Is the senior going home today?

Lin Qianxing ran to four pharmacies to get the two kinds of medicines, and hurried back with a small plastic bag.

Danxia Lane has been going on for a long time. Asphalt has been re-paved in the middle of the road. The paving is very perfunctory. Reflects faint light.Lin Qianxing buried her head on the road, with a long shadow behind her.

Inadvertently looked up and saw two people standing at the fork in the alley, both wearing white school uniform T-shirts and dark blue school pants, tall and thin.

The taller one is carrying a backpack and holding a high-seat silver mountain bike.The other standing next to him was a little shorter, with his schoolbag slung across his shoulders, his hands in his trouser pockets, and he lowered his head to listen to the man holding the carriage.

Lin Qianxing squinted his eyes. He had never seen the taller one, and the shorter one was his younger brother Jiang Ran.

Not knowing what to say, Jiang Ran suddenly started shaking his head.

The tall man reached out and touched the top of his head, then hooked his head again and said something. Jiang Ran was silent, lowered his head and kicked the pebbles under his feet, a small round bone protruded from the back of his long neck, hanging down The broken hair on the eyebrows trembled slightly.

The tall man put his hand on his shoulder again, and patted him twice, like encouraging and comforting.

In the past, Lin Qianxing would not have glanced at the two boys standing together talking, touching their heads, and pressing their shoulders, but after he and Yuan Ze were together, seeing such scenes again, he felt a little different. kind of feeling.

The fork in the road is the only way to go back to No. 46. Lin Qianxing slowed down, not thinking whether to say hello or turn around and pass by as if he didn't see him, so he walked along the side of the road slowly.

Jiang Ran suddenly raised his head, his face was covered with moonlight, he closed his eyes and paused for a while, when he lowered his head, he glanced at the way back and forth, raised his hand and waved, "Lin Qianxing."

The tall boy beside him followed his gaze, pursed his lips and tilted his head.

"Hey, Jiang Ran, I won't go home after studying at night." Lin Qianxing shook the plastic bag in his hand, crossed the road, and stood beside Jiang Ran.

"Chuck, this is Lin Qianxing." Jiang Ran introduced the two people in one sentence.

"Oh, you're Chuck," Lin Qianxing smiled, he had a preconceived impression of boys who like pets, "My brother, why are you standing here and talking? Go, talk while walking." Get down on Jiang Ran's shoulder, lift your foot and walk in the direction of No. 46.

"No, brother," Chu Ke turned around while holding the handle of the mountain bike, and glanced at Jiang Ran, "I'm not on your way, my house is over there." He raised his finger and pointed in the opposite direction, and stepped on the car seat.

The legs of such a high seat can still support the ground, the legs are really long.Lin Qianxing secretly gestured in his heart, brother Yuan's legs are also long, who has the longer?But brother Yuan's Moulton is too short, so tall, and buy such a small car, what do you think?

Chu Ke raised his chin at Jiang Ran, pressed the car bell, and let out a series of "jingle bells", "Let's go, Jiang Ran, see you tomorrow. Let's go, brother." Greeted one by one before leaving, very polite.

Watching Chu Ke turn into another fork in the road, the two turned back and walked home. "What did you buy?" Jiang Ran saw the plastic bag in Lin Qianxing's hand, with the words "big green pharmacy" printed on it, hooked the shoulder strap of his schoolbag and lifted it up, "Medicine? Who is sick?" gone?"

"Well, just... ointment." Lin Qianxing unnaturally hid her hand holding the medicine bag behind her back.

"Yuanze's?" Jiang Ran glanced at the transparent plastic bag with lowered eyelids, and guessed intuitively.

"Well, Brother Yuan," Lin Qianxing suddenly raised his hand and patted Jiang Ran on the back, "You boy, it's fine if you don't call me brother, but you don't call me brother Yuan, it's because I didn't teach you well, right? "

"I use you to teach? What do you teach me? You are 10 months older than me," Jiang Ran touched his back with his backhand, and suddenly approached, staring into Lin Qianxing's eyes, "How about you teach me how to Falling in love with a man? Huh?"

