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Although she took stomach medicine and did not eat any more irritating food, Xin Wan still slept uneasy. She woke up in the early morning and staggered to the bathroom. On the way, she bumped her ankle and calf twice, lying on her stomach He vomited by the toilet for a long time, and his throat was sore from stomach acid. He struggled to press the flush button, so uncomfortable that he couldn't stand up.

Song Heng didn't sleep deeply, and heard the movement of water. It was very dark after three o'clock, with only a little light left in the bathroom. Xin Wan was lying on the side of the toilet, her whole face was very pale, looking at him half asleep and half awake.

"Does your stomach still feel bad?" Song Heng poured a glass of warm water to rinse his mouth, tried the temperature of his forehead, and found no fever. Xin Wan was so sleepy that she shook her head so little that she couldn't lift her hand: " sleepy……"

With his hands under his knees, he could hug Xin Wan without too much effort. However, Xin Wan was still frowning, with a faint pain in his stomach. Song Heng picked up his clothes, just like the last time he had a sudden acute gastritis in the hospital , rubbing his stomach lightly.This movement gave Xin Wan a sense of security, she curled up slightly, and soon fell asleep again.

Not a single dream came in the second half of the night.

The next day was a cloudy and rainy day, with very little rain, and Xin Wan didn't wake up completely, but just felt hot, so hot that he looked up in a daze, saw Song Heng's eyelashes, and instinctively moved towards him. Leaning back and forth, it took 2 minutes to react sharply. The whole person woke up and fell asleep, his back was so stiff that he didn't dare to move. After a long while, he looked up again——Song Heng was still sleeping, and the sound of breathing was heavy, so close , Even the thin blood vessels of the eyelids can be seen clearly.

All those absurd things yesterday got into his mind.

Xin Wan's head still hurts, but there is no fragment, and he remembers it better than anyone else. His eyes unconsciously looked at Song Heng's dry lips, thinking that he could turn into a quail or a tortoise, as long as he wasn't alone.

It is difficult to achieve biological technology, but Xin Wan has achieved it on the physical level. The whole person shrank into his quilt and covered it tightly, not a single hair was left outside, and the quilt bulged out. Come in chunks.

It's over, what should I do? ——These two sentences are left in my mind.

Only the sound of his breathing could be heard in the quilt, and the little oxygen was slowly depleting. Suddenly, there was a knock on the door and a dog barking. Before Xin Wan could react, a heavy object was suddenly placed on the quilt, and the ball jumped I climbed up and barked a couple more times. Now it is hardened, and it is no longer a lame dog with a skeleton left in the hospital. Now it is sinking like hell.

The small gap for breathing that Xin Wan specially left was also suppressed, and it was pitch black in front of her eyes. With a sound of "hey", she pounded the ball twice with her fist through the quilt, and the gravity on the other side of the bed suddenly lightened. After being carried away, Song Heng's voice was a little hoarse: "Don't make trouble."

Xin Wan's struggling was silent again, lying on the quilt pretending to be a turtle, deceiving herself and others, but her voice was still close, and there was a hint of a smile in her voice: "Xin Wan?"

"Hey," Xin Wan replied in a muffled voice, "Here it is."

Song Heng asked: "Not hot?"

"It's not hot, it's good."

Song Heng was patient and asked: "Then come out?"

"It will take a while to come out," Xin Wan replied sincerely, "Go and eat first, I'm not hungry."

Song Heng said "um", and let him curl up in the quilt. Xin Wan heard the sound far away, and it took a long time to get out of the quilt, panting heavily, her cheeks were hot and red, and slowly put on her slippers. The bathroom, but the mirror is still honest. He saw the bitten place on his lip, and he could see the marks on his neck without hooking up his clothes, and there was no way to cover it up.

He rubbed that piece of skin vigorously, the redness became more and more conspicuous, Xin Wan poured water and brushed his teeth in frustration.

No matter how you hide, you still have to meet. Song Heng is using the microwave oven to warm up a sandwich, and after 30 seconds, he can take it out. Xin Wan sits at the dining table and looks at the clock on the wall. It is already past eleven o'clock. Startled: "Is it so late? I thought it was only past seven o'clock."

