am i dead

office.

Tao He was smoking while looking at the project bidding materials at hand.

After saying those words last night, Tao He immediately regretted it.

After all, it was him who disappeared silently two years ago, without knowing it, Ji Yao didn't have to wait for him to go back.

Thinking about myself is quite unreasonable.

But Ji Yao seemed to be angry, and hung up the phone without saying a few words, and if he called again, he would turn off the phone.

Tao He sighed, and in the midst of melancholy, the office door was pushed open.

Dandan came in in a suit and leather shoes, with a python leather bag under her arm.

"President Tao, what's the matter, are you still angry?"

Tao He glanced at him, "If you are dressed like this, can you stop carrying such a coquettish bag? It's neither fish nor fowl."

Eggy threw her handbag on the sofa next to her, "That's all you have to do, if you want to spread fire on your buddies, right..."

Then he leaned forward again, "Do you have any cigarettes? I left mine in the car. Give me a pack."

Tao He opened the drawer and threw him a set of Su Yan,

"Why did you remember looking for me?"

Eggy unpacked and took out a box from inside.

"It was the matter of discussing the collapse of Duan Fang yesterday. I went to inquire about it for you. It's not easy to handle... Because his labor contract with the hospital has not yet ended, so he was dismissed like this. He will definitely lose money in a lawsuit. The one with less money, besides, the economic benefits he brought to the hospital are quite considerable, and the dean is not willing..."

Eggy lit a cigarette for herself, then paused, "The most important thing...my father has a good relationship with the dean, but when it comes to interests...I'm afraid it can't be done."

Tao He put out the cigarette, then typed the data on the computer,

"You don't have to do it."

Eggy was taken aback, "Huh? This kid is playing with you like this, so forget it?"

Tao He stopped, "Don't you know that the hospital is privately run? It's not easy to get a privately run hospital. I inquired about the funder. I also know this person. I have a good relationship with my old man. I have always wanted to curry favor with Tao He. Shi, I've already done everything, he can still tell which is the lightest and which is the most important."

Eggy was dumbfounded, "You're not afraid of being discovered by your old man when you do this."

"If you find out, you'll find out," Tao He leaned back on the chair, "I just said that I vented my anger on my sister, what's wrong? I'm kind enough to cheat to this extent..."

"That's true..." Eggy took a puff of cigarette, "We have to keep a close eye on the remaining hospitals. I'll go to my relationship and say hello when I get back, and see who dares to want him. I have to tell this kid to get out of here."

Tao He was silent for a moment, "I heard that he went to this hospital because of the very high annual salary, and now he has been fired. Although there will be compensation, it is still a loss overall, but it is not difficult to find him based on his education background. Those who work, disgust him once, who has time to stare at him all day long."

Eggy flicked the ashes, "By the way, didn't you say that you followed the old man all day long? Did he ask you about that episode yesterday..."

Tao He was very annoying, "No, I'll talk about it after I ask, I'm going to fucking annoy him now."

Eggy rolled her eyes,

"He'er, I don't think it's an option to go on like this. Let's make a countermeasure."

Duan Xiuping took two and a half days off.

Because the lips were really swollen, and the ribs were not healed, these three people were in so much pain that they couldn't go to work.

Who knew that when I went to work in the afternoon, I received a dismissal notice from the hospital.

You don't even need to think about who did this kind of immoral thing.

Duan Xiuping only thought it was funny seeing the dean lamenting and explaining in every possible way.

But it would be a lie to say it wasn't depressed.

After all, the income of this job is really considerable, and I still want to do it for a long time.

It was already four o'clock in the afternoon when I came out of the dean's office.

The rib fracture was still not healed, and he often had chest pains, so Duan Xiuping went downstairs to get a syringe and painkillers for himself.

After returning to the office, Duan Xiuping took out a white coat from the cabinet and put it on to prevent dust, and then began to tidy up his things, and when he was almost done, he was about to leave work.

I originally planned to have my teeth treated today, but it seems that I can only go to another hospital for porcelain inlays.

Duan Xiuping took off his white coat, shook it twice, and hung it neatly on the hanger beside him.

I don't know what rolled to the ground, and it sounded like a button.

Duan Xiuping bent slightly, glanced under the table, and then simply squatted down to look for it.

A pair of feet appeared in sight, and the leather shoes were very clean.

Duan Xiuping raised his head slightly, put his glasses up,

"...Ji Yao..."

Ji Yao looked at him with lowered eyes, expressionless,

"Do you have time?"

Duan Xiuping was very happy.

He smiled unconsciously, but suddenly remembered his front teeth, so he hurriedly raised his hand to cover them.

Embarrassing as hell.

"Have."

Ji Yao was not in the mood to look at him, so he just threw the kraft paper bag on his desk and found a place to sit down.

Duan Xiu straightened his waist, smoothed out the wrinkles on his trousers with his fingers,

Although his face was plain, his heart was filled with embarrassment.

This morning, I was still sending that kind of affectionate text message to Ji Yao, but Ji Yao just stood in front of me, which really made me feel hot.

After finishing everything, Duan Xiuping sat down, his eyes fell on the kraft paper portfolio,

"Do you have something to give me?"

"Take it apart and see for yourself."

Duan Xiuping had a bad premonition, took a breath, and felt a dull pain in his chest.

But you can only bite the bullet and dismantle it.

In the file bag is a stack of materials, all in black and white, even the printed photos.

