Life and death sniper [crossing]

Chapter 63 Controlling Desire

Hao Yun’s problem can be described as he bumped into the south wall and made a decisive detour. Although Hao Yun’s true thoughts are infinitely close to the truth, for example, is Xiaosanjin still Xiaosanjin? Why is Silence brain dead? What kind of person is Silence?This kind of question only needs to be tapped again and the correct answer will come out.

But at this point, Hao Yun decided to give up and think about it again. There may be some things in this world that cannot be explained clearly. He would also pray for God’s protection before the battle, but those are just human beings who are not yet well-understood. A kind of spiritual sustenance when you can't control things, it doesn't mean that there are gods and ghosts in this world.

Therefore, when Hao Xin and Silence are inextricably linked, it is more appropriate to give another answer than those unreliable and unscientific perceptions, isn't it?Hao Xin and Silence should have known each other before. In Cameroon, Silence mistakenly injured Hao Xin. After Hao Xin woke up, he knew that Silence was injured or even brain-dead, so his temperament changed drastically, and he even hated and angered him. These two emotions can lead to the opposite direction through love injury. To describe, after that, Hao Xin accepted Silence's body, and received the "sharp sword", and even learned to use a sniper rifle to fight because of the extraordinary relationship with Silence, until finally forming such a special charm character.

Although this series of associations was somewhat logically implausible, most of them were not wrong, so Hao Yun looked at Hao Xin confidently and asked him to answer himself.

Of course, under these calm surfaces, some inexplicable anxiety was spreading, gnawing at him like ants, causing him to drink another big gulp of red wine to moisten his thirsty throat.

Hao Xin was really stunned.

At that moment, he even wondered who Silence was?

then……

He grinned, and the smile got bigger and bigger, and he just covered his face and lay down on the table...

"Ha ha ha ha--"

Myself and Silence?

Himself, and Silence?

Hahahahaha! !

Do you want to have a bigger brain?

Hao Yun looked at Hao Xin like this, and the haze hidden in his eyes dissipated in that laughter.

Nothing could make him understand better than this kind of answer. He knew that even if Hao Xin tried his best to explain, he would have a little doubt, but this kind of answer was just right.Even if there was a sneer at him, he felt that the laughter was so beautiful, and his heart, which had been eaten by anxiety for a day, healed without medicine.

Looking at the man lying on the table, Hao Yun's eyes also bent down, softly, like a clear spring, almost drowning him.

For some reason, he suddenly wanted to touch this relative, and the desire burned him like a raging fire.

So he stretched out his hand and wiped Hao Xin's head. His rough hands touched the hard hair. It wasn't a soft and furry texture, but it made his palm numb and he couldn't put it down.His hand slid all the way down and landed on the back of his neck. He felt the hot and dry skin. He gently kneaded it twice, and then pressed his palm with just the right amount of force, feeling the man's gradually shrinking. Vibrate until the laughter stops.

"Shadow." Hao Xin raised his head and looked at him, with tears in his eyes, he rubbed his hands and said, "Don't change the subject."

Hao Yun didn't speak, but he really couldn't ask. Hao Xin's stupid way of suddenly finding a strange man to divert my attention when I obviously like you really made me despise your attitude, which made him think I really thought too much, so my mood improved and I became more happy.

Hao Xin looked at Hao Yun deeply. He clearly saw himself printed in those eyes, but he couldn't get an answer. He knew that no matter whether Hao Yun liked him or not, this man would never take the initiative to take a step forward. He was Hao Xin. What he needs to do is to correct all his wrong futures, instead of sinking together.

Hao Yun sighed and said, "You didn't answer me, so of course I won't answer you either."

Hao Xin pursed her lips: "Well, let me tell you, I do know Silence, and I like him too, but it's not the kind in the world of lovers, it's different from you."

Hao Yun replied indifferently: "If what you said today is on the basis of equality, not relatives, then I answer you, I can't... huh?" Hao Yun stared at the man who suddenly rushed out to cover his mouth man.

