Zhu Mu Lang Ma

When Fu Kun lifted Fu Yijie up from the ground, Fu Yijie didn't struggle, and leaned against him a little weakly.

Mom ran to the house to find a new blanket, wrapped Diudiu carefully in the blanket, and tied a butterfly on it with a red string.

"Yijie, don't feel bad," my mother came over and hugged Fu Yijie, rubbing his back vigorously, "How old is Diudiu, and it's good to live in our house, isn't it?"

"En." Fu Yijie nodded.

"When your dad comes back tonight, let's discuss it. Take it out tomorrow and find a good place to bury it, okay?"

"Ah."

Mom winked at Fu Kun, and Fu Kun came over and put his arm around Fu Yijie's shoulder: "Let's go back to the house for a while."

Fu Yijie entered the room, stood in a daze for a long time, then threw himself on the tatami, and buried his face in the pillow.

Fu Kun closed the bedroom door. Although he was afraid of dogs and didn't usually play with Diu Diu, after all, Diu Diu stayed at home for so many years and ran around with people every day. He suddenly disappeared like this, and he felt very sad. .

When he was hesitating whether to let Fu Yijie stay by himself for a while or pat his back to comfort him like he did when he was a child, Fu Yijie buried himself in the pillow and let out a roar.

Fu Kun was startled and stared at him.

Fu Yijie's second roar came from the pillow, and he kicked his legs hard a few times, and beat the tatami with his hands a few times.

Although the roar was muffled by the pillow, Fu Kun could still hear that his throat was broken.

"One piece," Fu Kun quickly climbed onto the tatami, and patted Fu Yijie's back vigorously several times, "One piece..."

After yelling twice and not knowing what to say, Fu Yijie kicked his legs twice again, as if he wanted to vent his anger, but he couldn't find an exit, and his whole body was exerting all his strength.

"Don't feel bad, baby." Fu Kun squeezed his shoulders up and down, wanting to relax his body, "It's lucky that you have been in our house for so many years..."

"You didn't let it exercise properly!" Fu Yijie sat up suddenly, his head almost hit Fu Kun's chin, he grabbed Fu Kun's arm and glared at him, "You won't run away even if you take it out! "

Fu Kun looked at his face full of tears and red eyes, feeling distressed, hugged him and rubbed his head back and forth: "Yes, yes, I didn't take good care of it..."

"It's all your fault!" Fu Yijie gritted his teeth, with a strong nasal sound in his voice.

"Blame me, blame me," Fu Kun nodded desperately, "I'm too lazy, I didn't let it run around more, I'm sorry."

"It's your fault..." Fu Yijie cried while lying on his shoulder.

"Yes, it's all my fault." Fu Kun said softly.

Fu Yijie loved to cry when he was a child, but in Fu Kun's memory, Fu Yijie would always cry silently, except for the day he called out his mother many years ago, he was crying, and Fu Kun never heard him again There is sound when crying.

But now, Fu Yijie was on his shoulder, crying so sad that his whole body trembled. This crying sound was like a wounded animal losing its companion. Fu Kun's heart was blocked and his nose became sore after hearing it.

"I don't blame you..." Fu Yijie put his arms around his shoulders, "I'm sorry, bro, I'm sorry..."

"Don't be sad," Fu Kun patted him lightly on the back, he could feel the tense muscles on his back, "It doesn't like to move, I take it out, it always crawls into the grass and lies on its stomach, I It doesn't bother to talk to me even if I tease it, this little thing has never liked to talk to me, I throw stones like you, and it doesn't even look at it..."

Fu Yijie cried even harder: "Brother, I'm sorry, I didn't blame you, it's none of your business."

"I know, I know," Fu Kun rubbed his arms and back vigorously with both hands, "It's okay if you blame me even more."

"It's fine if I don't go to live on campus... I just want to go to live on campus..."

Fu Yijie didn't want to cry, but he couldn't control his tears no matter what.

