Is Ning an actor?

Staring at the familiar diary, Gu Qiu quickly snatched it over, "Why are you looking at my diary?"

Who hasn’t had the pain of youth? He used to write a diary for a while, but then he grew up and never wrote it again. He almost forgot the content in it, and he still doesn’t know what he wrote. Woolen cloth.

Shen Yizhuo really wanted to tease him, but the current situation is not suitable, so he can only give up, "You turn back."

Gu Qiu dubiously opened the diary, the handwriting in it was fairly neat, after all, Gu Yan had been forcing him to practice calligraphy when he was a child, and he could still read it.

The content inside was quite naive, trivial and very childish. He didn't spend time on it, but listened to Shen Yizhuo and kept scrolling back until... a new font appeared.

It's Gu Yan's.

【The state is very bad recently, I found out that Song Mingguo cheated, and you quarreled with me and left alone, I really don’t know what to do】

【Mom, I'm sorry, I shouldn't impose my thoughts on you. I have also changed in the past few years, and I didn't force you to choose art exams】

【What you said that day was really too much】

[Yes, I have a tone in my heart, I want to return to the stage, I want you to replace me on the stage, but I have gradually learned to give up]

[E-sports is a road with no end in sight now, I am so worried about you]

[I went to see a psychiatrist today]

【I miss you so much, but you don't want to contact me, and even changed your phone number】

[Now I just hope that Song Mingguo will not come back, it would be nice to travel every day, why bother to pretend in front of me]

[Chinese New Year is coming soon, I heard that your school is on holiday for more than ten days, you should not come back, I want to find you]

【Buy a ticket】

Seeing this, Gu Qiu's tears fell onto the diary with a patter.

"She came to see me once during Chinese New Year in her freshman year, but I didn't see her." Gu Qiu's voice trembled a little.

He didn't know why he was so heartless.

"I don't blame you." Shen Yizhuo quickly hugged him into his arms.

Gu Qiu buried his face in his chest, his body trembled slightly, the sound of sobbing connected with his heartbeat, Shen Yizhuo was in unreasonable pain, his eyes were also a little red, but the tears were suppressed hard, he couldn't cry, he couldn't talk to him Gu Qiu cried together.

"After reading it, cry again." Shen Yizhuo helped him wipe away his tears.

Gu Qiu's eyes were red, and he continued to look down.

【He doesn't want to see me】

[I really failed. My marriage failed, and being a mother failed. I should have listened to Lao Gu back then. How could I have been fooled by Song Mingguo?]

【I didn't expect depression to be my turn】

【The medicine is really bad】

【Damn Song Mingguo】

【I came back from the hospital, my body seems to be getting worse and worse, I feel like I’m still alive】

[Song Mingguo came to me today to "divide the inheritance". It's ridiculous. I won't give him a son if I give it all to Xiaoqiu.]

【Make a will】

[Write the last paragraph before taking the medicine. Mom loves you very much. I hope you will get better and better in the future. No matter what you do, mom will support you. It was my fault before. I was too paranoid. What I said that day was also very Hurting, there's nothing wrong with you, just do what you want, you've been great.

Don't be too sad. Your mother and I are not in good health. There is nothing to do about birth, old age, illness and death. I just don't want to die too embarrassingly. I heard that those who died of illness are very ugly. I want your mother to be beautiful^^ I love you]

Maybe it was Song Ziqiu's diary, which was still in Song Ziqiu's room, but Song Mingguo didn't deal with it and kept it, but he didn't expect that Gu Yan would continue to write it later.

Gu Qiu held the diary in his arms, Shen Yizhuo held Gu Qiu in his arms, the room was very quiet, only the sound of sobbing that gradually became uncontrollable.

Shen Yizhuo patted him on the back, Gu Qiu tightly clutched his clothes with one hand, his fingertips turned slightly white.

After Gu Yan passed away, he came back in despair. Song Mingguo had already made all the preparations. The piles of medical records and medical certificates made him unable to think too much. In addition, he had no doubts about Song Mingguo at the time, so he couldn't find out that Gu Yan was actually It was "forced" to commit suicide.

