Zhu Mu Lang Ma

Jiang Song said that he was gay, and no one else in the dormitory took it seriously, but Liu Wei saw Jiang Song and Fu Yijie with a sullen face for several days in a row, as if they owed him 100 million of.

Jiang Song didn't pay much attention to him, and every day was the same as before. It was time to go to class, work part-time, and occasionally go out to eat and drink with friends.

Fu Yijie didn't say much, he still buried himself in his books. Besides going to the library in class and going to the sophomore year, there was one more thing to do, which was to watch the tape.

In the past, Wu Pingshan and Xu Hao would sometimes take the initiative to talk to Liu Wei, but now they don't. Liu Wei has become an air in the dormitory, unless he takes the initiative to speak, otherwise no one pays attention to him.

"Who knows what other embarrassing things he will say," Xu Hao said uncomfortably while eating, "I can't stand being rushed by him. You said they are all people who are immersed in their studies. He and Fu Why is Yijie's personality so different?"

"Probably has something to do with the environment in which he grew up," Wu Pingshan whispered, "That Ma Jiajue..."

"Stop talking!" Jiang Song clicked his tongue, "Be careful that Liu Jiawei chops us up at night."

"It might take a little effort for him to chop me up," Xu Hao pinched the flesh on his stomach, "It cost me several knives."

Fu Yijie laughed, and squeezed his flesh: "This is also a protective suit."

"Yijie, don't you know which one is Lu Yumeng?" Jiang Song said suddenly, and raised his chin behind Fu Yijie, "That's the one in the blue dress."

Fu Yijie turned his head and saw a few girls behind him who had just walked into the cafeteria. The one in the blue skirt was tall and pretty, and belonged to the kind who was quite flamboyant, and he could be seen at a glance in the crowd. Girl, it took almost two semesters for Fu Yijie to match the person with the name, and he felt that he was really awesome.

Lu Yumeng glanced this way, met Fu Yijie's eyes, she didn't avoid it, raised her eyebrows and smiled at Fu Yijie, Fu Yijie was stunned, then smiled at him, turned around turned back.

As soon as I turned around, I saw Liu Wei who had just sat down at the opposite table. I felt uncomfortable for a while. This person stopped eating at the same table with them after a few words in the dormitory last time, and sat at the other table to eat every day. , but not far away, just one or two tables away, you can see it from time to time.

Take a look at three years.

Fu Yijie lowered his head to pick up the vegetables, and didn't look at Liu Wei again.

After Liu Wei didn't talk much in the dormitory, Fu Yijie felt a lot cleaner. He was preparing to take the CET-[-] exam in June, and besides the things planned, he began to immerse himself in reading the CET-[-] materials every day.

"You said how good it was for you to take the master's degree exam." Jiang Song lay on the bed and chatted with a notebook, "You are born to read."

"Seven years is too long." Fu Yijie stared at the book.

Jiang Song glanced at him, probably not quite understanding what he meant, but he didn't ask again.

There was no class in the afternoon, and everyone in the dormitory stayed put. When Fu Yijie was fighting with the fourth-level materials, his cell phone rang. He picked it up and took a look. He was stunned: "Old Zhang?"

Lao Zhang was their counselor, an older young woman who had just graduated from graduate school, with a cheerful personality. Everyone called her Lao Zhang, but Fu Yijie didn't have much contact with her, so he didn't know why she was looking for him.

Lao Zhang didn't say anything, he just asked Fu Yijie to go to her office.

"Old Zhang looking for you?" Jiang Song also felt very strange.

"Well, I'll go and have a look, I don't know what's going on." Fu Yijie put on his coat.

"It must be a good thing," Xu Hao said loudly with earphones plugged into his ears, "Maybe I want you to enter the student union next semester..."

Fu Yijie went over and pulled off one of his earplugs: "You are dreaming."

When he walked out of the dormitory and closed the door, Fu Yijie saw Liu Wei who had been sitting by the window writing something and looked up at him.

Lao Zhang was standing outside the office door, and when he saw Fu Yijie running over, he beckoned, "Let's go."

Fu Yijie walked out of the office building beside her, and walked all the way to the school playground, before Lao Zhang said, "It's okay to ask you out today, I just want to know something about you."

"What's the matter?" Fu Yijie asked.

"I have a letter here, which was forwarded to me by the department. I can't show it to you, but I can relay the content to you. I also want to verify it." Lao Zhang patted his coat pocket, "The content is very sensitive, yes Your sexuality."