Diudiu is a very important friend in his heart. Fu Yijie has always felt that, like Diudiu, he was picked up back to this home and lived a happy and satisfying life, but without Diudiu, it was like losing the important thing in his heart. sustenance.

And in the past year or so, or from earlier, from the time when Fu Yijie clearly realized his true inner thoughts, those suppressed and unspeakable things made him feel deeply guilty and painful. At this moment, the pain of losing Diu Diu broke out.

These depressions and pains surged out with the gap in his heart, like a dike burst, once the hole was opened, it was almost impossible to block it.

All the emotions in Fu Yijie's heart gushed out uncontrollably.

He wanted to stop, but he couldn't stop. The more Fu Kun comforted him gently, the more he couldn't stop. He wanted to vent fiercely, crushing everything in his heart into compressed biscuits. Let those emotions come out.

"It's good to live in school," Fu Kun hugged him and patted him on the back, "I want to sprint to review, I should live in school, don't think about it..."

"What do you know!" Fu Yijie's voice trembled, tears soaked a large area of ​​the shirt on Fu Kun's shoulders, and he repeated, "You don't understand, you don't understand... What do you know..."

"Yes, I don't understand," Fu Kun said along with him. Although he didn't know what Fu Yijie was talking about, he felt that it was a bit wrong to say so, so he changed his words, "I understand, I understand."

"You do not understand……"

"I really understand, I understand." Fu Kun sighed, Fu Yijie was really not easy to coax when he cried, and he couldn't be like when he was a child, just give him something to eat and make him smile immediately I can't find it anymore.

"Then what do you know?" Fu Yijie let go of his arm, sat back on the tatami, and stayed face to face with him.

It was the first time Fu Kun saw Fu Yijie crying like this, his face was full of messy tears, his hair was messed up, his eyes were red and swollen, he gently touched Fu Yijie's face: "You What do you want me to understand?"

"I don't like girls." Fu Yijie said.

Fu Kun's hand trembled slightly. Although he had already guessed this possibility before, but when Fu Yijie suddenly said such a sentence at this time, he was not mentally prepared at all.

How did you come from Diu Diu to this matter?

"Ah." Fu Kun responded.

"I like men." Fu Yijie continued, staring fixedly into his eyes.

While saying these words, Fu Yijie seemed to put away his tears, his voice was still nasal, but his tone was no longer helpless and sad as before.

Fu Kun didn't expect such a change in Fu Yijie in such a short period of time, he couldn't deal with it any longer, so after being silent for a long time, he said: "I know."

This answer made Fu Yijie stunned. He didn't speak for a long time, but just stared at Fu Kun's face.

Fu Kun watched as a teardrop in the corner of Fu Yijie's eye slowly slid down his cheek to his chin, and hung there for a while without dripping.

He raised his hand and flicked Fu Yijie's chin lightly with his fingers, tears dripped into his palm.

"You know?" Fu Yijie asked.

"Well, I can't say I know it," Fu Kun thought for a while, "I probably guessed a little... Well, I read your books, I read one, and I think... this is really not justified by curiosity. ..."

"Why did you watch it?" Fu Yijie asked again, "Is it because I kissed you that day?"

"Ah..." Fu Kun was a little embarrassed, sometimes Fu Yijie spoke so bluntly that he didn't know how to respond, "Forget it, let's do it, it's a little strange."

Fu Yijie's body, which had been tense all this time, slowly relaxed. He looked like he was crying a lot before, but now he was tired. He looked down at his hands: "I've never liked girls before."

Fu Kun didn't make a sound, but Fu Yijie looked up at him again: "Brother, do you think I..."

"No!" Fu Kun interrupted him before he finished speaking, and said with certainty, "No, absolutely not."

Fu Yijie smiled, raised his hand and rubbed his eyes indiscriminately, sighed, didn't speak any more, just looked at Fu Kun's face.

"A bit," Fu Kun thought for a while, then reached out to gently wipe the tears on his face, "It's about..."

Fu Kun's gentle movements and lowered voice made Fu Yijie feel like a feather was flying over his heart, and a soft and warm feeling immediately surrounded him.

