could be used, even when he defeated Neji. He tried his best to face Shikamaru's death and the rejection of the villagers with his own eyes... Do I have the ability to recover the genius Sasuke?

【If Sasuke doesn't come back, I will never forgive you!You don't come back either! ] After seeing her hesitation, Sakura seemed to use all her strength to yell out this sentence.

Looking at the girl staring at him, Naruto felt strange for the first time.No, they probably didn't know each other well at first.In fact, he is very envious of Sakura: she can boldly pursue what she loves, speak out what she loves, has parents who love her, and friends who love her...

I suddenly realized that I was actually a person from two worlds.It's not just Sakura, he was isolated by everyone in another closed world from the very beginning.He was alone from beginning to end.

Who is he?Is it Uzumaki Naruto, or Nine Tails.

[Little ghost, accept me... together we can... destroy Konoha... destroy everything...] This voice kept echoing in my mind, it was the voice of Kyuubi.

【Don't you want it?Change this stupid fate. 】Before Sasuke left, he seemed to ask him this sentence, and then looked at him and smiled, as if standing in front of him, he was just a numb puppet.

I also want to change... I don't like this kind of life.Even if you are hurt, you have to force yourself to smile, because even if you cry, no one will care.Take heart when you are injured, because no one cares about me even if I bleed or get sick.I want to be cared about...

At the moment when the consciousness finally collapsed, it seemed that I heard a different voice in the body. It was a male voice, or a female cry... It doesn't matter, I'm so tired...

It's Sharingan...is it Sasuke?No, Sasuke's eyes don't look like this.That person... who is it?It looks like Sasuke... I seem to have seen it somewhere... I must have seen it, a long, long time ago... Uchiha...Itachi?

Naruto Uzumaki's life ended at the age of 12, and what appeared in front of everyone again was an unknown man dressed as a gloomy samurai.He doesn't have a name of his own, Master Tianji who gave him his name is everything to him.From Master Tianji's side, one can find the meaning of his existence.

However, what remains is the demonic barrier that belongs to Uzumaki Naruto, or it may be Kyuubi's will that is unwilling to be fused and consumed, or it may be the will of others... always trying to take him to another unknown place.When telling Master Tianji about this deduction, that daimyo issued a strange mission after being silent.

When he saw Uchiha Itachi again, it was during the days of recuperating after sending a letter to Kazekage and being targeted by Akatsuki's minions.

Although the recovery speed of the body's wounds is still different from that of human beings, it is difficult to heal the injuries quickly.He saw Uchiha Itachi in the abandoned house in the suburbs where he stayed.His Sharingan makes him irritable, he has never liked the Uchiha clan, just like he and Yan, Xia, and Dong have never been at odds.But according to the mission, he joined the organization Uchiha Itachi said.

It's not Akatsuki, it's an organization made up of another person, the leader is Uchiha Madara, or in other words, Uchiha Obito.That, the man who instructed Sakura to make Sasuke defect, and caused the Uchiha genocide tragedy...

The person who killed Tsukino was none other than him, and the reason was to gain the trust of Uchiha Obito.Occasionally, Ming Jiu would suddenly dream of that woman at night.Maybe it can't be said to be a woman, and that person is not much older than himself.But there was something about her that he envied, even ugly, envied.

When the sharp blade was sent into the woman's heart, she heard the woman laugh. 【Poor man...】 She said so. [You must be very confused, confused about the meaning of your existence, confused about everything you do...] After being said like this, it was rare to get angry.

Don't you feel lost?

Perhaps because she was seen through the question, she answered. 【That's great... died before the plan...】Plan?

[Don't die too early, Ming Jiu...] You are the one who died, right?

【It’s a wonderful world, my lord.Tsukino... really... saw it... great, it was before that... had to... die...] The life of a ninja is really strange.Why on earth are you struggling with so many ridiculous questions?Who constructed the frame and locked the ninja firmly inside.The so-called meaning of living...why, can't I live for myself?

【It's finally coming to an end... Are you happy, Mingjiu?It might not be perfect, but it's still better than before, right? 】My lord's hand on the head is so warm, I don't want to leave. [So go find it, the life that belongs to Ming Jiu, what you want to do, what you want to say, you can do whatever you want. 】【Then, I want to stay with the lord. ] Mingjiu answered.

【Okay... My side will always be your destination.That's it. 】Such a gentle lord is my destination, and the restless heart can always find peace by his side.

Such a life is really good... When you are free, you can walk around, when you are angry, you can run amok, and when you are tired, you can return to the lord's side... Really, a perfect life.Is this the peace that Naruto and Kyuubi both want to find?

It has been more than twenty years since the founding of the Kingdom of Heaven, and the ninjas no longer live in the same strict selection process as they did before, as if there is nothing else they can do except become stronger.Some people may not want to be a ninja, but do other occupations.

Just when the swallows on the eaves moved away, Ming Jiu finally walked out of the house where he had stayed for a month, and then saw someone who shouldn't be there.

Uchiha Itachi and Sasuke are brothers who depend on each other, Haruno Sakura who is married and has a child, Mr. Kakashi who is showing old age, Mr. Iruka who is holding a child, and many others...

"Naruto..." the woman named Haruno called him that.

Ming Jiu looked at the woman.Said the lines he has maintained for more than 20 years. "I am Nai Mingjiu, Master Tianji's close first-class guard. It is not the so-called Uzumaki Naruto in your mouth."

He held his own knife, although his steps were staggering and his eyes were dark, he still walked unswervingly.Because the lord has said that people should sit up straight and walk upright, and there is a very good way to do it.

After a month of hunger strike, the flame of life still hasn't died down.He began to hate such a body, so he walked to the Kingdom of Fire and came to the king's tomb.The epitaph in front of the king's tomb, the black blood on the stele, even after a year, still survived the test of wind and rain.

He knelt down and stretched out his hand to slowly describe the inscription on it. "I'm sorry, my lord. You are such a gentle lord, please forgive this one and only disobedience..."

At the moment when the knife was aimed at the heart and penetrated, it seemed that I saw those people who were always hovering by the lord's side, and couldn't be driven away no matter how hard they tried...I really envy those people, relying on the lord's gentleness, they chose immediately died at the same time.Ming Jiu also wants to be like them...

Now, I am finally not afraid of being angry with the lord, because the pain of losing you, the pain of losing the habitat... I can't bear it anymore.The meeting is a year late, I hope...you can forgive me.

Lying on the ground, feeling his brain shut down gradually, during that difficult time, he seemed to finally understand what Yue Ye said before his death.

If the price of witnessing that world is to leave you, watch you slowly being eroded by death, and lose that warm smile and gentle touch forever, it is better... to die when you need it.