ideal lover

When he realized that Kobayashi Hirano Aya's vital signs had stopped, Sawada Tsunayoshi rushed home immediately.

The hyperintuition has never been wrong, and the uneasy feeling has never dissipated.

Until the moment he opened the door, when Tsunayoshi Sawada saw Kobayashi Hirano Aya who was "sleeping" on the bed, he hoped for the first time that his super-intuitive sense made a mistake, and told him that Kobayashi Hirano Aya who was lying on the bed was just asleep.

"Aya Hirano..."

Even though his body was still warm, why couldn't he feel Hirano Aya's heartbeat.

Hirano Ling in his arms, with a peaceful expression, was just dreaming a sweet dream, but the sleep was a little too heavy.

Touching Hirano Aya's hair, Sawada Tsunayoshi suddenly smiled softly, "It's okay, Hirano Aya."

"You just want to sleep well, don't you?"

"This time, are you going to sleep for a long time?"

"I'll wait for you to wake up, Aya Hirano."

Frost slowly froze Kobayashi Hirano Aya's body, and the flame in Tsunayoshi Sawada's palm was still burning, but it could no longer warm his lover's cold body.

"Judaime..." Hayato Gokudera couldn't describe what he saw Tsunayoshi Sawada.

Tsunayoshi Sawada, who lost Kobayashi Hirano Aya, was so sad, but he did crazy things with a smile on his lips.He should stop Judaimu. After seeing Judaimu freeze Kobayashi Hirano Aya's body, he said to Kobayashi Hirano Aya in an intimate tone:

"Have a good dream, Hirano Aya."

Hayato Gokuji could feel that Judaime was hovering on the verge of losing control.

"Juji-kun, today, I want to stay with Hirano Aya."

"I understand, Judaime."

After closing the door, Hayato Kobayashi followed Tsunayoshi Sawada's wishes and did not let anyone bother him and Aya Kobayashi Hirano.

On that day, Tsunayoshi Sawada saw Kobayashi Hirano Aya's suicide note.

Unwilling to believe that Kobayashi Hirano Aya committed suicide, Sawada Tsunayoshi made many excuses for himself.

They are obviously so happy, the efforts he has put in for Aya Hirano, and everything he has arranged for him in the future, are all for Aya Kobayashi's happiness.

Therefore, he would not believe that Aya Kobayashi Hirano would abandon him and do such a cruel thing as suicide.

Absolutely will not believe it.

Pengelie's House of Elders underwent an unprecedented reshuffle. Instead of Tsunakichi Sawada's gentle style in the past, he was ruthless and used all kinds of cruel methods to disintegrate the power of the House of Elders.

Those who are familiar with the situation know that this is because of the passing of Aya Kobayashi Hirano.

The information known to the outside world was that the elders' house moved Peng Gelie's tenth-generation lover, so he suffered such a heavy blow, but only Tsunayoshi Sawada knew that he was just venting his anger.

A willful rage.

"How long are you going to be self-willed, idiot." Li Baoen, the teacher of Sawada Tsunayoshi, who lifted the curse and regained his adult body, rushed to Vengley's place from his leisurely holiday to see what he was up to. His disciple, because of a man, how unreasonably he made trouble like a child.

"reborn..."

Looking up at his teacher, Sawada Tsunayoshi's dull eyes finally showed a little light, but Li Baoen didn't come to comfort him, but gave him a heavy blow to make him recognize the reality.

"It's about time for you to recognize the reality, whether it's the current situation of Pengo Lie or the truth about the death of Aya Kobayashi Hirano."

"Really, nothing can be hidden from reborn."

Sawada Tsunayoshi smiled bitterly, reborn was right, he was always escaping from reality.

Especially evading the truth from Kobayashi Hirano Aya.

His poor and lovely lover, so well-behaved to the point of pity, can't help but want to love him, when he sees Kobayashi Hirano Aya's lonely back.

Because Kobayashi Hirano Aya's life is very monotonous, as a lover of Sawada Tsunayoshi, she has many restricted behaviors. To protect herself, Kobayashi Hirano Aya can only minimize her actions alone. For this reason, in addition to waiting for Sawada Tsunayoshi to come home, Kobayashi Hirano Aya's life basically has no other expectations.

It can be said that Kobayashi Hirano Aya's life revolves entirely around Tsunayoshi Sawada. Apart from gender, Kobayashi Hirano Aya is probably a traditional man/wife image.

The cooking is good, the housework is top-notch, and the clothes I usually wear are also helped to match. I even help to fasten the tie clip that needs to be matched that day. There is nothing wrong with it.

But it is too plain, without the sweetness of love.

However, for Tsunayoshi Sawada, an ordinary life like Kobayashi Hirano Aya is what he needs. After taking over Vongola, his life is busier than he imagined. Guilt for not being with him well.

Especially thinking that Kobayashi Hirano Aya can only wait for him to come back at home alone, Sawada Tsunayoshi can't help but come up with an idea:

Kobayashi Hirano Aya only has Sawada Tsunayoshi.