The smile in Hao Xin's eyes disappeared, and the drunkenness disappeared. He covered Hao Yun's mouth, looked at him with pained eyes, and said, "I don't want to hear it now."

Hao Yun: "..."

Hao Xin sighed, let go of his hand, and hugged Hao Yun fiercely. He used all his strength to the extreme, almost pressing him into his body and blending into his flesh and blood. He obviously thought he could let go easily, but his feelings for this man were beyond words. So, but now he found out that when the man told him the answer in that tone, he knew that he didn't want to hear it, not at all!

Hao Yun hesitated for a moment, reached out and hugged Hao Xin's back and patted to comfort him. He could feel the pain very clearly, and he also felt distressed. But he couldn't respond, just because they were the last two members of the Hao family, he was an uncle, he had to set an example, no matter when, he had to stand firmly and cleanly in front of Sanjin, and guide a way Ming Lu, watching his growth, until he gets married and has children, he has a bright future...

After Hao Xin left, Hao Yun suffered from insomnia.

He was lying on the bed, smelling the mixed smell of wine and meat in the room, as if it had gone bad, it made him sick.

Can't sleep.

There seemed to be something blocked in the chest, with spikes, and it was a pain that could not be ignored.

Early the next morning, Hao Xin left without saying goodbye, not even Lei Shen and Little Buji told him that he needed to be alone now, although Hao Yun didn't finish his words yesterday, but the meaning of his words had been clearly conveyed to over him.

Hao Xin couldn't stay any longer. After waking up, he knew that it was time for him to stop.

It is something he can do to pursue it with all his strength, but it is Hao Yun's business to ignore the blood relationship and respond to him. Since he can't let Hao Yun take that step, it means that Hao Yun Yun's love for him is only the love of his relatives.

This is not what he wants.

That being the case, why not take a step back, time is a powerful medicine to heal pain, maybe he should find something for himself to do.

It was also this morning that Hao Yun, who learned that Hao Xin had left, smoked three cigarettes in one breath, and finally an unprecedented evil fire surged into his brain, causing him to kick over the stool beside him, but a minute later, Hao Yun He put the stool back up again, extinguished the cigarette that was lit again, and recovered as before.

Hao Xin decided to go back to France, but before that, he first went to meet Peacock and Main Board.

After the three people had a meeting in the office, the main board frowned and said, "Didn't you see anyone when you came in?"

"?" Hao Xin raised an eyebrow.

"A boy in blue clothes. He has been squatting at the door for almost two days. He said he was looking for you."

"Boy? Brown hair and blue eyes?" Hao Xin immediately thought of Benjamin.

"Yes, I didn't hear you say that you were on the plane the day before yesterday, so I asked him to come back in two days." The main board said.

Hao Xin frowned, hesitated and said, "Do you know where he lives?"

"I don't know." The main board shook his head.

"What did he say he wanted me for?"

The main board continued to shake its head: "No question."

Hao Xin nodded and walked out.

As soon as he walked to the gate, the guards at the gate stopped him. Hao Xin is now a well-known figure in this base. Everyone remembered him, and the guard on duty was no exception. The other party handed him an envelope and said, "I said you were back, but that young man just handed you the envelope."

"Just leaving?" Hao Xin took the envelope and asked.

"About... half an hour."

After Hao Xin listened, she withdrew her thoughts of chasing after him, walked aside, opened the envelope, and the scribbled words appeared in front of her eyes...

Excuse me, is that the word?

I asked a girl from the East in the museum, and she said that these two words represent kindness and devotion, but this is not the name, I think I made a mistake, but I will keep the pronunciation firmly in mind, In the future, I will find many good intentions, and I hope one of them is you.

I'm going to leave, I promise to join them, I don't want to be a flag that others look down on, and I don't want to cowardly hug someone's leg to beg for mercy and be kicked away mercilessly, because meeting someone like you has used me Good luck in this life, so maybe you just hope to save your companion, but that is my salvation, it makes me feel too decadent and too timid, and makes me understand how strong and powerful you are.

