midsummer night

In the following week, He Xiyuan only went to the senior class once, and called Xu Jiu, another Beta classmate of the same grade.They stood beside Lu Chengfeng together, and what he said was only half of what he usually said. Xu Jiu also respected Lu Chengfeng very much, so everything was fine.

Later, he began to reduce the number of times he went to the senior grades, once every two weeks, or asked his classmates to help Lu Chengfeng with the documents.Occasionally, he would stand at the end of the corridor and look at a certain classroom of the upper grades, although he had never seen Lu Chengfeng pass by the classroom door.

He returned home and began to read Lu Chengfeng's blog more and more seriously.He likes the background of the dark lake and autumn leaves on the cover of Lu Chengfeng's blog, the music that plays automatically when he enters the page, and the poetry mentioned.

On the screen and in reality, he liked every word Lu Chengfeng said.He Xiyuan entered Lu Chengfeng's blog and read it repeatedly. It seemed that if he read too much, he could get closer to Lu Chengfeng, so close that he could smell the pheromones of pine trees and ice springs.

The sun was still bright when school ended in the summer, and the senior year ended late, so he sometimes deliberately stayed until the end.Seeing the students coming out of the opposite teaching building, he picked up his schoolbag and went to the stairs to go down the stairs.

He often found Lu Chengfeng's figure in the twilight, and sometimes he hoped to run into Lu Chengfeng at the school gate, although most of the time he couldn't find him, even if he found him, Lu Chengfeng didn't see him.

After Yan Xun's joke, He Xiyuan consciously stayed away from Lu Chengfeng.He only communicates silently with Alpha through a computer screen after school and across a corridor or the road at home.

Later, he found out that Lu Chengfeng was picked up by a black Mercedes every day to and from school.The car parked under the office building near the school in the morning, and parked near the school gate in the evening. The dark body melted into the twilight, reflecting the evening mist and the lights under the trees.

He Xiyuan never saw clearly who came to pick up Lu Chengfeng, but he probably saw a woman in a suit and leather shoes.But it didn't seem to be his mother, because that person was a little lower than Lu Chengfeng, and he held the umbrella very securely when it rained, unlike his parents.

Looking back at his youth as an adult, He Xiyuan is not very sensitive to the gap in class.He didn't realize that he was an outsider, because by chance, he entered a school that was only open to the elite, and met people he didn't see.

He didn't know that the families of all his peers around him were far superior to his, and he didn't feel much resistance to the food that others complained about.The first half of his life consisted in fully accepting the food that others put on his plate, converting it into the energy of his body, and keeping him alive.

In the fall of his first year, he put on a uniform embroidered with the school badge, and went out to have lunch with a few Omega classmates.They went to the restaurant next to the school, took out the money in their wallets that should have been used to charge their meal cards, and ordered a cod fish meal.

The fish skin is crispy, the fish meat is fresh and tender, and the rice is better than those in the cafeteria. Each one is full and fragrant.

At dinner, his parents asked him what he had for lunch, and he said casually, "I had cod rice with my classmates at a restaurant outside the school."

His parents were furious and asked him: "Why do you have to spend money to eat outside school? Why can't you stay in school and finish your lunch break to do your homework? Why do you want to be different from others? Do you think your home is the same as other people's home?"

He Xiyuan was a little surprised and confused, but he didn't feel sorry.There is always something to eat, and there is nothing wrong with going out for a meal with classmates once in a while.

But after that, he always took a while to eat out with his classmates, and he never told his parents again.When the other party asked, he said that he ate in the cafeteria.

As a teenager, he was forced to tell selective lies because it was clear that his family would not accept the truth.

This habit has been maintained until later, so that when people around him asked him if he liked someone, He Xiyuan would always shake his head and deny it.Parents asked him what kind of Alpha he likes, and he vaguely said that he likes people who are clean, gentle and smart.

Everyone dismissed his answer, saying that you don't want to pick any more, and you will settle down when you are old, and who wants an older Omega.

Although He Xiyuan is not picky about food, he has a strong obsession with relationships. The only person he has ever liked is Lu Chengfeng.

His student days were an unrequited love for him, just like his life.

The weather turns cooler in autumn, and in the evening after school, students buy sausages at the barbecue stand in front of the school.Take a bite of the rolled sausage, and you can chew and taste the oily crispy skin and tender meat.

He Xiyuan stood outside the store and took a look, stood there for a few minutes, and then left.

