The way I came back wasn't right

Su Zejin was stunned for a moment.

To be honest, he has experienced a car accident, and he has experienced such a long cycle of reincarnation that can drive people crazy. Of course, he knows that his transformation will inevitably change.

Although Chen Jian had doubts about his change when he just woke up from the hospital, but he didn't care... yes, he didn't care about it.

The previous Su Zejin and the later Su Zejin have not changed from the shell to the core. At most, a certain period of special time and experience has been hidden.

And during that time—not to mention whether others would believe it, whether they would consider that his brain was damaged by a car accident, let alone himself, he still hadn’t figured out how he got in and how he got out, Even if he wanted to talk, he couldn't do a logical and rigorous argument to tell others how he changed in detail.In this case, Su Zejin directly expressed his change: Anyway, this change is not like a bolt from the blue that he and Jiang Junguo suddenly fell in love with each other. Who cares, who can control it?

I just didn't expect... Chen Jian would pay special attention to this.

Su Zejin thought about it seriously, but soon felt relieved.

In fact, it's not too strange. From the past, my brother has been a very careful person. Whether it is study or life, he is good at finding problems and... planning his life in an orderly manner.Thinking about it this way, some childhood memories also flooded back: For example, although the two of them were friends as children, their relationship was not very good when they were in school, and it wasn't all because Chen Jian didn't fight with him——Su Zejin I don't do this often myself, and I only experienced it twice in the three years of junior high school.In his junior high school life, the hatred for Jiang Junguo and the thirst for power caused by the hatred, coupled with the fact that his grandfather was very strict with him, so Su Zejin actually rarely had time to squander - but should be... ...Chen Jian is a bit obsessive-compulsive, right?

Su Zejin pinched his chin.

It's the kind of obsessive-compulsive disorder that plans everything well from the beginning and doesn't want any accident to break it.During the period of junior high school, he had limited rest days. He made an impromptu appointment with Chen Jian a few times. After Chen Jian couldn't come out, the two of them naturally became not so close, but they didn't just stay apart like this, because Chen Jian would still come to him. ...

Speaking of which, I have seen less in the past few years, and the obsessive-compulsive disorder of the other party is gone, but the carefulness is the same as before...

Su Zejin began to consider whether to tell Chen Jian the truth.

His initial thoughts about his character were correct, but not entirely correct.Although even the law can't control the changes in his personality, those close to him will definitely find out and be puzzled——Chen Jian found out and said it; Grandpa must have found out too, but he just chose to keep his doubts in his heart. Observe with your eyes...

Su Zejin has decided to tell the truth.

In this world, how many people will look at your photos and get red eyes?

He still remembers watching this scene over and over and saying to his other self, "Hey, you just go fast to the cliché 'you don't know how to cherish until you lose it', I don't feel sorry for you at all. "

But I can save you now!

After thinking about it, Su Zejin laughed again, secretly saying that it's okay to tell the truth, but this kind of fantasy content should be changed to a fantasy way of saying: "Have you ever understood dreams?"

"?"

Su Zejin looked at the question mark gradually rising on Chen Jian's face, and said with a serious expression and a deep voice: "From the time of the car accident to the day and night when I woke up, I felt that I was caught in a long cycle. Going through the same process, knowing every detail of that process like the palm of your hand, is like reincarnating a shocking masterpiece into a domestic copycat drama, after waking up and revisiting it, you will immediately feel tired and don’t love it.” He is really Unlimited sigh!

"..." Chen Jian finally said, "Can you be more serious?"

"Which sentence did I not take seriously?" Su Zejin asked back.

"...It's obvious that none of the words are serious." Chen Jian said.

"What I said is true!" Su Zejin expressed his attitude.

Chen Jian looked at Su Zejin's face and thought for a moment, then he said slowly: "I didn't say what you said was not true..."

This ability to accept is really strong.Just now Su Zejin thought about it, and heard Chen Jian say again: "Looking at it this way, you really look like you were stimulated... That repeated process is the moment when your car accident happened? This can explain your state of excitement for a while gone."

Su Zejin looked at Chen Jian in surprise, and gave him a thumbs up, as if he recognized him.

Chen Jian smiled slightly, and also gave a thumbs up, and the remaining four fingers clenched into a fist, and they bumped against each other's fist, thumb to thumb.

"Remember when we last did this move?"

"How could this be forgotten." Su Zejin said, "We tied for first place in the second-term high school entrance examination."

"Yes, it was that time." Chen Jian lowered her eyes, and her eyes fell on the touching hands of the two.

It was as if something very gentle was brushing against the back of his hand.

That night, Chen Jian finally did not stay.From Su Zejin's car accident to his recovery, Chen Jian either came here or went home within a few days, and the things at hand also piled up. She would have brushed her teeth and changed into her pajamas at the Su residence, lying on the bed with Su Zejin and watching TV dramas. In the end, he was urged by three phone calls in a row to change his clothes with a sullen face, and drove away from Su's house overnight.

Su Zejin sympathized with Chen Jian in his heart, and after watching an episode of the TV series, he must turn off the lights at 10:30 and lie down.

He breathes gently, uses his mind to relax every muscle in his body from top to bottom, and then slowly relaxes his mind, so that he doesn't think about anything in his mind, there is nothing...

The grotesque memories rushed towards him like a beast!

