ideal lover

Run away, Aya Hirano.

Katsuragi Nadeko set a fire for him.

In the chaos, the servants only thought about taking Hirano Aya out of the dangerous room, but never thought that Hirano Aya would have the strength to resist.

Hirano Aya, it should be Kobayashi Hirano Aya.

His body was still slow, but his mind was running at high speed. In order for his body to run normally, his brain was dangling like tofu.

About to throw up.

Kobayashi Hirano Ling's throat started to hurt, and a tearing retching sensation kept coming up, her body was warning, but Kobayashi Hirano Ling didn't dare to stop.

He knew that his body was already loaded, but if he stopped now, Kobayashi Hirano Ling feared that he would never be able to leave here again.

This is an opportunity Katsuragi Nadeko gave him, and he cannot easily waste it.

The dagger in his hand was given to him by Nadeko Katsuragi. If he can't escape here this time, he has only one option to choose.

"Aya Hirano—!"

From afar came the voice of Hibari Kyouya.

The body stopped.

Damn, it's this time.

Turning around, what caught his eyes was Hibari Kyouya's rare panic expression. The first thing he noticed was Hirano Aya's injured feet. Walking barefoot in the snow, his feet had become bruised , The soles of the feet were also blue from the cold.

"Aya Hirano, come here." Hibari Kyouya called him, and Aya Hirano stood there as if her eyes were frozen.

However, when Hibari Kyouya was about to walk towards him, panic and fear appeared in Aya Hirano's black eyes. Almost at the moment Hibari Kyouya took a step, he took out the knife and pressed it against his neck.

The merciless force caused Hirano Ling's skin to see blood quickly, his body became more and more tense, and his hands became more forceful, the blood gradually stained Hirano Ling's body red.

"Stop it, Aya Hirano." Hibari Kyouya stopped, not daring to take a step forward.

He tried to coax Hirano Ling to put down the knife with a gentle voice, but the voice that came out was cold, words that made Hirano Ling fearful.

"Put down the knife, Aya Hirano."

"You need treatment, I'll take you home now."

【treatment】

These two words seemed to stimulate Hirano Aya's sensitive nerves, and his voice that had not spoken for a long time finally opened his mouth: "Don't..."

It was hoarse, like an ugly voice being torn apart.

Hearing what Hibari Kyouya said, Hirano Aya suddenly fell into despair, yes, so what if he escaped?

His body is already useless, no different from a mental illness, even if he is in society, he can't integrate into a normal life, and one day he will still be captured by Hibari Kyouya.

If his fate had already been decided, it would be better to die directly.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya couldn't feel the pain in her body, how deep was the wound?He felt that the trachea seemed to be foaming with blood, his body fell into the snow, and his consciousness was gradually drifting away.

It's so weird...

Even though it was winter, he felt so warm.

Hibari Kyouya clutched the wound on Hirano Aya's neck, and the discarded rings around her fell all over the ground, and the clear flame that represented healing lit up at the wound, but...

Useless.

No matter how many rings I use, it still doesn't work.

Hirano Aya's body was getting colder and colder, his blood was about to flow out, and his life was about to dry up, but Hibari Kyouya couldn't stop it.

Everything is messed up.

……

He holds a bird in his hand.

Weak, fledglings that haven't even fully fledged.

Because it was too weak, Hibari Kyouya couldn't help but clasped his hands more tightly, fearing that the danger from the outside world would hurt it.

Lark, you're holding it too tight.

I don't know who warned him, Hibari Kyouya opened his hands, and the bird had already fallen stiffly in his hands, and blood dripped from his fingers in a trance.

His pupils dilated instantly, and what was imprinted in his eyes was Aya Hirano who was strangled by him.

what--!

Opening his eyes suddenly, Hibari Kyouya woke up from the nightmare.

I don't know how many times, he dreamed of such a scene, the scene of Aya Hirano being strangled to death by him.

The quilts around her were still neatly spread, and the tatami remained the same as it was when Aya Hirano was still there. Since Aya Hirano passed away, nothing belonging to Aya Hirano in the Hibari family has been touched.

It was as if Aya Hirano was still alive.

Kyouya Hibari, who lost her lover, hasn't changed much. She is as strong and decisive as ever, obsessed with becoming stronger and fighting.If it wasn't for the photo of Aya Hirano in the dormitory, the servants would have thought that Hibari Kyoya had forgotten about Aya Hirano.

It's just that when Hibari Kyouya is alone in the courtyard, the servants will think that Hibari Kyouya is missing Hirano Aya.

Is he missing Hirano Aya?

Hibari Kyouya couldn't even figure it out for herself, but every time she returned home, Aya Hirano's voice would always ring in her ears.

[Welcome home, Mr. Skylark. 】

What was Hirano Aya's expression at that time?

The memory has been blurred, and the memories belonging to Aya Hirano seem to be when he was asleep, and there are too few pictures of them getting along.