When Lao Zhang said it calmly, his eyes were fixed on the people who were running on the playground, but these words seemed to stir up a typhoon in Fu Yijie's heart.

He suppressed the churning in his heart, and changed the calm expression on his face into surprise: "Sexual orientation? I don't understand."

"It is said that you and Jiang Song are gay, and that you are in a relationship... originally this is a personal matter. My attitude is very clear, and I don't think the department should interfere." Lao Zhang turned and stood face to face with him, " But the letter said that you and...Jiang Song didn't pay much attention to the influence..."

"Me and Jiang Song?" Fu Yijie didn't know what to say.

Any fool would know that the person who wrote the letter was Liu Wei.

Fu Yijie can guess why Liu Wei used such a cheap and obvious method. Liu Wei doesn't care if the person involved can guess that he did it. Even if he guessed it was him, there is no evidence that he wrote the letter. Li knew about it and knew that he and Jiang Song were gay.

He just needs to achieve the purpose of letting the department know. Last semester, he heard that some universities expelled gay students.

Fu Yijie always thought that Liu Wei was weak-mouthed and had a flawed personality, but he didn't expect him to be so ruthless.

"Because it is said to affect others, if so, I have to find out the situation, and because the letter mainly mentions you, so I will talk to you first," Lao Zhang patted him on the shoulder, " Don't stress, it's just a conversation between the two of us."

"What do you know? Do you know if I'm gay, if I'm on good terms with Jiang Song, and if my shadow affects others?" Fu Yijie frowned, his mind spinning rapidly.

This matter cannot be admitted.

It's not a question of whether you have the courage to face yourself, it's... being calculated to give yourself a way out.

Fu Yijie was suddenly very glad that Lao Zhang found him first instead of Jiang Song. Otherwise, with Jiang Song's character, he would probably have pushed him away, and he would have done everything on his own.

"Sister," Fu Yijie took a breath and adjusted his tone, "I don't know what the person who wrote the letter was thinking, misunderstanding or spreading rumors, I'm not sure, but Jiang Song and I are neither."

"Ah..." Lao Zhang responded, seeming to breathe a sigh of relief.

"There was an argument in the dormitory because of listening to Leslie Cheung's song before. There may be a misunderstanding here. You can ask the students in the dormitory to find out the specific situation." Fu Yijie bit his lip, "Besides, since someone wrote it so responsibly In such a letter, I will also talk about my thoughts.”

"Well, tell me." Old Zhang nodded.

"Evidence, if you come to talk to me because of such a nonsense letter, it makes me very uncomfortable. I have known Jiang Song since elementary school. It is not surprising that I have a good relationship with him. If this is the case, we can be said to be gay. ..." Fu Yijie paused, "Then I request to track down the person who wrote the letter to slander, or else I will write a letter to the school office another day, saying that Director Lu of our department is gay."

Lao Zhang was stunned and laughed: "Okay, I will find out more about the situation. I also think the letter itself is not credible. I will talk to you only when it mentions affecting classmates. I also hope You can understand my attitude."

"I understand." Fu Yijie nodded.

"Go back to the dormitory first," Lao Zhang patted his arm, "don't affect your mood."

"No." Fu Yijie smiled, turned and left.

When Fu Yijie returned to the dormitory, he only said that Lao Zhang wanted to chat with him casually, but everyone knew that Lao Zhang often talked to people.

He didn't say much else, and no one asked after him. Only Liu Wei kept looking at him, with a look of expectation or nervousness in his eyes that he couldn't tell.

Fu Yijie didn't talk about this matter again until after dinner at night, when Jiang Song left the dormitory to work, he sent a text message to Jiang Song, waiting for me in the back mountain.

After almost half an hour, Fu Yijie took the book and walked out of the dormitory.

Jiang Song huddled beside the back mountain path, and when he saw him, he immediately jumped over and kicked him: "Damn, did you come out after sleeping, I almost collapsed."

Fu Yijie smiled, and told what Lao Zhang asked him to talk to today.

Jiang Song was stunned for a long time before suppressing his voice and cursing: "Fuck! What is Liu Wei doing! Is this trying to spread rumors and get someone fired!"

"Why doesn't he care about it?" Fu Yijie pulled Jiang Song's collar and pulled him in front of him, "I'll tell you, if Lao Zhang asks you, you say you're not."

"Why? Am I afraid of him!" Jiang Song frowned, "He can do such things as destroying people's future!"

