am i dead

The atmosphere in the room was very stiff, Tao He sat on the sofa in an extremely uncomfortable posture, staring at Ji Yao with eyes that almost swallowed people alive.

Ji Yao was unusually calm, "Oh, it's you."

Tao He suddenly changed his smile, "Remember?"

Ji Yao glanced at him, "The name is very familiar."

Tao He's face darkened, and he didn't speak any more.

The two returned to silence, and the man and woman on the TV laughed happily, hugging each other and kissing passionately.

Tao He was upset watching, raised his hand and turned off the TV.

The room suddenly fell into silence, as if Tao He was the only one in the room, and the absurd conversation just now had never happened at all.

Tao He got up angrily and went upstairs, as if he was going to sleep.

Ji Yao sat on the sofa, listening to the sound of the man's footsteps getting farther and farther away, and then getting closer.

The touch on the shoulder was very warm, Ji Yao took off the hand on the shoulder, looked back, it was the black pot, "Why are you back?"

Tao He's tone could not be refused, "Come on, follow me upstairs to sleep."

Ji Yao continued to turn his head to watch TV, "Ghosts don't need to sleep."

Tao He stared at this man, and the joy of seeing him just now disappeared, "Then you accompany me up to talk! It's very dark upstairs!"

"What's wrong with black?"

"I'm afraid of the dark!"

"You're not even afraid of ghosts..."

"What the hell..." Seeing Ji Yao's plain face, Tao He couldn't bear it, and hooked Ji Yao's shoulder again, "Please, come with me."

Ji Yao brushed off Tao He's hand and frowned.

Thinking that at least this person is also the owner of the house where he lives, so if he offends him too much, there is no need to bring some kind of ghost hunter over.

The two went up the stairs one after the other, Tao He walked in front, Ji Yao followed, stepping on the place he walked, could feel a little bit of residual warmth.

Tao He didn't turn on the light, raised his hand and pulled off the bath towel around his waist, then lay down on the bed, covering himself with the quilt casually.

Moonlight streamed in from the window and fell on his bare skin, casting a faint silver glow.

Ji Yaoyi was at the window, suddenly remembered the pile of sticky matter on the mirror, and felt a little uncomfortable.

Tao He turned over and smiled at Ji Yao, "I don't have a second bed at home, you will sleep here from now on."

Ji Yao looked in the mirror, "I don't need it."

Tao He's smile became lighter, and he frowned slightly, "I don't need anything! If you are a human, you have to sleep!"

Ji Yao didn't speak, and looked around with his head down, as if he was looking for something.

Tao He saw that he had bent over a little, exposing a small part of the collarbone, along with the beautiful line of the neck, extending straight to the inside of the clothes, looming, and inexplicably, a flame shot straight to his forehead, "You can't last for a few days , and I only have one quilt, and I like to sleep naked..."

Ji Yao picked up the towel that Tao He threw on the ground just now, and turned around to wipe the mirror.

Tao He listened to Ji Yao's silence, snorted coldly, closed his eyes and began to sleep.

Ji Yao squatted in front of the mirror and wiped it twice, afraid that it would not be clean, so he let out a sigh and continued to wipe.

About three to five minutes later, Tao He opened his eyes again, "Are you listening to me? Didn't I ask you to come up to talk to me!"

Ji Yao continued to wipe the mirror, "Listen."

Tao He sat up from the bed suddenly, "What are you doing?"

After seeing clearly what Ji Yao was doing, he laughed, "You still like to be clean so much."

Ji Yao didn't mean to stop, "You seem to be familiar with what happened to me before?"

Tao He found a pillow and leaned against his back, "Well, we have known each other for more than ten years."

"so long?"

"Yeah, I've known you since I was in elementary school. They thought you were cute and wanted to get to know you kindly. Who knew that you were a scheming kid. You thought I was going to chase you, so you almost didn't give me a scoop. Besides, so what if I'm chasing you, you're so young and have no place to buy a condom, no land to buy oil, what can I do to you... Tsk tsk... It's good to have someone to protect you, you were a deadhead when you were young... ..."

After Ji Yao finished wiping, he straightened up, "I seem to have a little impression of this."

When Tao He heard it, he became interested, "Then I'll tell you more, see if you can remember me, we are in the same school from elementary school to high school, you are the monitor of the class, I am the captain of the school football team , I play football, you cheer, I play, you cheer..."

