gentleman's manor

Edward looked at me blankly, then suddenly leaned over and wanted to kiss me forcibly.His tongue stuck into my mouth, sucking domineeringly, his hands clasped tightly on the back of my head, not allowing me to resist.

He kissed so hard that I was almost out of breath and I had to bite his lip in order to push him away.He let go of me in pain, and panted loudly while touching the corner of his blood-stained mouth.

"We don't want to see each other again. This relationship must be broken, otherwise we will die together." I said.

"What is this! What is this!" He shouted at me: "If you say you want to separate from me, then what am I! Did you lie when you said you loved me in the past! Why did you treat me like this!"

He stared at me with a look on his face that was either angry or sad.

"I didn't lie to you, I love you." I said hoarsely.

"You fucking nonsense! If you really love me, how can you be willing to say that you want to leave me!" He said loudly, with tears in his eyes.

I reached out to wipe his tears, but he waved my hand away and said, "Get out! Don't touch me!"

Like a child, he wiped away the tears on his cheeks with his sleeve, but his eyes were still fixed on me, and he said loudly: "I can pretend that you didn't say such a thing. If you apologize to me now, I will forgive you." !"

My eyes felt blurred, my face was cold, there was a loud rolling sound outside the carriage, and the moonlight shone in through the glass window, reflecting on Edward's black coat, like a layer of silver sand.

"Everyone is looking at me. I have become the commander-in-chief of the country's beliefs. If one day a country's bishop has such a scandal, how should I face the world..." I looked at him tiredly and said: " You become the heir of the earl, and I become the bishop, what's wrong with that, why do you want to go to hell together?"

"Don't! Don't!" Edward suddenly burst into tears. He leaned over and hugged my leg and said, "Please, don't, what should I do if you leave?"

"You should marry and have children, like all gentlemen," I said.

"Don't... I beg you... we can escape together, to a place where no one knows..."

"No, we can't escape." I opened the window and told the coachman to stop, then got out of the carriage regardless of Edward's obstruction.

"Adam! Adam!" He chased out, his tone excited, but he couldn't say anything outside.

"I'm going back to the church." I turned my back to him and said, "From now on, I will live in the church, keep my duty as a monk, and forget everything about the past. You... forget it too."

I didn't look at him again, and walked back to the church ruthlessly, afraid of seeing his desperate look.

The candles in the church hall were extinguished one by one by the priests, and the brightly lit hall became pitch black.

Seeing that I was still praying on a chair in the main hall, a priest came over and asked me, "Master Bishop, are you still not going back to rest? It's time to turn off the flames, you... what's wrong with you..."

The commissioner looked at me in surprise, maybe he was frightened when he saw the tears on my face, so he stammered and said, "Are you okay? What's wrong?"

"No...I was... moved...by the teachings of the Holy Gospel..." I choked up and said, "I have to sit for a while, you just go, I will turn off the ignition when I leave."

"Then, I'll take my leave." The council official was also a very smart person. Seeing me crying non-stop, he left the hall with his head down and closed the door when he left.

After the gate was closed, only a few white candles were lit in the empty hall, and there was a drowsiness everywhere. My shadow extended to the wall with the icon, like another lonely person.I sat there for a while, thinking of what happened just now, I couldn't help crying, the sound of crying echoed in the empty hall, like the depressing wind in winter.

I didn't think of being so decisive in advance, I just planned to sever that relationship with him and continue to get along as friends in the future.But when it comes to wanting him to get married and have children, I don't know why, so hard-hearted, I decide never to see him again.I think I can't stand him leaving me, let alone watch him get married and have children.

I fumbled in my arms and took out a picture album, which I brought out when I left home. The only Edward thing I keep now is the picture book he drew back then.

I opened the picture book and turned it page by page. The paper was wet with tears, and the pictures were all blurred.I turned to the end, staring at the teenager me he painted more than ten years ago, and suddenly felt that the person in the painting was exactly the same as me now. I seemed to have not changed for many years, and I was still the same me in the past, timidly wanting to Get away from it all.But what if you don't escape?Under the social rules that cannot go against the current, what else can people do but obey?Just like the words I once taught Anna, since you are in this position, you must obey the rules of society and compromise with irresistible rules, instead of becoming a rebel, otherwise you will only lose your shelter.

Edward suffered a lot as a young man and went through untold hardships to get back everything he has today. Is it necessary to be in fear of such a shameful thing, and even experience the punishment of prison and exile again in the future?Earl Femont is right, if I really love him, I shouldn't drag him into the abyss.

"Wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..." I suppressed my crying, but I couldn't stop it at all. The drawing paper was wet and wrinkled, and the characters on the screen were deformed. Remove the tears on it, but the more you wipe the traces, the more blurred, and finally the paper is torn.

