Good Night, Liang Xiao

"It's a shoegaze, and three bands are here, all from the UK," Liang Xiao explained. "It's the second day of the Mid-Autumn Festival holiday, and you're standing in the front row."

Ye Ji'an immediately remembered.This matter itself is very deep in his mind, after all, there are not many opportunities for him to be lucky enough to go out and listen to the scene.

And those three bands... Two of them are interested in him and Liang Xiao.

In my impression, the venue was a small tavern on the west side of the Temple of Heaven. He drank half a bottle of Duwei Sanhua, which was very bitter and fragrant. The performance lasted from nine o'clock in the evening to nearly midnight. After that, he encored two or three songs, and the subway was gone. , a taxi could not be taken, and he sat on the last bus bound for the outskirts of the city until the terminal, and then rode a shared bicycle for a long time with the AutoNavi map. It seemed that it was almost dawn when he returned to his satellite city.

Afterwards, he caught a cold for half a month, and he couldn't stop his cough and runny nose even in the meeting, and he was terribly ashamed. Who knew whether it was due to sweating too much or the cool wind blowing for too long.

"What about you?" Ye Ji'an stopped recalling his hard punk experience, raised his eyes and asked, "Are you also in the front row?"

"In the middle, not too far from the seniors." Liang Xiao pushed his cheek so that he could face the stage instead of staring at himself blankly, only to see that the hot band had already left with their piano case. The tall, thin, white-haired man with drooping shoulders walked to the central position without saying a word, stepped on the effector casually with the piano hanging on his face, with a dejected look on his face, Ye Ji'an recognized that this was the lead singer.

Then one after another, five people came together, all of them were long-haired, tall, dark-eyed, and dejected. After saying hello, they concentrated on tuning, without any intention of interacting with the audience.Both Ye Ji'an and Liang Xiao laughed. This band has this feeling of dying. If they come up with joy and enthusiasm, they will almost suspect that they have entered the wrong venue.

"At the end of September at that time...you just joined the job for more than a month!" Ye Ji'an hurriedly said.

"Yeah, I'm still not familiar with Senior." Liang Xiao smiled.

Ye Ji'an also laughed, he was already sweating, and he took off his suit jacket, trying to put it on one shoulder in a cool way like Liang Xiao, and carry it with his backhand like that, but how he did it was so awkward, and even sprouted The stupid idea of ​​buttoning the sleeves around the waist, "I'm sure you'll be shocked when you encounter it," he hurriedly put the clothes on his forearms, trying to relieve the unknowing point in his heart by speaking. Embarrassing, "When I come out to play and meet my colleagues, I will be unlucky for eight lifetimes."

Liang Xiao suddenly became serious, "I'm just a little surprised, I started paying attention to senior from that night."

"I care." He corrected his words again.

"Just because you saw my tattoo?" Ye Ji'an bumped into his shoulder.

"Of course not." Liang Xiao also bumped into him.

"What's that for?"

"Let's talk about it later!" Liang Xiao refused to look at him, and went up to the stands—a bunch of drum beats came down, and the performance began.

Ye Ji'an used to be crazier than a musician, especially when he was just in college, when the band left, he could still hang out in the bar until midnight with a bunch of cronies, even if the sound was playing the three auspicious treasures, he could still play Swing your arms, twist your hips, and be the prettiest guy in the bar.This also shows the deterioration of his current physical strength. Six songs have passed, and it is probably just halfway through, and he has begun to feel that he is not far from rest.

People swarmed around him indiscriminately, those behind pushed him forward, and those in front continued to spread due to large movements such as jumping and clapping their hands. Everyone elbowed elbows, shoulders rubbed shoulders, and every time there was a wave of heavy blows from above, Bass, the crowd below twists and turns in waves.The singing sound is also like a roar, like a slogan, mixed with screams and bursting into my ears.Everyone was too excited, and Ye Ji'an yelled too, because he was also excited, and the smell of alcohol exploded in his head like popping candy, but the red and white ones were still dangling in his stomach, and the headache was also spreading from his temples , with his legs wrapped in his trousers, he felt that his candy was not dancing smoothly.The suit on his forearm couldn't be hung long ago, he was clutching it in his hands until it was full of creases, his old waist and legs were beginning to weaken, Ye Ji'an still didn't want to accept the reality that he needed to take a rest.

Liang Xiao was quite calm throughout the whole process. He didn't dance or twist, and he didn't yell like venting. He only raised his hands and clapped after each song. An opera aria.But it is true that he is not unable to appreciate these music, on the contrary, just like when he was listening to the CD at home, he was so absorbed in watching it that he didn't even blink his eyes, until Ye Ji'an took his wrist to pull him pogo, he Only then did he suddenly come back to his senses.