Song Heng handed him the sandwich and a glass of soy milk: "Lunch."

"It's raining outside and I can't tell the weather, so I thought it was early." Xin Wan took the sandwich, and briefly touched the back of his hand with his fingers. The faint touch still made him tremble. Heng asked him, "Does your stomach still hurt?"

Unconsciously exerting force with his hands, Xin Wan deliberately wanted to cover the marks on his neck, his posture seemed strange, and he said, "It doesn't hurt anymore, I don't feel it."

Fortunately, Song Heng didn't continue to ask, which made Xin Wan heave a sigh of relief. The cheese in the sandwich melted, and it was very sweet. The sweet and greasy taste effectively filled the hunger. He couldn't hold back and asked, "Are you still going to work today?" ?"

"Not going," Song Heng said, "It's too late, and there is nothing important."

"Then..." After speaking halfway, Xin Wan felt that he was contradictory. He wanted to get close to Song Heng, but at this moment he wanted to escape. Both ends were sharp, and he looked at him with a cold light. , When the sandwiches were almost gone, Xin Wan said, "Then why don't I go to Shen You's place in the afternoon."

Song Heng looked up at him: "Today?"

"I don't have anything to do today, and I'm free at home." When Xin Wan was nervous, his eyes were always uncertain. He avoided Song Heng's eyes, which always made people feel deliberate. "I haven't gone for a few days, isn't it right?" Do you want to talk more?"

Song Heng said, "Okay."

The promise was quick, and Xin Wan finished the sandwich and drank the soy milk in one gulp, leaving the table in an unseemly manner.It was still raining outside the window, and it was gray, as if the rain was also gray. Xin Wan wore a black sweater with a high collar, and the rest was her usual attire.

When he walked out of the bedroom, Song Heng was touching Qiuqiu's head with gentle eyes.

Heartbeat can be felt, Xin Wan clearly felt it, Song Heng looked up and stood up: "I will drive you there."

"No need," Xin Wan subconsciously refused, explaining: "It's not raining too much outside, I'm holding an umbrella, and I don't get caught in the rain on the bus."

Song Heng's footsteps stopped, and his eyes looked over quietly. Xin Wan lowered his head in a hopeless manner. He felt that he had said something wrong, but he couldn't fix it. He also touched Qiuqiu's head and said in a low voice: "Then I'll go first."

As soon as she came out to wash the moon, the rain blew onto her face, like a delicate, soft, tear-wet kiss. Xin Wan was reluctant to hold an umbrella, and didn't feel cold, so she just leaned on the umbrella and knocked on the ground. Only open it while waiting at the station.To get to Daosan Road, you have to take bus 435, and you have to take a detour, and it took more than half an hour to get there after wandering in the car.

However, he only cared about coming, but forgot about other things, Shen You opened the door, and saw him put his index finger on his lips in surprise: "You go to the lounge and sit down first."

It was only then that Xin Wan realized that there was someone here, and hurriedly nodded.There is a fruit plate in the lounge, a second-hand coffee machine, and two lazy sofas. He only took an orange and peeled it very slowly. Si, after waiting for ten minutes, the door suddenly opened, Shen You said: "Okay, come out."

Xin Wan followed him out: "Is that person gone?"

"Let's go. I'm just one person who came for consultation. Anxiety, I can't speak in a hurry. I kept knocking on the table with my pen when I was talking about things. It almost broke it." Shen You took a chair for him, "You came back quite suddenly, and you didn't have an appointment, and I didn't prepare any juice for you, just drink plain water."

"I forgot," Xin Wan chuckled, "Plain water is also pretty good."

"Did something happen again when you came back?" Shen You poured himself a cup of strong coffee, without milk and sugar cubes, it was very sour, but very refreshing, "You seem to have stayed up late, the dark circles under your eyes are quite obvious Yes."

"I didn't stay up late," Xin Wan pursed her lips, "I just drank."