Have they ever held hands?

It seems that there are no two people who rarely even kiss, but these two people are a couple.

Because I have never had an intimate behavior like a partner, I can recall, but there is nothing that can be missed.

It can only rely on maintaining the decorations when Hirano Aya was still at home to create the illusion that Hirano Aya is still there.How long will this meaningless thing be done?

Rationality is constantly questioning himself, whenever Hibari Kyouya wants to move Hirano Aya's things away, his heart will be tightly squeezed into a ball, as if those things are about to leave his heart, and become empty .

So Aya Hirano's items remained in place and remained untouched.

The things about Aya Hirano kept replaying in his mind, but they gradually faded, and there was nothing left to recall, only Hirano Aya's empty eyes and the expression of despair before death remained.

After dreaming of Hirano Aya dying in his hand again, and Hibari Kyouya facing the dark night alone, he finally had to admit a fact.

Hirano Aya was forced to death by Hibari Kyoya.

Because of his pressing step by step, Hirano Aya completely lost his freedom and lost all his rights to express himself. In the end, he would rather use death in exchange for his true freedom than to be trapped in this closed courtyard.

It was he who pushed Hirano Aya so tightly that he didn't even have a chance for Hirano Aya to breathe.In the car that day, what did Aya Hirano want to tell herself before she finished speaking?

In fact, he could vaguely guess what Hirano Ling wanted to say in his heart, but he was always used to being arbitrary, and he didn't even give Hirano Ling a chance to say it again.

That's why Hirano Aya lost everything.

What was I obsessed with at the time?I didn't want to admit Hirano Aya's true personality, and I didn't want to accept it. At that time, I simply didn't think it was necessary.

Because of this simple reason.

"Isn't it because of your ridiculous self-esteem?" Nadeko Katsuragi's words suddenly came to mind.

Nadeko Katsuragi, who helped Aya Hirano escape, only needed one blow to expose the evil nature of Hibari Kyoya.

"You are too arrogant, and you are unwilling to admit your failure, and you are even more unwilling to let go of your self-esteem to accept this terrible consequence. That child, Hirano Aya, is just because of your self-esteem, no, it should be arrogant, poor victim That’s all " Nadeko Katsuragi lowered his head, with sadness in his eyes.

"Did you love that child? Even if not as a companion's love, just as a family love that keeps this home together, did you give it to him?"

"Do you know how much that child loves you? Even if you only need to give him a little bit, as long as you are willing to let go of your self-esteem and arrogance and accept the real Aya Hirano, that child will not be desperate enough to use Death to find peace."

Katsuragi Nadeko was a little excited and wanted to stand up and accuse Hibari Kyouya, but in the end he just calmed down and said pitifully: "I will not regret helping Hirano Aya leave, that child is so pitiful, and living for him It's just a kind of restraint, especially Mr. Skylark, you don't treat that child as a human being at all."

Hibari Kyouya was dumb, and had no way to refute what Katsushiro Nadeko said, but Katsushiro Nadeko was wrong about something.

At that time, Hibari Kyouya hadn't fully figured out his feelings for Hirano Aya, but as time passed, he became more and more used to seeing Hirano Aya's belongings, and recalled the time with Hirano Aya.

Later he realized that this kind of feeling is called longing.

He was thinking of the Hirano Aya who was once "alive" with him, but he also had to start thinking about the hopeless Hirano Aya who had passed away.

He was finally able to sort out everything between himself and Aya Hirano. Although Kyouya Hibari had never "loved" Aya Hirano, he did put Aya Hirano in his life.

He also let go of his self-esteem and arrogance.

That time, when sending Aya Hirano to a nursing home, he made a decision.

If the treatment still fails, he will choose to accept Hirano Aya's other personality, after all, he never thought of removing Hirano Aya from his life.

His future has already arranged a position for Aya Hirano, a position called "companion".

Love, for Hibari Kyoya, is really too difficult. His nature of feelings is pure possession. Because of his too simple, too firm and unshakable belief, Hibari Kyoya has no way to "love" Hirano Aya.

But he knows the fact that Hirano Aya is in love with Hibari Kyoya. It doesn’t matter even if he can’t fall in love with Hirano Aya now. There is still a long time in the future. One day he will learn "love" from Hirano Aya, or in other words "Love" grows from the bottom of my heart.

Until now, when he completely lost Aya Hirano, he finally understood one thing.

When he decided to feel the love from Aya Hirano, he was already ready to fall in love with Aya Hirano, no, he had already started to fall in love with Aya Hirano, it was just the beginning of that love, and he hadn't noticed it yet, Hirano Aya had left him.

He has already lost Aya Hirano.

Loneliness suddenly overwhelmed his heart, and only then did Hibari Kyouya clearly realize the fact that he had lost Aya Hirano.

But Hibari Kyoya can only embrace loneliness to face reality now, and there is no reality for Hirano Aya.

☆, reality