Tender trapping

Ran Xu accused Zhuo Wenlang of his actions, crying and asking him why he chose to enter the no-man's land, why he still pretended nothing happened until now, and still showed him the photos so calmly.

Zhuo Wenlang said, because I thought you liked it.

"The past is in the past. It doesn't matter what the motive is." He said, his eyes fixed on Ran Xu's face, seeing the tears on his cheeks, and feeling the pain in his heart for a long time, he was at a loss... he He was at a loss as if he was a teenage boy, his fingers were trembling, and his feet had no place to rest. He seemed to be standing naked in front of a mirror, looking at the body inside, strange and at a loss.

The only thing that was certain was that Zhuo Wenlang just didn't want Ran Xu to cry anymore.

Because, if you cry any more, Ran Xu will leave her.

Zhuo Wenlang hugged Ran Xu and held him in his arms. When Ran Xu was leaning in his arms, the two of them fit so well. He never told Ran Xu that when they watched a movie together, he also wanted to Live "forever".

But what a terrible word "forever" is.

It's like putting shackles on the soul, abandoning many possibilities from then on, being responsible for another person's sorrows and joys, and desperately fulfilling a promise that is absolutely not realistic.

What a contradiction, the extremely romantic vocabulary is now being pursued by so many realists.

"I can't stand your indifference. You are like a king who has been living in a high tower. All you give me is mercy and sympathy. You stuff me with things you think are good, but you can never put yourself in my shoes and think about what I want. What do you want?"

This was the last sentence Ran Xu left him.

He said, I want you to live well and live according to your will...so I'm leaving you.

So, I'm leaving you.

Ran Xu pushed him away and walked resolutely, as if there was a fire burning behind him. If he didn't leave, he would become a moth pounced on Yan's heart, and the flame would engulf him, so he had to break free.

Zhuo Wenlang tugged at his sleeve twice, and called Ran Xu's name three times. However, he still left like this, alone, with a light gray schoolbag on his back. The wind blew his soft hair, and the yellow sand engulfed him His shadow, he left this city on the edge of the desert alone.

The plane rushed into the vast blue sky with a roar.

At this moment, he and Zhuo Wenlang are equally free.

·

It’s another summer, and the cicadas are noisy and annoying. At the end of June, everything is green and ready to welcome the rainy season. The air is gradually becoming thicker, and the paint is beginning to melt easily, but this is Ran Xu’s favorite. Seasons—everything is going up, reminding him of the summer after the college entrance examination.

He is excited and looking forward to the approach of a new life, like a blade desperately absorbing the sun.

Ran Xu submitted an exchange student application to the counselor, and the destination was a city on the other side of the world, where Xu Ziang is now settled.

He called Ran Xu to introduce the city, and Xu Ziang praised it as a city of art: "You can hear the guitars of street performers in the square, and you can also hear impromptu jazz piano music played by passers-by in shopping malls and train stations. Pigeons can be fed here every day, just be careful not to get pecked and lose your hat.”

Xu Ziang chuckled on the other end of the phone, it sounded like he had completely come out of the haze of the past.

He told Ran Xu that as long as he stopped pursuing those idealistic illusions, he would be able to live a stable life like ordinary people.

"Artists are always overwhelmed by their own titles, but in fact this is a strange circle. We have to get out of it. There is no need to be unconventional. Let nature take its course." Xu Ziang said lightly. He listed the names of several universities and told Ran Xu that these He has professors as friends in the university, if Ran Xu wants to come, that would be great.

Ran Xu was sincerely happy for him, and replied that he would think about it carefully.

After hanging up the phone and thinking about it, Ran Xu still called Xue Xiaoxia and told her that he wanted to go out for an exchange: "You don't need to worry about the cost, the scholarship is enough, and if you are rich, I can still give it to my family. Make some calls, and then you'll be able to collect dollars."

There was a bit of pride in Ran Xu's words. After all, whichever family in the village could receive US dollars at that time was really very promising.

However, Xue Xiaoxia disagreed no matter what, and cried and made a fuss on the other end of the phone, stopping Ran Xu from leaving.

"Mom is left with only your two sons. The younger one is only seven years old, and the older one has to leave? It's so lonely and I won't live here anymore." She cried so loudly that the receiver could barely fit. The student sitting next door glanced at Ran Xu several times.

Ran Xu clutched the phone and ran out, explained to Xue Xiaoxia several times, and said all kinds of benefits, "I will be a returnee when I come back", "I will make a lot of money at that time"... and so on, all of which Xue Xiaoxia liked to hear. But still not letting go.

It wasn't until Ran Xu couldn't bear it anymore that he asked Xue Xiaoxia what the reason was, and then he could figure out some meaning from her Qi Qi Ai Ai's words: Xue Xiaoxia was afraid that he would not come back after he left, and there was no money for her and Ran Tantai.

Ran Xu understood now, felt helpless and sad, so he hung up the phone and ran to sit by the lake next to the school.

Lin Yingying has successfully graduated, and is now working in a media company as a publicity agent. She has a good job performance and runs after big stars every day. I have never seen him again, and the counselor said that he has already got an offer from a foreign university; even the taciturn Zhang Jinzhou has his own goal and moved out of the dormitory for an internship.

Ran Xu didn't know many people in school, so he felt more and more boring. He stared at the lake with his cheeks in a daze, and waited until the sun set below the horizon before leaving.

When he is free now, he still thinks of Zhuo Wenlang, thinking about what he is doing now, whether he has made up for the work he left behind, and wondering if he already has a new love. After all, such an excellent man seems to never be short of someone. accompany.

And Zhuo Wenlang is not without any news, he occasionally sends Ran Xu endless text messages, at first there are only a few simple words asking him "If I can promise you, can we continue", see Ran Xu If he doesn't return, he will just exchange his interest for other trivial daily life.

The frequency is not very high, and it has gradually decreased recently.

Ran Xu didn't keep looking at his phone anymore, he always felt that life would go on, and as time went by, Zhuo Wenlang would gradually forget that there was such a person as him.

Due to Xue Xiaoxia's reluctance to let go, the matter of Ran Xu's exchange was delayed for a while, and he truthfully explained these things to the counselor to seek a solution.

The counselor was silent for a while, and then told him that the school would come forward to help him.

Ran Xu didn't have much hope at first. After all, what the counselor said sounds like a set of rhetoric. How can the school help him?

But the matter was indeed resolved unexpectedly, Xue Xiaoxia quickly took the initiative to call, and before her attitude changed, she made a 180-degree turn, her tone almost flying with joy.

She said, it was my mother who didn't understand before, but now that your teacher told me, I understand, don't worry, just go home, just remember to go home for the holidays.

Ran Xu couldn't help feeling suspicious, wondering how the school managed to understand Xue Xiaoxia's psychological work, it was like a different person in a blink of an eye, it was amazing.

However, no matter what Ran Xu thought, the matter of going abroad was quickly finalized. When he overlooked the city on the plane, those tall buildings reminded him of many stories, and there was one person...

It's all over, Ran Xu let out a long sigh of relief.

·

"Are you really going to let him go? When were you so generous?" Lee sat opposite Zhuo Wenlang, unceremoniously looking at the plane schedule on the table, he tapped the table with his knuckles, gloating, "I've been with you Say, you will regret it, if you didn’t believe it at the beginning.”

He was answered with a soft sigh.

"We can't continue." He whispered to himself, "Too many things in the past were wrong, and it's too late to correct them. I just wonder if I can start over with him again."