Ji Yao interrupted him coldly, "Impossible."

Tao He paused, "Oh...it's because I begged you to come and watch every time I played football with other classes, because you didn't like playing football when you were in school, let alone watch it, I'll tell you I’ll bring you five ham sausages once you come to see me… You came so diligently, basically all the snacks my mother bought me were donated to you. Take ten marinated eggs."

The slender eyes were uncertain, "You did it on purpose."

"What's the matter!" Tao He smiled extremely wickedly, "Where are you thinking, what do I know at such a young age..."

Ji Yao put the bath towel on the corner table, "I remember something like this, but that person doesn't seem to be you."

Tao He's eyes started to fire, "It's not who I am! I still remember that I brought you Shuanghui ham sausage!"

Ji Yao didn't argue with him.

It's not that I'm too lazy to say it, but I really can't remember who it is.

Tao He plausibly said, "When you were in school, you were still popular among female classmates, but the degree was second only to me, because the girls who couldn't catch up with me chased you. Anyway, there were several crooked little girls. Send all the love letters to me and ask me to pass them on to you. The love letters were so unsightly. I was angry at that time. I introduced several handsome boys from our football team and paid them to go on a date. Those little girls turned out to be couple after couple, you and I are single, and no one has a girlfriend."

There was no warmth in Ji Yao's eyes, "When did this happen?"

"primary school."

"You're precocious,"

Tao He raised his eyebrows, "What's so precocious? I've waited until you graduated from university to confess my love. How innocent I am."

Ji Yao snorted and raised his voice, as if he understood something.

Tao He glanced at him with a half-smile, "You agreed at that time."

Ji Yao's face was soaked in the moonlight, it was a bit creepy white,

"I remember only being with one man, and he wore glasses, not you."

Because the room was too dark, the expression on Tao He's face was a bit unclear, but he fell down on the bed hard without saying a word, pulled up the quilt and began to sleep.

Tossing and turning, it seemed that it took a long time to fall asleep, and during the period, he sighed a few times irritably.

Ji Yao turned around and stared out the window in a daze.

I feel that the night is long and scary, and being a ghost is quite lonely, with nothing.

No more time, no death, no memory, just a long passing, until one day even the soul dissipates, and there is nothing left.

Ji Yao suddenly became a little afraid of such a long unknown.

Then I thought about it in a blink of an eye, if I got used to it, it would be fine.

Get used to being a ghost like you get used to this sleepless night.

Ji Yao didn't know how long he stayed in the dark, but the sky began to gradually brighten, getting brighter and brighter.

The sun shines in through the curtains and falls on every corner of the room, and everything begins to come alive with vivid colors.

In fact, there is no color in this room, just simple black and white.

The bed is black, the quilt is white, the floor is black, and the picture frame is white.

Tao He is slightly darker, and Ji Yao is pure white.

Ji Yao walked to the bed, leaned forward, and began to re-evaluate Tao He's appearance.

The bridge of the nose is straight, the browbones are broad, and the thin lips are tightly pursed. The violent anger before going to bed has completely disappeared on this face, without any trace, but a little childish.

This kind of appearance felt familiar in my eyes, but it was extremely strange in my mind.

The sleeping person was woken up by the alarm clock of the mobile phone, closed his eyes and touched the bed for a long time, and suddenly grabbed Ji Yao's hand.

Tao Heding's time is seven o'clock in the morning, but he has to take a nap several times every time, and he can't get up until 07:30. Yao, "Ji Yao!"

Ji Yao shook off him, "Let go."

Tao He held him back, "Come quickly..."

Ji Yao continued to shake, "It's time for you to get up."

Tao He continued to press, "Stay in bed with me..."

Ji Yao pressed him on the bed, feeling that his physical strength was not as good as before, and he didn't know if it was the reason for his death.

Tao He held him in his arms, knowing that Ji Yao's physical strength was weak due to lying down for several weeks, "Oh, baby, you are so cold, come and let me warm you..."

Ji Yao's scalp tingled when he heard this, and he tried to struggle to get away, but in the end he was still tightly bound, unable to move.

The feeling of being trapped in the quilt is very soft, and the person behind him is warm and hot, with his forehead resting on the back of Ji Yao's neck, breathing evenly and shallowly.

Hearing that voice, Ji Yao suddenly felt a little tired.

