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Ten years ago, he was the same.

In front of my mother, I took out the ring from the suit pocket and put it on for me.

Afterwards, the two of us went home, went to the parking lot, and took a shortcut through the small garden of the nursing home.He told me he wanted to get down on one knee and kiss the ring on my finger.

After thinking about it, after all, it's embarrassing to be in front of the elders.

I was so teased by him that I couldn't stop laughing, and he laughed too, smiling, and he carefully asked: "Then why don't we do it again?"

He said it with a smile, intending to relax, but there was still a little anxiety in his voice.

I wasn't nervous at first, but after hearing what he said, I became nervous inexplicably.Nervous, the smile on my face gradually dissipated.

At that time, I was on summer vacation, the plum blossoms just came out in Shanghai, it was no longer rainy, and it was not yet hot summer, so the night wind that day was very comfortable.We both stopped and stood in a corner of the little garden where there was no one.

He looked at me for a moment, then slowly knelt down on one knee, looked up at me, and reached out to me again.

I was even more nervous, and I didn't dare to look at him anymore.

His hand is always inviting, spread out towards me, and always looking at me.

The wind was blowing, I looked at the trees on the left, the pond on the right, the gazebo on the left, the rose wall on the right, and then... He laughed and said, "Look at me."

I looked at him, and he looked up and smiled at me.

There are still many water droplets on the leaves that have not had time to dry. When the wind blows, they are scattered on us.When the wind blows again, the frogs in the pond are even "croaking" in harmony, and summer is coming soon.

My palm curled up, stretched out, curled up again, fingers slightly bent, slowly stretched forward, and put it in his palm.

He held it, bowed his head and kissed the ring on my finger.

Kiss the ring with our names engraved on it.

He said that the sense of ritual is not a ritual for the sake of the ceremony, but for many years later, when I think of this day, I have something to remember, and I hope I can be happier because of it.He also said that I was not chased by him in an ordinary way, but by hard work, and he will always treat me well.

In fact, even if he is not like that, I will always remember, remember his kindness to me, remember everything he did for me, and I will be very happy and happy.

At that time, he and I were immersed in complete happiness, unaware that there were ups and downs waiting for us in the future.

When my mother found out about the two of us, I thought it was bad luck at first, and I was extremely anxious about it, and even did some stupid things.I found out later that Chu Heng had expected this day a long time ago, such as the engraved ring, he had already prepared everything.I have been in love with him for more than a year, except for the final breakup, that was the most frightening time for me.

I was so panicked that I almost broke up. It was also that time that I completely left the clubhouse and completely opened my heart to Chu Heng.

Looking at those years now, except for breaking up, everything is trivial.When I was in it back then, I was really scared.At that time, according to the three-month deadline, there was only more than half a month left. I finished the fourth grade and fell in love happily every day.Chu Heng hurried back from Xiamen to see me, hurried back to Xiamen, and when he came back, he discussed with me about sending my mother to a nursing home, and I no longer rejected it.

Love is a process of getting closer and gaining trust. Chu Heng is so kind to me. I will never reject his kindness because of my low self-esteem or other petty thoughts. I trust him.At that time, my mentality was also very positive, I thought, I will form a family with Chu Heng, we live together, we are a family.

I will also be kind to his family, I will not care about these any more, and let him down.

He really wanted to help me and my mom.

Although I have said it many times, I still have to say it again, I really have no skills, and I have always lived in a vacuum.Before my mother has an accident, don't mention it.After my mother's accident, I finally started to face the cruel reality, but within a short while, Chu Heng appeared.

So I've been pretty well protected.At that time, I only trusted Chu Heng, and I trusted Chu Heng very much.He was taking care of the mother's discharge from the hospital and the mother's stay in the nursing home.I am really like a fool, go to school happily every day, and go to the clubhouse to review the final exam happily, and then go home with him, or he is busy and can't accompany me, so he comes to pick me up.