"Hey, don't you want to take me to disco?" Ye Ji'an's bangs were all loose, and the sweat was a little wet, sticking to his forehead.

Liang Xiaohui held him, and lifted his fingers intertwined into the air. He quickly followed his rhythm in the restlessness of the room, but his eyes were on his face, even more direct than those on the stands just now, as if the surrounding movements were not moving. It was fake, they were all still, the only thing he could see was Ye Ji'an's face.

"Are seniors tired?"

"It's okay, this one isn't your favorite—"

"Your complexion is very bad." Liang Xiao squeezed his waist, "You don't have any strength either."

Ye Ji'an still wanted to quibble, but was dragged by Liang Xiao, and walked straight back, the whole way was chaotic, and he couldn't see anything, he only knew that Liang Xiao's whole body was covered with the words "can't help but say". He blocked the back to make way for him, and seemed to feel that this was not enough, so he simply hugged him, almost trying to protect him in his arms, so that he could walk steadily, so that the drunk, sober, bouncing around would not be able to touch him .Ye Ji'an was a little dizzy, his footsteps were indeed flimsy, he was led to the bar in the backcourt, he put his butt on the high stool, propped himself up to sit up, and finally heaved a sigh of relief.

Not far away, you can still see the band on the stage, and the sound of the music is still in your ears, but the volume is a little less, and the chatter of the people around you is a little more.Seeing Liang Xiao sitting down next to him, Ye Ji'an didn't intend to leave, and the acrid taste from the wine in his stomach eased a little, "Indeed," he gently tugged on Liang Xiao's cuff, as if wanting to draw him closer. A little, "older."

"Senior drank too much wine today." Liang Xiao really moved closer to the chair, and the two of them touched their knees. He ordered a glass of mint water with ice cubes and pushed it in front of Ye Ji'an, "Drink a little."

Ye Ji'an obediently took a sip of the straw, and the refreshing feeling in his mouth calmed his mind a lot, "I didn't expect you to see this type of scene. I thought it was more aggressive than when I was in my 20s."

"Do you want to throw up?"

"No, I haven't had enough to drink yet, and I've already worked out my drinking capacity." Ye Ji'an wanted to lean on him, but in the end he didn't. He just lay down on the table, "Let's take a break and fight again."

I could feel a hand resting on the back of the neck, and began to stroke along the spine again. The strength and speed were quite measured, but the stroke made his whole body numb. Ye Ji'an rested comfortably on his arm, and looked over at the bar counter. The light was red, Liang Xiao frowned slightly, and his eyes were bright red, "Tell me, why did you fall in love with me." Ye Ji'an went to grab his hand again.

Liang Xiao smiled, and as soon as he shook his hand, his smile deepened, "Because you——the outside and the inside are not the same."

"Huh?" Ye Ji'an sat up straight at once.

Liang Xiao patted him reassuringly, and said slowly, "I want to use that word, it's a long story. Do you remember it, senior? You went to New York six years ago, and the company held job fairs in several schools. With my school, that was the first time we met."

"Well, I was..." Ye Ji'an was a little surprised, and vaguely recalled, "Mainly doing chores, sorting out forms and so on."

"Yeah, senior was being scolded when I went." Liang Xiao squeezed his finger bones, his eyes were still quite gentle, "Later I also handed in my resume and filled out the form. Everyone seemed to welcome me, only you After I went to other booths, I caught up and advised me to stay in school and not to rush to work after graduating from a bachelor’s degree. I said that I might find out that I chose the wrong path after a few years, and I might be bullied in the company. You want me not to go Consider external factors and figure out what you like to do."

Ye Ji Anxin said it was true, I was one of the top 2 graduates in the country and I also took two key certificates. When I first joined the job, I was always a grandson with my tail between my legs. How is it better now?It's just that I can get some professional jobs, and the salary has doubled and the workload has doubled.Then how can you just watch a child with ideals rush up and stumble?Although he didn't remember that he persuaded such a young college student at that time, he was able to pick up the mood at that time.

I only heard Liang Xiao say again: "In fact, I was very annoying during that time. I felt that I was cheated by Roman, and I felt sorry for him and hurt him seriously. How can such a good thing like love only bring you love? Double-sided pain, I was stuck in this dead end, and my insomnia started." He said frankly, "My family kept urging me to go back to China, and I wanted to go back but I didn't want to go back. In the end, I decided to stay and continue studying. Now think about it. , Maybe there is a senior reason, a stranger, he cared about me, he didn't ask me what I wanted, he just didn't want to see me make mistakes. This made me feel that the world is amazing, as if I had to believe it."