It was finally time to get off work, and there were hurried footsteps outside the office.

A cool evening breeze, blowing in through the open window, made the pages of the paper flutter gently.

The room was lifeless, only the soft sound of flipping paper.

Ji Yao didn't want to look at those things anymore, just stared at the person in front of him, clenched his hands, trembling slightly.

Duan Xiuping looked extremely calm.

Flipping through the pages one by one, it seems that it has nothing to do with him, but he is just thinking about the things Ji Yao handed him with great interest.

When he turned to the last page, he raised his face and looked at Ji Yao.

All of them are photos of Ji Yao and Tao He at school since childhood, as well as all personal information of Duan Fang.

Duan Xiuping knew that there would always be such a day, and he couldn't escape it.

I have been worrying about this time bomb all the time, and when it finally detonated, I was relieved instead, and the two of them didn't speak for a long time.

The people in the outpatient building have gradually disappeared.

There was no movement in the corridor.

The sunlight softly covered the windows, slipped through the anti-theft net, and fell on the window sill, spreading out in an innocent golden yellow.

Ji Yao opened his mouth, "Is the name Duan Xiuping fake?"

Duan Xiuping touched the lower right depression of his chest,

"It's not fake. It's a name I used. My mother couldn't change it until she died. Only you two call me that."

"But your profile doesn't show that former name at all."

"I used the name Duanfang when I applied for my ID card. Besides, my home is in a rural area, and the police station there didn't record such things."

"Also...we are not classmates at all, why do you lie to me like this, and why do I really remember so much."

Duan Xiuping looked at Ji Yao, seeing his face soaked in the setting sun, covered with a layer of broken light, shimmering slightly, but his eyes were heavy, dark and dull, restless and terrified, it was really touching.

"That's right, those memories in your mind are all fake, that person is not me."

Ji Yao was slightly taken aback, "What's going on."

Duan Xiuping pursed his lips as if mocking himself,

"I have done something to you, and you know that I am studying this, and the subject of my research is also related to this aspect."

Ji Yao started to break out in a cold sweat, "It's too ridiculous."

"Ji Yao, in fact, I can completely refuse to admit it,"

Duan Xiuping lowered his head slightly, and opened the drawer, as if he was looking for something.

"The reason why I tell you is not to make up for my mistakes, and I can't make up for it, but I found that I really like you..."

He took out the disposable syringe from the drawer, and took out the medicine preparation,

"So, you think you and your people are tormenting me so much, and I don't make any resistance. Is it really because of fear, no matter what?"

Duan Xiuping held the syringe, stared at the needle tip, and slowly pushed out the water droplet,

"Ji Yao, what I owe you is the only way I can repay you."

After saying this, he glanced at Ji Yao again, "Well...you don't suggest that I get an intramuscular injection here..."

Ji Yao didn't speak, he felt as if he was dreaming, but his palms were sweating all the time.

A reminder of truth, a reminder of horror.

Severe chest pain on the injured side, especially when breathing deeply.

Duan Xiuping's face turned pale, and he sat and injected intramuscularly analgesics into his upper arm.

The purple and black spots on the arm, I don't know what caused it, it has gradually faded, but it has not completely disappeared.

Duan Xiuping pulled out the needle, pressed it with a cotton swab,

"When I was with you once, I almost never mentioned my own affairs to you, because I was afraid of being exposed, and you didn't ask. In fact, I really want to tell you, where I grew up, where I went to school, like What……"

"But I can only live in the shadow of others, playing him, following your memories, worrying all day long... I love you very much, but also very tired... Also because of family reasons, so for a while I didn't want to Continue, I have met several women, I thought we could slowly alienate and then break up like I did with those people before, but I didn't expect you to let go, but I couldn't let go. "

Ji Yao sat on the chair, didn't say a word, and showed no expression.

Duan Xiuping threw away the cotton swab, cleaned up the things on the table, took out a disinfectant tissue and wiped the table repeatedly, "If I had known this..."

"..."

"I wish I never met you."

"..."

"You shouldn't have helped me... The thing that was robbed was worthless at all, but I have since lost everything I have, my conscience..."

Ji Yao came back to his senses, and something slowly appeared in his eyes.

Only then did I realize that it was already dark,

The room was extremely dark, Duan Xiuping's face was blurred, only the lens on his face was clear, just like what he had repeatedly recalled in that small villa.

It looks like a hallucination, but it's actually a memory.

Ji Yao stood up, "I'm leaving."

Duan Xiuping stood up abruptly, "Wait."

Ji Yao turned around and walked towards the door.

A figure sprang up from the dark and rushed towards Raj Yao.

Ji Yao reacted very quickly, raised his hand and twisted it, picked up the man's collar, and slammed him against the door panel.

Bang.

Ji Yao's voice trembled a little, "Don't force me to eunuch you."

His fingers were sticky, and Duan Xiuping's chin was wet and cold.

He took off his glasses, wiped his face,

"Okay."

"..."

"If you hate me so much, can I pay you my life? Is it because I am dead that you will forgive me?"

"..."

"Isn't my punishment enough?"

"..."

"Being beaten up, having your job ruined, it's nothing, the real punishment started two years ago."

"..."

"Ji Yao, you don't even know..."

"..."

"In those two years, although I enjoyed the sweetness of being loved by someone,"

Duan Xiuping raised his fingers, covered his face tremblingly,

"I also taste the despair that the person who loves is not my own all the time."