Fawn

For one meal, He Ruolong ate for an hour.

It was getting dark outside, so Zhang Chunsheng came in and lit a candle.There was no electricity, but candles were enough, so Zhang Chunsheng used the big candlestick without hesitation, lighting up the whole room.If possible, he even wanted to show a bright and clear picture in broad daylight, so that Tuan Zuo, who was hiding in the bedroom, would be sober.

When Zhang Chunsheng withdrew, Xiao Lu supported the wall and appeared at the door of the bedroom.Facing He Ruolong outside, he whispered: "This room is for you to sleep, you can go back tomorrow morning."

Without waiting for He Ruolong to speak, he added coldly: "I'm doing it for your own good, so don't make things difficult for me."

He Ruolong looked at Xiao Lu, and saw a flash of light in his cuff, it was the candlelight reflected from the watch he gave him.

"I don't see what's good." He whispered: "I've had nightmares every day for the past few months. I miss you during the day and have nightmares at night. I'm not fucking good at all."

Xiao Lu stared at He Ruolong's knee, and spoke again with great difficulty: "Although my surname is not Cheng, I am also a member of the Cheng family. If you are friendly with me, it will be bad for your future."

He Ruolong asked: "Disadvantage? What's the disadvantage? I bring out my soldiers myself. They will go with whoever I go with. I, the regiment leader, can't withdraw. If I don't give arms or pay? That's poor too." If you don’t kill me, there will be a way for me to survive. Tell me, what’s the disadvantage?”

Xiao Lu stood up straight, as if he was mourning for himself, and he spoke in a non-emotional tone: "For this kind of thing, you have to tell me what you want. I've already said the word to this field, why do you want to continue asking. "

He Ruolong took a step forward and grabbed Xiaolu's arm, his tone was almost pleading: "Xiaolu..."

He is such a tall man, bowing his head to bow down to the deer, like a dazed and weak giant beast.The distance between the two sides was extremely close, but Xiaolu still refused to face him squarely.

Resolutely tore away He Ruolong's hand, Xiao Lu walked out the door: "Go in and sleep, you leave tomorrow morning."

He Ruolong looked back at him: "Xiaolu..."

Xiaolu didn't look back, and pushed the door straight into the night.

Xiaolu asked Zhang Chunsheng to find another clean room for him to sleep in. Zhang Chunsheng gave up his own room, and while making the bed for him, he glanced at him out of the corner of his eye and said, "Let's live here with me, my place and yours. The bedroom is separated by a wall, close to Captain He."

After saying this, he suddenly felt a little regretful, suspecting that he had overstepped the rules, but Xiaolu was so lost that he didn't hear his sarcasm.Xiaolu didn't respond, Zhang Chunsheng regretted it even more, resenting himself for being cheap, Tuan Zuo felt uncomfortable enough, why did he still have the heart to speak sarcastic words?

Zhang Chunsheng spread out the quilt and left a basin of water for him.Then I retreated very consciously and found another place to settle down.

Xiao Lu sat alone on the small wooden bed, because there was He Ruolong in his bedroom across a brick wall, so he dared not move, for fear of making a sound and disturbing the other party.Pain gradually appeared in the left calf, like a flame burning, like a knife cutting.Xiao Lu also felt the pain, but the pain didn't go into his mind, and he didn't seem to know it when he knew it.Staggering up and walking to the wall, he leaned over and put his ears against the wall.

He wanted to hear if He Ruolong had fallen asleep.He Ruolong was very tired during the day, or his pillow was not well rested, and he would snore when he slept.The deer waited for his snoring, but after waiting for a long time, the next door was always silent.

The calf hurt more and more, the pain made him so independent from the golden rooster that he couldn't support it.Holding the head of the bed and stepping back to the side of the bed, he didn't turn on the lamp, and took off his riding boots in the dark.Lifting his feet and stepping on the edge of the bed, he rolled up his trouser legs and untied the bandages.The bandage was stuck to the flesh by the dried blood, and a slight tug would affect the wound.The wound was also sticky and hot, and the entire calf was already slightly swollen.

Gritting his teeth, Xiao Lu forcefully peeled off the bandage bit by bit.The night air was cool, he sat on the edge of the bed to dry the wound for a while, then knelt down unwillingly, and climbed back to the wall on all fours.

