catastrophe

Since Gu Xiaomeng was poisoned, I always feel that she has changed, but it seems that she has not changed.

I thought I knew her, but suddenly I didn't seem to know anything.

I couldn't find out what was the persistence deep in her eyes, what she conspired with Wu Zhiguo on the night of the fire, and what was going on in her heart.

But I know what's on my mind.

When an excellent spy enters an unfamiliar environment, the first reaction should be to turn on the light instead of rushing in, but when there was no movement in Gu Xiaomeng's room on the night of the fire, I took out the guard's gun, and two The gun violently destroyed the door lock, and rushed into the room after breaking the door. When the light was turned on, I was already beside Gu Xiaomeng's bed.

A good spy should not be swayed by emotion, waste time in an emergency, and carefully prepare a banquet that has no effect except romance.But when Gu Xiaomeng mentioned it, he still wanted to give her the so-called sense of ritual.

An excellent spy should not disobey the orders of his superiors, but when the violet fireworks bloomed, I was not glad that I survived, but sad that Gu Xiaomeng wanted to die for me, so I followed my heart and acted without authorization.

So many freaks just because she shakes me.

If my life is a formula, I can input whatever data I want to get the result.As everyone knows, there is also a professional term in mathematics called regular term. Simply put, when some results cannot be obtained accurately, it is necessary to add a prophetic condition to the formula, that is, the regular term constrains the formula so that the final result tends to conform to psychological expectations.

The function of the regularization term should be to assist and guide the derivation of the correct result. Under different environments, I added different regularization terms to the formula, and got answers that were extremely close to the exact solution.

But at this moment, Gu Xiaomeng interfered with my regular item, or she became my regular item.

How can a model with errors in its formulas be able to calculate the correct solution?But I know that my regular term is wrong, but I don't want to correct it.

The deviation of the regular term will not cause the results to deviate widely, and the result of this fine-tuning is exactly what I want.

But when I finished entering all the prophetic conditions, Gu Xiaomeng was disrupting the situation again, and my regular terms were forced to change again.

Gu Xiaomeng took the initiative to ask Laobie to clean the room. Whether it was a coincidence or not, I didn't have time to stop the words.But when she asked me to take Old Turtle to open the door, I believed that this was definitely not a coincidence, it was deliberately creating opportunities for me.But how could the script be so perfectly coordinated if the script hadn't been predicted in advance?

I can't understand her more and more, but today is her birthday, I want to give her a good birthday first, let's talk about other things later.

While we were dancing together, I got the "hell change" signal and she got a birthday wish from her dad.I feel unspeakably uncomfortable, among a group of mourning people, only she is energetic, like the sun in winter, I like to be with such a light source.For the rest of my life, we need our own sunshine to survive. If she and I are destined to go out alone in this situation in Qiuzhuang, then I hope it can be her.

How can I live without sunshine?

Now that I have to say my last farewell, let me confess to her.I played Xu Zhimo's Occasion for her, hoping that she would remember me and fearing that she would remember me.

People are always a complex of contradictions.

With the death of the old turtle, I thought that all this was about to end, and I was about to go to hell.Unexpectedly, the sudden gunfire and her abnormal behavior before, I immediately looked at her. It turned out that she had already discussed with Wu Zhiguo the plan to defect tonight on the night of the fire.On the surface, she pretended to be innocent and recorded an innocuous recording to Longchuan Feiyuan, but in fact, she tapped the Morse code simultaneously to send me a message.It turns out that she really knew everything a long time ago, and even laid out the layout long ago, but I only now fully understand this.She said it was to save me. Did she even know that I was planning to sacrifice myself?

Wu Zhiguo's sudden defection caused me and Gu Xiaomeng to enter the interrogation room in turn. If I used to be worried about Gu Xiaomeng, but now even I am being manipulated by her, let alone a mere Longchuan Fertilizer.If such a person is an enemy, it would be terrible. I don't know who she is, whether her so-called "want to be a comrade-in-arms with me" is out of sincerity, or just to deceive my trust.

I was hugged from behind immediately after I returned from the interrogation room. From the strength of her hug and the speed of my heart beating, I felt scared.This made me even more confused, and I couldn't help asking: "What are you and Wu Zhiguo planning?"

And her answer shocked me even more. She not only gave Wu Zhiguo the second-generation Enigma machine, persuaded Wu Zhiguo to fight with his life, but also got in touch with Gu Minzhang to prepare for it.

It turned out that I never understood her.

Longchuan Feiyuan said that I am unfathomable, but I feel that Gu Xiaomeng is even more unfathomable.

She asked me to promise her to live a good life, but I clearly promised her, but she cried, and she cried very sadly. I don't know why she cried, but it seems to have something to do with me.I don't know how to coax people, so I let her hold her. I reached out and stroked her back over and over again, hoping that this would bring her some comfort.