"You can't talk about this matter. If you say yes, this matter will never end. Can you listen to me?" Fu Yijie let go of his hand, "Whether Lao Zhang will investigate who made the rumor or not, we must Let this matter be a rumor, even if he only made half of the rumor, he can't admit it at this time, he has to confirm the fact of the rumor."

Jiang Song didn't speak, and only after a while did he say: "Fu Yijie, I really don't think you are so thoughtful?"

"Don't mess with me, I don't care about anything," Fu Yijie turned and walked to the classroom, "I'm going to self-study, remember to calm down when Lao Zhang asks you."

"Understood, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not," Jiang Song whispered behind him, "I saw Lu Yumeng is still hard today, it's okay."

Fu Yijie was overjoyed: "You really can't be cured."

When Fu Yijie walked out of the classroom with the book, he suddenly felt out of mood, so he turned around and walked slowly to the stand beside the playground and sat down.

From the time he heard what Lao Zhang said in the letter until just now, he has been in a tense state.

Now after sitting for a while, I slowly relax, and I start to feel a little scared and tired.

Because of his sexuality, he had to face many things nervously.

why?

Why does he have such a tail that can be caught at any time?Why is there a weakness that is not accepted by the world?Why is there such a weakness that is afraid of other people's eyes?

Even if Liu Wei has no evidence, but just guesses, but just such disgusting guesses also make him feel painful and exhausted.

He couldn't recall what kind of mood he was in when he said those words to Lao Zhang. He calmly and with the most natural anger, told Lao Zhang, I am not gay, and someone made a rumor.

He had to bury himself, cover himself with lies and performances, and calmly denied himself again.

why?

He told Fu Kun that he didn't have Xia Fei's calmness, Jiang Song's courage, and he didn't have those unbearable criticisms and stares, but also because he didn't just like men.

There are too many things that bind him, and he doesn't even dare to imagine the day when he will break free in his life.

The phone rang, Fu Yijie took it out, and saw Fu Kun's name.

"Brother." He answered the phone.

"Aren't you in the dormitory?" Fu Kun's voice came over, "I just went to Q to look for you, and you're not online."

"I'm going to self-study." Fu Yijie closed his eyes, Fu Kun's voice made him feel warm, and only when he heard Fu Kun's voice could he relax a little bit, "Are you home?"

"Well, are you okay? Why am I so lethargic listening to you?" Fu Kun asked.

"It's okay." Fu Yijie stood up and walked slowly along the track, "I'm probably a little tired. I'm going to take the CET-[-] exam in June. It won't be long, and the review is very tight."

Fu Kun was silent for a while, and said softly: "For a while, you shouldn't be tired because of a fourth-level review. If you have anything to do, just tell my brother. Didn't you agree?" Don’t worry about me, if there’s anything you can’t take care of yourself.”

Fu Yijie smiled and said nothing, the carefree Fu Kun is always very sensitive at critical moments.

"It's nothing, it's just..." Fu Yijie hesitated, "Someone said I'm gay..."

"What!" Fu Kun yelled in a low voice, "Who? How did he know?"

"Listen to me," Fu Yijie said in quick succession, "He doesn't know, he guessed, just the person I mentioned to you before, the person you said gave him a carrot, that person If you don’t talk all the time to make people annoying, then just say it..."

"Why is he talking about nothing? Is he bored? Fuck!" Fu Kun suppressed his voice.

Fu Yijie briefly explained the matter, and suddenly felt relieved: "This matter has no basis, and it won't affect me if I say it, it's just a little depressed."

"I'll go see you next month," Fu Kun said suddenly, "I'll buy summer clothes next month, and I'll rest for two days after I'm done buying. Come and see you?"

"I'm fine, really, you don't have to worry, if you keep doing this, how dare I tell you anything in the future," Fu Yijie squatted on the side of the runway, thinking of Fu Kun driving a car for a day, staying overnight and then driving again It was very distressing to go back by car one day, "Travel all the way, I should go home for summer vacation after next month."

"You really don't need me to go there?" Fu Kun asked.

"No need." Fu Yijie bit his lip.

Fu Kun was silent for a while: "Hey! Hurry up and finish your studies, I can't do anything in such a long way if I'm in a hurry."

"What else do you want to do?" Fu Yijie laughed, "Come and beat him up?"

"Smack him, I'll go straight over and find a fellow from the village to bring the two kids to your school, hold his leg and call him husband!" Fu Kun squeezed his throat and suppressed his voice, "Husband, if you want to go to college, you can't leave our three mothers behind... ..."

