The Lingering Sounds of Blooming Flowers

Lin Chaosheng waited until three o'clock in the afternoon, and let the food in the lunch box cool down, but Lu Chenfeng still didn't return.He turned on the phone screen countless times, but there was no message.

As dusk approached, the door of the ward rang, Lin Chaosheng finished writing a line of reading notes, and Lu Chenfeng walked into the room with a few slips, his face pretending to be calm and calm.He unbuttoned the cuff buttons and folded up the sleeves, stroked Lin Chaosheng's nose lightly with his index finger, and explained: "Professor Gai happened to be there too. I chatted with him for a while, so I came back late."

Even though Huang Chenfeng went in and poured half a box of mints into his mouth, Lin Chaosheng could still smell the faint smell of tobacco attached to his clothes.While the other party was washing their hands, Lin Chaosheng glanced at the list that Lu Chenfeng had hidden in the drawer of the bed cabinet. In addition to his own case analysis, there was also a consent form for surgery that he was not unfamiliar with.

Water drops hung on Lu Chenfeng's forehead, he rubbed his face into Lin Chaosheng's towel, and his voice was muffled: "Don't waste the lunch at noon, I'll eat it when it's hot, and I'll make you dinner."

Lin Chaosheng obeyed his arrangement, watched him go out and come back, and kept observing Lu Chenfeng's expression.The meal didn't taste much. After cleaning the small table and washing the lunch box, Lin Chaosheng demanded: "Fang Yi brought my favorite Fuji apples in the fruit basket, please help me peel them."

Lu Chenfeng put the fruit knife and apples through the water, moved the seat closer to the hospital bed, and put the trash can between his feet.Peel the skin, cut it into pieces, and feed it to Lin Chaosheng's mouth. Lin Chaosheng took a sip of the sweetness and asked casually, "Did Director Song ask you for a preoperative talk?"

Lu Chenfeng mechanically moved his cheeks, and moaned slowly: "...um."

Lin Chaosheng didn't like going around in circles, so he asked bluntly, "What do you think, boyfriend?"

Hearing these three words, Lu Chenfeng finally raised the corners of his lips reluctantly, then relaxed his body and leaned against the back of the chair.Under Lin Chaosheng's blazing gaze, he hesitated to speak several times, and finally said hesitantly: "You knew the risks of thymoma surgery two years ago, and I won't repeat it."

Lin Chaosheng slowed down his chewing speed, Lu Chenfeng tangledly slid his Adam's apple, and curled up his fingers on his knees unconsciously: "I consulted with Professor Gai in detail, your tumor is benign, and the probability of malignant transformation is very low, it just exists. The potential for compression of the heart."

Lu Chenfeng frowned, and raised his breath with a complicated expression: "I'm thinking, as long as we pay more attention, maybe it's not so easy to endanger our lives, or this operation..."

Lin Chaosheng interrupted him at the right time: "Didn't we reach a consensus a long time ago?"

"Chaosheng, I've been thinking about one thing over and over all afternoon." Lu Chenfeng lowered his eyes and said hoarsely, "I don't seem to be selfish in changing your original life, I shouldn't follow your decision, let alone I should take you back to Beijing."

"You have a good life in Dali, I should have made a change between us." Lu Chenfeng paused, and said, "I didn't know anything about your illness and the risks of treatment before, and I couldn't understand what happened two years ago. Your mood of refusing surgery."

The sky was gloomy, Lu Chenfeng stopped talking, his breathing was heavy and dull.The room was silent for a while, Lin Chaosheng got out of bed and turned off the lights. Accompanied by the faint starlight coming through the window, he lifted the corner of the quilt and patted the pillow: "Come up, get into the quilt and sleep."

The folding bed stood by the wall, and Lu Chenfeng lay sideways on Lin Chaosheng's bed. It was cramped and crowded, but it was a gentle place that he could never leave.

Finding the most comfortable position for each other to snuggle together, Lin Chaosheng fell into memories in the dark, and truthfully told Lu Chenfeng his thoughts: "The previous state seemed to be comfortable, but in reality it was just a day-to-day counting. If misfortune really happened, there is nothing worthwhile in this world. I miss it."

"But it's different now. I have too many things I want to accomplish." Lin Chaosheng touched Lu Chenfeng's fingers and counted them one by one. Make every meal and feed the sunflowers in the little pots."

Hearing this, Lu Chenfeng laughed lightly.

"There is one more important thing." Lin Chaosheng squeezed slightly into Lu Chenfeng's arms, wrapped his arms around his shoulders, and leaned close to his ear, "Live healthy and old together with you."

"Believe in Director Song, believe in Professor Gai, believe in your choice, and believe that we can survive this test." Lin Chaosheng overcame his drowsiness and whispered, "Seriously correct your mistake, it was not you who brought me back to Beijing, but me. Volunteering to come back with you."

"It's too late for me to say this." Lin Chaosheng closed his eyes and smiled, "Although it seems that you convinced me, I don't think I had the courage to watch you leave."

"Go to sleep, I have to start the examination tomorrow morning." Lin Chaosheng touched Lu Chenfeng's ears soothingly, "Good night, Chenfeng, see you in my dream."

Lin Chaosheng's gradually calming breath was next to his ear, and Lu Chenfeng's heavy mind was slowly soothed by his light breath. He struggled and felt uncomfortable for too long, but he could always seek peace by Lin Chaosheng's side, so he tilted his head and touched the tip of his nose : "Good night, see you in my dream."

