night lights up

I thanked him, Chu Heng still just smiled at me.

I really don't want to repeat those few adjectives about my smile to him again, but he really still smiles that clean, refreshing, and a little silly.

Even, it's a little nicer.

Good to see that I am willing to use these adjectives countless times to describe.

For a short while, I was blessed to my heart, as if when he smiled at other people, he was only clean and refreshing, not stupid?

Or, I'm just reading it wrong.Or maybe I haven't seen enough.

After all, before yesterday, I had only seen him twice.

After introducing the pen, I continued to bow my head.

He didn't move, just sat quietly next to me.

Just like he drove me home last night, the two of us still didn't speak.We are not familiar with each other, experience and so on are all different, there is nothing to say at all.But I don't feel embarrassed if I don't talk like this.

only--

I took a deep breath, put the pencil case on the coffee table, and stood up.

He was slightly startled, and wanted to get up with me.I have turned to face him, my expression should be a little abnormal, he paused again, did not stand up, just looked up at me puzzled.

I tried my best to calm down, but my hands and feet were still trembling, but I finally said: "Senior, thank you."

"No, it's okay." He seemed to be getting nervous instead, talking in short pauses.

I nodded, and reached out to unbutton the black suit vest on my body.

He was completely stunned, looking at me, speechless.

I gritted my teeth, speeded up my hands, quickly unbuttoned the vest, and took it off directly.With a loose hand, the clothes fell to the ground.

I didn't dare to look at his face anymore, I lowered my head to unbutton my shirt again.

My hands were shaking badly, but I still had the courage to try to pull myself together. While my fingers were shaking, I was unbuttoning them at a very fast speed.When I got to the fifth button, my hand was suddenly covered by a palm.

My hands stopped and shook even more.

I didn't even dare to look up.

I don't know what this behavior conveys.

Did he want to explain it himself, or did he not want to explain it at all, or did he finally look down on me.

I am exactly this kind of person.

No wonder they called me fake and lofty. After being forced to this level, didn't they start to unbutton me?

I was a little scared in my heart, and that extreme inferiority complex emerged again.

But his hand didn't move away for a long time, his palm was really warm, and his palm was so steady, just like his steady pace when he walked through the summer sun.

But this can only bring out my flustered and ugly side more and more.

In the rush and blankness, I seemed to hear a sigh.

There was another sigh, before I could think clearly, Chu Heng's palm still covered my fingers, but he stood up.He took a step closer to me, and I took a step back.

His other hand gently held my right shoulder, preventing me from backing away.

Even my shoulders started shaking.

He also finally let go of the covering palm, and withdrew his hand holding my right shoulder.I just felt strangely lost, and he has already buttoned the fifth button for me with both hands, from bottom to top, and then buttoned each button one by one, which was untied by myself.

Should be embarrassing, right?

But I'm not embarrassed.

I looked up at him in confusion, his eyes slightly bent towards me, and he fastened the last button around my neck.

His fingers accidentally touched my neck, it was a little warm and itchy, and I couldn't help but flinch again.

He straightened my collar again.

I kept looking at him, even when he was buttoning his eyes downcast.

I said, "You spent 1000 million."

The voice is trembling, just like mine.He nodded, his face still calm.He bent down again to pick up my vest on the ground, and was about to help me put it on.I dodged back and whispered in disgust: "I don't want to wear this." It was this dress that pinched my waist so thin.

Nausea.

He nodded and put the vest on the sofa.

He stretched out his hand and wanted to pull me again, and I hid again.

Some courage really can only exist for a while, 1000 million, I can't afford it!I'll say it again: "You spent 1000 million!"

To embolden me, I emphasize my tone.

He nodded, the cloud was calm and the wind was light.

I was even more anxious, and even my voice became louder: "It's 1000 million! It's not 100 million, and it's not [-]!"

He continued to nod.

I'm about to break down what the heck it means.Is there anyone who can help with this?No matter how much money there is, it shouldn't be.After so many blows today, I finally couldn't hold it anymore. I was on the verge of collapse and said louder to him: "You spent 1000 million, and you bought me!" "Still, senior, you look down on me at all, do you think I'm dirty?"

I don't know why I said this, I said louder: "I haven't been touched, I-"

I want to say, I am not dirty.

I was begging someone to sleep with me.

I really can't afford to pay 1000 million, and I can only rely on my body to pay it back.

I'm so mean.

But this is the only way.

I don't even know what the hell I'm talking about, what am I thinking?

I was shaking.

Chu Heng interrupted me and called me: "An Sifeng."

"I'm not dirty—" I said it again before I woke up.

"An Sifeng." Chu Heng called me again, he took a few steps closer to me, stood in front of me, looked down at me seriously.

I looked up at his clean and worried eyes, and gradually calmed down.

He stretched out his hand again, as if he wanted to touch me, but maybe he was afraid of scaring me, so he stopped his hand.

He looked at me and said to me softly: "Don't be afraid, nothing will happen."