Ye Ji'an hugged his shoulders and rubbed his forehead on the side of his neck, "I don't remember."

"I know."

"I'm fine...I'm so angry!" Ye Ji'an bit his lip, he felt that his words were not expressive, "Why did I just forget?"

"It's okay, it's okay, it doesn't matter," Liang Xiao also hugged him back, holding his confusion and drunkenness with a steady mind, "Then we exchanged contact information, email and Facebook, senior I went back and continued to do odd jobs. At that time, I just thought you were a bad person, but after a few years, I found that a Facebook account would post a sentence every few days and nothing else. Then I remembered that this is a recruitment The seniors I met at the meeting."

"It was more than a year ago, when I was preparing to return to work in China." Liang Xiao added.

Ye Ji'an shrank his neck subconsciously, and buried his face on his shoulder like an ostrich, refusing to lift it up.It can't be said that it was a bolt from the blue, but indeed, it felt like a streaking run, either under Liang Xiao's nose, or when he didn't know it at all.None of his classmates and colleagues played Facebook, at least no one said to add him, and he registered in the early years just to be bored, and then he simply used it as a trash can to spit out bitterness-more than a year ago, it was Ye Ji'an who wanted to die the most When he was young, he took out most of his savings to treat his adoptive mother's illness, and the mortgage would crush him directly, and his promotion was nowhere in sight. He felt that he was finished every day.

Then he wanted to die, thinking about how to die, and talking about it without saying those two words, he felt that he was really going to die.So he vented in a way he thought he was safe, and he was seen through.

"Then you think I'm a miserable person who wants to die but doesn't dare to die every day. I'm a bad person." He raised his eyelids and looked at Liang Xiao. God knows that his eye sockets were sore and he really wanted to be touched.

Liang Xiao really touched it, stroked his eyebrows, and shook his head, "Then I went back to China to work. It just so happened that the senior was there during the interview. I feel very kind, it is the kind of fate that my father often said .Later, I observed my senior, capable, gentle, modest, calm and reliable. From the outside, he was perfect. He was the type that girls want to marry. No one would doubt your confidence in life," he looked at Ye Ji'an attentively. , the voice was neither too loud nor too small, just enough to reach Ye Ji'an's ears, "Who knew I would see your tattoo at the bootleg rock scene, the shirt is off, there is only a tight T-shirt, the tattoo goes all the way to the forearm .You looked happy, you were really happy, and you were free at the time."

"Haha, that's weird to me... It's really a duplicity." Ye Ji'an heard his heart beating again, the music was still so loud, so loud, he could hear his heart beating.But he was leaning against Liang Xiao, and he was confused again, whose heartbeat was it?

"It's very contradictory, but also very charming. That day I realized that senior is actually a very powerful person, with a passionate side, a world-weary side, a smooth side, and a free side. I'm the only one who saw all of these, so you are It’s different, and I’m also different. I think, how much is there to hide? Can I see it? If I can’t see it, I’m going to go crazy.” Liang Xiao said, looking at him intently, palms covering him. Looking at his back, "I'm lucky, I even know where every tattoo of senior is."

Ye Ji'an stepped forward and put his body on the wrong side, touching the corner of his lips, "I don't believe it."

"Believe it." Liang Xiao kissed him and said.

"You don't dare to look at me," Ye Ji'an bit him, his voice was slightly nasal, "I took off my shirt, and you dare not hug me."

Liang Xiao was extremely patient, and still hugged him like that, proving his absolute understanding, "This is Gun Flower," he rubbed Ye Ji'an's left blade, "This is DreamTheater, there is a long list of letters," he ran into again Ye Ji'an's ridge groove seemed to be pressed one by one according to the position of the letter, "And here, it's Pantera, the one you like the most." As he said, the temperature had already slipped to the waist, and he was tying it tightly. Above the belt, it is not in a hurry to probe in, but you can't say that it has no intention of going in at all, because every soft and steady stroke, every light pinch, seems to stir up a string and hang in the air tease.

"There are nineteen bands in total, four for the left arm, five for the right arm, and ten for the back and waist. If the waist of the senior is thicker, the more text on the right can be added." Liang Xiao asked in a deep voice. , "Do you still want to listen?"

Ye Ji'an was trembling slightly under his hands. I don't know when, the heat of his body could be felt through the fabric. He slid down from the high chair and hung himself on Liang Xiao's body, as if he would not let go. , and will stick close to each other forever, "Where is the bathroom?" Unable to catch the waves hitting him, he stumblingly touched Liang Xiao's belt, hooked it with his little finger, "Come with me."