He stuck to the wall again to listen to the movement next door.Still no sound of snoring, Xiao Lu blinked his eyes, thinking that He Ruolong probably hasn't slept yet—just like himself, not asleep.

Patting his hands on the wall lightly, Xiaolu turned his face to face the wall, pursed his lips and made a kissing motion.Then he closed his eyes and lowered his head, pressing his forehead against the wall.

He thought that he liked He Ruolong too much, and only with He Ruolong could he have joy, anger, sorrow and joy.In the past few months after leaving He Ruolong, it seemed that he was just immortal.

Maybe after a long separation, he will gradually forget about He Ruolong, but how long will he be separated?How long is enough?Forget this He Ruolong, can he find the next He Ruolong in the future?After living for 20 years, he discovered for the first time that he had such turbulent feelings.He thought that he didn't like to talk, didn't like to laugh, and was brave enough to die, so he was strong.

Suddenly remembering the agreement between him and Cheng Tingli, he closed his eyes in pain.

"How could..." He thought frantically, "How can I live alone all my life? He is too cruel, just like his son, too cruel. They relied on them to raise me, and they wanted to manipulate me unscrupulously ...so cold..."

Then he changed his mind, and remembered what He Ruolong had said at night—"I am the regiment leader, he can't withdraw, if I don't pay for ammunition, I can't die of poverty. If someone has land, there is a way for me to live. Tell me about it." , what's the disadvantage."

Thinking of this, he straightened up and sat upright, thinking: "He Ruolong is not afraid."

He Ruolong is not afraid, so is it possible for him not to be afraid?

The little deer sat on the ground until midnight, with a lump in his chest.Cheng Tingli is his only family member. No matter how unscrupulous or evil this person is, he still calls him his godfather for 18 years.He always remembered that when he was a child, he fought with Cheng Shiteng, and when he couldn't fight, he cried and yelled, and wanted to complain to his godfather.Said to be a godfather, but in fact it is almost the same as a real father.At that time, he always said that when he grows up, he should be promising, and he should honor his godfather, which was all true.

Because of He Ruolong, if he violated that agreement, he might lose his godfather from now on, and even become enemies.Do it, right?Is it worth it?

Xiaolu feels that this problem is almost unsolvable, but there is no solution.You can't just drive He Ruolong away so easily, then you will be sorry for He Ruolong, and also for yourself.

Xiaolu hugged his head and thought, lying on the ground thinking, thinking and thinking, he fell asleep.In the dream, he pushed the door out of the house, turned around and pushed the door again, went back to his bedroom, and saw He Ruolong.

He didn't know where he got the guarantee, but he was very happy, and told He Ruolong that the problem was all solved, and you will stay here from now on.He Ruolong sat on the bed shirtless, with disheveled hair, a smile on his face, and asked him, "What am I doing here?"

The little deer was very happy, talking and laughing happily: "You stay and cook and wash clothes for me."

He Ruolong lifted his legs and got off the bed, making a gesture to grab him for a fight.Xiaolu hurriedly turned around to run, but when he took a step forward, he opened his eyes suddenly.

Staring straight up at the ceiling, it took him several minutes to come to his senses.Immediately a carp sat up straight, before he had time to check his leg injury, he crawled over and pulled his riding boots and put them on his feet.Immediately after he got up and opened the door and stretched out his head, he saw the bright sun in the sky, which was a refreshing morning light.

Turning around, he picked up the big teapot from the window sill, and poured cold tea into the spout of the teapot.This time his lips and throat were moist, and he dragged his injured leg out, turned a corner, and pushed the door again, just like in his dream.

Then with a broken voice, he walked in and shouted: "He Ruolong."

The room was quiet and there was no answer. Zhang Chunsheng came to the door at some point and said, "Tuan Zuo, Commander He just left with someone."

Fawn suddenly turned around: "Going away?"

Zhang Chunsheng nodded calmly: "Let's go, I didn't even eat breakfast."

After the words were finished, his eyes blurred, and when he looked intently, it was the little deer rushing out of the room, rushing crazily towards the road out of the mountain.He took steps to chase after him, but the grass in the mountains was taller than people, and after running a few steps, he could no longer see the fawn's back.