extinguish the stars

Ning Ze was with the ambulance that day. He and a few doctors felt that when Gu Qinghan came home, Gu Qinghan had completely lost consciousness. Even so, his body still twitched slightly and spit out a lot of bright red blood.Jiang Qi was holding him beside him, his face was uglier than the person in his arms.

"Doctor Ning..." As soon as he opened his mouth, he couldn't pronounce a complete syllable.

Ning Ze was also shocked, he quickly diagnosed Gu Qinghan's symptoms, it should be upper gastrointestinal hemorrhage.

In the ambulance, Gu Qinghan even developed symptoms of ventricular fibrillation. He unconsciously frowned in pain, shortness of breath and distress, and the oxygen mask was stained red with layers of coughed blood.Ning Ze held back his panic, and performed CPR with a livid face.

Jiang Qi was pushed aside by the medical staff. He opened his eyes wide and looked at the man who had talked to him a lot not long ago, now lying here dying. His pale skin was connected to the instrument by injection, like a dilapidated doll. , the body bounced up and down after being pressed.

This is so painful, Jiang Qi's heart is also throbbing violently, tears are falling down, but there is no sound in his throat.He wanted to hold Gu Qinghan's hand to see if it was still warm, but he was afraid of touching the needle on the back of this person's hand.He was about to be driven mad by this sense of powerlessness.

Later, Jiang Qi slumped in embarrassment and choked up in front of the emergency room door. His legs were so weak that he couldn't stand up, and his face was covered in blood. The blood that was about to dry burned his heart like fire.He buried his face in his palms and wept, begging God for a little luck.

He couldn't remember how long it had been, he was suffering every minute and every second, until the door opened, and Ning Ze hurried out to find him clutching a few sheets, the dark green surgical gown was soaked into a darker color with blood.

"..." Jiang Qi raised his head to look at him, his blue and white lips murmured for a long time, unable to make a sound.

Ning Ze took a deep breath, "Mr. Jiang, his condition is very bad," he tried to make his words clear, "There are serious problems with the stomach and heart, gastric perforation caused massive bleeding and acute heart failure, he will die at any time—"

Hearing this, Jiang Qi's face became even more ashen and ugly, and his breathing became difficult.

"...Help him, please..." His heart was tightly clenched, and even the slightest movement made him feel like he was going crazy in pain.

"The notification of critical illness and the notification of surgical risk must be signed by someone. I want to ask you, can you? Can you take this responsibility?" Ning Ze handed the pieces of paper to him, "He has no family members who can sign gone."

Jiang Qi's eyes were red, and he stared blankly at the paper in front of him. Knowing that there was no time to delay, he nodded heavily, "I can," he said hoarsely, "I will take care of everything about him."

He took the pen, not daring to look at the cold and frightening words, and when he signed, his hands were still trembling and he could hardly write the complete name.In the column of the relationship with the patient, he hesitated for a moment before writing the word "elder brother".

"Doctor Ning, please..." He begged weakly.

Ning Ze couldn't bear to look into his eyes, and still kept the doctor awake and said to him, "You have to prepare for the worst."

What was the worst plan, but Jiang Qi didn't dare to ask.

Until a long time later, Jiang Qi still didn't dare to recall how he got through that day.He received three critical illness notices, his palms were bleeding while he was pinching his fingernails, he was praying in tears facing the wall, his lips were biting his tattered lips, he was full of hopelessness and fear, and he even prayed that time would stop and stop passing, even if he was suffering like this forever, he didn’t have to Faced with the possibility that Gu Qinghan would be pronounced dead in the next moment.

He didn't dare to think about what to do if Gu Qinghan really couldn't make it through, he just called his name over and over again in his heart.

Qinghan, don't die.

Don't die, we give each other a home.

Please, survive.

After Ning Ze came out and smiled at him and nodded to him with tears streaming down his face, he was relieved, and immediately lay down on his back and howled until he fainted.

Gu Qinghan had one-third of his stomach removed, and was sent to the ICU when he got off the operating table. Jiang Qi couldn't go in, so he could only stay outside and watch through the glass.

