endless city

Xu Shaoqian was in good health and recovered quickly, and was discharged from the hospital the next day. Because he still had other things to do, he bid farewell to An Yan for the time being and flew back to Xilin City on the same day's plane.

After An Yan returned to the crew, she once again devoted herself to the intense filming. Chen Shiqi found her condition, and the filming of the next scene went smoothly, and the cooperation between the two was also very pleasant.

Xu Shaoqian was busy dealing with business matters, so he didn't visit the crew again after that.

He knows An Yan very well, and knows that there will be no sparks between An Yan and Chen Shiqi, and An Yan is filming now, so it's okay to visit the set once or twice. will also be affected.An Yan hated being disturbed by others when he was working, and Xu Shaoqian would not be so stupid as to touch his bottom line again and again.

On April 4th, as the last scene came to an end, the film finally came to an end, and after that came trivial work such as post-editing. The specific publicity plan has to wait until the time is confirmed before contacting several leading actors to re-finalize.

After the wrap-up banquet, An Yan took a break for a while, and returned to Xilin City with his manager's assistant and others.

An Yan was supposed to go back to his residence in Yuehu District, but Xu Shaoqian lived next door, thinking of this, An Yan didn't want to go back.So An Yan returned to An's house, and Lai ate and drank at home with peace of mind.An Luo was very helpless towards this guy who was wagging his tail like a big dog and was dangling around the house. He just regarded him as air, out of sight.

At noon that day, An Luo was taking a nap in the upstairs room. An Yan was sitting on the sofa watching TV alone. While watching a thrilling movie, he was eating grapes one by one. Leisurely.

The door rang suddenly, An Yan looked back, and met a pair of cold and deep eyes.

The man who walked into the room was wearing a clean and neat military uniform. He was tall and handsome. An Yan immediately stood up from the sofa and walked forward with a smile, "Fourth brother, why are you back?"

While taking off his coat, Anze said, "I have a week of free time during the vacation. I don't have anything to go, so I just go home." He looked around the room again and asked, "Brother Are you not at home?"

An Yan said, "He's taking a nap upstairs."

"Oh." Anze nodded, "I'll go see him."

"Go, go." An Yan knew that the fourth brother always liked to follow his brother as a follower, so he ignored him, and went back to the sofa to continue watching the movie channel.

The movie just now ended, and then another early movie called "Half Face Makeup" began to be played.

This is a spy film about the Republic of China. Jiang Xuening plays a Shanghai beach singer and a member of the underground party of the Communist Party.

That was Xu Shaoqian six years ago. He had just graduated from university but already had an extraordinary bearing. He didn't seem flustered at all when he played rivals with his predecessors. He played a villain spy in the play, wearing silver-rimmed glasses. The cruel villain boss is played vividly.

Xu Shaoqian also won the Best Newcomer Award for that film. This was the first time in the history of the film festival that the Best Newcomer Award was awarded to a supporting actor instead of a leading actor.

"Half Face Makeup" has been considered an unsurpassable Republic of China drama for a long time. In addition to the birth of a new generation of actor Xu Shaoqian in this drama, there is another reason that the heroine Jiang Xuening announced her retirement after filming this drama. Went home to have a baby.That was her last work, and since then, she has never seen the demeanor of the first actress and actress on the screen again.

Watching this old movie, An Yan couldn't help but think back to himself in that year...

What were you doing back then?When Xu Shaoqian won the best newcomer award, An Yan seemed to be still studying. Xu Shaoqian's debut film was released. An Yan was even more excited than Xu Shaoqian. On the day of the premiere, he dragged the entire dormitory to the cinema to join him. After watching it, he even sent text messages Say to Xu Shaoqian; "Shaoqian, I went to see your movie, you are so handsome!"

Looking back now, An Yan suddenly felt like a fool.

——When did Xu Shaoqian fall in love with me?This guy is hiding too well, right?I haven't noticed it for so many years. Is it really that I am too slow?However, with the thinking of a normal person, who would doubt that the same-sex friends around him are not friendship but love?

An Yan thought with some doubts.

Seeing Xu Shaoqian's young and handsome face zoomed in on the TV, An Yan was suddenly upset again. He simply turned off the TV and went upstairs to find his elder brother and fourth younger brother.

The door of An Luo's bedroom was closed, and An Yan didn't think much about it. He reached out and pushed the door open, and said with a smile, "An Ze, what are you talking about with your brother..."

There was a sudden pause at this point, An Yan's smile froze on his face, and his eyes widened in disbelief.

Did he read that right?The moment he entered the door just now, Anze sat on the edge of the bed, leaned over... and kissed his brother?

If it was the past, An Yan might think that An Ze was joking with his brother, but since Xu Shaoqian forced him to happen, An Yan was very sensitive to this aspect. He knew that the relationship between two men , Such an action is completely beyond the scope of friends or brothers!

Anze kissed his brother, it was a deep kiss with his tongue sticking out...

omg...

An Yan stayed where he was, and didn't know what to say for a long time. It wasn't until he met An Ze's extremely cold eyes that An Yan came back to his senses in an instant, and said in disbelief: "An Ze! What are you doing?! You Are you crazy? You... um %￥%"

An Ze, who walked over in three or two steps, covered his mouth with his hand. His younger brother, who has been trained in the army for a long time, is naturally much better than An Yan. An Ze dragged An Yan to the next room with a sullen face, and "bang" Locked the door with a bang.