He turned his head and rubbed his face against Fu Kun's palm. Fu Kun's hand was very warm. Since he was a child, he liked the temperature of Fu Kun's palm, which can make people feel at ease.

What Fu Kun was still saying, Fu Yijie couldn't hear clearly, the warm feeling like lying in a big fluffy blanket spread from Fu Kun's palm to his whole body.

It's been a long time since he touched Fu Kun like this. This long-lost comfort made him a little dazed. He looked at Fu Kun's lips and couldn't hear what Fu Kun was saying, but he could clearly hear Fu Kun's words. Breathing.

"We don't think about anything during this time, no matter what it is, put it aside first, it's nothing..." Fu Kun is not very good at comforting people, let alone encouraging people, these few words made his forehead sweat Yes, I felt very boring when I heard it. If someone told me that, I would probably be impatient.

But Fu Yijie didn't look impatient, he just kept looking at him.

"Anyway, hey, how should I put it..." Fu Kun frowned, searching for words.

When Fu Yijie suddenly approached him, he just had a messy thought of grabbing a red heart with both hands, no, prepare with both hands, before he figured out what Fu Yijie was going to do, Fu Yijie had already kissed him on the shoulder come up.

Fu Kun felt as if his heart was paralyzed, lying on the ground throbbing, Fu Yijie pressed half of his body over, kissed him hard on the mouth, the tip of his tongue easily pushed his teeth away and penetrated into him mouth.

He threw his head back suddenly, trying to avoid it, but Fu Yijie leaned forward faster than him, and almost threw himself on him without hesitation, he had to use his arms to lean back on the tatami, supporting Did not allow myself to be overwhelmed.

Fu Yijie's breathing was very fast, and the warmth fell on his face, and the arms around him were also very hard, making him a little breathless.

The tip of Fu Yijie's tongue still had the salty taste of tears, and he was frantically exploring and entangled in his mouth. Fu Kun wanted to turn his head, but Fu Yijie's hand quickly reached behind his head and held it down. Inserting it into his hair, pressing him hard against her.

Fu Kun's arms couldn't support the weight of the two people leaning down, and Fu Yijie's hunger and thirst and crazy kisses made him a little weak, In the end, his arms couldn't support him, Fu Yijie pressed on top of him, and the two of them fell on the tatami.

When he fell down, Fu Yijie finally let go of his lips, and Fu Kun asked with difficulty: "What are you doing?"

Fu Yijie ignored him, lowered his head and buried it in the hollow of his shoulder, biting his neck and shoulders savagely, pain and numbness came to him at the same time, he suddenly breathed a lot harder, but his hand was still firm Pushing Fu Yijie upwards: "You are crazy!"

Fu Yijie still ignored him and didn't make a sound. He just pressed his hand to his side, pressed it with his knees, pulled his clothes and pushed them up, then lowered his head and kissed him on his chest. He took several bites.

"Fu Yijie!" Fu Kun yelled in a suppressed voice, his hands were pressed down and he couldn't lift up, so he could only lift his leg up hard and hit Fu Yijie's butt.

Fu Yijie was shaken by his bump, and kept his hands on the ground so as not to jump forward.

Taking advantage of this moment, Fu Kun pulled out his hand and poked Fu Yijie under the ribs with his knuckles.

"Ah!" Fu Yijie straightened up abruptly, rubbing his ribs back and forth with his hands.

Fu Kun got up and wanted to go to the chair and sit down.

As soon as he took a step, his feet were caught by the towel on the tatami mat. He had been tossing about for a long time without energy, but he fell straight down when he was hooked again. At the end, he tried his best to hug the back of the chair and tried to struggle. But he didn't succeed, he fell on his back, and the chair buckled on him.

With the sound of the chair being smashed on the ground, Fu Yijie suddenly came back to his senses, and was frightened into a cold sweat.

"Brother, are you alright!" He jumped over to remove the chair, and pulled Fu Kun up from the ground.