Although he is also hungry, the money for buying snacks is usually saved from the meal card and stationery money. He does not have a fixed pocket money.I need to buy an exercise book recently, so I don't have extra money to buy food this week.

When school was over in the evening, the sky was already dark, and the school gate was lit with dim yellow lights.It seems that there are not many senior students walking out of the teaching building, and most of the classes have already dismissed.He didn't see Lu Chengfeng, so he walked to the station alone.

Suddenly someone patted him on the shoulder, he was startled, turned around quickly, and saw Yan Xun and a group of senior Alphas walking towards the station together.

Yan Xun smiled when he saw him: "Hey, Cheng Zi, why are you leaving school so late?"

He Xiyuan shouted: "Hi, senior." Then he turned around and continued walking.

Yan Xun clasped his shoulders with his hands, and asked, "Why haven't I seen you come to our class recently to look for Chengfeng?"

He Xiyuan replied hesitantly: "The recent project is in charge of other students."

Yan Xunxu put his shoulders on his shoulders and said: "Other students are in charge, you can still come, why, you won't come if I tell you what you want to become popular?"

The companions around put their schoolbags on their shoulders, rolled up the cuffs of their school uniforms, put their hands in their pockets, and laughed.

Yan Xun continued: "You are too easily persuaded to quit. Omega, who was one level higher than you, insisted on writing love for Cheng Feng for a semester, and Chinese and English took turns. He has not given up until now. You have to learn this This kind of spirit, either find a new way, do something out of the ordinary, or show more face. Don’t you think so?”

He Xiyuan was noncommittal, just lowered his head and continued to walk forward.

Yan Xun put his shoulders on his shoulders, and said as he walked: "The results of the direct entrance exam have come down, and all those who should go straight to high school have been promoted. I have nothing to do recently. You come to the Coastal Hall with us on weekends, and Chengfeng will come too. Call Come with your classmates in your age group."

He Xiyuan looked forward to it, raised his head and asked, "Is this weekend?"

Yan Xun replied: "How is it, are you excited? Come on, I won't tease you."

He Xiyuan hummed, agreeing.Although Lu Chengfeng may not come, he is still very happy.He was so happy that he didn't see the sarcasm flashing in Yan Xun's eyes in the twilight.

The weather on the weekend was fine. He Xiyuan cleaned his canvas shoes after returning home on Friday, and picked out the most fitting jeans and a new white sweater from the closet on Saturday afternoon.When he went out with his schoolbag on his back, he told his family to go to the library for self-study, but there was only an exercise book and a small bottle of mineral water in the bag.

He Xiyuan got off from the subway station, and it was already evening when he walked to the Shore Palace. After entering the door, he faintly smelled the smell of alcohol fermentation in the air.

Yan Xun's name was reported at the front desk, and the waiter led him through the dark aisle. There was a black sticky substance on the edge of the dark red wallpaper, and he couldn't see the patterns on the wallpaper clearly.

The door of the private room is thick and heavy. After holding the handle and pushing it open, deep purple and sea blue light flowed in the room.There seemed to be the smell of smoke and the sour smell of alcohol fermentation in the air. He didn't like the smell of tobacco and alcohol, but thinking that he might see Lu Chengfeng here, he entered the house.

Yan Xun stretched his legs and sank into the sofa, surrounded by several senior students, and sitting next to him were two Omegas he didn't know, who seemed to be of high school age.Their faces could not be seen clearly in the deep purple light, but the Omega's hair was tied back, revealing their painted faces, and their deep black eyelashes fluttered in the light when they blinked.

I have been to similar places for my classmates' birthday parties before, but I have never seen such a strange scene and crowd.

He was flustered and excited. This was the first time he had the opportunity to see Lu Chengfeng outside the school after meeting him.

Yan Xun saw He Xiyuan standing at the door wearing a sweater and carrying a schoolbag, turned his head and said to the people next to him, "Hey, Orange is here!"

The people around showed ambiguous and teasing smiles and looked at him.The air smelled of alcohol, and the beat of the music echoed in the room, disrupting the beating of his heart.He raised his hand carefully to greet Yan Xun and said, "Hello, senior."

Then he looked around the room slowly, and then looked around again.

Without Lu Chengfeng.

He walked to the edge of the table and stopped, seeing ten plastic cups arranged in a triangle at each end of the marble top.There are several clear water cups in the middle of the table, with white ping pong balls floating on them.

A strange Beta girl walked up to He Xiyuan, touched his arm with her fingers, and said with a smile, "You can put your schoolbag down."

He Xiyuan walked to one end of the sofa, put his schoolbag on the backrest, and took a glass of water that was handed to him.

