[Zhongyingmei] I don't want to save you today

Unknowingly, she walked to the door of the restaurant, and Emilia stood there, hesitating whether to go in.The evening wind mixed with snowflakes fell, brushed her face lightly, and then stopped on her shoulders.The long brown hair was stained with moisture, a little heavy, and hung wetly behind her back—but these might just be her sad delusion.

There was a loud noise behind her, and Emilia came back to her senses, and saw a group of people walking towards here with big bags in their hands, and could faintly hear a young teacher complaining with a smile: "Are these people pigs?" You won’t be able to get enough if you eat so fast.” Then there was a burst of laughter.

The fun is theirs, I have nothing.

She stood in the corner of the shadow, patiently letting the darkness swallow herself up. The crowd passed Emilia one by one, and when the noise was about to disappear, she was taken aback for a moment.

Li Qianhuan seemed to have a premonition of something, turned his head slowly, and then froze in embarrassment and helplessness—Emilia has become indifferent since Emilia was sick that day and she went back at night and found the house was a mess.I thought it was just an occasional out of control due to illness, but Emilia's deliberate estrangement afterwards is hard to explain.

Li Qianhuan tried to have a good talk with her, but Emilia coldly rejected all contact and intimacy, and even the weekly meeting with Charles seemed to lack interest.As if everything had returned to the original point, Emilia, who was shrunk in the protective shell, looked coldly at the joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys in the academy, so much so that she was now hesitant to say hello happily.

If you say greetings, it will be hard if Emilia is as indifferent as before; if you don't say hello, today is Christmas.

Everyone deserves a greeting at Christmas.

Just as the awkward atmosphere spread, Iris's little head appeared from the doorway, and asked doubtfully, "What are you doing standing there? Why don't you come in?"

The laughter frozen there was taken out of the refrigerator to thaw out. Everyone breathed a sigh of relief and filed in through the door as if they were relieved. Only Li Qianhuan, who was hesitating there, and Iris, who was holding the door with a calm and calm expression, were left.

Iris looked at Li Qianhuan and said, "Qianhuan go in first, I have something to talk to Emilia."

Li Qianhuan nodded obediently, and trotted into the house carrying the fruit.

There is only one Emilia left in the ice and snow.

Iris sighed, feeling that Charles was too unkind, whether it was to Emilia or to her-it was really annoying to leave this kind of trouble for Christmas.

She walked down the stairs slowly, and asked impolitely, "Do you want to talk?" "Is there anything you want to say?" A necessary opening phrase for a heart-to-heart conversation, she frowned and looked at the cold-faced Emilia , Said: "Go to the side and talk, don't block the way."

Emilia glanced at Iris, who was delicately made up, her golden nails gleaming on the white snow.Slowly following behind Iris, the kaleidoscope twisted slowly.

……

Let the hour hand turn to half an hour ago.The small garden in the dark is quiet and comfortable, watching the crowds coming and going from the door softly, it is almost waiting for the bold girl or the warrior who comes with a sword to break in.

...this time...how do you feel?A calm but cautious male voice broke the silence, and Xiao Huayuan was refreshed, stretching his limbs and preparing to embrace the gossip with blue-gray vegetation.

——Emilia discerned for a while, just felt strange, how could Magneto speak so carefully?

what about.The familiar gentle male voice has changed from the usual clear and bright, with pretended indifference and sarcasm.Emilia, who was passing by unintentionally, stood in front of the shadow, this was a voice she was all too familiar with.

——had dispelled her low self-esteem and fear when she first came to the academy, and also illuminated all those windless and moonless dark nights that did not belong to her.And until the last second, she still firmly believed that he would be the only reason for her to stay here.After a silence, she hesitated to take two steps forward, and gently pushed aside the dense branches in front of her eyes. Through the gap, illuminated by the gentle Christmas moonlight, was a tall figure and another man in a wheelchair.

What a gentle moonlight, it made her whole body tremble almost, her palm was pinched with pale marks, she spent a lot of effort to appease her ready-to-move ability.

What did you say—the thick male voice suppressed his anger, and asked again in that mocking tone, what did you say?

Charles stared at him silently, and Eric's voice followed closely, and the magma was almost gushing out in the sound of collapse, which was hot.

"Why do you keep ignoring me? Why don't you look at me? I'm not talking about looking at me with your beautiful eyes, I'm talking about when will you look me in the face - what I'm not doing well enough you can Tell me, you can tell me what you need me to do, you can tell me what you like and dislike, but you don’t even look at me, how can you let me chase you? If you want to refuse me, just go straight -Continue to say, why hide and hesitate? I don't know when you are so—"

Eric paused, as if he didn't know what words to use, or didn't want to say something too hurtful.

After a while, he added with some annoyance: "I don't mean to ask you to reject me now. But your attitude is really..."

(hurtful)

He didn't have a chance to speak, and Charles, who had been quiet all this time, finally couldn't help but refute and interrupted him: "Then what do you want from me? Promise you? Be with you as much as possible? And then——and be happy Watching you leave after being together for three months?!"

His voice was dry and painful, and Eric looked at him silently, remembering that Charles seemed to have never shown such a painful and vulnerable look in front of him.

"I know...", Charles continued with difficulty: "I know you won't stay here for me. I know you won't stay here for anyone.