"It's okay." Fu Kun moved his arms and sat on the chair. After sitting for two seconds, he jumped up again and grabbed Fu Yijie's collar, "What the hell is going on with you? You always do this! Mom What are you doing in the living room! Are you crazy!"

Fu Yijie also felt that he was a little too crazy just now, he lowered his head and didn't make a sound.

"I said I know you don't like girls, you don't need to keep proving it to me!" Fu Kun said again in a low voice before letting go of his hands and sitting back on the chair.

"I prove it?" Fu Yijie was stunned.

"There's no need to prove it, I know," Fu Kun wiped his mouth, and he could still taste Fu Yijie's salty tears at the corner of his mouth.

"You know what a fart!" Fu Yijie couldn't help but say something.

"I know you're a fart, why don't you give it a try and see if I know." Fu Kun said angrily.

Fu Yijie walked in front of him, supported the armrest of the chair with his hands, and slowly pressed it in front of his eyes, staring at him for a while: "Did you hear that?"

"What?" Fu Kun also looked at him inexplicably.

"My fart," Fu Yijie said, "Can you hear anything?"

"Your uncle Fu Yijie," Fu Kun said helplessly, "You are so disgusting."

"Fu Kun," Fu Yijie sighed, turned around and stared at the mirror on the cabinet door, his red and swollen eyes and red nose that was a size bigger looked horrible, "I said you don't understand, you actually I really don't understand."

"Really," Fu Kun leaned on the chair and looked at Fu Yijie's back. Indeed, there were many things he didn't understand. He didn't understand what Fu Yijie was thinking, and he didn't understand what was wrong with him. "Then explain it clearly and let me understand."

"I dare not." Fu Yijie took a breath, rubbed his face, turned and walked towards the bedroom door.

"Yijie," Fu Kun called him, "I probably really don't understand, but I just want to say, no matter what you have, brother will stand by your side."

"Really?" Fu Yijie turned his head to look at him, the corner of his mouth curled up, revealing a smile that didn't understand the meaning.

Fu Kun suddenly felt that there was something in this smile that he didn't seem to understand but was ready to come out without much esoteric content. He frowned, but still nodded solemnly.

Fu Yijie opened the door: "I am the same, although I don't know what you need me to do..."

Dad made a small wooden box for Diudiu overnight, and put his favorite toys, bowls for eating, and some clothes that his mother made for him, all in it.

Early the next morning, the whole family took the wooden box to the river where Fu Kun often took Fu Yijie to play when he was in elementary school, found a quiet slope with backwater, and buried Diudiu.

Fu Yijie sat alone on the dirt slope for quite a long time. It seemed that a lot of things happened that night. Between Diu Diu, he and Fu Kun seemed to wake up overnight, and life began to be different.

This kind of difference made him suffer, but it also made him enjoy it. Compared to those days of silence and depression, he would rather enjoy the fresh air that was torn apart, even if it only penetrated into his body for a moment.

For about a week, Fu Yijie had some insomnia and occasionally lost his mind in class, but he soon returned to his previous calm. He didn't have much time. He hoped to make his parents feel at ease and happy, and he also hoped that he was still Fu Yijie. Kun's pride, this step must be taken steadily.

Fu Kun began to think about buying a car. There is nothing wrong with buying a car with the money he has on hand, but he is reluctant to part with a good car, and he wants to buy a shop in the future. The money has to be spent on useful things.

But after discussing for a long time in the end, both parents had the same opinion, and they decided to buy an electric three-wheeler.

Fu Kun imagined that he was driving an electric tricycle, and there were three small benches in the back, sitting on his parents and Fu Yijie...

"Think about it, doesn't that scene look like a fellow villager going to the market?" When Fu Kun called Fu Yijie, he was depressed when he mentioned this, "I shouldn't ask them, tell me, what kind of car is suitable for my brother to buy?" ?”

Fu Yijie was eating chicken legs, and laughed when he heard this: "Yes, I'm the only one who is the most reliable in the whole family, Fu Kun, you just buy a car if you have money? You even drive a motorcycle without a license Bar?"