"Chengzi come and sit down, don't stand so far away." Yan Xun waved to him.

Then he said to the people around him: "This kid with the schoolbag is our junior, how is it, isn't it cute?"

There were murmurs of laughter all around, and most people took a look at him and then continued to entertain themselves.

Yan Xun waited for He Xiyuan to come to his side, and said, "Before Chengfeng comes, let's play games first, just as a warm-up."

Everyone around stood up, and there seemed to be several layers of overlapping shadows in the room, blurring the ground.Someone next to him held a glass of drink and asked He Xiyuan: "Are you an Omega? Here, do you drink?"

Under the sound of music and the shadow of orange lights, He Xiyuan cautiously grabbed the hem of his clothes and said, "I don't drink much."

Yan Xun smiled: "It's okay, the degree is not high, and I will be relieved by eating a fruit and a meal later. Relax on the weekend, and carry a schoolbag. Is this just a make-up class?"

After finishing speaking, let He Xiyuan walk to the table, throw the cup with the ping pong ball floating in the middle of the table in front of him, and say, "Come on, throw a ball into the cup opposite you."

He Xiyuan picked up the ball from the water glass.The ball has been soaked in clean water, there is water flow on the surface, and there are fine flashes under the light.Everyone in the room is very casual, no one seems to pay special attention to the posture of his throwing the ball, but it seems that everyone is paying attention to the movement of his throwing the ball.

He Xiyuan picked up the ball and threw it into the cup half full of liquid on the opposite side. The ball did not fly into any cup, but bounced off the edge of the table, making a crisp collision sound, and was thrown by a senior Alpha in the air. Grab it in your hand.

The opponent was holding the ball, standing opposite He Xiyuan across the table, with his cuffs rolled up to his elbows, he picked up the ball with three fingers, and with just a movement of his wrist, the ball was thrown along with his movements, and landed with a "boo--" In a cup in front of He Xiyuan.There was applause all around.

Yan Xun smiled and said to him: "Chengzi, you have to drink that glass of wine."

He Xiyuan's expression under the lamp was a little frightened. He usually didn't drink alcohol, but occasionally drank it at the dinner party of his parents and colleagues.He drank alcohol on his face quickly, his cheeks became hot and red, and he felt severe dizziness.He also didn't like the smell of alcohol.

Everyone around was looking at him, so He Xiyuan had no choice but to pick up the plastic cup and asked, "Do you want to finish drinking?"

Yan Xun and the senior Alphas smiled and said, "Of course."

The Omega next to him looked at He Xiyuan's panicked expression, and comforted him and said, "The prescription is not high, you can drink it slowly."

So he held the cup and swallowed the liquid in the cup in small sips.The wine tasted pungent and spicy in the mouth, so that the sweetness of beer could not be tasted.

Everyone continued the game, Beta standing next to him cast the second round, and the number of wine glasses at both ends of the table was decreasing.When it was his turn again, he picked up the ball in the clear water cup and threw it in the direction of the half cup on the opposite side.The ball flew over the table and fell directly to the ground.

Yan Xun took out a new ball from the clear water cup, and looked at He Xiyuan with a half-smile.Seeing his face already flushed from the effects of alcohol.

The ball flew out of Yan Xun's hand and landed in the cup in front of He Xiyuan. Due to the speed, part of the liquid splashed out and spilled on the table.He Xiyuan looked at the people around him, and everyone looked at him too.Obviously no one was going to drink the lost wine for him, so he took the ball out of the glass, carried the glass to the edge of the table, and sipped the contents of the glass.

The liquid seemed to warm up from the tip of the tongue to the throat, and the stomach was about to burn even more.From head to extremities, he could feel his body temperature rising.

He had never drank heavily and had no idea what it was like to be drunk.

While swallowing the wine in small sips, He Xiyuan looked at the door of the room from the edge of the glass.No one came in from there, not Lu Chengfeng.

Amid the cheers and teasing around him, he finished his drink, put the empty glass on the edge of the table, and then sat down on the sofa, looking at the lights on the ground in the house.

He didn't know alcohol, but he seemed to smell fruit in the air, maybe fruit wine, or alcohol mixed with orange juice in the house.

Feeling his body temperature rising rapidly and his mind confused, he picked up the water in the wine glass on the low table and took a few sips, almost unable to stand up.

He went to the bathroom and flushed his face with cold water, but the temperature of his body could not be lowered.Looking at his flushed face in the mirror, it was ridiculous and ugly.