I was so annoyed that I cried while holding the picture album. I realized that I had lost my beloved, so I pushed him away with my own hands.In the long nights to come, I will miss him all my life in solitude, how should I spend such days.

'Bada, Bata', in the empty and lonely church hall, this voice was exceptionally clear.

I raised my head suddenly and found Edward standing in front of me. I thought I was hallucinating and stared at him blankly.

He raised his hand to wipe my tears and said, "I knew earlier, you are not such a cruel person at all."

"Edward..." I trembled, tears rolled down my face, I stood up and hugged him regardless.

He hugged me back, hugged me tight, and started kissing me.This time I also kissed him back excitedly, kissed and stopped, I pushed him away and leaned on the seat, and after calming down for a while, I asked: "How did you come in? I said never to see each other again. "

He sat down next to me, then pulled the picture book in my hand and said, "You can't be like Adam, saying you want to leave me, and sad behind my back."

"I'm sorry, Edward," I said.

"It's okay, I forgive you." He tried to put his arms around me.

"No." I separated his hand and said, "What I just said was serious, we can't go on like this."

He sighed deeply, then lit a cigar and smoked lightly, the smell of cigar smoke permeated the surroundings.

"I know what you are worrying about, I understand, and I am also worried about everything you worry about, but even so, I don't want to separate from you." He said.

"We can meet less often, as time goes by, you will gradually forget me." I said.

"Ha." He smiled miserably and said, "You will forget after a long time. Are you dreaming? How can I gradually forget you! Could it be that you will forget me after a long time! Then why are you still sad here? !"

In the dark, the cigar became shorter and shorter, and finally he wiped out the cigarette butt on the back of the seat.Suddenly he grabbed my collar, lifted me up and pressed me on the altar in the middle of the hall, and then began to tear my clothes.

"What are you doing! Stop!" I yelled at him.

"Scream! Shout louder! Bring people here, let them see how I raped their respected bishop here!" Edward said like crazy.

"You're crazy!" I said in a low voice.

Edward held me tightly with one hand, and pulled my pants with the other. He took off the pants three times, then he spread my legs and pressed me tightly, and his penis was directly on my buttocks.

I looked at him with a pale face, and couldn't believe that he would do such a thing here.

"Let me go!" I struggled violently and said, "Please! No! Not here!"

"Why not! It's here!" he exclaimed.

"Are you crazy! Be quiet!" I begged in a low voice: "I was wrong, what I did today was too reckless, let me go, I will go back with you, I won't say I'm leaving you."

"There's nothing to say. I'm here to fuck you today. It's just right to attract people. I just want to show them what we're doing. God is watching us too. I want to see if he will Punish us, if not punished, God approves, and it is only right and proper for us to be together. Aren’t you afraid? Isn’t that what you are afraid of? Don’t be afraid when things are exposed! I won’t let you go, even if To hell, I will take you with me!"

Saying that, he forcefully squeezed into my back hole.There was no expansion or moistening, and the pain hit instantly, as if it was torn apart. I gritted my teeth and dared not make a sound, only feeling that my head was covered in cold sweat.

Edward tried a few times at the mouth of the hole, and seeing that I finally got used to it, he inserted it deeply, and then started to fuck on this altar.

The pain and fear made me extremely nervous, I bit my lip, hummed lowly, and opened my body as much as possible to accept him.Edward attacked me like venting his anger, every time he went in and out, he pushed to the deepest part.

"Aren't you happy? Call out! We've been together for so long and done so many times, you're also very happy, aren't you? Otherwise, you wouldn't be with me knowing it was wrong." Edward leaned against me The excited point dawdled and crushed, and pressed me tightly with his strong body.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..."

"Is it comfortable? Is it comfortable?" He thrust up and down, the movements were very intense.

"Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...

Edward froze and stopped. He looked at me blankly for a while, then put me in his arms, stroked my back lightly and said, "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

"Edward, don't...don't do this..."

He hugged me tightly, without saying a word, but wept softly.

The candles in the main hall had already burned to the end, and they were faltering, about to be extinguished.Under the shadow of the lamp, we hug each other in disheveled clothes, like people leaning together for warmth in the cold winter, feeling each other's body temperature, relying on each other to warm ourselves and drive away the cold.

"Do you really want to stay with me regardless of everything?" I said softly, "You want to give up the status you finally got and flee England with me? From now on, you will live in fear forever..."

"You are a fool." He whispered, "If you leave me for such a stupid reason, then we should let everyone know that I will not be separated from you even if I die. I am a Selfish people, you remember, never forget."