Also, forgive Song Mingguo for not being so bold to directly kill Gu Yan.

But Gu Yan's death cannot be separated from him.

Gu Qiu took a deep breath, and wiped the snot and tears from Shen Yizhuo's chest.

Can't get away from him.

Song Mingguo was guilty, and so was he.

Gu Yan's last words did not want to make him feel too guilty, but he still couldn't do it.

"I don't blame you." Shen Yizhuo held him tightly in his arms. This was the third time he was at a loss. The first time was when he found out that Gu Yan had passed away. Although he really wanted to, he couldn't contact Song Ziqiu. The second time was when Song Ziqiu had an accident, and the third time was now.

It was almost midnight after returning from the community, Gu Qiu didn't say a word, he hugged the diary tightly, Shen Yizhuo comforted him a few words and didn't say anything, just held him tightly.

Sometimes some words of consolation do not have any effect, and only companionship is the best medicine.

Although he was sorry, he was also very happy.

This time he was by Qiuqiu's side.

After returning to the hotel, Gu Qiu ran to the bathroom alone, carefully placed the diary on the table, sat down on the table without disturbing him, and carefully flipped through the diary again.

Gu Qiu stood in front of the sink, the boy's eyes in the mirror were bloodshot, his nose was red, his face was also red, and tears covered half of his face.

Hot water is available 24 hours a day, Gu Qiu took the cold water and flushed his face a few times, he didn't look so depressed.

Really like ah.

The original Gu Qiu committed suicide by taking medicine, so did Gu Yan, and the diary was similar to the one I continued to write about the original Gu Qiu.

Maybe some things are destined, seemingly irrelevant, but in fact, there is an indistinct connection.

Ms. Gu Yan... She must have been watching him somewhere, but unfortunately he did not continue to stick to his heart to play e-sports, but chose a ridiculous path that relieved his guilt. She must be very disappointed Bar.

Gu Qiu went under the shower and turned on the cold water, standing under it trembling slightly.

He needs to calm down.

It can no longer be the same as when Gu Yan passed away.

The atonement is not to reduce the guilt in his heart, but to make the wish of the person he owes come true.

After all, many things have been committed, and there is no way to turn back, but to move forward.

Back then, he plunged headlong into the entertainment industry to no avail, but Gu Yan was no longer there, invisible, meaningless at all, not to mention that Gu Yan no longer wanted him to replace her and return to the stage.

Gu Yan's hope, Gu Yan's wish, is that he can stick to his heart and do what he likes to do. He has been wrong for so many years and cannot continue to be wrong.

Shen Yizhuo heard a "click", and quickly raised his head to look at the bathroom. Gu Qiu was all wet and looked downcast, but his spirit was much better.

Seeing Shen Yizhuo walking towards him, Gu Qiu moved his lips slightly, "Leng..."

"Can you not be cold? Pour yourself with cold water, and still want to get sick?" Shen Yizhuo suppressed the anger in his heart, tried to make his tone gentler, while picking up the bathrobe and bath towel, and peeling off After wiping it clean, he raised the temperature in the room a few degrees and dried his hair.

"I'm sorry." Gu Qiu saw his anger and could understand it, and apologized with his head down.

The anger in Shen Yizhuo's heart could not be vented, his heart was almost too soft after being tormented by him, so he dried his hair and quickly threw him into the bed.

"I'm going to buy some Radix Banlangen, drink more hot water later, don't get sick tomorrow morning."

Gu Qiu hurriedly nodded obediently.

After Shen Yizhuo left, Gu Qiu took out his mobile phone and took a look, only to find that he had received a new text message.

[Old Man Gu]: When are you coming back?Come and have a New Year's Eve dinner on New Year's Eve.

Well-behaved, not even a single punctuation mark.

The author has something to say: I went to QAQ tonight to watch Tang Detective 3. It’s even later.

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