Checking step by step, waiting patiently for the results, three days passed in a blink of an eye.When Song Yike came to announce the good news that Lin Chaosheng's blood, heart and lung, liver and kidney functions, and electrocardiogram were all normal, and Professor Gai set the date of surgery on August [-]th, Lu Chenfeng sat on the side of the bed with a solemn expression, flipping through the pages without revealing his heart. Read Lin Chaosheng's blood test report.

Everything was ready, the doctors and nurses withdrew from the ward, Lin Chaosheng closed the door, locked it, walked up to Huang Chenfeng, took out the test sheet in his hand, raised his hands to hold his face, and hugged him face to face.

With his chin resting on Lu Chenfeng's shoulder, Lin Chaosheng looked at the orange-red sky outside the window, and rubbed his hair: "It just rained outside, and there are burning clouds, do you want to take a look?"

With his back to the window, Huang Chen replied in a warm voice: "Where can you look good."

Lin Chaosheng asked with a smile: "I was not allowed to eat anything before the operation, do you feel that I have lost weight?"

His body was already thin, and he would have to be stabbed in two days, Lu Chenfeng complained dissatisfiedly: "There are only bones left."

Lin Chaosheng looked forward to it: "When I recover, I want to eat your braised noodles with my pineapple rice. Isn't it amazing?"

Lu Chenfeng, who accompanied him to eat sick meals for a few days, was spoiled by Lin Chaosheng: "It's amazing."

The floor tiles shone with orange-red warm light, and there was only the "hum" sound of the air conditioner in the room, and the chest that fit together became hot together. Lin Chaosheng said longingly: "The future is so beautiful."

In the early morning of August [-], Professor Gai and Song Yike went to Lin Chaosheng's ward successively. There were many people in the room, but the atmosphere was relaxed.Half an hour later, Lin Chaosheng lay flat on the hospital bed according to the head nurse's request. Before leaving the ward, Lu Chenfeng pressed his lips forbearance, leaned over and said to him: "Chaosheng, get through today."

Lin Chaosheng gave him a confident smile: "Okay."

The elevator door opened, and in the small space, Lu Chenfeng was squeezed into a corner, separated from Lin Chaosheng by two nurses.Arriving at the third floor of the inpatient department, stepping out of the elevator, passing through the long corridor, the hospital bed was parked in front of the central operating room, the head nurse was talking with Song Yike, taking advantage of this gap, Lin Chaosheng suddenly grabbed Lu Chenfeng's shirt cuff, turned over Passing his hand, pointing the index finger in his palm, writing three words stroke by stroke.

He confessed to him amidst the endless noise around him, dropping his fingertips heavily, urgent and pious.

All the sounds disappeared from his ears in an instant, and Lu Chenfeng was stunned suddenly, spreading his hands in confusion.

The hospital bed moved forward again, and Huang Chen was fumbling with his feet, desperately squeezing the hot and humid eye sockets.The medical door opened, Song Yike raised his arm to stop him, Lin Chaosheng's last words to Lu Chenfeng were: "You wait for me."

In the shaky field of vision, Song Yike seemed to give some advice, but Lu Chenfeng didn't hear clearly, staring at the other party put on the mask dazedly, and walked away with Lin Chaosheng's hospital bed.

Surrounded by patients coming and going, Lu Chenfeng held his breath and remained silent, and the palm with the words "I love you" became hotter and hotter.

The automatic door closed slowly, and Lu Chenfeng still stood still until the operation indicator light suddenly lit up.He took a few steps back and sat on the plastic chair, with his elbows on his knees, his back tensed, and the reminders from Professor Gai and Song Yike were played repeatedly in his ears-the risks that may be encountered during the operation may cause such as "severe muscle disease" after the operation. Weakness" and other complications—at this moment, the intense panic was magnified into fear, tormenting Lu Chenfeng desperately.

No matter how brave you are, you can't bear the many "what ifs" in the doctor's mouth, and all kinds of accidents on the operation consent form.Lu Chenfeng closed his eyes as he recalled every scene on the day Lu's father passed away. He couldn't experience another loss. In his world, only Lin Chao was born.

In the eyes of others, Lu Chenfeng is calm and composed, but only Lu Chenfeng knows how much he is afraid of accidents.He stared at the double image of the indicator light, his shirt was soaked in cold sweat, and Lu Chenfeng experienced the torment in the passing seconds, with a bitter taste on the tip of his tongue and deep marks between his brows.

What if... what should he do.

The slightly parted lips trembled slightly, Lu Chenfeng put his fingers on his forehead, and knocked hard twice.Just when he thought he would continue to be in this state of extreme anxiety, the next second, Lu Chenfeng suddenly relaxed all his strength, pressed his back against the seat, began to adjust his irregular breathing, and stared at the operating room in front of him with relief. ——

The many distracting thoughts just now disappeared in an instant, and at the same time, he no longer felt panic and fear in his heart, because no matter what the result was, he would be with him.

There is no need to be afraid, Lu Chenfeng thought, even though the time we spent together is too short, looking at his life experiences and choices, and the fulfillment of love that Lin Chaosheng gave him during this period, no matter whether they still have past or not. Road, he will not regret and regret.

Lu Chenfeng looked up at the red indicator light, with a frank and decisive expression on his face.Through the thick door, he said to Lin Chaosheng in his heart: If we are unlucky, you will wait for me.