"Then it must be early in the morning after drinking, and you must have endured it. I can't see that you still drink. I thought you were as virtuous as Song Heng, and you poured a glass." Shen You began to guess, "After drinking last night What are you doing? So unhappy."

Xin Wan hesitated to speak, and didn't know how to speak for a while: "I was drunk last night, and then I was with Song Heng, uh, that's that..."

Shen You turned pale with shock: "Did you have sex after drinking?"

"Hey! No, no," Xin Wan became even more ashamed, pointed to her lips, stammered uselessly, and whispered, "That's it, just a few pops."

"What else do I think?" Shen You breathed a sigh of relief, "You're already an adult, don't make such a fuss all the time."

"But I don't know how to face him anymore." Xin Wan lowered her head and continued to tear off the white silk on the surface of the orange flesh. "Things are too messy, I can't figure it out, and it's annoying."

Shen You understood: "So you didn't come to me for consultation, but you came here to hide?"

Xin Wan nodded, and stuffed a slice of orange into her mouth. The sweet and sour juice easily pleased the taste buds, and even relieved her depression, Shen You said: "It's okay, anyway, I'm fine this afternoon, I don't have an appointment Yes, you can play here."

"Thank you, Dr. Shen." Xin Wan smiled.

Shen You glanced at the time on the phone: "But I can only take you in until evening, I have something to do tonight, so the door closes early."

"It's fine at night, I'll go to the nearby library in the evening."

Shen Youyue: "I just don't want to see Song Heng, it was quite warm before. What do you think now?"

"I don't know what I'm thinking... I don't have anything to do with him now, and those things happen when I'm drunk, it's very frivolous and casual, I didn't think so," Xin Wan said in a low voice, "I was just If you want to stay by his side, you can do it for a minute longer, it’s best if you can help, and don’t cause him any trouble, but my disturbance made us both very embarrassed, and the peace that was so hard to maintain collapsed.”

Shen You tentatively asked: "He kissed you first?"

"That's right... But it's because I said a lot of things, the words I said were miserable, and I said 'I hurt', maybe those words made him feel sympathetic," Xin Wan hesitated, "It's pretty good anyway. messy."

"Aren't you stupid, Xin Wan?" Shen You shook his head and sighed bitterly, "No matter what the antecedents are, he was the one who kissed you first. Song Heng, you should know better than me. If you kiss someone with sympathy, it won't last so long, you will cry out for pain, but those little girls won't? Don't take yourself too lightly, after all, you are still different to Song Heng. "

Is it different?Xin Wan didn't think he was inferior, but he seemed to never be able to get out of Song Heng's case. Maybe he was a fan of the authorities. He walked around in circles in circles, afraid of being bumped into, and afraid that he would be the only one left in the bureau.

Xin Wan raised her head and asked, "Has Dr. Shen been in a relationship recently?"

"Why are you pulling me all of a sudden?" Shen You waved his hand, "I fell in love with a beautiful sister, and I'm chasing after her, without a word. Let me tell you the truth, the door is closed at night to date my sister, and I'm busy."

The topic just diverged like this. Shen You has a very easy-going personality and knows how to speak properly. It is always comfortable to chat with him. Song Heng sent a text message at [-]:[-] p.m., and the content was very concise: When will it end?

Xin Wan didn't decide whether to lie or tell the truth for a while, Song Heng sent again: I will pick you up.

Now there is no way to hide, and there is no need to go to the library at night, so Xin Wan can only reply: Then take your time on the road.

Shen You saw his hands moving non-stop, and asked, "Song Heng?"

"Well," Xin Wan took the umbrella and stood up: "I'll go down and wait for him first, thank you Dr. Shen for keeping me for so long."

Shen You waved his hand, not forgetting to remind him: "Remember to tell me first when you come back."

Xin Wan smiled and nodded.

The consulting room is on the second floor, and the number of steps to the first floor is 23. Xin Wan stood by the roadside with an umbrella in her hand. She saw high-rise steel buildings in the rain, and the lights in the concrete forest dimmed. She also looked at the puddles under her feet. , I don’t know how long it took, the car suddenly stopped in front of him, Xin Wan hesitated, opened the door of the rear seat, leaned down, and asked: "The umbrellas are full of water, do you want to put them in the trunk?"