At night, she hugged me tightly and fell asleep. I, who didn't like to be in contact with people, felt very at ease in her arms.

However, a spy shouldn't trust others so easily, because once he believes, it means surrendering his own life.

The defection became a big deal, and Commander Matsui sent someone to bring Long Chuan Hihara, Gu Xiaomeng and me back to the headquarters in the early morning of the second day.On the way back, I pretended to have an asthma attack in order to make Mitsui Shouichi think that Longchuan Hihara was just trying to kill the five of us, but I never wanted to see Gu Xiaomeng's anxious expression.

Does she really care about me?Or do you just want to use me to play the emotional card?I played the emotional card against Wu Zhiguo before, so she played against me, because I fell in love with her just like Wu Zhiguo liked me.It's just that if it's the latter, I really can't think of any faction that has such great ability to buy the daughter of the ship tycoon and work for it.

Mitsui Shouyi asked about my condition as I expected, and Gu Xiaomeng and I cooperated very well. After receiving the reply, Mitsui Shouyi was convinced that Longchuan Feiyuan didn't want to catch the real murderer who assassinated Mr. Morita, nor did he want to catch the real old ghost. It was to kill the five of us.

It’s not that I don’t want to ask her the truth after being quarantined in the senior officer’s dormitory at the headquarters, but as a spy, everyone has secrets, so it’s okay to guess and protect each other with her like this, why bother to destroy this delicate balance, or maybe I dare not .

I am afraid that she will not reply, and even more afraid that she will lie to me.

But who would have thought that she would take the initiative to tell the truth, and the truth was so far-fetched, but I believed it right away.Arthur Conan Doyle once said: "When you eliminate the impossible, whatever remains, however unbelievable, must be the truth."

It turns out that I really died in the last life, no wonder she was so afraid of me disappearing.

It's hard to be suspected by someone you like, but I let her bear it.

She laid out the plan step by step just to save me, but she was afraid that I would not like to carefully explain to me that she was just using Wang Tianxiang.

She shouldn't need to explain to me, it was never her fault, but this era!How can I bear to blame her because she wants to save me?

I knew that I was completely in, sinking into her blatant preference, unable to extricate myself, hopeless.

She confessed to me at night, the moonlight was beautiful, and we fell in love together.Please allow me this crazy behavior, because it will not be possible in the future.

As I expected, I was free after only one day of quarantine at the headquarters.After I went out, I deliberately alienated Gu Xiaomeng. A person like her, who is so radiant, should live in the sunshine of everyone's attention, instead of being bruised and bruised with me in this dark night full of thorns; just because I like her, my reputation has long been ruined. Her reputation must not be polluted.

When I learned that Wu Zhiguo was hidden in Gu Xiaomeng's house, I suddenly panicked. At this moment, the Gu family must be closely watched by Longchuan Feiyuan. What if Gu Xiaomeng sends Wu Zhiguo away and Longchuan Feiyuan finds out?

Gu Xiaomeng seemed to have misunderstood the questions that came out of his mouth and his deliberate alienation before. I wanted to explain, but isn't this the effect I wanted?She shouldn't have come down from the sky and entered this muddy beach, and she can return to her original life by staying away from me. She should be high above, enjoying the stars and the moon.

But it really seemed that the title that I couldn't correct no matter how I used to say it came out of her mouth again, and suddenly refreshed my understanding of her: it was the first time she took the initiative to call me "Section Chief Li"; The first time I voluntarily left my office; the first time I voluntarily refused my invitation; the first time I refused to answer my questions.

I panicked, and it was the first time I wanted to save someone regardless of the work at hand.

She said that she went out with Wang Wenxing, and it was rumored that they had a very good personal relationship.

I was no longer interested in working, and I was waiting by the window for Gu Xiaomeng to come back, my mind was full of: She has an appointment with Wang Wenxing.After finally seeing Gu Xiaomeng's car, she brought Wang Wenxing back to the headquarters.I never liked to join in the fun, and I took the initiative to go downstairs to meet Wang Wenxing. The rumors may not be true, and Wu Zhiguo and I were just rumors.

I didn't believe it until I saw it. Some rumors are indeed true.Gu Xiaomeng is lively, tolerant and coquettish towards Wang Wenxing, and still open-mouthed towards Longchuan Feiyuan, who offends others again, but respectful and alienated towards me.

She has returned to her original life, but what am I missing?

Everything is self-inflicted.

Ps: Finally, Li Ningyu's perspective has caught up with Gu Xiaomeng's progress. I don't know if you still remember the original plot when you read these words. Anyway, I opened two words to compare and write.Writing from the first perspective is too restrictive, so Sister Yu chose a few points and wrote it down

By the way, let me highlight the point. In the last chapter, Sister Yu’s concern for Wu Zhiguo was not about Wu Zhiguo. Sister Yu only cared about Xiaomeng. This article explains what Sister Yu thinks.