endless city

It wasn't until after Xu Shaoqian left that Zhou Bizhen, who had been silent all this time, walked up to An Yan, and asked softly, "What's wrong with you? Also, what happened to Shaoqian's apology to you just now, what did he do to apologize to you? "

An Yan's eyes were sore, but he couldn't show it in front of his mother, so he could only pretend to be indifferent and smiled, and said, "It's nothing, I just have a little conflict with Xu Shaoqian..."

Zhou Bizhen was silent for a moment, "Shaoqian mentioned to me about quitting the industry before, you don't want to continue filming Endless City, he is willing to stand up and bear everything for you, which is the best solution so far." Zhou Bizhen Sighing lightly, "Shaoqian is also the actor I brought up with my own hands. It's really a pity to leave so early."

An Yan said calmly, "Mom, I'm going back first."

Zhou Bizhen nodded, "Okay. Don't say anything, leave this matter to Shaoqian to explain."

"……understood."

An Yan returned home in a daze, he didn't understand why he was so sad, he clearly rejected Xu Shaoqian, and told him "don't pester me anymore", but when Shaoqian really left, his heart was empty and uncomfortable.

For so many years, whenever I was most helpless and sad, Xu Shaoqian was always by my side without complaint. I used to think of him as a good friend, but now, knowing that he likes me, those gentle companions , Those persistent guarding, in my opinion, is a simple friendship, but to Xu Shaoqian, it is a dedication to the person I like without complaint or regret.

He has paid so much and waited for so many years... Finally tired, tired, so he wants to leave?

An Yan sat on the edge of the bed blankly, his mind was blank.

What Xu Shaoqian did was like dragging a person who had never been in the water into the sea suddenly, and wanted him to swim with him, but he didn't teach him for a long time. He felt tired, so he turned around and left gracefully.

But what should An Yan do?How would An Yan, who was dragged into the water by him, climb up by himself?After being forcibly violated by him and confessed in that way, can An Yan still pretend that nothing happened, and like a girl calmly?

An Yan even felt that the current self was not qualified to like a girl at all.

Every time he took a bath, he couldn't help but think of that crazy night in the bathroom, when he touched his body with his hands, he would think of the scorching temperature of Xu Shaoqian's lips printed on his skin, and think of Xu Shaoqian's kisses all over his body. The heart-pounding mad admiration in those dark eyes when countless hickeys were left on her body...

The feeling of slight numbness even in the toes in the memory, the intense pleasure that overwhelmed the reason, made An Yan's heart flustered.

Ever since that chaotic night, he can't help but think of the past that shouldn't be recalled. Xu Shaoqian's tough movements are like brand marks engraved into the bottom of his heart through the skin. Reappear in your mind, even in your dreams.

An Yan, I love you... Use your body to remember how much I love you...

An Yan's body has indeed remembered, the kind of intrusion that is as strong as piercing the internal organs, and the scalding liquid he left in the body time and time again, and the sensitive body after being drugged climbed up. The climax after another, such madness, such passion, was a unique experience that only Xu Shaoqian gave An Yan.

Sometimes thinking of those plots, An Yan couldn't help but tremble.

As a man, being violated by the same sex like that and getting pleasure out of it, how unbearable is it?

How could I become like this? !

For so many years, I have been clear about the sexual orientation of straight men, and I have always liked the kind of cute and lively girls. Why is Xu Shaoqian's face so full of thoughts now?Xu Shaoqian is also the dreamer every night?

That handsome face, either indifferent or gentle, always clearly appeared in front of his eyes.

An Yan tore off his tie irritably, but because of too much force, he tore it off along with the necklace around his neck.Hearing the crisp sound of "snap", An Yan was startled, and when he looked back, he saw the piece of emerald that had fallen to the ground.

It was Xu Shaoqian's birthday present to him. On the morning of the rape, An Yan wanted to throw it away, but Xu Shaoqian forced him to wear it back. An Yan was not in the mood to argue with him at the time, but gradually forgot about it. something...

An Yan squatted down with an ugly face, and picked up the piece of emerald.

The smooth jade still has its own body temperature on it, and it is warm in the hand. The crystal clear green color exudes a lustrous luster under the light, and the Guanyin carved on the jade is lifelike...

An Yan suddenly realized that his fingers holding the jadeite were trembling slightly.

Xu Shaoqian cares so much about this jadeite, is this jadeite very important to him?Although An Yan is a layman, this piece of jade looks very precious at first glance. It was given by Xu Shaoqian himself, so it must be priceless.

Isn't this the so-called amulet?Why did I seem to be having bad luck ever since I received it?

But even so, he has never been willing to throw it away. Apart from the fact that it looks expensive, there is another reason...it was a gift from Xu Shaoqian.

An Yan never lost the gifts Xu Shaoqian gave him, even the scarf he gave him has been worn for two full years.

So... did I care about him that much?

An Yan clenched his fingers with a pale face, and unbuttoned a few buttons on his neckline due to poor breathing. However, the feeling of difficulty breathing still existed. Every time he took a breath, his chest seemed to be pressed hard by something. The strong sense of suffocation made An Yan's eyes turn red quickly.

Xu Shaoqian...you really decided to go abroad...and never come back?

An Yan stared blankly at the jade in his hand, and after an unknown amount of time, the phone rang suddenly. An Yan finally recovered from his daze, picked up the phone, and looked at the three words "Chen Shiqi" in the caller ID. Dazed for a moment, then took a deep breath, forced a smile and said, "Hey, Shiqi, what do you want from me?"