The driver's seat couldn't see carefully, Song Heng said: "Put the umbrella aside."

Xin Wan sat behind the passenger seat.The heater was turned on in the car, and it was very warm and comfortable. Xin Wan wanted to speak a few times, but felt it was awkward, so she just stared at the shops outside, at the dummy in the glass window, and at the sticker on the door when parking. Recruitment, the car drives too fast, dazzling.

When it was almost Shuyueli, Xin Wan hesitated and called him: "Song Heng."

"what happened?"

"Why don't I go out and find a part-time job before school starts," Xin Wan said in a relaxed tone, trying to make her words as natural as possible, "Besides, you have taken me in for so long, and I owe you a lot for the living expenses, as well as the tuition for the start of school. ——I'm so idle at home that it's almost growing grass, so I can make some money."

In fact, it is very difficult to pay off, Xin Wan knows.The cost Song Heng spent sending him to No. [-] Middle School, the cost of meals for five or six months, the cost of living in Shuyue, and many of them are difficult to measure with money, and those may not be worth it to Song Heng mentioned, but this cannot be a reason for his indebtedness.

Only Song Heng's side face could be seen, and a circular light and shadow flitted across it. He said, "You don't need to pay back the money."

"That won't work, I'm not used to owing people money," Xin Wan joked, "But with my ability, I may earn very slowly, and it will take a long time to pay back, just don't add too much interest."

"Is it because you are not used to owe others," Song Heng asked, "or you are not used to owe me?"

Xin Wan froze for a moment, and looked at him bewilderedly.However, the car still arrived at Shuyueli, Song Heng said, "Get out of the car."

The rain was pouring down, the sound of knocking on the leaves was disturbing, and the silence became more and more abrupt. Xin Wan wanted to say "I'm sorry", but couldn't say it for a long time. He guessed that he didn't understand Song Heng's thoughts, maybe Do you think he has too many things to do?Or find him annoying?Xin Wan didn't even know what to say "I'm sorry", and she was afraid that she might say something wrong or miss the point.

And so the silence stretched on to dinner, and to bedtime.Listening to the sound of water in the bathroom, Xin Wan folded the quilt in the bedroom, and finally only took away the pillow. The pillow was soft and had no real weight in his arms. He heard the sound of the bathroom door opening, and turned his head to see Song Heng's eyes.

"You're done washing..." Xin Wan clutched the pillow anxiously, her fingertips turned white, she lowered her head and said, "Why don't I go back to that bedroom to sleep."

He prepared a reason, saying that he had a bad sleeping position, that the floor heating was too hot, and that he would sweat when sleeping together. He was trying to find a balance in his words.But Song Heng didn't ask anything, his voice was cold: "Don't tell me."

Xin Wan opened her mouth, slowly let go of her hands, said "um", and said, "Good night..."

There was no response, Xin Wan lowered her head and stepped on her own shadow and entered the guest room diagonally opposite. It was still the same as before. She slept here on the first night of Shuyueli. He saw moons of different shapes through the glass. Xin Wan Sitting on the edge of the bed in a daze.

I still haven't dealt with it well. I want Song Heng to be more comfortable and not make him unhappy, but it seems to be counterproductive.Xin Wan saw the bruise on her calf again, it was bumped last night, and it only showed up today, it wasn't that serious, he stretched out his hand to press the small piece of skin, it hurt a little, but he couldn't help it, the bruise was more conspicuous Only then did he let go, his eyes were a little red.

Song Heng may be the wound he couldn't help touching, it has become a small scar on the heart over the years, it is the warmth and pain that can be felt every time it beats, and it is also the accompanying sobriety, Xin Wan doesn't mind the pain, even Thinking, if the wound heals, then who will prove that Song Heng once liked him so much.

Xin Wan lay under the quilt, staring at the ceiling with her eyes open, thinking about things messily in the dark, she didn't even remember when she fell asleep, only the last thought——

Heal slowly.

He needs this wound.

The author has something to say: Both of them are still very young, not too mature, so let's treat it as fun