If I want to become a person like you, maybe I will get closer to you. This is what I think, so I agreed to them.

So, write this, I dare not see you, I am afraid that the courage I mustered will disappear again, so please wish me well, and if everything goes well, I will come to you again.

Benjamin

After closing the letter paper, Hao Xin looked into the distance and sighed.

In fact, there are many roads ahead, but this kid chose to join the mafia. Perhaps when a certain turning point happened in his life, he would never go back.

I hope it will be safe and sound.

Hao Xin folded the envelope and put it in his bag, turned around and went back to the military area. He was not kind. Rescuing Benjamin was just the trend of the situation, but Benjamin's departure and last night's courtship failure made Hao Xin feel tight in his chest Blocked, depressed endlessly.

In front of him, the main board stood at the door and looked at him, and the peacock was two steps behind him. When those anger and doubts were dispelled, what he got was the pure eyes of these two people.

Maybe some things should be put aside temporarily, the deadline for "Sharp Sword" is approaching, and "Sharp Sword" must be raised to the standard of an S-rank mercenary regiment before then...

After that, Hao Xin returned to France, brought several outstanding recruits to Syria to replace some veterans, and then fused these veterans and recruits together, led by Peacock to Germany for an escort mission, smuggling the fur boss They were given a generous bonus and a new mission was introduced along the way, so they stayed in Germany for almost a month.

Hao Xin didn't go, he led the team to other places. The conservatives and radicals in the Philippines fought fiercely, which led to a deformed product-terrorists.Hao Xin and Hong Li were employed by these terrorists for three months of military training.

Normally, mercenaries rarely take this kind of work. Firstly, they have no connections, and secondly, they will be enemies of the local government forces. It would be fine if it was a large mercenary group like the "War of Silver", but in this situation It is not suitable for the "sharp sword" who has just started, but fortunately, Hao Xin knows Zhang Sishao, the underground emperor of the Philippines, so he asked Xiang Shuo before accepting the task, and Xiang Shuo patted his chest to ensure their safety. , so he and Hong Li went there together. Hong Li was in charge of combat teaching, Hao Xin was mainly responsible for teaching long-range sniping, and passed Xiang Shuo by the way to ensure their safety during their stay in the Philippines.

Of course, it is precisely because of this that Hao Xin and Xiang Shuo have a much deeper bond. Whenever they have the same vacation time, Xiang Shuo will always find interesting entertainment programs to make his life in the Philippines colorful. , even seemed to have forgotten the existence of Hao Yun.

Yes, almost forgot, not completely forgot. During the three months in the Philippines, he received a call from Hao Yun. Don't call again, he needs to calm down completely.So after that, Hao Yun really didn't call, which made the anger in his heart linger for a long time, making him even more unable to forget people.

The last month in the Philippines coincided with the Lunar New Year in China. Xiang Shuo invited him back to the country together. Both of them came out to work hard when they were young, and they didn’t have many friends in the country. So on New Year’s Eve, the two boring men Cooked a bunch of delicious things, and sent red envelopes to each other for New Year's greetings in extreme boredom, and finally both of them fell drunk on the bed.

That is, on New Year's Eve, Hao Yun stayed on the phone all night.

This year... Xiao Sanjin didn't call him, not even a text message...

Xiao Sanjin is relatively introverted and autistic, a typical technical nerd, but because of his single mind, it is difficult to be influenced by foreign cultures, so the Chinese New Year is a festival he must celebrate every year.

On that day, no matter whether Hao Yun is busy or is around, Xiao Sanjin will send a blessing.

"Happy New Year, Uncle."

"Uncle, in the new year, I hope you are safe and well."

"Uncle gives out red envelopes."

"Uncle, pay attention to safety."

……

He didn't talk much, but they were all thoughtful words, so Hao Yun got into the habit of answering the phone that day, but his phone rang many times that day, but none of them were from Xiao Sanjin.

He didn't quite know how he spent that day. When the morning sun shone into the room, Hao Yun blinked his dry eyes and realized that he seemed to have lost something.