It was my mother who found something wrong.A few days before my mother was discharged from the hospital, she didn't know that she was going to a nursing home and thought she was going home.Of course she was happy to be home.The reason why I didn't tell my mother was that I was too reassured about Chu Heng, and felt that as long as I had him, nothing would be a problem;From my mother's point of view, Chu Heng is nothing more than my friend, not a relative, so why should I spend so much effort and money on my mother's behalf?

I didn't know what to say to my mother, so I simply left it to Chu Heng.Chu Heng told me the same way, saying that everything was left to him.

The doctor didn't know, and when he explained the precautions after discharge from the hospital, he slipped his mouth.

There was nothing wrong with my mother at that time, and she thanked the doctor with a smile.As soon as the doctor went out, my mother looked at me immediately. I looked away guiltily and wanted to pour water for her. My mother pointed to the door: "Close it."

I dawdled past and closed the door.

Mom pointed to the bed again: "Come and sit."

I dawdled again and sat on the edge of the bed.

My mom asked me, "I'm going to a nursing home when I get out of the hospital?"

I nodded, and my mother said, "The nursing home on the outskirts of the city?"

I nodded again, and my mother said again: "The nursing home that costs at least [-] yuan a month?" I faintly sensed that something was wrong, and I lowered my head and dared not speak. My mother was a little angry, "Where do we get the money to live in such a place? The house at home sold?"

I quickly looked up at her: "Not sold!"

After my mother got sick, I really planned to sell the house.The house is hanging there and no one buys it.

"It's not sold, where did we get the money from?"

"He, he, he helped us..." Facing my mother's eyes that suddenly brightened, I didn't even dare to say his name.

My mother looked at me deeply, leaned back suddenly, and took a deep breath.She closed her eyes and started crying.When she was crying, she shed tears silently, just like the way the tears fell silently, and crying made my heart soften.

I handed her the tissue, she slowly opened her eyes, looked at me, and said sadly: "Baby, mom is already like this, do you know?"

"..."

"Do you know, you answer me?"

"I know……"

"What do you know? Do you remember how my mother was beaten and scolded at the beginning?"

I remember, that afternoon when all the bubbles were burst, the house was smashed into a mess, and no one would come to help our mother and son.My mother was beaten and scolded by someone pulling her hair. When I went up to help, I was kicked away.I will never forget it, and I will never forget it in my life.

"You want this to happen again?" Mom asked me, crying.

I was stunned by my mother's question.

What does it mean?

I quickly shook my head: "No, it's different, no!"

My mother looked at me sadly: "Mom is already wrong, how can you do this? Mom only has you."

I hurriedly explained: "It's really different, Mom! Me and him, me and him, me and him are, yes..." The more anxious I became, the more I didn't know how to say, "He is very good to me! We Not like that!" I want to say that we are not like my mother and those people, but I can't say it, I can't bear to hurt my mother.

I couldn't say it, and although my mother was still crying, she said calmly: "When my mother was seriously ill, did Aunt Lin tell you something about my past?"

I dare not nod.

My mother continued to calmly ask: "Did Aunt Lin say that I entered this circle to earn living expenses?" Without waiting for me to say anything, my mother continued: "In fact, there are some things that your Aunt Lin doesn't know. I know it. I didn’t take this path because of this reason. Art school tuition is expensive. My mother plays the piano in the lobby of a five-star hotel. The customer feedback is very good. The manager is a woman, very capable, kind, and very kind. He likes me and pays me a high salary, which is enough to live on for a month. What's more, the teachers knew about my situation at that time and helped me apply for scholarships. My grades were also good, and I often received scholarships. I am not in short supply, and even have spare money to do some things I like and buy some small things I like.”

The first time I heard my mother talk about her youth, I couldn't help listening.

My mother looked at me clearly, but she had already looked at her own youth through me, and slowly talked about the past: "At that time, my mother was full of hope for the future. I played the piano since I was a child, but I didn't want to be a piano like other classmates. I don’t even want to enter the entertainment industry, I just want to stay in school after graduation to continue my graduate studies, and I want to stay in school to work in the future. Although my life is ordinary, I feel very happy. My mother is not the kind of person who clings to the powerful. Your grandparents also taught me this way when I was young. In a school of our nature, the most indispensable thing is rich people. Many students in the class have good family backgrounds, and many students hang out with rich people all day long. Looking forward to the days that seem to be full of flowers.