Whenever he thinks like this, there is a strange filling feeling that satisfies Sawada Tsunayoshi.

After returning home, seeing Kobayashi Hirano Aya looking at him with happy eyes, Sawada Tsunayoshi felt more and more that he should do something for Kobayashi Hirano Aya.

because……

Kobayashi Hirano Aya is the only one left.

If you don't even "love" Hirano Aya and think about Hirano Aya, then Hirano Aya is too pitiful.

With this in mind, Tsunayoshi Sawada had all the information about Aya Kobayashi Hirano, and his mentality worsened after learning what Kobayashi Hirano Aya's irresponsible parents had done to him.

How pitiful, Aya Hirano.

Neglected by her parents since she was a child, Hirano Aya, who grew up stumbling alone, has never tasted the warmth of a family.

So without warning, he prepared a "family" surprise for Kobayashi Hirano Aya.

Nana's mother is a very open-minded person, she only needs to tell her Hirano Ling's past experiences and his current relationship, and she will definitely accept Hirano Ling with pleasure.

Almost without thinking too much, Tsunayoshi Sawada can also guess the reaction of Nana's mother. She will be a little surprised at first, but she will soon accept Hirano Aya, so when she told Nana's mother to adopt Hirano Aya, Nana's mother was also very happy. Agree quickly.

Everything has been arranged for Aya Hirano.

Sawada Tsunayoshi thought happily, when the day he took Hirano Aya to his mother's house, just as he thought, Hirano Aya accepted the identity of adopted son and also had the fetters of family members.

Did I make Aya Hirano happy?

Occasionally, such doubts would arise, but when Hirano Ling stayed together and saw Hirano Ling's smile, the doubts would completely disappear.

I made Aya Hirano happy.

If it wasn't for me, Aya Hirano wouldn't be so happy now, it has to be me.

Come to think of it, from the very beginning, I became arrogant.

Sawada Tsunayoshi touched the suicide note left by Kobayashi Hirano Aya, just like what was written on the paper, they had many good memories.

Prosaic but fond memories, no different from what other lovers do.

Why on earth do I feel like I'm special?

Is it because I feel that Hirano Aya's life can only revolve around me, or because Hirano Aya's experience of being ignored by his parents makes me subconsciously feel that he is very pitiful?

In the end, it was just my despicable desire for gratification at work.

Self-righteously saving Hirano Aya's satisfaction, aloofly giving Hirano Aya the so-called happiness, but never thinking about Hirano Aya's real thoughts.

I'm afraid Aya Hirano realized this a long time ago, the love she gave him was not complete love.

Does Tsunayoshi Sawada love Kobayashi Hirano Aya?

The unquestionable answer, of course, is yes.

But this love is not pure enough, it is mixed with too many selfish desires, and Aya Kobayashi Hirano feels a burden for her self-righteous dedication.

That's why Hirano Ling thought that I stayed by his side only because I felt sorry for him. I unintentionally hurt Hirano Ling with my so-called kindness and pity.

But at the same time, I...

The eyes began to be sore, and the blurred vision did not know when, and the falling tears wet the letter paper.

I really love Aya Hirano.

It is true that I want to cherish him, and it is true that I want to spend the rest of my life with Aya Hirano, but why did I lose Aya Hirano so easily?

Do you want to leave my side because I am too arrogant?

Hirano Aya, I clearly want you to be happy.

I don't know how many times I said it in my heart, Sawada Tsunayoshi finally returned to reality, the death he had to accept, the truth he had to face, all ended here.

……

Kobayashi Hirano Aya's funeral was chosen to be held on a sunny day.

The bright sunshine was completely unsuitable for the funeral, but the quiet crowd added a bit of mourning to Kobayashi Hirano Aya's funeral.

No priest or funeral home was invited, and the funeral was held for Kobayashi Hirano Aya according to the normal procedure. Sawada Tsunayoshi just needed a place where Kobayashi Hirano Aya could sleep peacefully, and he didn't want others to disturb him.

However, when seeing Aya Hirano sleeping alone in the ground, Tsunayoshi Sawada couldn't help but wonder whether this kind of Aya Kobayashi Hirano would be too lonely.

In the deep darkness, is it possible to fall asleep with a sweet dream, even if only a little bit? Tsunayoshi Sawada hoped that the death of Kobayashi Hirano Aya would be to sleep in a warm dream.

I hope Aya Hirano is happy.

This sentence popped up again in his mind, and Tsunayoshi Sawada's eyes fell on the tombstone, Aya Kobayashi Hirano smiled.

Just a simple sketched smile, a formulaic photo.

Thinking back now, did Aya Hirano in my memory really have a happy smile?

Memory has become blurred.

No matter what time it is, Aya Hirano always faces herself with a smile.

A soft, reassuring smile that never revealed his true emotions.

It's me, too arrogant.

The self-righteous thought gave Hirano Aya happiness.

What about Aya Hirano?

Why do you think so arrogantly that I will be happy after losing you.

[I hope you can be happy. 】

What a curse.

☆, Skylark Kyoyaichi