When he looked at me like this, his eyes were really super warm, as if they could always warm my heart.I suddenly felt aggrieved, I also looked at him, and I whispered: "But you spent a lot of money..."

"It's ok."

"There's too much money, I can't afford it..." My voice was even softer, and I became more and more aggrieved.

I don't want this either, I really don't want things to develop like this.

I have fallen to this point, and I still have to talk about this, I don't want to owe others too much.

Somewhat funny.

But this is the kind-hearted senior Chu Heng, not those disgusting old men who don't treat me as a human being.

Chu Heng still said softly: "I don't have any other intentions, don't be too nervous."

I can't forget that number: "1000 million..."

"For me, it's nothing."

"But--"

"Let's go."

"Huh?" My attention was immediately diverted by him.

He smiled at me: "You walk with me."

I wondered: "1000 million, just take a walk?"

My expression at this moment should be very silly, because Chu Heng laughed out loud immediately, he finally stretched out his hand, touched the top of my head, and said: "Let's go."

Who would like to be in a place like this?

I can go, of course I will.I ignored his hand on my head, and nodded immediately: "I, I'll go down and get my schoolbag!"

I originally wanted Chu Heng to wait for me downstairs, but he followed me step by step out of the suite door.Before going out, I looked back at this gorgeous suite and thought, there really are such noble people in the world.

I went to the fifth floor to change clothes and take my schoolbag.

Chu Heng was waiting for me outside, and many colleagues came out to watch.I didn't feel anything, I was afraid that Chu Heng would be uncomfortable.People like seniors shouldn't be here!I was embarrassed and rushed out with my schoolbag in my arms. Before I went out, I heard someone behind me getting angry.

I couldn't care less and rushed out the door.

Chu Heng was also surrounded by a few people who seemed to be "teasing" him.

There was an unknown fire in my heart, and with a cold face, I went up and grabbed Chu Heng's hand, and pulled him out.

"Tch, I really take myself seriously!" One of them shouted dissatisfied.

I turned around and gave him a hard look, then dragged Chu Heng into the elevator.

As soon as I entered the elevator, I looked at Chu Heng and said, "Don't bother with them! Don't bother with them either!"

He looked at me with a smile, and then at our holding hands.

I was at a loss for words, regained my composure, and secretly let go of his hand.

Chu Heng was quite famous, and before going out, the doormen all paid attention to him.

Although it's not time to get off work, no one will stop us.

I was staring at them, thinking of another thing, I asked Chu Heng: "Senior...you are here today, will it affect you badly?"

Chu Heng patiently told me: "No, no one knows me. And I told the person in charge, and no one will tell what happened today."

"That's fine." I sighed in relief.

I wanted to put my schoolbag on my back, but he saw it sideways and reached out to me.

"I'll carry it myself..."

"Hang on the faucet later."

"Oh..." He still took the schoolbag, and I thought of another question, "Senior, why don't you drive? Don't you have a driver's license?"

Every time he talked to me, he was very serious. He turned his head and said to me carefully as usual: "I think riding a bicycle is better, and it can also exercise my body."

"Oh..." I glanced at him secretly, he was tall and well proportioned.Although I'm wearing clothes, I can tell that the inside of the clothes should be good... So I was thinking about something messy, I shook my head.

While talking, he walked to the garage, bent down to unlock the car, and hung my schoolbag on the faucet.

We agreed to go for a walk, so I asked him, "Senior, where do you want to go for a walk?"

I pictured him riding his bike to a place he likes, and then we went for a walk.

He smiled at me: "Send you home."

"..."

"Let's go." He had already stepped forward.

He walked a few steps before I came back to my senses and followed him closely.

At first he was walking in front and I was behind. I didn't dare to go forward, and I don't know why.

But looking at our shadows on the ground separated by a little distance, I don't like it very much.I ran a few steps, ran to his side, and called him softly: "Senior."

He looked at me sideways, still smiling.

The smile is so beautiful, I want to talk to him inexplicably, and say a lot of words.But I was afraid that what I said would make him laugh, and I was also afraid of saying the wrong thing.I was a little depressed, and then he started the conversation first.He asked me what classes I have tomorrow, so there is something to say.He then asked me which courses I liked, why I wanted to major in ancient literature, and whether the courses were tight and whether I was tired from taking them.

I even asked which cafeteria I like to eat and which dish in the cafeteria.

It turns out we have so much to talk about!

It turns out that chatting with people is so fun!

This is an experience I have never had before. We are farther and farther away from the clubhouse, and I seem to be farther and farther away from the filth and darkness. I know that I am becoming happier and happier.My steps even became a little jumpy, and I looked back at him from time to time, happily telling him the books and courses I liked.

When talking about a poet I like, he immediately said a poem by that poet.

I was so surprised that I almost jumped up, I said excitedly: "This is the first time I met someone in my life and knew him!"

He looked back at me and told me: "I sorted out his words, typed them into a book, and printed them out."

"My God!"

I swear, the self-important me I've never admired a person this much, I've never been this stupid, I've rarely been this excited.He is not a literature major at all, but he even knows such an uncommon poet, which shows that he knows a lot.

