[Rebirth] Born ordinary

"When I woke up, he avoided me like a ghost again. If I hadn't just been drunk and not lost my memory, I would almost have thought that what happened the night before was just a dream of mine. What happened this time made me feel that, in fact, he It's not that he doesn't like me, it's just that he doesn't have the courage to take that step.

"At that moment, I was full of my own beliefs. I believed that the man I liked was actually a coward. Although he was extremely vicious when he robbed the territory, he was ruthless when he was fighting for his brother, and punished the traitor. He is ruthless, but emotionally he is a complete coward." When he said this, Cui Qi smiled slightly as if he remembered something interesting.

"So, I tried my best to chase him, and I used all the methods I could think of, such as writing love letters, learning how to cook, etc. I used them all. Facts have proved that these are very important for him. It's all useless. Just when I was about to get discouraged, I discovered that the best way has already appeared, making him jealous and getting him drunk."

Sun Shao was amazed in his heart as he listened, he really didn't expect such a strong elder brother to be so clumsy emotionally, "Then how many times did you use this method to subdue elder brother?"

It sounds like it should be the end of a happyend story.

Cui Qi nodded slightly, then shook his head again, "It doesn't count, I can only say that I successfully climbed the bed."

"Huh?!" Sun Shao opened his mouth slightly, unable to react in time.

Cui Qi was amused by Sun Shao's appearance, "Yes, I deliberately got too close to other men and women, making him think I was promiscuous, which made him angry, and then teamed up with his brother to get him drunk a few times. I succeeded in getting married to him again. After having sex a few times, we became regular partners. The kind of partners who only roll together when there is a need and a desire.

"During that time, I couldn't help but ask myself if I did something wrong. At first, he regarded me as a younger brother, and I felt that we were so close. Now, even if we go to bed every day, I feel that we are so far away. So far. But before I could find the answer, he suddenly took his brother south. And I was in graduate school."

"Then you..." Sun Shao was a little surprised.

"He left me enough money to find a job after graduation and live a stable life. Don't go to him anymore." Cui Qi smiled, but there was crying hidden in the smile, "I listened to him. "

"If this is what he wants, I will do it. I study hard, find a good job, and don't ask him or go to him. Maybe only in this way can he remember me, maybe it's me as a younger brother, Maybe it was me who was the bed partner. Who knows? Slowly, just when I was about to get used to this kind of life. Once I was on a business trip, I suddenly met one of his former brothers.

"He has now become a craftsman, married a wife and had a baby. This may not matter to you, but I have been with them for so many years, and I know that people like them, on this journey There are almost no roads that can be completely withdrawn. On this road, everyone has a beginning and no end. Almost immediately, I knew that he was going to have an accident. Or in other words, he was about to do something, so in Get rid of all the brothers. That's who he is, always has been."

"So I came here. I appeared at the most inappropriate time. He had already pulled out many brothers around him, except himself. Moreover, he had already met his brother. I think, I am probably doomed I can't be his younger brother. But, I know, I still have to stay."

"Ye Da is really thick-skinned. He won't be able to drive me away anyway. There are too many things in the future, and the situation is too uncertain. He doesn't have the heart to worry about whether to drive me away or not. Later, , you almost know it too.”

Sun Shao hesitated for a moment, "Then you...since Big Brother came out, you should be...well?"

"Okay?" Cui Qi murmured, "I don't know what to call it, I just know that he will sleep with me, accompany me, and guard me, but other... I really don't know."

"Especially...until recently, I didn't really realize that he doesn't like men at all." Cui Qi suddenly covered his face, as if he was extremely tired, "I don't know how wishful I am, that's why I haven't realized this all this time. The problem is that I have never discovered such an obvious thing. At first, I thought why he was timid about feelings, which was so ridiculous that it was so ridiculous. Now I don’t even dare to think that he is a person who doesn’t like men at all. What kind of thoughts do you sleep with me every day, nausea or pity or just gratitude, grateful that I helped him in his most difficult time, grateful that I didn't leave him during his most difficult period?"

"This..." Sun Shao hesitated slightly, his eyes kept drifting to the next seat blocked by flowers and trees, his heart was roaring - what should I pick up?

"Did you know?" Cui Qi raised his head slightly, and his eyes stayed on the ring on Sun Shao's ring finger. After all, Sun Shao and Yi Hui failed to legally become a legal couple. The two were happily planning to go to the United States to get married. In the end, it was canceled because they did not have American nationality. They only went to play for a while, but when they finally came back, they each wore their wedding rings, and the friends around them also knew the meaning of the rings.

Now, Cui Qi's eyes rest on this wedding ring, "I sometimes feel that I am a parasite, and I have always been. I must rely on him to provide me with the conditions and resources to survive, otherwise I can only be pitiful. Die. And he just couldn't bear to watch me die pitifully."