He picked up the phone and dialed a familiar number. Since Xiao Sanjin is no longer able to maintain the family relationship between them, let him maintain it...

"Hey."

The phone rang for a long time before a hoarse voice came from the other side, but Hao Yun was 100% sure that it was not Hao Xin's voice.

"Hao Xin, call, wake up, wake up!"

Hao Yun narrowed his eyes dangerously, and said in displeasure, "Xiang Shuo?"

"Correct."

Xiang Shuo rubbed his forehead in pain, glared viciously at the man who rolled over and fell asleep next to him, and said softly, "Shadow, it's me."

"Well, let Hao Xin answer the phone." Hao Yun said flatly.

Xiang Shuo raised his foot to kick Hao Xin again, but when he saw Hao Xin's back, he suddenly had a flash of inspiration and said, "He is sleeping very soundly, so I'll tell you if there is anything."

"Let him answer the phone." Hao Yun's voice cooled down.

The smile on the corner of Xiang Shuo's mouth was even weirder: "Shadow, Hao Xin is already an adult, there are some things you shouldn't care about."

"Say it again, let him answer the phone." This time, Hao Yun's voice could freeze, and he paused every word.

Xiang Shuo posted Hao Xin and whispered in his ear, "Xin? Xin? Wake up, wake up, your uncle's phone number..."

"Hmm." Hao Xin opened his eyes instantly when he heard that Hao Yun was calling.

But Xiang Shuo pressed his shoulders, looked at him with a nasty and strange expression, and murmured: "Hey, it's your uncle, hey, take it first..."

Hao Yun blinked, tried to wake himself up, and said understandingly: "I see, I will call later, let me sleep for a while."

Xiang Shuo grinned, gave Hao Yun a thumbs up, and then said to the phone: "He said he would call later, that's it, hang up."

Hao Yun on the other side of the phone trembled and almost crushed the phone.

"What are you doing?" Hao Xin probably understood what Xiang Shuo meant, and he was just asking. In fact, he was still a little worried that he might be self-defeating.

"What are you worried about?" Xiang Shuo turned over and got up, stepped over the leftovers on the floor, poured a glass of water, and said, "It's just deliberately ambiguous, and you can explain it in any way."

"He's not someone who would be shaken by something like this." Hao Xin also sat up and pounded his head in pain, "Give me a drink."

Xiang Shuo handed over the water, and smiled confidently: "You are so stupid, didn't you say that he hasn't contacted you for the past few months? Why did he contact you today? And why is it early in the morning? Use your stupid head Think about it, yesterday was thirty, he must have been waiting for you all night, that's why he couldn't wait to call to confirm this morning."

Hao Xin raised his eyebrows and forgot to drink the water he received.

Xiang Shuo continued to laugh and said, "Since he convinced himself with family affection, he should understand now that even if he rejects your affection, you will not be able to go back to the original relationship between uncle and nephew."

"Then." Hao Xin's eyes lit up a little.

"Then he has to re-examine how to maintain the relationship between you."

Hao Xin drank the water in one breath, and couldn't wait to say: "So after confirming that there is no family relationship between us, he will think about the possibility of love?"

"How is it possible?" Xiang Shuo laughed dumbly, and looked at people with an expression of "you are too naive", "It's either black or white, you are too naive, and if he has no love for you at all, your trick can What is the use?"

"..." Hao Xin's shining eyes darkened, and he said for a long time, "He should have that awareness of me, I can feel that when he looks at me, his eyes are not very pure, but your trick... He's not a man who'll act out of jealousy."

"Wrong." Xiang Shuo shook his fingers and smiled, "He is the kind of man you mentioned. He is strong and likes to plunder. He has a desire for power and likes to control. He is resourceful but fierce, which means he does not allow himself to fail. , so even if he has infinite patience with you, but when the family love reaches the extreme, he will find another way out, Hao Xin, you don't know your uncle, he can tolerate himself making choices and everything is for your own good Abandon you for a reason, but never let you abandon him, do you understand?"

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