There were no stars in the night sky that day, and before those things happened at home, I was also a romantic person.

I often have some small thoughts secretly, and then indulge in them.

After the accident, there was no leisure time.

That night, nearly a year later, I had my first fantastic fantasy again.

I think, the stars disappearing in the night sky, because they don’t want to disturb the camphor tree, we are the only ones on the road, they all quietly fall into my eyes, quietly illuminating the road in front of me.

I hope that Chu Heng, who looks at me, can see the stars in my eyes.

I suddenly realized that I really like Chu Heng!

No wonder so many people adore him.

I like him too!

I adore him too!

At that time, I thought that kind of liking was just a liking of appreciation.

Later, I realized that, in fact, from that moment on, I really fell in love with him.

Yes, just one night, just a long walk together, maybe even just a moment, I fell in love with him outright.

But he is Chu Heng, who wouldn't like it?

It's a pity that it's too late for me to understand all of this.

If I know that we are destined to be separated in the future, we will not see each other for many years, and it is impossible to say that we will never see each other again in this life.

I just want to fall in love with him earlier, I want to hug him, I want to kiss him, I want to say "I like you" and "I love you" to him countless times.

There are more stars than there are stars in the sky, and more leaves than there are trees.

We walked for nearly two hours instead of the usual one-hour journey.

I don't know who deliberately slowed down.

But again we see street lights.

My excitement stopped abruptly when the first streetlights caught my eyes.

The light is too bright.

I know, the time is up, I can't see the stars in my eyes.

There are no more stars to light my way.

An Sifeng returned to the darkness again.

It happened to be a red light, and I who was talking very happily suddenly fell silent. Chu Heng glanced at me, but I didn't look at him.

There are no stars in my eyes anymore, and I don't want him to see them anymore.

But our speaker spoke so happily that I haven't had time to ask him what he likes to eat from the cafeteria.

I also want to try it next time.

We walked through this red light, crossed another road, and arrived at my house.

As usual, I asked him to send me to the gate of the community, but he still sent me downstairs.

He looked up at the tall building, out of politeness, I knew I should tell him which floor and which room my house was on, but what's the point of telling him.

I have decided, and I know, that we should never meet again in the future.

One meeting is worth 1000 million people. I think no matter how kind a person is, he won't be kind again and again.

After all, I am just a stranger to Chu Heng.

I don't even want to trouble him.

I took the schoolbag from the faucet by myself, and Chu Heng suddenly fell silent.

I thought about it, and finally asked: "Senior, which dish do you like in the second canteen?"

"What about you?" he asked back.

"I like the sliced ​​beef noodles in the Second Canteen. It's made by an uncle in the north. It's delicious."

He nodded.

I still didn't dare to look up, I only saw his shadow on the ground.I still have a lot of things I want to say to him, and I also want to hear a lot of things from him.But——I said bitterly: "Senior, I'm going upstairs."

He nodded.

"Goodbye."

He nodded.

"Thank you."

He still nodded.

I couldn't figure out what he was thinking, but he just nodded at this time and didn't talk to me anymore, which made me even more sad.

I still want to hear his voice.

Thinking desperately, I raised my head again and met his eyes directly.

I was startled, blinked, and he smiled at me.

I became more and more sad.

Such a good person, why let me meet at this time.

I hugged my schoolbag tighter, lowered my head, and said almost word for word: "Senior, 1000 million, I may really not be able to pay it off for a while, but I will work hard to make money... I am not the kind of person who doesn't know what to do people……"

He seemed to want to interrupt me, but I didn't let him: "Senior, listen to me, I know you are worried about me, you want to know why I am in that kind of place, and you may also be curious about the situation in my family. What I said yesterday is not False, I have helplessness and unspeakable things. All choices are made by myself. I signed a contract with that side, and I can only work for three months. After three months, I will leave there. "

"Don't worry about me anymore. I will live and study actively. I am also very happy to know you. The first time I saw you was when I reported in my freshman year. But you probably don't remember—"

Chu Heng said: "I—"

I didn't dare to listen to him at all. At this time, these words had exhausted my courage. I continued: "At that time, you came to send water to everyone with other seniors. It was the first time I saw you. To be honest, I I'm a little jealous of you, all the boys in our class are a little bit jealous of you. You are handsome, you have good grades, and you have won so many awards. I apologize for this now, senior, you are the one I have grown up to see Yes, the best, the best people."

"I, I will work hard in the future. However, I am not a lucky person, I am a very unlucky person. You should hide from me when you see me when you are a senior, it is not good."

Speaking of this, I am very sad.

I pursed my lips, looked up again, took a deep breath, and said, "I will take care of myself! Don't come to that place again, senior, don't let your name be stained!"

He wanted to open his mouth, and I bowed again: "Thank you!"

I turned around and ran in, Chu Heng didn't catch up, but said behind me: "An Sifeng, you will have good luck."

My footsteps stopped, and I still slammed the door behind me.