You were born to belong to the vast universe outside, and you can hold more than an ocean in your heart.No one can tie your wings.I don't want to be a passer-by on your long journey, and I hate being buried under the boring tombstone and staring at your back in despair--I don't want to be forgotten by you, and I don't want to be dim in the memory, I want to be the end, I Wanting to be the... one and only of all of them. "

Eric shook his head in disappointment: "I thought there would be no lack of communication between us."

Charles refrained from choking, or he had no strength to speak anymore.

Eric's voice was cold: "Then you sentenced me to death like this, I never knew you would be so unfair. I can even understand your distrust, but - no chance for me to explain, no Asked me, how do you know I won't stay here?"

——This is so disappointing to me—these are the words Eric swallowed in his throat.

Emilia was already numb, she quietly watched the shadow in front of the shadow, feeling the silence behind the silence.She even had the thought to suddenly realize that this was the hidden contradiction.

She wanted to know the ending and Charles' answer, but she was a little tired, so she turned around quietly, and when she regained consciousness again, she was already standing at the door of the auditorium without knowing it.

Iris, who turned her head, was about to speak, but when she saw Emilia's expression of being immersed in her own world and unable to extricate herself, she closed her mouth helplessly.

She doesn't know what Emilia saw, but it's not a good thing anyway-just look at her distraught look, she Emilia now looks like a junior high school girl who broke up with her first love.

Iris recalled, did Emilia get close to any boy?

But after looking through the memories, I can only think of Li Qianhuan - after all, even if her personality is a little better, even if she has that pretty face, there are very few boys who invite her to go out to watch movies on weekends with those indifferent eyes ——It can't be that old man Charles... right?

I checked the timetable secretly, and found that the time when Eric returned and the time when Emilia became more and more lonely coincided strangely. Iris held her forehead almost in despair, which was a bit difficult.

Emilia finally struggled to get out of the memory. She saw Iris in front of her in a daze, blinked her dry glasses, and seemed to want to cry, but she didn't shed tears after all with deep red eyes.

To Iris' surprise, she actually spoke first: "I might have to leave."

Iris frowned and didn't speak, as if urging Emilia to continue.

She forced a smile: "I'm a very greedy person. If I can't get it, I don't want it. If I want it, I want it all. I don't feel insecure but it doesn't mean I don't want it. It seems mean to say that, but— — Xavier College wasn't for me."

Emilia sighed in distress, and seemed to be really puzzled: "I used to think that this kind of pure warmth could heal me, but it's not enough for me."

Iris pursed her lips and said nothing, but her two eyebrows were wrinkled and almost entangled.

The more Emilia spoke, the more relieved she became, and now she can even feel the strange ease, as if the burden of the past few months has been slowly lifted: "I thought you understood me, but now you have Kuaiyin, and I have nothing. I will ruin everything sooner or later by staying here. Too possessive, always thinking too much, and a talent for cheating - I have all the things that are not conducive to development, and now I can rely on me The love for a few people is suppressed, that is because I still have most of their attention, then what? There will always be times of separation, and I cannot accept such a result."

Although it would be shameful for her to boast about her "talent like cheating", Emilia looked very comfortable, as if saying such a thing was just an ordinary thing.

Iris added silently from the bottom of her heart: There is also the zero shame under the pile of negative emotions.

But she could see that Emilia had controlled herself very well, wrapping herself in layers of that cowardly and socially afraid shell.

Seeming to see Iris's hesitation, Emilia comforted: "Although this may become a farewell, I can't guarantee that I will miss you, but I will try my best not to cause trouble."

Iris: ...

Not comforted at all.

But these are not the point, Iris reminded in a low voice: "The relationship you just mentioned—"

is impossible to find.

She bit her lip and didn't say too much: "It's hard to have in real life."

"That's why I'm getting ready to leave."

Emilia's expression was close to indifference, but she emphasized: "If not, I would rather be alone. Leaving is the best option. I don't want to stay here and watch many people make love, and then let myself indulge in nothingness In the warmth of the place, I can always find it when I go out to look for it.”

Emilia raised her hand, and a rose rose out of thin air from the ground next to it, and came to Iris staggeringly - this is Emilia's ability: gravity.

The rose landed on Iris' hand, and the hard thorns hurt Iris' palm, drawing small bloodstains one after another, but she did not let go.

It seemed that someone was calling her name in the distance, and Emilia waved to her, indicating that she could leave first.Iris didn't hesitate, she took one last look at Emilia, took the rose and left.

In the end, Emilia was the only one left in the small garden. Her eyebrows were downcast, and the dim moonlight shone on her eyelashes, making her look extraordinarily sad.

Be... the only one?

The author has something to say: Let me explain. After waking up from the vortex of being infatuated with Charles, Emilia finally found out in this chapter that she was selfish and unwilling to share her paranoid nature, and she was unwilling to stay in the college to prepare gone.

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Awaited

Recently, Kavinka is very good, I don't know what to write at all, I feel that not only the characters are OOC, but also the plot has gone far away.I may end up reworking this episode.

I read the comments and the little master was waiting, and I was super touched, but if I say no, I won’t cheat, and I will write the promised episode.

[It is also agreed that the next article will be Xiaochong. I have already thought of my name. When the copy is released, you can pre-order it (you are dreaming)]

Kiss to you☆