midsummer night

After the last working week of the year, He Xiyuan began to take annual leave.He needs to come back after vacation to keep his job or jump ship, and he admits to loathing his current job and business.

Every time I saw Yan Xun, or every day I saw Gao Qingnian and Huang Han in the office, and every time I heard their insinuating jokes, I felt more disgusted with the Alpha group in my heart.

Although Lu Chengfeng looks different, he probably wants to control Omega's life like most Alphas.

Alpha, whom he only met once, betrayed him, his boss and company betrayed him, public power and the social system betrayed him anytime and anywhere.And he is even just a relatively lucky one among countless Omega.

He also knew that most unwanted pregnancies were intentional.Fortunately, the first time I found out I was pregnant was by buying a pregnancy test stick, not a public hospital, and there were no other traces left except for the registration at the pharmacy.

Since confirming his pregnancy, he has never been to the hospital again.In order not to keep records, he only used the browser's incognito window to check pregnancy information, did not download or register any apps, did not buy any books, and only wrote down some sporadic information in the notepad of his mobile phone.

At the end of the year, when the work was over, he had already bought a plane ticket to go south, contacted two hospitals in Fenggang, and completed the pregnancy termination operation before the doctor was on leave.

Before leaving, he had a meal with Xu Jiu.Xu Jiu received his doctorate in medicine and was very busy at the end of the year. He Xiyuan made several appointments before he came out.

There were simple home-cooked dishes on the table, and He Xiyuan poked a piece of fried tofu and asked Xu Jiu about his work and department.

Xu Jiu drank a cup of tea and said: "From entering medical school to now, I have worked in the delivery room for a long time, and sometimes I have a feeling of inhuman numbness. But that's okay, the older the doctor, the more this is the case. It's just a show to appease the patient's emotions , I have seen too many joys and sorrows in the delivery room, if you have a strong empathy ability, you probably won’t be able to be a surgeon.”

Then he said: "When I was an undergraduate student in the early years, I had a lot of emotions. Sometimes I had murderous anger towards Alpha, which had no effect and added to the chaos, but now it is peaceful. I just want to ensure the safety of the patients and children on the operating table, and the rest It’s almost out of the question.”

When he was half full, He Xiyuan inadvertently mentioned: "There is something I didn't want to tell others, but I held it in for too long, so I had to talk to you."

Xu Jiu put the teacup beside the bowl and stared at him.

He Xiyuan said: "Actually, there's nothing wrong with it. It's just that I found out that I'm pregnant for a few weeks, but I'm planning to terminate the pregnancy." His expression and tone were very calm.

Xu Jiu opened her mouth wide: "So suddenly?"

He Xiyuan nodded and said, "It's fine, you eat the vegetables."

Xu Jiu didn't know how to answer for a while, so he just said, "I don't remember that you have Alpha by your side either?"

He Xiyuan: "It doesn't matter who it is, and I haven't told the other party about it. We probably won't be together for a long time."

Xu Jiu said: "I understand, you are not ready yet, financial and energy concerns are also very common. How is your Alpha's financial situation?"

He Xiyuan considered it for a while, and replied, "It's okay."

Xu Jiu put down his chopsticks, leaned forward and asked in a low voice, "Could it be Lu—?"

He Xiyuan covered his forehead with his hand: "Where did you hear this?"

Xu Jiu thought for a while and said, "I forgot to hear who said you have a good relationship? I don't remember you having Alpha either, so he was the first one I thought of."

He Xiyuan is going crazy, it's not too late to end the pregnancy.

Xu Jiu: "If it's him, you can ask him for alimony."

He Xiyuan: "I've thought about it, but I'll forget it after thinking about it."

From childhood to adulthood, he had been begging his parents for pocket money and living expenses. He had had enough. He didn't want to ask others for money to survive.

Xu Jiu: "Is pregnancy an accident?"

He Xiyuan: "That's right, but if you think about it carefully, there are some negligence."

Xu Jiu: "Since the decision has been made, I will be more careful in the future. It can be said with certainty that few of the unintended pregnancies are really accidents. Alpha does not treat Omega as a human being, nor does the country treat Omega as a human being. They all want to rely on their children. Get hold of each other."

He Xiyuan didn't speak. He knew that under the trap of the system, many Omegas became pregnant when they didn't want to. The essence was the result of systematic rape.

The Omega who consciously met love doesn't understand Alpha, even though they often feel depressed, they choose to deceive and numb themselves for a long time.However, self-deception cannot last long, and people cannot violate their instinctive feelings.The result is the depression and irritability of the Omega group after giving birth, losing their social functions, and turning from free people to subordinates.

