allow you this life

"Do you know what love looks like?"

Many, many years later, Zhou Fangran sat in the small yard basking in the sun with his arms in his arms, "Xiaochengzi", the offspring of "Xiao Linsheng". The head of "Xiaochengzi" is just like Lin Ancheng treated him back then.

Lu Ze came all the way to see him, Zhou Fangran only smiled at him, and then asked him this question.

Lu Ze pulled the little Maza over and sat down, picked up a huge sunflower disk and helped him peel off the sunflower seeds one by one. At the end, he patted the dust on his hands, raised his head and said slowly:

"You don't have me in your love."

Zhou Fangran was stunned for a moment. It's not that he didn't notice the silver strands on Lu Ze's hair. After so many years, this kid should be old too, but he chose not to look at it, as if it was a bit cruel to him and himself.

"When are you waiting for me?"

After Zhou Fangran finished speaking, he still stared into the distance, but his gaze was like a torch.

Now Lu Ze became silent. In the past few years, the two of them repeated this question tirelessly, but Lu Ze only had one answer, which remained unchanged from beginning to end.

"Only when you die, I'll go to heaven to find you, and it's okay to go to hell. I'll just watch you from afar, don't push me away."

Zhou Fangran smiled bitterly. He also said the same thing, but the target was not Lu Ze.

……

Lu Ze always felt that it was immoral to leave his friends behind, but he was a little terrified by the current situation. He didn't understand what Zhou Fangran's purpose was for bringing him here.Maybe he had guessed something in his heart and just avoided it deliberately.

Going upstairs, Zhou Fangran took out the key and opened the door. Perhaps because no one had been there for a long time, the room smelled musty. Zhou Fangran opened the front window and the back window of the kitchen to ventilate.

"He Yan is gone, I don't dare to open the window, I'm afraid I won't smell him again." Zhou Fangran's voice was a little trembling, but he quickly calmed down.

Lu Ze didn't speak, or he couldn't form any language at this time.He thought, at this moment, he can only be with him, and he will follow wherever he goes.

"You are the first outsider to come to He Yan's house." Zhou Fangran opened the door of the back room and invited him in.

The word "outsider" sounded a bit harsh to Lu Ze, and he felt uncomfortable, but he couldn't put it into words. He was not very happy and panicked.But it was hard for him to say anything and follow Zhou Fangran in.

The curtains in He Yan's room were closed, so it was very dark, and a cold feeling rushed up his back. Lu Ze couldn't help shivering. Zhou Fangran noticed: "What's wrong, are you cold?"

Lu Ze just hugged his arms tightly but shook his head: "It's okay."

Zhou Fangran didn't say anything else, nodded, then knelt on the ground and pulled out a box from under the bed, Zhou Fangran choked and coughed when the dust flew up.

"You haven't been here for a long time." Lu Ze asked aside.

Zhou Fangran didn't deny it, it was a tacit agreement.

"Are you afraid?"

Zhou Fangran didn't answer. He just opened the box and took out something. The room was very dark and Lu Ze couldn't see clearly. Zhou Fangran sat on He Yan's bed and asked Lu Ze to sit down.

Only then did he see clearly that it was a notebook.

"At this time, He Yan's diary, he, has the habit of keeping a diary since he was a child. I don't have it. Why do you write that thing? It's so tiring. He even encouraged me to come, but I rejected it... "When it comes to He Yan, Zhou Fangran seems to have opened up the chatterbox, telling the story of the two of them endlessly, while Lu Ze just listened quietly, at most saying "en" and "ah?"

"If there is still a chance, I will definitely listen to him."

"So have you listened to him now? Have you started memorizing?"

"No, I don't need to take notes about the profound past." Zhou Fangran paused, then pointed to his head and chest: "It's all here."

"Do you still love him?" Lu Ze didn't want to ask this at first, and thought it was meaningless, but how many questions in life are interesting?

Zhou Fangran looked at Lu Ze, his eyes were shining, as if he wanted to know the answer urgently.Lu Ze anxiously waited for Zhou Fangran to say what he thought.

Zhou Fangran flipped through the diary, touching every black word on the paper, that was once He Yan's most sincere feelings: "After all, he is my first love, the first person I like, the first person I love, love is life-and-death People who can't help themselves, but I've been relieved a long time ago, I have to be strong, and live well with his share..."

After Zhou Fangran finished speaking, he continued to look at Lu Ze.

Lu Ze turned his head, stared at the toe of the shoe and said quietly: "You didn't answer me directly."

Zhou Fangran smiled: "Do you care so much?"

"Of course," Lu Ze looked up, "You know who I care about...not He Yan."

Zhou Fangran suddenly took out his mobile phone, panicked: "Yo, I didn't even notice, Gu Qiu sent me several WeChat messages, they must be waiting for us after shopping."

As he spoke, he got up and stuffed the diary back into the box, then pushed it under the bed, pulled Lu Ze and left.

Lu Ze laughed dumbfounded in his heart: "What a scumbag acting."

After getting into the taxi, the two of them suddenly returned to the state of strangers without saying a word.The first one who couldn't stand it was of course Lu Ze. He first made a move and silently held Zhou Fangran's hand.Zhou Fangran just moved his fingers a few times and let him go.

When the two arrived in a hurry, the situation on the scene made people laugh.

Xia Xiaoyi held Gu Qiu's arm, and the two of them pointed and walked enthusiastically at the front, followed by Ming Ming and Ye Xiao, who were carrying big bags and small bags full of sweat and black lines. Although Gu Qiu was not tall, Tall but also much taller than Xia Xiaoyi, so it feels like they are a couple.

