After getting out of prison

Three blue-gray cold walls and one iron window.

Zeng Ruchu saw a few men with shaved heads, men in blue prison uniforms approaching, and then laughed maniacally and pressed himself on his body. Those big hands with strange body temperature caressed wantonly on his body. The realness is like the cold snake skin slowly rubbing against his skin.The surrounding air was filled with the sour smell of sweat and smoke from the man's body... He was wrapped in such a terrifying and disgusting smell, as if he couldn't break free no matter what he did. hard...

"what......"

The indoor furnishings filled with the thin morning light are very simple. A slightly thin man suddenly jumped up from the single bed by the window, his pale cheeks were full of panic, and cold sweat slid down his neck until he fell into his pajamas.

Zeng Ruchu held onto the quilt with pale knuckles for a full 10 minutes, before the panic and despair in his big, black eyes slowly faded away, and a little bit of confusion appeared.Then he buried his face in his palms, and when he raised his head, those clear eyes had returned to their previous indifference and calmness.

Glancing at the alarm clock on the low cabinet beside the bed, it was only five thirty in the morning.But after having such a dream, even if he could still fall asleep, Zeng Ruchu was not willing to take the risk of continuing to sleep.

This kind of dream haunted him almost every night when he was just released from prison two years ago, but now it doesn't happen very often, sometimes for ten days and half a month, this time it lasted for several months.Zeng Ruchu couldn't remember exactly how long it had been. He only knew that it was the imprint left on him by ten years of prison life.

Ten years, a full ten years, how many such long and complete periods of time are there in life?

This huge long and full period of time has already occupied more than one-third of his current life, and it is impossible not to have a huge impact on him.

And the people and things he experienced in prison in the past ten years are like the judge of time who carved a permanent imprint on his life with a sharp carving knife, those unbearable, secret, ugly, painful things ...has polished him so that he is no longer the simple and beautiful boy who was ignorant, fearless and full of hope for the future, and even brave.

Although this body may not be as healthy as it was more than ten years ago, the heart inside is not just more than ten years old.It is not an exaggeration to say that it is riddled with holes and desolation.

Zeng Ruchu sometimes feels inexplicably that the only young body is this body.

Will be brave, but this kind of bravery is not as good as a kind of cowardice.More than ten years ago, facing the back of the whole world and the ten years of prison life that was about to greet him, he still had a small vision of the future.But now, someone once said to him: "You are not even afraid of death, what else are you afraid of?"

In fact, this sentence is wrong, Zeng Ruchu wanted to tell that person.He's not afraid of death, but he's afraid of everything but death...that's what that ugly deep, curved scar on his left wrist means.

After washing up, Zeng Ruchu took out the food that Lao Ou forced to give him last night, poured the white rice into a bowl and soaked some hot water, and ate, not even bothering to take out the food.

After dinner, he took the bus to the company. Before seven o'clock, he was already sitting at his desk.He has sorted out all the documents and materials he needs to get today. Before his colleagues go to work at 08:30, he has even recited two units of self-taught business English words.

"Good morning, as before." My colleague, Sister Wang, approached the office at [-]:[-], which was the earliest besides him.

"Morning, Sister Wang." Zeng Ruchu raised his face and showed a smile, seeing that Sister Wang, who already had two children, had her heart beating wildly.You've been working together for almost a year, how can you still be so immune to this kid?However, Zeng Ruchu is indeed too good-looking, the best-looking one she has seen in almost 40 years of life.Especially when he smiled, the corners of his mouth were clear and his eyebrows were curved, giving people the feeling that he was as gentle as a spring breeze.

Such a handsome guy with outstanding temperament, Wang Hong dared to brag in the neighborhood streets and alleys, even movie stars did not have such outstanding temperament.

"Brother Zeng, why are you so early?" A girl's crisp voice suddenly came from the door, and then Sun Xiaozhu, who was wearing a goose yellow dress, floated in like a butterfly, her round eyes had been falling on her since entering the room. The only man in the game never moved away.It's hard for Wang Hong to bear it and not to taunt her. "Hey, little pig, is Brother Zeng the only living person in this room?"

The girl born in the [-]s who has always had a thick skin blushed very rarely, and finally looked away, looked at her coquettishly and said: "Sister Wang, why do you say that, how can I see such a big beauty in front of her?" Well!"

"Okay, don't make me confused. I don't know how little you think." Sister Wang sat down at the desk and turned on the computer. To Zeng Ruchu.Made the little girl blush.

And Zeng Ruchu, who was inexplicably used by the two as the potential protagonist of the topic, had no consciousness at all, and had already returned to English words.His eyebrows frowned slightly because of his concentration, and he never thought that he might become a hot topic between the two women.