Facing Jiang Ran's foggy eyes unexpectedly, Lin Qianxing was stunned, and after realizing it, he pushed him away, "Damn it, Jiang Ran, scare me, you're sick." Lin Qianxing was a little annoyed, "Remember your third year of high school, you understand what the college entrance examination means, right? One point, one playground, let me pass the exam on No. 46 smoothly, and stop thinking about it."

"You can do it after the college entrance examination, right?" Lin Qianxing was so strong that he didn't hold back his hand when he pushed him. Jiang Ran was pushed back two steps, "Lin Qianxing, can it be done after the college entrance examination?"

"I can't fucking control you, you can do whatever you like." Lin Qianxing felt that something was wrong with Jiang Ran tonight, as if he was suppressing some emotions to offend him.He was not in the mood to think about it, and hurried back to take care of Brother Yuan.

The wrist was tightly clenched, and Lin Qianxing knew who it was. He took a long breath and was about to speak, but Jiang Ran slammed him onto a big camphor tree by the roadside without saying a word. My back hurts from the rough tree trunk.

Immediately afterwards, the schoolbag on Jiang Ran's shoulder slipped to the ground, and the whole person threw himself on him, hugging him tightly.

"Fuck...Jiang Ran, are you fucking crazy?" Lin Qianxing reached out to push his shoulder. When did this kid get so strong?It's impossible for the two of them to fight here.

"Don't move, Lin Qianxing, don't move, please," Jiang Ran rubbed his head against Lin Qianxing's chest, begging in a low voice, "Hold me for a while, I won't do anything, just hug for a while, just for a while. …”

Lin Qianxing was dumbfounded.

"I just want to hug you for a while, don't push me, brother," Jiang Ran tightened his arms, his heart was beating violently, "You see, I already call you brother, am I very obedient? Hug me for a while, we didn't Do you often hug and play together? Did I scare you? You ignore me now."

When it comes to Lin Qianxing when he was a child, there is nothing wrong.

When he moved from No. 46 to his parents, and then moved back from his parents to No. 46, Jiang Ran accompanied him, asked him if his wound hurt, and waved a branch saying that he would avenge him.

He always has nightmares when he sleeps, and Jiang Ran is lying beside him, holding his hand... This brother treats him very well.

"I didn't ignore you, Jiang Ran." Lin Qianxing patted him on the shoulder and withdrew, "I open the door every day and wait for you to come back. I'm also afraid that something will happen to you on the way after school is too late."

"Why is it different after one summer vacation, Lin Qianxing, why?" Jiang Ran asked confusedly, "Why did you get together with Yuan Ze? What's the matter with you?"

"What's going on? He likes me and I like him. Is this difficult to understand?" Lin Qianxing didn't want to hide this matter. He saw the pain in Jiang Ran's eyes, and he wanted to smash it accurately. Let a nail go down, smash Jiang Ran's fantasy, wake him up, and let him look forward.

"But I fucking like you, I've loved you for so many years, I dare not tell you that I like you," Jiang Ran frowned and looked up at Lin Qianxing, with his arms still tightly around his waist, "You What the hell is going on, you don’t want me if you say you don’t want me.”

"I didn't want you, you've always been my brother," Lin Qianxing panicked, and it was the first time he listened seriously to Jiang Ran saying that liking him was not a love between brothers, but another kind of liking that was more intimate. A feeling that he will never be able to repay, "Is my brother a bad guy? Did it make you sad?"

"Yes, you didn't do well. You made me fall in love with you, and then you didn't want me. You dragged your boyfriend in front of my eyes every day, and you still waited for me every day, reminding me of this, reminding me of that, what do you want me to do? What else can I do besides going crazy? This is all your fault, please compensate me." Jiang Ran stared at Lin Qianxing, "I want compensation, brother, I want your compensation."

"What compensation do you want? Brother, I will give you a suite in the future, okay? No. 46 demolition, you have a set, is that okay?" Lin Qianxing has no other choice. What can he compensate Jiang Ran?All he could take out were the few houses after demolition. He was willing to give them to Jiang Ran.

Send him Jiang Ran with the house?Is he like this in Lin Qianxing's mind?Staying by his side is to break the house?