Other people's lives have never had anything to do with me, and I don't have any comments on it, so I can study with peace of mind.Until the third year of my junior year.I am good-looking, and since I entered freshman year, many classmates have pursued me, even students from other schools, including some so-called Xiao Kai, now speaking, they are the rich second generation.I never paid attention to it. At that time, many people said that I was rigid and pretended behind my back.

Originally, my life was just like this, and I will slowly live the life I want, not rich but satisfied.In my junior year, I met a guy who just came to my place of work every day to listen to me play the piano.He sat in that position every time, and after a long time, I naturally recognized him.The manager in the lobby was very polite to him, occasionally speaking a few words to me, and I knew that he was just another rich young man.

I avoided him subconsciously, and after a while, I realized that no matter whether I avoided him or not, he had never even looked at me.He just came to listen to me play the piano.He listened to the piano I played for half a year, and never said a word to me.Until one time, it was raining heavily, and I didn't bring an umbrella, so I stood outside the hotel and waited for the rain to stop.He came out of it, and he was waiting for his car.He was standing next to me, I recognized him, but he never noticed me until he got in the car.The next day, he came to listen to me play the piano as usual, and then I realized that he didn't know me at all.He didn't come to listen to me play at all.

I am a little ashamed of this, I see all rich people as abominable, because some rich people used to humiliate me with money, he is the only special one I have ever seen.You can probably guess what happened next.He has listened to me play the piano for almost a year, but he still doesn’t know who I am. I’m already in my senior year, and I’m going to graduate school in the future. I’ve already told my manager to resign, and I won’t come again, because I don’t have time.Postgraduate study is at public expense, and I no longer need to earn tuition fees. My supervisor likes me very much and helped me arrange other jobs to earn living expenses.

It was also the last day of playing the piano, and someone bullied me.He helped me out. "

My mother withdrew her eyes from her youth, she looked at me: "At that time, I thought he loved me, I liked him very much, very special." Mom took my hand, "But, baby, do you know that the love we thought was , in their eyes, has never been love."

"Fat, what happened..." I asked a little scared.

"His parents came to me, gave me money, and asked me to leave their son."

"You, you want it?"

Mom smiled wryly: "How could it be? His parents are actually quite polite, they speak slowly, and they seem very gentle at first glance. I refused to ask for money, and they weren't even angry. They just gave me a general description of their family's situation. In the end, They asked me—”

"Ask what?" I asked hurriedly.

"They asked very politely: Miss An, do you think you are compatible with my son?"

I was suddenly very angry, and my eyebrows were raised.

"If they scold me or even humiliate me, it will arouse all my rebellious psychology. But they just left me such a polite word. I didn't agree, and they didn't say any more. They nodded and left together. I He thought it was over like this, and he didn't even say a word to him, and he didn't know about it. Until a month later, other students received admission letters for graduate students one after another, except for me. I asked my counselor who always liked me , the counselors were afraid to even see me."

"..." I was speechless.

"Of course, I'm not so easily knocked down. I went to the dean, I went to the principal, but no one answered me. I'll go to him again..." She smiled wryly again, and when she smiled, her mother cried again.

"Mom..." I squeezed her hand even tighter.

"On the day of graduation, before I got my graduation certificate, the first thing I received was a copy of his marriage certificate and the general background information of the bride from an anonymous mail."

I looked at my mother puzzled, and my mother said calmly: "The bride graduated from a well-known music academy abroad and just returned to China. She became famous at the age of ten, and the famous song is the one I often play in the lobby hotel."

"..." I was chilled by my mother's words.