Zhou Fangran held back a smile and dragged Lu Ze to catch up, but Xia Xiaoyi immediately took care of him and said, "What's the matter with you two, especially you, Zhou Fangran, as a host, doesn't know how to treat guests, so let us wander around by ourselves .”

Zhou Fangran pretended to be innocent: "I went to the two-person world with Lu Ze for a while... before I came to see you." He obviously felt the strength in the palm of his hand, and he turned around. Lu Ze was pursing his lips and his face was slightly red. He was obviously small heartbeat.

"Besides, what kind of people are you wandering around? Look at Ming Ming and Ye Xiao, carrying their hands on their shoulders. Tsk tsk, such a good boyfriend is hard to find these days." Zhou Fangran laughed but was rewarded by Ming Ming and Ye Xiao respectively He rolled his eyes.

"Then do you want to give it to you?"

Gu Qiu and Xia Xiaoyi turned their heads to ask Zhou Fangran almost at the same time, and then they felt the tacit understanding with each other and smiled at each other, giving each other a 'five'.

Zhou Fangran hadn't answered yet, Ming Ming and Ye Xiaoxian showed a very disgusted look and almost said in unison: "Farewell. Let me live." Then the two also looked at each other and smiled wryly, feeling quite sympathetic to each other.

Zhou Fangran's face was calm and unmoved, he smiled at Ming Ming and Ye Xiao who didn't know what to do, and then suddenly said loudly: "Gu Qiu Xiaoyi, let me take you to another floor, the clothes there are more expensive than this floor. fine."

Automatically shielding Mingming and Ye Xiao's murderous eyes, Zhou Fangran felt a little "yeah" in his heart, but still unmoved, he took Lu Ze's hand and walked directly past Mingming and Ye Xiao to walk with Gu Qiuxia Xiaoyi.

On the other floor, a sales lady from a clothing store directly blocked everyone's way, "Handsome guys and beauties come to my house to have a look, they are all works of famous fashion designers."

Gu Qiu and Xia Xiaoyi were attracted in by coincidence, followed by Zhou Fangran and Lu Ze, Mingming and Ye Xiao had long since had nothing to love, Mingming poked Ye Xiao with his elbow as soon as he rolled his eyes: "I said that if we were brothers, we would Guess Ding Ke with me."

"What?" Ye Xiao wiped the sweat off her head with the back of her hand.

"If you want to win, I'll help you get things. I want... Hey! Don't leave! You are still a brother!" Ming Ming was so angry that he jumped on the spot, and Ye Xiao just said two words coldly: "Don't talk about it!"

Mingming had no choice but to puff up his cheeks and follow Ye Xiao into the store. At that time, the sales lady was promoting her own brand clothing with a lot of hype, and praised Xia Xiaoyi and Gu Qiu from time to time.

The strength of this "Gold Medal Salesperson" is not built on, after a few words of ecstasy soup, Gu Qiu and Xia Xiaoyi will start shopping again.

"Beauty, you are so lucky to have such a handsome boyfriend." The sales lady looked at Gu Qiu and praised sincerely.Xia Xiaoyi laughed but didn't explain, Gu Qiu was also very helpful, holding Xia Xiaoyi's arm made the two of them closer, and the poor Ming Ming and Ye Xiao who followed in the end, the sales lady didn't even notice .

It wasn't until the two of them coughed dryly at the same time that the sales lady passed Xia Xiaoyi and Gu Qiu to look behind them, and was stunned for a moment: "Wow, I'm so shocked!"

"This is our bodyguard and valet. How handsome is he?"

Xia Xiaoyi proudly pointed behind her with her hips on her hips, Gu Qiu tried to hold back a smile and nodded.

The sales lady continued to sigh: "Beauty, you went to save the universe in your previous life." After finishing speaking, she noticed Lu Ze and Zhou Fangran. Before she could speak, Lu Ze said her identity first: "I am the driver, ha ha."

Zhou Fangran looked at Lu Ze, who shook his head: "No way, this is the only way to make sense."

The sales lady's eyes were almost devouring, but when she saw Zhou Fangran, she was a little puzzled: "Who is this?"

"I'm her father!" Zhou Fangran pointed at Xia Xiaoyi, then at Gu Qiu: "This is my son-in-law."

When Xia Xiaoyi heard that she was about to have a seizure, the sales lady stared at Zhou Fangran's face and compared it to Xia Xiaoyi, and couldn't help but blurted out, "Oh, the gene has mutated?"

Obviously noticing that Zhou Fangran's face was as dark as an eggplant, the sales lady was so embarrassed that she hurriedly changed the subject and continued to talk about Gu Qiu and Xia Xiaoyi's own products, which had already been laughing.

While everyone was making noise, Zhou Fangran looked at the backs of Gu Qiu and Xia Xiaoyi thoughtfully.

No matter how close they are, they look like lovers to outsiders, but in essence they are worlds apart.

"Lu Ze..."

Lu Ze looked at them with a smile and looked at them as if it was a good show. He heard Zhou Fangran tell him to turn his head: "What?"

"I see."

"what do you know?"

"The person I really like... who is it."

The smile on Lu Ze's face gradually disappeared, and soon the sun was shining again. He is very smart, but smart people can see clearly, but they are often pitiful. He cleared his throat:

"Then let me ask you, if there is an afterlife, will you like me?"

"I will, but that's the afterlife."

Zhou Fangran smiled.

Lu Ze also laughed, he broke free from Zhou Fangran's hand, turned and walked out.Zhou Fangran hurriedly chased after him, but Lu Ze had his back to him, unable to see his expression clearly.

"I'll walk by myself, don't worry about me." He turned around, his eyes shining like stars: "I have to be strong, too."