"I'm scared to death." Fu Yijie was overjoyed, and his previous depressed mood eased a lot, "Can anyone believe this?"

"I don't care if anyone will believe it. Anyway, he will get angry when the trouble is over. Who knows if it's true or not," Fu Kun clicked, "Scatter the leaflets again, and the modern Chen Shimei loses all conscience and human relations, and chaos begins. Abandoning his wife and children is in vain."

"Fu Kun," Fu Yijie rubbed his face with a smile, "You are quite talented."

Fu Kun clicked his tongue several times: "That's what you said, you've only studied for a year longer than your brother, learn a little bit! Do you want me to tell you a few more words?"

"No need, no need," Fu Yijie felt that if Fu Kun was beside him, he might rush over to hug him and kiss him a few times. When he thought of this, he felt a strong longing in his heart, which made him feel a little dizzy. I can't bear it anymore, "brother."

"Ok?"

"I miss you so much," Fu Yijie gritted his teeth and said softly, "I miss you so much."

Fu Kun suddenly lost his voice.

Fu Yijie's heart sank, and he felt a little regretful for saying such a sentence. Although he called brother first and didn't call Fu Kun, he was afraid that Fu Kun would think of something else, but Fu Kun remained silent.

Just when he was about to hang up the phone directly, Fu Kun smiled: "Hold on!"

"Ah?" Fu Yijie was stunned.

"It's time for the holidays, you're going to die now, and you won't be able to burp your farts until the summer vacation," Fu Kun sighed, "You called your mother the other day and said you missed her. She had a beautiful day with me. Tomorrow I can feel elated, my brother misses me too...but it’s just that Dad is a bit miserable, why don’t you think about him in a few days."

"It's easy to say." Fu Yijie smiled, stood up and stretched his legs.

Fu Kun easily resolved his embarrassment in this way, and also turned the words around so quietly, who said Fu Kun was stupid?

When Fu Yijie returned to the dormitory, Liu Wei was the only one in the dormitory. When he opened the door and entered, Liu Wei was squatting in front of the bed and arranging his shoes. When the door opened, he jumped up suddenly, like squatting in the field to shit As if someone saw it.

This movement startled Fu Yijie: "You planted landmines."

Liu Wei didn't speak, and lay down on the bed.Fu Yijie didn't pay any attention to him anymore. It felt awkward that there were only him and Liu Wei in the dormitory. He went directly to wash up and climbed onto the bed, holding his notebook and planning to check the disk.

He put the laptop on the bed. There were people in the dormitory today, so he didn't lock the laptop in the cabinet, but when he turned it on, he felt a slight temperature.

Someone touched his notebook.

Fu Yijie glanced at Liu Wei from the corner of his eye. Liu Wei was lying on the bed, holding a book and reading.

He didn't save anything in his notebook, only some lecture notes he sorted out, a few stock trading software and a QQ.

Fu Yijie took a look, and found that everything about the software was normal, and there seemed to be no change. He casually clicked on the C drive, and after a few glances, he found something was wrong.

All the hidden files in the hard disk are displayed. Fu Yijie has never hidden anything, and he will never leave anything that needs to be hidden in the computer, but his computer settings have always not displayed hidden files.

Someone showed hidden files.

Fu Yijie squeezed his fingers fiercely.

Sometimes it takes patience to wait for a suitable opportunity. It took Fu Yijie almost half a month to finally get it.

After lunch, Liu Wei went to the library to look up information, and several people in the dormitory planned to go to the Internet cafe together.

Several people's machines were not next to each other. Jiang Song and Xu Hao and Wu Pingshan wanted to play CS, but Fu Yijie said no, and opened the webpage and froze around.

Half an hour later, he quietly got up and left the Internet cafe. Several people were enjoying themselves, but no one noticed him.

Fu Yijie went back to the dormitory. There was no one in the dormitory. He walked to Liu Wei's bed, squatted down, and looked under the bed.

Except for the four pairs of shoes, there were only two basins under the bed, and nothing else was seen.

Fu Yijie frowned, no one would take out his four pairs of shoes every day to check and put them back, he hesitated for a moment, and groped under the bed board.

The bed boards were uneven, one was high and the other was low. His fingers touched the two bed boards all the way and touched something.

He quickly knelt down on the ground, reached his head and looked inside, a large kraft paper envelope was stuck under the bed board with the same color tape. Envelope for something.

Fu Yijie reached in through the opening of the envelope and pulled out a small notebook.

Liu Wei's diary.