My mother looked at me again: "We broke up just like that. He didn't keep him or explain it. Later, I was hurt badly. I believed a friend of his and said that he could meet him for me. I fell in love with this person." When I walked on this road, I never looked back. I wanted to turn back, but no one let me go back. I finally saw him. He looked at me with disgust and said that I had changed." Mom stretched out her hand to wipe her tears, Can't wipe it off, "I don't know people well."

I was particularly gloomy when I heard about my mother's past.

Before my mother's tears were wiped dry, she stretched out her hand and said to me: "The politeness of rich people is not even contempt. They don't see you in their eyes. If they move their hands casually, everything about you will be gone. Rich people Love?" She cried again, "They don't have love, they don't understand love. How good was he to me? I never asked him for anything, and he never gave me expensive things. We talked like ordinary couples. In love, I thought this was where I belonged.

Mom knows what you're going to say, you're a good boy, you don't like his money.Mom also knows that Chu Heng is a good boy. Maybe he really likes you and didn't lie to you, but what about his parents?You are a boy, what will happen in the future?Can Chu Heng give up everything for you and fight against his parents?Chu Heng is going to get married after all.Can you promise?can you bear it "

Chu Heng is getting married?

I never thought about this question and shook my head immediately.

"You don't agree, and you don't want to, do you?" Mom asked.

I nodded.

"But, what's the use of that?" Mom pulled me tighter, "You are more stupid than Mom, do you think he doesn't know the details of our family? They are very capable, maybe they already know that Mom is like this Man, we're such a family, he's keeping it from you."

My hands also became cold.

"Mom won't hurt you." Mom leaned over and hugged me, "Mom only has you, what if you are bullied after mom leaves?"

"me--"

"I don't want you to face the predicament and embarrassment I faced back then. Mom can't imagine how his parents looked for you, let alone how he abandoned you, and even more dare not think about how you went down after being sad. You It's very similar to your mother, you must not go the wrong way again. They are different from us, and they are completely two worlds. Come out while you can, okay?"

"Mom." I was so sadly stuffed in my mother's arms that I couldn't say a word.

Chu Heng already knows the background of our family, already knows about mother?

Will Chu Heng get married in the future?His parents will come to me like this and send me a sum of money?

Will Chu Heng treat me like that man treated his mother...

Before going home that day, I asked my mother, "Mom, who is my father..."

Mother was taken aback, bowed her head and remained silent.

I didn't dare to ask any more questions, so I turned around and left.

My mother will not lie to me, she is the person who loves me the most in this world, for me, she told me all the embarrassing things about the past.

However, Chu Heng would not lie to me either.

I was in pain for several days, and I didn't even dare to ask Chu Heng, because I was afraid that what my mother said was true.My mother was afraid that I would get deeper and deeper, so she urged me to make it clear to Chu Heng.

I didn't dare, but I made up my mind. One night, he picked me up and took me home by bicycle. On the way, he was talking to me about my mother living in a nursing home.

I thought of the tears on my mother's face, and finally asked, "Senior, do you know about my mother?"

His back stiffened all of a sudden.

I get it, he knows it.

I also calmed down, and I asked him again: "How long have you known."

"..." He didn't speak.

"Did you know it for a long time...know about my mother being beaten at the door." What mother said was that it is very easy for them, high-ranking people, to know one thing, "Do you still know that I was also beaten?" About the beating, you know that I don’t have a father, you know that my mother and I don’t dare to live in the old villa anymore, we only dare to hide in the suburbs, do you even know who beat my mother and me? You even know my mother, know that my mother accompanied me But..." I gritted my teeth and couldn't continue.

I don't think my mother is ashamed.

But because of me, one more person knew about my mother.

Still such a person.

It's even because of me, maybe I will need it in the future, or Chu Heng's parents already know about it.

I am very sad.

I said, "Can I stop the car?"

Chu Heng stopped the car slowly, I jumped out of the car, walked in front of him, took off my schoolbag, and said: "My mother will be discharged from the hospital in a few days and go back to her home. Thank you for your help these days." I bowed to him , Did not dare to look at him, turned around and left.

He immediately caught up.