At noon, I took a bite in the company's cafeteria. When I returned to the office, Sun Xiaozhu was distributing chocolates to his colleagues, and saw him come in and greeted him.When Zeng Ruchu approached, he saw a beautifully packaged box on his desk.

"Brother Zeng, this is the handmade chocolate I made myself. Eat it and see if it tastes good." Sun Xiaozhu smiled and picked up the item and handed it to him, then looked at him eagerly.

Besides Wang Honghong, there are two other male colleagues in the office. Everyone is used to playing around. Sun Xiaozhu is a girl who doesn’t like to get angry and carefree. The three of them winked at each other, and then a male colleague deliberately imitated her words with a sour tone. "Why is Brother Zeng's still packaged? It's so beautifully packaged." Another male colleague took his words, and repeated in Sun Xiaozhu's tone of eccentricity: "Brother Zeng, eat and see if it tastes good.. ...." Wang Hong watched from the sidelines so much that she almost slapped the table and laughed.

The girl's mind was punctured, no matter how thick-skinned Sun Xiaozhu was, she couldn't help feeling ashamed in front of the man she liked.She turned her head and glared at them, then stepped forward viciously to grab the things back: "If you don't eat, give it back to me, you bad guys, you can't stop your mouths even if you eat!"

The two colleagues stuffed the chocolate into their mouths dodging from left to right, and one said affectionately to the other: "Brother, it's so delicious!" Sun Xiaozhu was so angry that he was about to go to the table and tear them apart .

Zeng Ruchu stood where he was, knowing that they liked to make such ambiguous jokes among colleagues, and he didn't take it seriously. Infected by their cheerful laughter, he not only opened the boxy and exquisitely packaged gift box, but also saw I was stunned for a second when I placed the heart-shaped chocolate inside, and then paused for a moment, thinking that the little girl probably likes this kind of flower shape and heart shape.For example, Lao Ou's eight-year-old daughter Tingting gave him a heart cut out of pink colored paper the day before yesterday.The little girl also seriously told him that she would marry herself when she grew up. At that time, he smiled and agreed to the pestering little girl.I feel that Sun Xiaozhu should be the same as Tingting now, with a child's heart.I didn't care about the jokes of my colleagues.

Just looking at the extremely beautiful and exquisite shape placed, Zeng Ruchu couldn't bear to destroy it, so he said regretfully to Sun Xiaozhu who was looking forward to him: "It's so beautiful, it's a waste to give it to me."

"No waste, no waste, it's a waste to feed them!" Sun Xiaozhu turned her head and viciously gouged out the smiling faces of her colleagues who saw her jokes, and when she turned around to face Zeng Ruchu, she was already as gentle as ever. The angel's expression changed, and then he said in a voice that made goosebumps all over the floor of those who stared at them: "Brother Zeng, don't you like sweet food? Next time, I'll make you something less sugary." Bar."

Zeng Ruchu was picking up a piece and putting it into his mouth, his mouth was filled with silky and sticky, but it was very sweet. "No, it's really delicious. I like sweet things." Zeng Ruchu said sincerely.

The smile on his face almost melted the heart of Sun Xiaozhu whose eyes were full of him at the moment.She suddenly remembered that she was in the gentle arms of this man in her dream last night, and at this moment this man was standing in front of her and smiling at her gently. She felt that happiness at this moment was very unreal, as if she was stepping on a soft cloud Similarly, I was very afraid that I would fall to the ground in the next moment and be smashed to pieces... But Sun Xiaozhu felt that for this man, it was worth it.

Zeng Ruchu didn't know what was going on in the little girl's heart. If he knew, he would definitely resist the temptation of this box of chocolates that were so sweet and greasy to his throat. He would never accept it.

"Then, Brother Zeng, if you want to eat, just tell me, and I'll make it for you." The girl's young and immature face seemed to be filled with happiness, and she didn't stop giggling for an hour when she returned to her desk.

Later, the girl finally stopped giggling, not because she realized that she was a bit useless, but because she was suddenly photographed with a basin of cold water, which almost made the little girl cry.She was suddenly transferred from the marketing department.The president's assistant personally called and told her to report to the HR department this afternoon...

In a company with dozens of people, any news spreads quickly.What's more, the fact that the new little beauty Sun Xiaozhu has a crush on the most handsome Bingshan guy recognized by the company has long been an after-dinner for everyone. I am afraid that only the person concerned, Zeng Ruchu, is still stupid and only knows how to study by himself with English books all day long.

So at noon, the "acceptance" of being courted by the National People's Congress as before, and still "happy" in the eyes of outsiders, spread wildly in this small trading company, all the way to the president's office on the 28th floor...