Chen Shiqi said directly: "Brother is going to quit the entertainment circle, is it true?"

The senior she was referring to was naturally Xu Shaoqian, but Xu Shaoqian's press conference has not yet been held, so the news should not leak out... An Yan was silent for a while, pretending not to care and asked: "How do you know?"

Chen Shiqi said anxiously: "Guoyuan told me! Isn't Guoyuan in the United States? He said that the senior brother just contacted him and asked him to help rent a house there. The senior brother has already applied for a visa to go to the United States." Visa! As soon as you get the visa, you will go abroad!"

"..." An Yan's face turned pale for a while, and the fingers holding the phone suddenly tightened forcefully.

"An Yan, do you know about this?" Chen Shiqi paused, "I remember that you and your senior brother have another film to cooperate with. If he quits, then the second part of Endless City is not planned. Did you shoot it?"

"..."

"But there are many doubts that the first part has not been explained clearly, and the official has already said that the second part will be filmed! Isn't it good for him to do this? Fans will go crazy! Such an irresponsible withdrawal from the circle will be directly ruined A drama will definitely be scolded miserably!"

"..." An Yan's face became even more difficult to look at.

Chen Shiqi said with some concern: "My senior brother is not the kind of person who gives up halfway. Is there another reason? An Yan, do you know why he suddenly made this decision?"

An Yan clutched the phone tightly, not knowing how to answer.

It's because of An Yan...

Xu Shaoqian made this decision only because of An Yan.

Because An Yan didn't want to face him, didn't want to act in this play, so he stepped forward and took on everything.

No matter how many people he offended, no matter how many fans' hearts were broken, no matter how many rumors he created for the media, no matter how others scolded him, he still calmly stood up and resisted all these things alone.

His voluntary withdrawal will make everyone point the finger at him.

Xu Shaoqian ruined Endless City irresponsibly, Xu Shaoqian disregarded fans’ feelings for the sake of the family business, Xu Shaoqian regarded movies as child’s play, and did not hesitate to quit the drama, Xu Shaoqian had no professional ethics, signed a contract but inexplicably quit the circle... The future is very long For a period of time, the ironic headlines of the major news networks will definitely bear the name of actor Xu Shaoqian. It is unimaginable how miserable Xu Shaoqian will be scolded.

Withdrew from the entertainment circle, bearing the infamy all over his body, just to protect the one he loved...

"An Yan? What's going on? Is it because you guys had a fight, I heard that day..."

Chen Shiqi was still asking anxiously, but An Yan hurriedly interrupted her with a pale face, and said in a low voice, "I don't know. Probably...he's going home to take over the Xu family's business."

"Is that so..." Chen Shiqi was obviously disappointed, "Forget it, I'll ask Guoyuan to persuade him to try."

"Ah."

After hanging up the phone, An Yan looked at the jade in his hand, and remained silent for a long time with a stiff face. Then he found out from the drawer the exquisite packaging box that Xu Shaoqian gave him as a gift, put the necklace in it carefully, and then closed the box.

...He was so stupid that he didn't even throw the box away.Because it was a gift from Shaoqian, the box looked very delicate, so it had been kept in the locked drawer of his writing desk.

An Yan clenched the packing box with a pale face, feeling a throbbing pain in his chest.

The phone rang again suddenly. It was Anze's call. He said simply: "I am with my brother, and I have already picked him up. His leg is slowly recovering. Don't worry, I will take good care of him." .”

An Yan froze for a moment, "Oh..."

An Ze directly took his brother away from home. Although An Yan disapproved of this shocking brotherly relationship, since An Ze's phone call, he has not opposed it as much as he did at the beginning.What's more, he is even a little shaken by himself now...

Anze said in a low voice: "By the way, where are you? I heard some bad news about you and Xu Shaoqian."

An Yan was silent for a while, and then said: "An Ze, what you said... What does it feel like to fall in love with someone?"

An Ze couldn't help laughing, this second brother actually asked such a ridiculous question, it's really too slow.After thinking about it, he said seriously: "One day, when you feel so sad for someone that you almost collapse, you will know what it feels like to love someone."

An Yan said in a daze, "Is that so...?"

Anze whispered: "Well. Ask this question, have you fallen in love with Xu Shaoqian?"

"How is it possible!" An Yan's face froze suddenly, "I won't like him, don't make such a joke..."

"Oh, that's it." Anze said calmly, "Then I'll cook, bye."

The phone was hung up decisively, and An Yan's mind became even more confused when he heard the beeping sound in his ear.

The feeling of being so sad for someone that you almost collapsed...is it love?

He hated Xu Shaoqian's rape regardless of his will, hated Xu Shaoqian's forced kisses again and again, but he never thought of revenge or punishing that person, he never even hated Xu Shaoqian.

It's not so much disgust, it's more apt to say that it's mostly sadness and disappointment...

Although he was driven away again and again, every time he appeared in front of him, he was so nervous that his tongue was tied, his mind was blank, and his heart was flustered.

When he finally chose to leave...but he was so uncomfortable that he almost collapsed.

Why is it so uncomfortable...?

Thinking of not being able to see him again in the future, he felt so uncomfortable that he wanted to dig out his heart and tear it to pieces.

An Yan held the emerald with a pale face, but he still couldn't convince himself to admit the possibility.

Maybe...he had already unknowingly...fell in love with Xu Shaoqian.