I stopped and turned my back to him and said: "I'm sorry for my mother. My mother is not easy, she is not that kind of person, and I am not that kind of person. I know you are very good to me, but since we know each other now, I'm always spending your money. I may have to face your parents in the future, and I don't have any confidence. Senior, I believe this is love, but maybe, it's not the right kind of love. I think we may not deserve it. I don't want to be your burden and stain."

He was in a hurry to speak, and as soon as he uttered a syllable, I said again: "Let's go here."

I walked forward, took a step, and then stopped and said: "Don't come in the future, really don't come. I won't see you again. If you want to see me again, I don't know what I will do."

I think my mom was right.

This kind of me is not even as good as my mother back then.My mother really didn't spend a penny on that man.And me?

Where did I get the face to rely on Chu Heng all day long?

He really didn't show up again.

After all, it's about such a thing, it's my mother, and it's of this nature.

He just wanted to explain it to me, but he couldn't explain it, he couldn't even open his mouth.

Mother knew that Chu Heng and I had made it clear, she breathed a sigh of relief, and waited patiently for discharge.I went to a real estate agency, but the house couldn't be sold before, so I lowered the price by another 50 yuan, just hoping to sell it quickly and save some money for my mother to see a doctor later.

I don't plan to buy a new house. The doctor said clearly that my mother will live for three or four years at most.

I plan to rent a house with my mother. In the future, when my mother passes away, I can live there no matter what. I have to study hard, earn money, and pay back the money.

He didn't show up again, and the leader thought we had broken up.The head card was very happy and said that he would drink with me to celebrate.

The head card has a lot of face in the clubhouse, and he dares to drink when he is not with others.He found a spare room at the end of the corridor, and I drank with me, and I didn't drink much.He drank a lot, half drunk, talking about the experiences of these years in bits and pieces.I was in a daze and listened to him.On the way, a colleague came in, it was the person who had seduced Chu Heng before.

I glanced at him, but he didn't look at me, and talked directly to the head card, saying that he would treat the head card to dinner for a few days.The head card chatted with him for a few words, and he had just graduated from high school, and his college entrance examination results came out, and he did very well in the exam.They also talked about filling in volunteers, the first one smiled and said how did he understand, and after a few words, the first one went to the bathroom.

He sat across from me, raised his glass with a smile, and said, "Brother, I would like to toast you."

It's his ability to call everyone brother.I don't give him a good face every time, and he is not angry.

After I finished drinking a glass of beer, he graciously poured me another glass and asked me, "Brother, are you leaving soon?"

I ignored him, and he smiled again: "I was wrong last time, brother, don't be mad at me." After he finished speaking with a smile, he respected me again.I was already in a bad mood, and it would be nice to drink some wine, so I raised my head and drank that glass too.

The head card just came out of the bathroom, shaking his head and saying that he was dizzy and uncomfortable.

He enthusiastically supported the top card and sent it to rest.

I leaned on the sofa, staring at the oil paintings on the wall and continued to be in a daze.But after a while, I felt a little uncomfortable, very hot, and even numb and itchy.I wondered if I took off the vest outside, but it was still itchy.I was confused and went to roll up my cuffs again, but it was hotter and more uncomfortable, and there were some tactile sensations that I didn't understand, obviously no one touched me.

I lowered my head to unbutton the first button of my shirt, and just as I undid it, the door was pushed open.

I raised my head immediately, but my eyes were a little swaying. I shook my head and fixed my eyes again.Looking at it this way, cold sweat came out all over my body.

It's that person!The person who bid 500 million a long time ago!

I was so scared that I immediately stood up, only to find that even my legs began to weaken.

I'm not an idiot, thinking of that abnormal person just now, and the wine that persuaded me to drink, I was hooked!I cursed myself in my heart, leaning on the sofa with my hands, trying to move towards the door.But he has already closed the door, standing behind the door, smiling at me sinisterly.

I finally stood up, my eyes began to shake again, and I shook my head vigorously.

My eyes didn't become clear, my legs went limp again, and I fell on the sofa.