"Hey, that's true," Fu Kun was stunned, "I don't even remember if you don't tell me, but I will drive..."

"Don't think about this car yet. Let's talk about it when you pass the test, or you wait for me," Fu Yijie bit the chicken bone, and said, "If you want, I will drive for you. lifetime."

"Come on, don't you still ask me to count the money for you at home? You drive me, and I will pay you wages, and then you give me the money I gave you, and I will count the money I gave you at home. Qian..." Fu Kun was amused halfway through speaking, "A duo with a heartless eye."

What kind of car to buy and when to buy a car, as well as what time he will spend to learn how to drive and take the exam, Fu Kun is almost worried. Cheng Cheng sometimes hangs in his stall, and he can tell people for a long time, Cheng Chengdu made him tired of talking about it every day.

"Uncle, you're really annoying. You wait for Uncle Yijie to finish his exams and go on summer vacation. Let him come over and watch over him for you. Why don't you go and study?" Cheng Cheng said with a frown.

Fu Kun patted his leg: "Yeah, why didn't I think of that!"

But after thinking about it, he shook his head again: "No, he put a cold face on this stick, if he can buy one in a month, he has to meet an idiot..."

"Why don't you do that," Xiao Chengcheng thought for a while, "You hire a child laborer."

"For example you?" Fu Kun laughed.

"Well, child labor is cheap."

"Then ask your mother, if she agrees, I'll invite you here." Fu Kun said with a smile. If Xiao Chengcheng is here to help him watch, he is really relieved. This little guy has been selling with his mother since he was a child. Things, the mouth is very sweet, and she can talk.

"She definitely agrees. She even asked me to go out and set up a popsicle stand this summer."

In the last half month before the college entrance examination, Fu Yijie returned home from school, stopped studying day and night every day, and went to bed on time at ten o'clock in the evening.

Fu Kun felt that he looked quite relaxed. His mother held a book on nutrition to study every day, and cooked food in different ways. Fu Yijie's thin face was also slightly fatter.

The day before the exam, Fu Kun was so nervous that he couldn't sleep: "Yeah, why am I so nervous?"

"I don't know," Fu Yijie lay down quite comfortably, "Do you want to help me take the exam?"

"Exam fart, do you want to go to agricultural college?" Fu Kun laughed, "My notification letter is still in the drawer."

"Then you are so nervous, I will definitely pass the exam, don't worry."

During the few days of the college entrance examination, Fu Kun didn't go to Datong. After sending Fu Yijie to the examination room, he stood guard outside the examination room. When Fu Yijie came out, he immediately went over with a pile of food and drink.

Fu Yijie performed well. Every time he finished the exam, he was smiling. At the end of the last subject, he said while eating a popsicle, "Fu Kun, come and worship me."

Fu Kun immediately took out his mobile phone and called home: "Mom, my idol exam is over, it must be good, Zhengmei, take out the gift I prepared for him."

Fu Kun's gift for the college entrance examination to Fu Yijie was a laptop, which he secretly bought more than a month in advance, and kept hidden in his parents' room.

Fu Yijie hugged the notebook on the sofa so happy that he couldn't find his eyes. Fu Kun stood watching, he couldn't remember how long he hadn't seen Fu Yijie's smile, and felt a burst of emotion in his heart.

A few days after Fu Yijie was waiting for his grades, Fu Kun went to the driving school to sign up, planning to learn how to drive after hiring a child laborer.

On the way home after registering, he stopped by to see the car. Although he couldn't stand the electric three-wheeler, he thought that the car he wanted to buy was not a good car. convenient.

He took a few promotional materials and was going home to discuss with everyone.

There are also some things, after Fu Yijie no longer has the pressure of the college entrance examination, he feels that he can have a good chat with Fu Yijie.

When he got home, he saw a Mitsubishi off-roader parked downstairs, and couldn't help but click his tongue twice. Just as he was thinking whose relative or friend's car it was, two people walked out one after the other in the corridor.