Maybe ghosts will have such a reflection during the day.

Thinking of this, Ji Yao's eyelids became heavier and heavier.

The person behind him suddenly let out a sigh, with satisfaction, "It's been two years... I can count on sleeping together..."

Ji Yao came to his senses a little bit,

"Aren't you afraid of me?"

The voice behind him was deep, a little hoarse, speaking very slowly, as if trying to evoke some kind of memory, "Afraid of you? I like you too late..."

Ji Yao just leaned against Tao He and fell asleep.

Later, when Tao He got up and when he left, Ji Yao didn't know very well.

I don't even have the impression of being gnawed several times.

Ji Yao just lay on this big bed and slept in the dark, until the sun was setting and the sky was full of stars.

Ji Yao was very weak when he got up, and his feet were a little unsteady when he got off the ground, and he almost slipped and fell.

The floor feels wet when you step on it, as if it has just been wiped. Ji Yao walked to the window, opened the curtains, and looked at the street lights outside, shining brightly.

The person in the mirror was pale and haggard, with messy hair piled on his head, and only wearing a white gown. He looked more like a ghost, and also a bit mentally ill.

Ji Yao turned and went downstairs.

The air is filled with the aroma of food, a dim floor lamp is turned on in the living room, the TV is on, and an unknown English song is playing.

Ji Yao suddenly felt a cramping pain in his stomach, he was so hungry that he was dying.

As a ghost, Ji Yao really didn't know what he wanted to eat. He used to watch TV or novels, and ghosts would eat people, but Ji Yao didn't want to eat Tao He, because Tao He looked nice and didn't mess with him. Important, Ji Yao stays here all day, it's really lonely.

But Ji Yao was really hungry again.

Ji Yao looked at the refrigerator next to him, and suddenly noticed.

The fresh-keeping layer is full of food materials, most of which are imported fruits and snacks. There are very few vegetables, and even less meat. Ji Yao rummaged through it for a while, and finally found a piece of fresh meat.

Ji Yao weighed it, and it was more than a catty, which should be enough for him to eat two meals.

After tearing off the plastic wrap, Ji Yao picked up the meat in his hand and sniffed it under his nose.

A faint meaty smell.

Then he took another bite, tore off a piece with his teeth, and chewed it in his mouth.

Tao He in the kitchen was holding up a shovel, randomly poking the soup in the stew pot.

The rice was packed and brought back from the restaurant, because the traffic jam on the way home was severe, the food was a bit cold, thinking about reheating it in the pot, Ji Yao would be comfortable eating it later.

Tao He was digging the bottom of the soup out of the pot with one shovel after another, when he heard a blunt sound outside, then the door opened with a bang, followed by the faint sound of vomiting.

Holding the shovel, Tao He rushed out of the kitchen and ran into the bathroom.

Ji Yao lay on the toilet and was throwing up badly.

Tao He put the shovel into his trouser waist on the spot, supported Ji Yao with one hand, and patted Ji Yao's back with the other hand, "What's going on? Didn't you just sleep just now? Did you dream about something disgusting?"

Ji Yao straightened up a little, "Stop shooting... your hands are a bit strong... I can't stop shooting..."

Tao He withdrew his hands, handed a towel to Ji Yao, glanced casually at the floating objects in the toilet, and couldn't hide his horror, "Ji Yao... What are you vomiting? Is it a tumor... Wipe... It's disgusting... …vomit……"

Ji Yao took the towel and put it on the hanger again. He was really too lazy to talk to him, so he just took two sips of water under the faucet to rinse his mouth. Feeling that his mouth still tasted like raw meat, he began to search for a toothbrush on the shelf next to him.

Tao He took out a new toothbrush from the hanging cabinet and gave it to him, "You can use my cup..."

Ji Yao glanced at him indifferently and stood still.

Unhappily, Tao He took out a new cup from the cabinet, "I don't like to use it to pull it down, anyway, this cup and my cup are couple cups."

Ji Yao looked at Tao He's simple and pure black cup, then looked at the cartoon cup in his hand, didn't comment, just rinsed at the faucet, and then started brushing his teeth.

Tao He frowned when he saw Ji Yao's expression of not wanting to talk to him, "Why haven't you talked!"

Ji Yao moistened his toothbrush with eyes downcast, squeezed out the toothpaste, "Don't mess with me, I'm very hungry now."