The man was getting closer and closer to me, and he had already started to take off his suit jacket. I took my phone out of my pocket.The number 1 button on my mobile phone directly connects to Chu Heng's phone number. I want to widen my eyes and press the number 1 button.But even my arms are soft, I don't know whether my fingers have pressed down or not.

I hid back and couldn't move.

He bent down and snatched the mobile phone from my hand, threw it aside, and suddenly raised his hand and slapped me across the face.I was already weak all over, and I couldn't feel the pain. I was lying on the sofa, and I thought I would lose consciousness soon.

He stretched out his hand and pulled me up from the sofa, but my hand still reached for my mobile phone, but I couldn't reach it.

He slapped me on the face again, and my whole body drooped.He talked a lot, and I couldn't hear him very well.

My eyes are getting harder to keep open, am I falling asleep?

If you fall asleep, these can become nightmares.

He pulled me, and my legs dragged on the ground, and he pulled me into the inner room.

My foot even turned to the foot of the coffee table, and there was no pain.

I just felt like I was stuck in a swamp, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get out.He stretched out his hand to untie my clothes, but I couldn't lift my hand even if I tried to protect it.

Just before falling asleep, there was a violent knock on the door outside.

I didn't even react at all, I only heard voices vaguely, and the voices continued, getting louder and getting closer, until a shocking "fuck!" I wake up.I squinted my eyes, not knowing who was coming again.

I was dragged by another guy, who grabbed me and ran outside.

He ran very hastily, grabbed me sideways, and when I went out, my foot was pinned to the door frame again.He cursed again, turned me upside down and grabbed me.After a while, I heard him yelling "What are you looking at!", and I heard him shouting "What are you doing!".

As soon as the words fell, the person who grabbed me changed again.

I shrank subconsciously, but fell into a particularly warm and familiar embrace.

I really couldn't hold it anymore, and I fell asleep when I smelled the familiar perfume.

When I woke up again, my face touched the soft bedding, I rubbed against it, and slowly opened my eyes.

Chu Heng lay on the bed, watching me carefully.

I blinked at him, and I remembered all the previous things, which I really couldn't know except after falling asleep.

He just looked at me and didn't speak.I also looked at him, also did not speak.

We looked at each other for a long time, and I whispered, "I was beaten."

When he heard my words, he almost cried.

He didn't cry, I cried first: "I'm really a fool. I trust others so easily. In that kind of place, I dare to drink wine poured by others. I'm getting more and more stupid, but I can't be so stupid. I have to take care of my mother in the future, and if this continues, what should I do? My mother only has me left, what should I do. Senior, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to break up with you, but I I'm afraid, I'm afraid to walk the same path as my mother. My mother is too pitiful, it's not easy, she worked so hard to raise me to such an age. Because of me, her things will be revealed again and become known to others, I don't want to So, what should I do." I lay on my side, two lines of tears fell into the pillow, and even one side of the tears flowed down the bridge of my nose.

I cried and said, "He hit me yesterday and slapped me twice."

"My mother said that rich people are like this. In the eyes of rich people, we are not human. She has dealt with rich people for half her life. I said you are not such a person, I know you are not, you will not hit me , you are good to me. But, what should I do? Senior, will you get married in the future? Do your parents hate me? Will they beat me too? "

I gradually didn't know what I was talking about.

"Without you, I'm really a waste, what should I do. But I'm really scared, I'm afraid that you will always despise me in the future, I'm afraid that you will despise my mother, I'm afraid of many, many things. Why, life Is it like this?"

He picked up the handkerchief next to the pillow and wiped my tears, saying, "Don't cry, don't cry."

My tears did not stop.

If Brother Jin hadn't come to save me, and if Chu Heng hadn't come to save me, where would I wake up now?I'm afraid he is no longer a person.

He took my head in his hands and put it on his shoulders.He put his hands under my armpit again, picked me up, held me in his arms, kissed my ear repeatedly, and said "it's okay".

I leaned on his shoulder, my head was rarely blank and clear.