He seemed to be back in that endless cycle of reincarnation, walking and walking, never reaching the end.He repeatedly experienced his own death process, and then regained consciousness again and again.From sobriety to darkness, and from darkness to sobriety, no one can speak to him, and he can't change anything. Where is he, how does he escape, what is... what?

On the bright street, he was sitting in the car for a while, driving forward slowly, when suddenly two headlights came on in front of him!

boom--

Su Zejin sat up from the bed all at once!

In the silent room, apart from the sound of the air conditioner, there was the sound of his beating heart.At the moment when he sat up from the bed, his spirit seemed to be still in that reincarnation... But soon, the sensations from all over his body made him calm down.

PTSD.

Su Zejin touched his sweaty neck, picked up the mobile phone on the bedside to check the time, but couldn't help thinking of Shen Huaiyi's technical terms when evaluating his current state.

Maybe I should see a psychiatrist?

Although it has improved somewhat now, but to be woken up every night, the quality of sleep is too bad...

Su Zejin glanced at the lit screen.

00:35 minutes.

He didn't feel sleepy for a while, and opened the communication group casually, fiddled with it from top to bottom, not sure whether he wanted to find someone to chat with to calm his mood, or just fell down and went back to sleep, but the smart screen helped him make a choice first: in When Su Zejin wasn't paying attention, he pressed his palm on the screen and dialed Shen Huaiyi's phone number.

The page of 'in communication' popped up, Su Zejin was stunned for a moment, picked up the mobile phone that he was fiddled with casually, and just about to click the red end button, the call was connected.

"Hello?"

"Well—" Su Zejin, who was about to hang up, "Doctor Shen."

"Mr. Su?" Shen Huai could recognize Su Zejin's voice very sensitively.

Or does his home phone have caller ID?Su Zejin thought about it boredly, and then said politely: "I don't know if I disturbed Dr. Shen's rest? I was a little bored lying on the bed just now. I wanted to find someone to chat with, so I called Dr. Shen."

"Is it because of a nightmare?" Shen Huaiyi said on the phone.

Su Zejin slapped haha, thinking that the other party is too sharp, and there is really a little pressure.But if everyone was like that idiot Jiang Rongxu, then this world would be too scary.

Shen Huaiyi didn't mean to ask Su Zejin to admit it. He said with a smile on his voice on the phone: "I think what Mr. Su needs right now is not someone to chat with or calls from other psychiatrists... Mr. Su's email address is ?”

Um?Su Zejin said: “[email protected].”

"Wait a moment." Shen Huai was on the phone, and then asked again, "Is it difficult to fall asleep?"

"It's getting better." Su Zejin replied, and glanced at the sleeping pills prescribed by the doctor that he hadn't taken a few times.

"That means waking up halfway... fell asleep between 10:30 and [-] o'clock in the evening?" Shen Huai asked.

"Very accurate, 10:30." Su Zejin said.

Shen Huaiyi suddenly smiled: "Mr. Su is not worried about revealing too much information to me now? - Email, Zejin."

Su Zejin frowned, because Shen Huai suddenly changed his name again.

He secretly thought that the other party was probably a good pick-up girl, if he had called him 'Xiao Ze' or 'Ze Jin' when he answered the phone just now, he would probably have no desire to talk to him.But when it comes to getting better and better... Although Su Zejin is aware of Shen Huaiyi's tricks, he really doesn't have much resentment.

Of course, it's too far away to talk about good feelings...

Su Zejin smiled at the phone, sat up from the bed, turned on the computer, and logged into the mailbox...

is a longer audio file.

He was taken aback for a moment, and vaguely guessed what it was. After downloading and opening it, soothing music came from the speaker.

Sleep music, it seems that it is not the ordinary goods he searched on Baidu before, maybe it is the psychiatrist's private collection?

Su Zejin leaned on the back of the chair, and Shen Huaiyi's voice came from the phone at the same time: "Good night, fall asleep according to your previous method: breathe slowly, relax your body, your mind is blank, and you don't think about anything..."

Sleepiness surged up without warning, and Su Zejin tried hard to distinguish, except for the sleep music played on the stereo, it was the sentence that Shen Huaiyi just said, the tone and rhythm of that sentence seemed a bit strange...?

"Doctor Shen still studies hypnosis techniques?" Su Zejin asked.

"I've dabbled a bit." Shen Huaiyi's voice was polite from the beginning to the end.

Su Zejin's interest was finally aroused, and he said to the person on the other end of the phone, "I wonder if Dr. Shen is free tomorrow afternoon?"

"Friday?" Shen Huai said apologetically, "I will give psychological counseling to a patient all day, but if you are free at night—"

"Then at night." Su Zejin said, "At eight o'clock in the evening, I will go to Dr. Shen's studio."

"Waiting here."

The phone was hung up.

Soft lighting, spacious space, and harmonious colors, every conspicuous decoration is dedicated to making patients who come here feel relaxed.

Shen Huai gently put down the microphone in one hand.

He turned off the computer that was turned on, and pressed the replay button on the landline.

After a short wait for the sound, the voice of the two people talking again: "Hello?"

"Well——Dr. Shen."

"Mr. Su?"

"I don't know if I disturbed Dr. Shen's rest..."

Shen Huai crossed his fingers, stared at the phone, and smiled slightly.