"Did you see it?" Anze said calmly.

"I saw it!" An Yan stared at An Ze fiercely, and said angrily: "An Ze! Should you explain why you kissed him? He is your brother! This kind of joke is not just casual!"

"It's not a joke." An Ze walked in front of An Yan, looked directly into An Yan's gaze, and said in a low voice and seriously, "I love him."

"..."

"I love him." Anze repeated word by word, "This is not a joke, it's true. I love him. For many years, I have always loved my brother deeply. Why, do you think...it's ridiculous ?”

"..."

An Yan couldn't laugh at all.

Because, from this younger brother's eyes, he saw some kind of emotion that could be called "despair".

This younger brother, who is two years younger than him, has always been a decisive and strong person. His personality is a bit like Xu Shaoqian, always cold and unsmiling, and he takes care of everything by himself.This younger brother has been very sensible and obedient since he was a child, and his grades are also the best among the brothers. An Yan originally thought that he and his elder brother would jointly take over the business of An's family in the future, but in his third year of high school, An Ze somehow applied for a distant military academy , An Yan still couldn't figure it out.

If... it's because of my brother... then everything is easy to explain.

An Yan looked at An Ze with a complicated expression, and after a long time, he whispered: "An Ze, are you crazy? He is our brother...how can you..."

"I know." Anze twitched the corners of his mouth, and seemed to smile slightly, "I always knew that he was my elder brother, our elder brother, and I shouldn't have such unethical feelings towards him."

"However, in many cases, this kind of emotion cannot be controlled at all."

"I can only admit it."

"..."

Hearing An Ze say such words word by word, hearing the depressing deep sadness in his calm tone, An Yan suddenly didn't know what to say.

An Yan has never fallen in love with anyone, and he doesn't understand such strong feelings.

Since childhood, he has always thought that love should be a beautiful and romantic thing. He just wants to find a girl who can understand him, care about him, and accompany him, marry her as his wife, and protect her. Under the circumstances, they walked into the wedding hall, gave birth to many lovely children, and grew old together.

He never considered that there will be feelings between men and men other than friends and brothers.

First Xu Shaoqian, then An Ze, two important men around him came out one after another, An Yan suddenly felt that a corner of his world suddenly collapsed, and the whole world became completely chaotic.

"Actually, my feelings are very similar to the one you expressed in the endless city..." An Ze looked at An Yan and said in a low voice, "A love that cannot be ended, cannot be responded to, and is desperate. "

"Isn't the Seven you played in the play also desperately in love with someone? Since you have played that role, you should understand my feelings, can't you?"

"..." It is understandable. When An Yan was filming the endless city, he also experienced such a hopeless love as a role. However, it was just acting. The moment the lights were turned off and the director shouted, it was over. , he will soon return to the heartless, optimistic and cheerful An Yan.

He couldn't imagine that Anze had been living in such painful despair for so many years.

Seeing that An Yan was silent, An Ze suddenly said: "Actually, Xu Shaoqian is the same, right?"

An Yan's eyes widened suddenly, "You, what did you say?"

"Isn't he in love with you too?"

"..."

"Loving you so desperately, but not getting any response for so many years, seeing you having scandals with various women, he must be very sad."

An Yan's face turned pale, he looked away, and asked in a low voice, "...how do you know?"

An Ze smiled and said: "At the end of last year, on the night of the award ceremony of the film festival, your crew had a dinner, and you stayed at Xu Shaoqian's place until the next afternoon after getting drunk. When I came back, I met you at the door. He was wearing all his clothes, and his neck was full of hickeys... Do you want to tell me that nothing happened that night?"

An Ze paused, "Only if you are as dull as you, would you think that others can't see it?"

"...Enough!" An Yan interrupted him with a pale face, remembering the humiliation that Xu Shaoqian took advantage of when he was drunk that night, An Yan was so angry that his voice began to tremble, "An Ze, you and Xu Shaoqian, you Both are crazy!"

"Crazy?" An Ze stared at An Yan sharply, and said in a stern tone, "Do you think that if our emotions can be easily controlled, we would be happy to become the lunatic in your eyes?!"

"..."

"You think we'd be happy to fall in love with someone we shouldn't love and be despised like a pervert?!"

"..."

An Yan couldn't find any words to refute his tough brother.

He always felt that his younger brother was wrong, and Xu Shaoqian was also wrong, but where did they go wrong?Is it wrong to fall in love with someone who shouldn't?However, as An Ze said, if they can control their feelings well, if they can like other girls, why should they work so hard to love those who shouldn't be loved?Why become a lunatic in the eyes of others?

Sometimes, those strong feelings simply cannot be controlled.

The reason why true love is precious is because that kind of emotion comes from the heart and exists beyond reason.

Anze's eyes were heavy and painful, but more determined, exactly the same as Xu Shaoqian's eyes when he confessed.So, has Xu Shaoqian also experienced the pain and despair that An Ze mentioned in these years?

An Yan stood there with a pale face. After a long time, he said in a low voice: "An Ze, I will not tell anyone about this. But...brother, he...has no possibility of accepting you at all, I advise you It's better to give up early."

"I never expected that he would accept me." An Ze whispered, "I just want to accompany him silently."

An Ze took a deep look at An Yan, then turned and left.

Until the door was tightly closed, An Yan was still immersed in shock and confusion, unable to recover for a long time.