Most of Gu Qinghan's face was covered by the oxygen mask, leaving only the dark and silent eyebrows, looking lifeless.His pale chest and fingers were connected with various instruments and tubes, Jiang Qi felt pain for him just looking at him, and trembling uncontrollably when he thought of the piece of flesh and blood that had been removed from his body.

After Ning Ze checked it out, Jiang Qi went up to meet him, "Doctor Ning..." As soon as he opened his mouth, he felt a pain like tearing his throat, and he couldn't help frowning in pain.

"……how is he?"

Ning Ze's face was still very serious, "I haven't passed the dangerous period yet, so I need to continue to observe."

"How could his body be so bad?" Jiang Qi's throat was probably inflamed, and it was difficult to say every word. "I know he has stomach problems. How could he have heart failure..." Mentioning these two Literally, his heart ached badly.

Ning Ze sighed softly, "Come with me to the office."

Ning Ze took a glass of warm water for him, and took out a board of anti-inflammatory medicine from the drawer, "Two pills."

"Thank you."

"Qinghan's illness, in the final analysis, is caused by exhaustion. From the time I know him, he is overloaded every day." Ning Ze took off his glasses, and his eyes were a little empty. He still has to take care of Nian Nian alone, he doesn't have enough time to rest, tiredness accumulates day by day, no one can bear it....He is exhausted."

Jiang Qi silently tightened his fingers and lowered his eyes to the ground.

"The stomach problem is nothing more than nervousness due to irregular meals. His bleeding this time is also due to ulcer erosion and perforation. I am afraid he will suffer in the future. As for heart failure, it is induced by myocarditis."

"Myocarditis?" Jiang Qi raised his head and looked at him suspiciously.

"He suffered from myocarditis about two years ago due to a cold and overwork," Ning Ze recalled. "At that time, he seemed to have gone to the UK, and when he came back, he had a low-grade fever... After that, he didn't recover well and had to work hard. so......"

Jiang Qi's brain was buzzing, and he was sure that it must be the time when he went to find himself.That missed one actually planted such a big hidden danger in Gu Qinghan's body.Jiang Qi's heart was twisted like a knife, and he adjusted his breathing gently to relieve the throbbing pain in his chest so that he would not lose his composure too much.

"Although Qinghan didn't say anything, I also know that he has a lot of pressure in his heart. If he is so depressed and exhausted physically and mentally, he will have big problems sooner or later. His heart failure has already developed to the second level, and he must never be tired again in the future."

Jiang Qi nodded heavily, his eyes were scarlet.

He walked back to the entrance of the ICU step by step and sat down, lowering his head and covering his eyes, weeping silently.

During the four years of separation, Gu Qinghan's health has been tortured to such a dilapidated state.How did he hold on until now, and how tired he was before he fell?

Jiang Qi's heart was going to be broken, he thought, the sooner he could face his own heart, the sooner he would firmly return to him, he should have been there when Gu Qinghan fell down in front of him for the first time Just pay attention to it, instead of sitting here crying and repenting at this time.

Jiang Qi's back trembled violently, and tears trickled through his fingers and fell on the floor.He had no choice but to think how much Gu Qinghan would love him, and he would go mad with heartache.

He couldn't help himself from collapsing, when a piercing and sharp alarm sounded from the other side of the glass, Jiang Qi's heartbeat froze, he jumped up and looked inside, and saw Gu Qinghan, who was originally quiet, convulsing in pain, several doctors and nurses hurriedly held him down. his limbs.Jiang Qi lay dead on the glass, his eyes were red, he forgot to breathe, he saw Gu Qinghan gradually calmed down, the oxygen mask was splashed red with blood again, those silent eyes seemed to open a little bit, looking hopelessly and sadly. looking at myself...

"Qinghan..." He didn't even have the strength to scream, he just watched him silently crying, "Don't give up, please, please..."

When he was finally out of danger, Jiang Qi slid against the wall and sat on the floor. He had no more tears, his eyes were bloodshot, and the eye sockets were dry and painful. Everything in front of him was foggy.