There is only his voice in the ear, and only his smell in the tip of the nose.

I couldn't help saying: "Senior, let's do it."

His arms stiffened, and I reached out and hugged him.He slowed down and said, "You want to rest—"

I turned my face directly to kiss him, kissed him hard, and blocked his words.He wanted to escape at first, but I hugged him tightly, not allowing him to escape.I kissed his chin, kissed his Adam's apple, doing this jerky.He still wanted to avoid it, but he was reluctant to push me hard.

I reached for the button of his shirt and he held out his hands to stop me.

I simply took the opportunity to pull the zipper of his pants, and when he pulled it, he looked at me in shock.I leaned against his neck, looked up at him, and reached in.

His hand that blocked me finally softened slowly.

After all, it took a long time, and he hasn't prepared the things that should be prepared. Fortunately, both of us have taken a shower, clean and refreshed.He also used his face cream for lubrication, and he didn't even have a condom. It was difficult but sweet.

It hurts, it hurts, but my heart is very satisfied and satisfied.

When I was taking a shower, I looked at myself in the floor-to-ceiling mirror, and the red marks he left on me made me feel extremely happy.

The truths that happened in the private room terrified me, and what Chu Heng left behind made me feel at ease.

Chu Heng touched those red marks distressedly, and said "sorry", that he "acted too hard", and even said "be careful next time".

I hadn't laughed before, but when I heard this, I immediately laughed.

I turned around and said to him, "Next time, I want to have more and heavier marks, and I want to have your marks all over my body every day."

Chu Heng looked at me in disbelief, and instantly, his face turned red.

Explosively cute.

The body can't lie, I looked at the part that got up again, smiled "hehe", and touched him again.

So in the bathtub, it was another nonsense.

In the end he hugged me to the bed, because of those things, even though he was by my side, I still hugged him tightly, not daring to leave him an inch.

He put the pillows in place and put me under the covers.He followed suit and sat up, and I immediately lay on top of him, occupying half of his body.He looked down at me helplessly, and I looked up and blinked at him.He leaned closer to me, hugged me, thought for a while, and said, "I've been waiting for you downstairs for the past few days, and when you got off work, I was afraid that you would be unhappy if you saw me, so you kept asking someone to follow you. "

I nodded, motioning for him to continue.

He looked at the corner of the bed and said, "Last time, we didn't see each other for more than 20 days, and it was the same. In fact, I waited for you downstairs at your house every night. I was hesitant at that time. I have seen you and you many times. That female classmate went to school and class together, and you have a good relationship with her. I have also seen her send you love letters—”

I was confused: "What love letter?"

He explained: "Our dormitory building is right in front of the cafeteria. We opened the window and saw the bushes outside the cafeteria. I didn't mean to answer the phone by the window that day and saw her handing you a love letter..."

I immediately got angry and said, "No!!!"

He said "ah?" and looked down at me who was so angry.

If it wasn't for the pain in my body, I would really kick him, I said angrily: "She wrote you a love letter!! She wants me to deliver the love letter for her!!! I'm so mad!"

"..." Chu Heng fell silent in embarrassment.

"Go on! And then!"

"Uh... Then I saw you two always talking and laughing, and I gradually couldn't bear it."

"Why can't you bear it?"

He changed his sitting position, hugged me up, made me lie more comfortably, and said: "You are still young, and so innocent. I can see that you have a crush on me, but you don't understand at all What is liking. A person who doesn’t know anything, I lead you on this road, right?

I'm gay by nature, I don't feel like this identity.But this society does not recognize this identity. My mind is strong enough. I recognize and love my identity very much, but I am afraid that I will harm you.I'm sure I won't let you face all this alone, but I'm worried that my appearance will change the trajectory of your life, and I'm worried that you will regret it.

It's fine if you regret liking me once, but I'm worried that you regret your life.You are different from me, you are too simple. "

I pouted: "In the whole world, only you and my mother think I am innocent. You and I met in that kind of place!"