"Lin Qianxing, do you think you are cruel? To me," Jiang Ran restrained himself, with the tip of his nose close to the side of Lin Qianxing's face, both of them smelled of the same white magnolia shower gel, "I want a fucking house What? I want you."

Lin Qianxing turned his head to the side, and began to clenched his fists.

What I wanted to say came out all at once, and the boulder that was pressing on my chest was removed.That's what Jiang Ran wanted, he wanted Lin Qianxing to listen carefully to what he said, he wanted Lin Qianxing to know that he wasn't joking, he wanted Lin Qianxing to know that he liked him for a long, long time...

Even if there is no response, Jiang Ran will let him know.

It's easy to say it, but the heart is dead.

Lin Qianxing turned his eyes to look at him, his eyes were full of guard.Jiang Ran laughed silently, and let go of his arms, "Lin Qianxing, did I scare you? I thought you would beat me up."

Lin Qianxing maintained the posture with his hands drooping just now, let go of the heart he had been holding up a little bit, relaxed his body leaning against the camphor tree, and slid down a little.In any case, he believed in Jiang Ran, Jiang Ran was calm and restrained, and would never cross the line to offend.

"I'm calm now, Lin Qianxing, brother, but what I just said is true," Jiang Ran reached out and pulled the hem of Lin Qianxing's T-shirt, "I want you, can you make it up to me?

"I can't fucking." Lin Qianxing bit his lower lip, "Jiang Ran, what's wrong with you today? You're so muddled. Can you stop being like this?"

"Did you go to bed?" Jiang Ran suddenly looked at Lin Qianxing and asked, "Your plastic bag is quite see-through." He pressed his left lip again and smiled, "Your place...is broken."

Lin Qianxing: ...

"You go back first, brother, go back and take care of your Yuan Ze," Jiang Ran stepped aside, bent down to pick up the schoolbag that fell on the ground, "I'll go back by myself later."

"..." Lin Qianxing frowned and glanced at him, put one hand in his trouser pocket, turned around and left, "Come back early, it's too dark outside."

Jiang Ran stood under the ancient camphor tree with his schoolbag in his hand, watching Lin Qianxing walk away.Then he threw the schoolbag by the tree, leaned against the big tree, and sat on the ground slumped.

The huge umbrella-shaped canopy cast a large black shadow of the tree. From a distance, Jiang Ran looked like a whitish leaf falling from the top of the tree.

Sitting blankly for a while, Jiang Ran turned sideways, took out a cigarette and a lighter from the interlayer of his schoolbag, took out one and put it in the corner of his mouth, lit it, took a deep breath, and hid himself in the light blue smoke and the dense shade of trees.

He has made up his mind to leave the city.

Two months ago, the police station called him, asked him about his situation carefully, and told him that his biological parents were coming to find him.Jiang Ran refused to meet, he didn't need any parents, he grew up without parents, he wanted to guard Lin Qianxing.

For two months, the police station kept calling him, saying that his biological parents had a strong desire to see him, but he refused all of them.

The strong desire belongs to them. What does it have to do with them? See you when you want to see them, and lose them when you want to lose them?Is he Jiang Ran something?There is no one he wants to see in this world, except Lin Qianxing.How nice it is to see Lin Qianxing every day, Jiang Ran doesn't go anywhere.

But now, seeing Lin Qianxing every day has become a kind of torture. Jiang Ran can't take it anymore. He wants to run away and return to his biological parents, no matter how much he hates them.He ran away in a panic, fearing that he would not be able to control himself and do something wrong.

He wanted to forcefully tear Lin Qianxing out of his heart, even if his heart was torn to pieces, he still had to take that step.

He's still young isn't he?What a long life, if it's all pain, what's the point of all the persistence?

Lin Qianxing is the older brother, and he, Jiang Ran, can only be Lin Qianxing's younger brother.

There was already a small pile of cigarette butts and ash at his feet. Jiang Ran took out the last one and lit it. His throat was dry and his saliva hurt. He was numb and continued to smoke. He wanted to punish himself for liking someone he couldn't like. Punish yourself for being mean.

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