"I know I can't go on like this. This is simply a disease. I worry about gains and losses day and night. Occasionally, when I go to their company and hear some rumors about him having an affair with a woman, I feel that I am going to be irritated to the point of sickness." , I can't wait to let him stay in prison, at least I know that there, he won't like any man, because he doesn't like men at all, and I can pretend that he is mine alone. But it's impossible, I I can't be so selfish, so I have to see a psychiatrist..."

"Fortunately, this resolution is useful... After treatment for so long, I have learned to adapt and accept the reality slowly, and probably after a while, I will be able to leave him and stop being a poor parasite, And set him free."

Sun Shao exhaled suddenly, and said to the booth next to him, "Well... Brother, do you still want us to continue listening?"

Suddenly, a pair of brothers who looked alike appeared at the back of the booth. Cui Qi was so surprised that he overturned the teacup in front of him. His face was full of astonishment. Sun Shao touched his nose in embarrassment and comforted him: "Brother Cui , don’t blame me, I’m just an accomplice. They are the main offenders. The main reason is that the elder brother’s mood is too wrong during this period. We only found out when we asked, because you are not right during this period, so it caused the elder brother to..."

Just as he was talking, one of the two brothers immediately reached out and waved to him, telling him to come to his side quickly, and they withdrew deliberately.The other person between the two brothers has a complexion as deep as water, and no emotion can be seen.

"Brother, let's go first." Yi Hui said to Yi Yu, holding Sun Shao in his arms.

Yi Yu nodded slightly.

The two walked away, and after taking two steps, Sun Shao turned his head again, "Brother, Brother Cui, come to our place for dinner tonight, we will wait for you."

The word "you" is deliberately emphasized.

Cui Qi froze and didn't respond, but Yi Yu responded quickly, "Okay."

After Sun Shao and Yi Hui walked away, Cui Qi's body became more rigid. Yi Yu slowly walked across to him, lowered his eyes slightly, and looked at him, his jaw tensed tightly, as if he was enduring Big anger: "Have you always thought so?"

Cui Qi remained motionless.

Yi Yu slowly raised Cui Qi's head, covered him under his own shadow, and looked deeply into his eyes, "Are you going to leave me slowly?"

Cui Qi closed his eyes hard, and when he opened them again, he was filled with pain and sorrow: "Do you think it's too slow?"

Yi Yu's jaw twitched, and the veins in his hands bulged, "If I hadn't asked Sun Shao to set up this game today, would you just plan to get out of my life just like that?"

Cui Qi suddenly slapped his hand away, feeling a little crazy, "Yes! Yes! Yes! I know that I am annoying like a parasite, I know that I treat you as my possession, it is disgusting, I know You like women, I know it all, I'm already thinking of a way, what else do you want from me... um—"

Yi Yu pressed his lips viciously on Cui Qi's lips, grinding fiercely, biting violently, blocking Cui Qi's unfinished words.

"I miss you... Never leave me..." After a long time, Yi Yu whispered with his lips against Cui Qi's.

Cui Qi's eyes widened, full of disbelief.

Yi Yu printed her lips again, this time very gently.

"You have never been a parasite. I have been thankful more than once that there is you behind me. When we first ran out and slept in the public toilet, because you were lying next to me, I knew that even though it was so miserable, I was not Alone; when we were fighting bricks together on the construction site, even though it was so hard, and we were chased and rejected everywhere, I knew that I was not alone; you probably never imagined that when you knew that you would never The feeling in my heart when I was alone...Because of you, I will walk that road relentlessly, because I know that no matter how far I go, you will always follow me, even if I go to the bottom of the abyss , you will pull me up too," Yi Yu said.

"Actually, you read it right, and you didn't misunderstand me. I am indeed a coward, and even more of a coward. At first, I just didn't know how to... face you, because I really regarded you as my younger brother, but I also knew clearly that you would never It's not just my younger brother. I just think that such a relationship can easily disrupt everything, making it more fragile and more... unbearable. I can't face my desire for you, but I can't really let go You... In the end, I just don't want you to fall into this bottomless whirlpool with me."

"And I didn't say it all the time because I think you must understand." Following Yi Yu's words, Cui Qi slowly held his breath.

As Yi Yu said, he and Cui Qi clasped hands and interlocked their fingers.

"I've traveled so far, for so long, and finally come back to you, not because of gratitude, pity or anything else, because... I love you."

"I really don't like men. Women seem to be more in line with my orientation than men, but... I love you."

Cui Qi was stunned by Yi Yu's words of love in succession, his eyes were wide open, bloodshot inside, his lips trembling slightly, "I...I..."

"I know, you love me too." Yi Yu bowed his head gently, "You are not parasitic, we are living together."

"We'll go buy a wedding ring later, just today."

"I didn't mean that..."

"I know, but I think we should have, because it can be seen that we are symbionts."