"But your appearance there was only forced by the situation. As I said last time, I am very grateful that I still have some money. Until now, An Sifeng—" He suddenly looked at me seriously, and I couldn't help but get nervous: "What's wrong?"

Chu Heng said seriously: "I have never looked down on you, let alone despise you. Being able to meet you in such a place is the most wonderful encounter in my life so far."

I stare.

He even laughed at himself: "If it weren't for that kind of place, you would still be the same An Sifeng from before, would you look at me more? No matter how much I help you, would you care? You have no less than me. Because of those Only by accident can I meet you like this, and I can also catch up with you."

"..." What kind of logic is there in his words.

"Isn't it despicable? I admit that sometimes I am not a gentleman. If you appear there and meet me again, it means that God wants us to be together."

"You knew me a long time ago?" I asked muttering.

He nodded.

"When?" I pressed.

He smiled and shook his head, refusing to say any more.

I hummed.

He continued: "You may not know how surprised I was when I saw you there for the first time. I found a you that no one else could see. I also got another one to catch up with you. close to your chance."

"You're exaggerating too much..."

"Not an exaggeration."

"Then you used to secretly watch me in school?" I asked incredulously.

He actually nodded again: "I went to see you when you made up your physical education exam last semester. When you were in physical education class, I often watched you from the sidelines. I also went to you when you were taking elective courses."

"I never knew!!!"

"How can I let you know." He actually said that.

"!!!" I pointed at him, speechless.

He said again: "I didn't see each other for more than 20 days. I thought about it calmly for a long time. I held my last conscience. I wanted to let you go and let you live a normal life. If you were not with a boy, you life would be so much easier.”

"and then?"

He smiled wryly, and then looked down at me: "And then you found out. What's next? You said you wanted to see me tomorrow morning, what else can I say?"

"Then you waited downstairs all night?"

"Yes."

I slowed down for a while, and then asked slowly: "At that time, did you make a decision?"

"Yes, make a good decision. Conscience is completely abandoned."

I laughed out loud, he was so cute.

"What about this time?" I asked again.

"This time is different from that time. I can't let you go again. It's just that I know you're a little tricky, so I'll give you time to think about it. Unexpectedly..." He changed the subject, "Baby, let's talk about your mother It's about your family, okay?"

I was silent for a while, nodded, and didn't dare to look at him again.

He raised my chin with his hand and let me look at him: "I can see clearly what kind of person you are. You are you, the one I like, and the rest are all meaningless."

"But, it's our family. I'm afraid of your parents...my mother said..."

He covered my mouth with his hand, covered all my urgency and embarrassment, and promised: "There is me, and I will explain to your mother. In the future, my parents will also have me. Don't worry about anything, as early as one more From the moment you called me to your house a month ago, I have already made up my mind. I have prepared for everything in the future. "

I faltered and said: "My mother said that people change quickly."

"Will you change? If one day my family goes bankrupt, I become very poor, or my face is disfigured, will you despise me?" He gave the simplest example.

"of course not!"

He looked at me: "Me too."

"But--"

"We are not qualified to judge the elders. I like and respect Auntie very much. One thing, I have to admit that I know a little about your family. I even know your former address."

"How do you know!" I almost jumped up, and I pointed at him again, "You followed me a long time ago! You are a pervert!"

He smiled: "It's only for you. Actually, it's not stalking. Do you remember last semester, when you ran in physical education class, you couldn't run halfway through?"

"I don't remember." I really don't remember!

He even remembered, and he said with a smile: "We were also in physical education class and playing football. Seeing that you couldn't run, after a while, your driver came to pick you up. I was a little worried about you, so... But only that one time."

"Humph!!"

He hugged me flatteringly, and then said: "Because I have to go through the formalities for my aunt, I know some things. Don't worry, after I noticed it, I didn't go any further. I didn't tell anyone. I found out Some of the information I had was destroyed by me."

I'm still a little uncomfortable.

He squeezed my chin again and let me look at him: "Baby, we are talking about this frankly, I just hope you understand my heart for you, we are going to live together for the rest of our lives. From that night you put me