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After injecting a small amount of anesthesia, Xin Wan lay on the white bed, her breathing gradually calmed down.

"Xin Wan, now do as I asked. Imagine there are two white circles in your mind. They are approaching each other and slowly moving away. Now stare at them, and you will find that they are slowly, slowly close together until they cannot be separated. Now try to separate them, slowly[1]."

The rain was still falling outside, and it seemed to be getting bigger, crackling, and the sound was clear.

Shen You was not 100% sure about the initial deep hypnosis, so he made the guiding session very long and spoke more slowly, "Now you can erase those two circles in your mind. If you are sleepy, You don’t need to be consciously awake. I’m here to keep you safe[2].”

"Let's enter a new world, it's winter, it's cold, you're in a room, standing from your perspective, what can you see?"

It was pitch black, Xin Wan stood in the room, surrounded by pitch black.

A young man in black sat with his back facing him. The tattoo on his back spread out from the back of his neck. The scissors cut the paper, like a vine, and the sound of the paper being cut could be heard. The silver light of the scissors was flying, and the paper fell to the ground. on, like snow.He muttered in his mouth: annoying, wrong again.

"Go over and chat with him, what will he tell you?"

Xin Wan walked over and sat beside him.The young man's face couldn't be seen clearly, but Xin Wan felt very familiar and kind. He heard the young man say: Xin Wan, how do you write the word "villa" in the villa?

Wild, soil.Li Yuan, you are stupid, you don't even know this.

The young man laughed, with a hearty voice, carefully placed the scissors under the mattress, and put his arms around Xin Wan's shoulders: Those who went to college are different, so I will write another suicide note, and if they don't come to pick me up again, they will die. Let them put my ashes in the big villa, or I'll be a ghost and I won't let them go, hahaha.Is your copy ready?Remember to hide it, don't hide it by the window, hide it somewhere else.

Well, don't hide there.

Xin Wan heard herself asking: Brother Yuan, are you afraid?The doctor is coming again tomorrow, and everyone has to go.

The young man waved his hand with a free and easy expression: Afraid of a bird!I have never been afraid of pain in my life!Don't be afraid, don't worry, Xin Wan, brother Yuan is here to protect you, no one will bully you!

The scene suddenly changed in front of him, gray walls, mechanical dolls eating, Xin Wan's heartbeat accelerated inexplicably, and his breathing became short of breath. The male voice comforted him in an illusory way: "Don't be nervous, it's just a dream, look around."

A figure suddenly passed by outside the window, and with a "boom", Xin Wan looked over suddenly, the sky was white and the trees were green, and someone exclaimed: Li Yuan jumped off the building!

Xin Wan lowered her head and saw the plate in front of her. Lunch consisted of olive vegetables, tomato and egg soup, and a bowl of millet porridge.He froze in place amidst the noise around him, he didn't do anything, he didn't lie down by the window to watch the excitement like others, he just left the restaurant with his dinner plate.

"How do you feel right now? Relax, feel, what do you want to do?"

In the same room, Xin Wan took a pen and lifted half of the mattress, revealing the dense black writing, making it impossible to see what she was writing.He is like a person offering sacrifices in ancient times, kneeling in the middle of the formation, begging the gods, and writing with trembling hands.

Xin Wan felt like falling into the water, needing to grab the straw and support, he began to scratch his hair, sobbed softly, and suddenly turned over to lift another mattress, the scissors lay quietly underneath.

He saw himself picking up the pair of scissors—consciousness flinched, it couldn't be like this, it hurt.But the action pierced into the wrist without hesitation, and the intense tingling pain suddenly pierced in.

Xin Wan woke up suddenly, all he saw were white walls and beige curtains, Shen You looked at him worriedly, wiped off the sweat from his forehead, and said, "The hypnosis is over, how do you feel?"

Xin Wan stared at him blankly, touched his face, didn't cry, the oppressive feeling still clung to him, he sat up on the bed with Shen You's help, covered his face, shook his head, his voice was hoarse Powerful: "It's so uncomfortable..."