Alpha's hatred of Omega stems from the fear and jealousy of fertility, as well as the excitement of violent slaughter. The evil of the Alpha group is not offset by providing economic and material support. Under the conspiracy of the group, Omegas lose their autonomy over their bodies and reproduction, and their genital cavity can only be used to give birth to offspring for others.

All the time the Alpha crowd shares in the excitement that the Omegas have to change their life plans thanks to pheromones.

They imprison Omega with family, send exact genetic offspring to Alpha, and send new labor population and predictable tax payment to the country.

Everything is a trap that devours life, and an Omega needs to be extremely sober or extremely lucky in order to be able to live safely.

He Xiyuan was wearing dark clothes when he went south, and he didn't bring much luggage.Lu Chengfeng only found out about it two days before He Xiyuan's departure, he was very surprised, and suggested to He Xiyuan: "I can go with you, I have a residence in Fenggang—"

He Xiyuan interrupted him and said, "Next time, I made an appointment with a friend this time, and I'll be back soon."

Lu Chengfeng looked down at him for a while, and said, "Then I'll book you a hotel."

He Xiyuan said: "It's already booked, really don't need to trouble, let's meet again next time."

He looked very resolute, leaving no room for Lu Chengfeng to discuss.

He knew his decision was a turning point in his life, but a turning point in their relationship, but he didn't have the time or energy to explain it.

Although the savings in his hand are not enough to raise the child, it is enough to deal with this accident.Another reason why he didn't tell Xu Jiu that he didn't want to keep the embryo was because he didn't want to carry Lu Chengfeng's mark on him for the rest of his life.

From adolescence to adulthood, there were ten years in between, relying on the appearance and pheromones in his memories, to entrust a little bit of delusions.

If this child is born, then every ten years after that, he will continue to maintain an illusion, like a nightmare from which he cannot wake up.He will watch the child being forced to repeatedly recall everything that he has never had in his life, and repeatedly explain and describe it to the people and children around him: I also had an Alpha once, and we were in love.

In the end, no one would believe what he said, and Omega was not allowed to speak most of the time.

Lu Chengfeng can have many optional Omega partners and offspring, and the one who escapes may be negligible. Lu Chengfeng's starting point is destined to be much higher than his ending point.

He didn't want to disturb the Alpha who was sleeping soundly beside him at night, the lover who was born in the same bed as him but would not die in the same bed.

His child may find that he also has a father when he grows up, and he is a powerful father with more resources than the Omega mother, and maybe that child will leave him in the end.

The so-called Father and God are false, God the Father replaces the Mother, and false gods and poor idols replace the true God.

Omega has no motherland, and no real offspring.Children who grow up in this environment will eventually recognize their Alpha father, and they are just a trace, a container that has been obscured by the years.

Then he will probably become evil, just as his impression of his parents is more disgusted than nostalgic, but he has a vain memory of the relatively gentle Alpha's father, which is similar to a feeling of licking a calf.He loathes the concept of fatherhood, but loves himself as a personal father.

He Xiyuan's father is the eldest alpha son in the family. His rural mother and father regard the only eldest son who has escaped from the countryside as a continuous cash machine for more than ten years, and hate He Xiyuan and his mother who are Omega.

The parents are not gentle and have no characteristics on the outside, so they are not pleasing.As he grows older, the lines between his eyebrows are very deep, as if he has experienced sorrow and accumulated resentment.

In contrast, his father seemed to have a much better personality and was more tolerant of him.But He Xiyuan understands that his father is different from his patrilineal clan. That year when his father died of illness, he ended the see-saw of property inheritance and division, and cut off contact with all his patrilineal relatives. A few years later, he had almost no news from his parents.

There is no eternal kinship, only eternal interests, and the kinship constructed by the Alpha system is fake.

His parents suppressed his body since he was a child, and he finally survived. He just took a few breaths of fresh air, and the accident came unexpectedly.

He thought he wasn't careful enough, but it turned out that most Omegas just weren't careful enough.They are in a trap, and all they can do is try to climb up until they realize the trap, while those who are unconscious will sink forever.

He Xiyuan doesn't want to pray to anyone anymore, and he doesn't want his children to grow up with money or care from him.Although he can barely protect himself in the dark night, the environment is harsh, resources are tight, and the spirit of the crowd is lacking. All conditions are not suitable for bearing offspring.

Among the hospital patients he met as he traveled south were many married Omegas who, like him, had lined up for suppressor implants or were planning to terminate their pregnancies.

The eternal mark is a deception, and most of the estrus left to Omega is involuntary reproduction. Alpha is only completing a planned use during Omega's rut, which is called companionship, and they don't mind using violence when necessary.

There are many Omegas going south during the holidays, like a self-help and extensive non-resistance and non-cooperation movement.Many Omegas discovered at a certain age that Alphas really have nothing good except pheromones and violence, and they are even just parasites around Omegas.