Tao He didn't understand the meaning of Ji Yao's words, "Oh, I've already made it, and it's in the pot."

Speaking of this, I suddenly remembered the same thing, and ran out of the bathroom, "Fuck! My pot!"

Listening to the sound of ping-pong-pong in the kitchen, Ji Yao calmly finished brushing his teeth, then wandered around the kitchen to observe.

Tao He was dizzy in a pair of fast food boxes and plastic bags, "Ji Yao! I have a spatula!"

Ji Yao looked at the spatula on his waist, "What do you want a spatula for?"

"Nonsense! It's soup!"

Ji Yao stretched out his hand, "Give me a spoon."

Tao He watched Ji Yao clean up the debris in the house and scratched his head, "Well, I don't have much kitchen utensils here, and I seldom eat at home..."

After Ji Yao cleaned up the trash, he poured all the soup in the pot into a large bowl without seeing the spoon even after opening a few cabinets.

Ji Yao put the pot back, glanced at Tao He, "Take it away."

After speaking, he pulled out the cooking utensils from his waist and threw them into the sink beside him.

Tao He tossed and tossed in the kitchen for half an hour but couldn't get anything done, but Ji Yao got it done in a few minutes.

The two sat at both ends of the dining table, looking straight at each other.

Ji Yao frowned, "Why don't you eat?"

Tao He also frowned, "I buy all your favorite dishes, why don't you eat them!"

Ji Yao looked at the dishes on the table.

In addition to the Kailin fish soup from before, there is also sweet corn ribs and shrimp balls in honey sauce, and the rest are basically meat dishes, which are really my favorites during my lifetime.

Ji Yao took a deep breath, was about to take the chopsticks, but felt that something was wrong, so he withdrew his hand holding the chopsticks with a cold face, "I'm a ghost, I can't eat these."

Tao He suddenly laughed while holding the rice bowl, and couldn't even hold his chopsticks.

Ji Yao had no expression on his face, "What are you laughing at?"

Tao He pushed a bowl of rice, "Stop making trouble, eat quickly, you haven't eaten all day, I wanted to buy you something light... but I'm afraid it won't suit your appetite..."

Ji Yao sat still, "Don't persuade me."

"You really don't want to eat it?" Tao He took a mouthful of the dish provocatively, "It tastes really good."

Ji Yao stared at Tao He coldly, and swallowed uncoolly.

While gnawing on the ribs, Tao He neatly placed the small bones in front of Ji Yao.

Ji Yao couldn't help asking him, "What are you doing?"

Tao He gnawed on the bone in his mouth, his words were somewhat vague, "Look down."

Ji Yao bowed his head, good guy, this kid made a heart shape on the table with bones, it's really disgusting.

"Crazy." Ji Yao cursed in a low voice, and was about to get up and leave.

Tao He held Ji Yao down with a bone in his mouth, "Don't go, don't go, you really don't want to eat..."

Ji Yao glanced at him, "I can't eat these things."

"How do you know if you don't try?"

"I tried it just now and spit it all out."

Tao He was taken aback, "Ah? Then what do you want to eat?"

Ji Yao looked at the person opposite, but didn't speak.

Tao He pondered for a moment, "You always say you are a ghost, so maybe you want to eat people?"

Ji Yao said nothing.

Tao He smiled and put down his chopsticks, "Then come and eat me."

Ji Yao shook his head.

Tao He put away the smile on his face, "I'm serious, I heard that lips are the most delicious on people's bodies, come and taste mine."

Ji Yao got up and left.

Tao He also lost interest in eating, and put down his chopsticks to think hard.

Ji Yao was sitting on the sofa watching TV for a while, when he heard Tao He shouting, "Do you really want to eat people? Can you eat something else? Like blood sausage or something..."

Ji Yao changed the channel.

The guy on TV is blowing out candles for his birthday.

Tao He suddenly noticed, put down his job and opened his notebook Baidu.

After fiddling for a long time, I copied the phone and ran to the kitchen holding the phone.

Ji Yao picked a station for a long time, but found that there was really nothing to see, and happened to see Tao He sneaking around, so he followed.

Only the voices of the people in the kitchen were low and cautious.

"Hello? I saw on the Internet that you can make specialty cakes?"

"Okay, I want one."

"Bring me a dead child cake, come here to imitate it."