Shen You knew that he should comfort him now, but his job did not allow this. He clasped Xin Wan's shoulder, gently opened his hand, and asked him almost cruelly: "What did you see? Tell me about it."

In a daze, he said whatever came to his mind.Paper-cutting, Li Yuan, jumping off the building, silver scissors, the moment of piercing the wrist.Xin Wan clasped her hands tightly, and suddenly said in a low voice, "I miss him so much."

Shen You caught the word "he": "Who is he?"

"I don't know, I didn't see it clearly," Xin Wan shook her head in a daze, "I just miss him very much and want him to come and save me, but he never came, so I... really want to die."

"Those are in the past, don't think about it anymore, and don't think about 'death' or anything," Shen You felt a little regretful, even if it was the initial guidance, Song Heng should be here, he played a more soothing role than him. Yes, "I'll take you home, okay?"

"Ah."

It was still raining outside, Xin Wan got into the car after him.Looking out of the window, the scenery recedes,

The clouds piled up, and it was dark, and the rattling sound of the vehicle passing by the water beach could be heard, and the white headlights shone on the glass, briefly staying on Xin Wan's face, and then leaving.

Outside vehicles were not allowed in Shuyueli, and Shen You was about to call Song Heng when he heard Xin Wan say softly: "I'll go home by myself." Shen You looked at him, "No, I don't worry about you being alone."

"It'll be fine, it's just such a short distance," Xin Wan said, "I want to go home by myself."

At this point, Shen You had no choice but to unlock the car, handed him an umbrella, and told Xin Wan to call him when he got home.Xin Wan responded, holding an umbrella and stepping into the rain, the corners of her clothes blew up, inexplicably making Shen You feel that he was thin and fragile.

Walking from the door to the elevator, the umbrella was folded up and the water fell all over the ground. Xin Wan knew that she didn't think about anything, and just watched the number go up blankly.Song Heng was not at home, Qiuqiu ran over barking, Xin Wan called Shen You to report that he was safe, and added dog food to Qiuqiu as usual.

The lights were not turned on, and the dark sky shrouded in darkness.Qiuqiu sensed that he was depressed, so she leaned against him, whimpered softly, and looked at him flatteringly.

Xin Wan suddenly curled up her legs, hugged her knees, buried her face, her body was shaking, as if she didn't have enough oxygen.

The text message rang, Xin Wan raised her head in confusion, fumbled to get her mobile phone, and saw the text message from Song Heng: I am going out of town temporarily for four or five days, and I don't need to wait for me for dinner these few nights.

Xin Wan called Song Heng, the voice rang for a long time, but she hung up because no one answered, maybe because she was on the plane, or maybe he was busy.

He stood up propped up, pushed open the door of Song Heng's room, curled up on the soft bed, buried his body in the quilt, and smelled the breath that belonged to Song Heng. ——For some reason, he really wanted to see Song Heng, and wanted Song Heng to hug him.

Tears wet the pillow cover, Xin Wan sobbed softly, and suddenly realized what she wanted dully, and knew how to describe this feeling in words - he wanted to be closer to Song Heng, as close as possible.

Song Heng has what he longs for, what he hopes for, and what he abandons.

Everyone is missing, and a person's life is forming a network of relationships, making friends, approaching, leaving, and meeting again, for the sake of material, survival, integration, and spiritual vitality.Every time a relationship is formed, it is filling and complete.

And when he was close to Song Heng, his lack was made up for.

The author says:

[1][2] Hong Ruifeng. Research on College Students' Inferiority and Hypnosis Intervention [d]. Yangzhou University, 2012. (Mainly imitating many words that lead to enter the state)

Psychology is not my major, so it may be superficial.This chapter needs to be changed, because the writing is more shit.I don’t know how to change it now, I haven’t reached that level [. 】Tuesday and Wednesday will not be updated, for fear that someone will forget.