Do not love me

Stopping and walking along the way, Atobe always kept a distance of one meter from her.It's not that she's afraid that she will find him. According to his own understanding, even if he really finds himself, that woman will turn her head away as if she were a stranger.He was just afraid that if he approached her a little bit, he would lose control of the urge to yell at her.

He has a bad temper.

Atobe did not know how long he had been gone.I just felt that it wasn't long, and then I finally saw that she was in front of a house when she stopped, and the word 'Qian Shang' was clearly written on the iron gate.

This is Asakami's home, right?

It turns out that she still remembers... not forgetting that her surname is Asakami.

Atobe thought sarcastically.However, as soon as the corners of his mouth were closed, he couldn't smile anymore.That girl, shivering, standing in front of her house in the wind didn't open the door to enter the house, didn't ring the doorbell or anything else.Instead, he raised his head and hugged his whole body tightly with silent tears.

Is it that cold?Shallow only Ai.

If it's cold, wouldn't it be better to go inside?If it's cold, don't spoil yourself, isn't it good?

Fool, are you homesick?Miss that home you couldn't face?Or, this home has given you too many things that you want to escape, but you can't escape, but in the end you escape in the most embarrassing way?Suddenly I remembered that afternoon, the afternoon when I angrily went to ask her why she didn't take the exam.At that time, did she already imagine the situation today?It's just that these are far more tragic than imagined...

At that time, she faced and endured all the sadness alone.Not even a single accusation was left to that fellow Shinozu.That guy... Now that I think about it, the contempt for her in the past must be as regretful as I am now, right?

Don't cry, it's so ugly.

I want to tell that crying girl like this, I want to grab her by the shoulders and accuse her of wrongdoing, I want to hold her tightly in my arms, and own all of her like Tezuka naturally holds her hand.But what is he?Pretending to be a compassionate strong man to comfort her and embrace her with the most holy and purest sympathy?

Sorry, his young master can't do it.

Such hypocritical things are not suitable for his gorgeous aesthetics.

Therefore, it was destined that he was just the one standing behind.

Because he has his pride.It is said that proud people are not suitable for loving someone.Yes, he couldn't love someone unreservedly to the point of committing suicide.This is exactly the reason why he lost to Tezuka, and at the same time, the reason why he won.At least he didn't have to suffer that much.

Compared with Tezuka, his wounds will heal quickly.

Always paralyze myself like this, and always deceive myself like this.Perhaps, one day, I was really fooled by myself.

Such a fluke exists.Atobe stopped again in compromise.

Qian Shang only loves, crying and ugly.But if you feel comfortable, you can cry until you faint and lose your memory, okay?

With such thoughts in mind, Asakami Yuai thought of the child, the child's biological father, and of course, the sister who loved that person.

Parents...sister...these words seem to have been separated for thousands of years.

From the past... I don't have these words in my mind, and some of them are just grandparents, remote towns, and my peaceful but unrelenting life.Back in Tokyo, those things really passed away just as my mother said.Yes, at that time, she had parents, sister, these words, these concerns.Today... What else does she have?In the past few months, which seemed to be a long time, she had Tezuka and had a baby.But... now, she has nothing.Everything is lost.

I can't go back to my former self, I don't have the current Tezuka...

Howled and wailed, so, only tears streaming down my face, and again, accusation, for God's sake.You are too cruel.

I hate it, I feel aggrieved.There are too many things to hate, and there is no one to hate.It's me who is aggrieved.I'm not strong enough, I'm not enough to love my baby...

In the house, a crisp voice was vaguely heard.

elder sister--

That voice was Qiangami Weiyi.A person who will never forget until death...

The door rang.

Qian Shangwei backed away in a hurry, and when it was too late to escape, he ran away without a trace.Looking embarrassed, he looked like a thief who stole something important.

When the figure of Asakami Yi Qingli appeared at the door, that figure ran away to nothing but a black spot.

In fact, she is really not good at running.Obviously already panting like a cow.Still unwilling to stop.

Like, that summer, a sunny afternoon.She ran like crazy when she received her decisive text message.I wish I had a pair of swift legs.

The way he runs is also ugly.Atobe frowned, because of her escape, and her embarrassed and slow figure.

Looking at the unconscious Yui Asakami, Atobe hummed in disgust.Kind of annoying.Atobe hates Yui Asakami's refreshing appearance.

As expected, he quickly caught up with her.Because a person who is not good at running and just survived the operation can only run at a slow speed.It's just that Asakami Yui didn't notice it, because it was in the opposite direction.

When Atobe followed her within a meter of her footsteps, the exhausted and out of breath man was already bending over and panting desperately.

Yes, this is the proud Qianshang Weiai.Atobe's heart suddenly throbbed again.The sour liquid thickly filled the entire chest cavity.

It hurts a little.

The twitching heart seemed not to be his own.

Stretching out his hand, beating his disobedient heart.After several muffled sounds, Atobe had no choice but to let it go.You can't change it, you can only let it go.

Just getting up on the spot, the obviously tired and painful person walked again with heavy steps.

This time it was a relatively far place, a place so far away that I couldn't catch up to it.That afternoon, that afternoon guarded by the strange boy Tezuka, I wanted to go back to that day again.

In the sunshine that day.

Tired, she fell asleep on the wooden chair.

I had a good dream that day, and there was a fresh mint smell in the dream.It was also because of that time that she began to crave the taste.Until... bloody.

Remember, it's summer, right?Under the sun, he secretly squinted his eyes and looked at the boy sitting on the wooden chair next to him.At that time, the boy's sculpted face was like the real Apollo, which made her remember deeply, imprinted, engraved in the bottom of her heart.

Because she was at ease with the young man's protection, she slept soundly through the afternoon.The class that afternoon was very important.

I can't go back to the past.Now even if it is just a delusion, let her commemorate the lost child in this place where she is greedy.

Behind the wooden chair was a tall sycamore tree, which shielded her from the harsh light that afternoon.Now, it is no longer so glamorous.

But enough to cover up the memories she couldn't recall.

Under the tree, she dug a small hole that couldn't be smaller.She wasn't sure how big the baby should be at this time, so she could only dig a small hole based on her physical feeling.From his arms, he took out the puppet prepared for the birth of the child.lay down.It was made by Tezuka when he was in Karuizawa. It was carved with a knife, and he said it was a gift he prepared for the baby. She always wore those.

A very small puppet.

This is all my memories...

There are so few memories...so small that such a small pit is more than enough.

Landfill and cover with leaves.No one can find her memories, right?Any... memories.The present self is blank, so blank that I forget everything.

This will 'amnesia'.

It's great to have no worries.

After doing all this, the man who was extremely tired and had a painful wound slowly fell to his side little by little.Fortunately, she was smart enough to let her tired body fall down after sitting down on a nearby wooden chair.

She didn't look in pain, just extremely tired.

The health is too bad.

She couldn't bear to bother her, but she was even more worried about her body after the operation.After hesitating for a moment, he moved.Finally getting close to her, her weak breathing was as sweet as the sound of heaven.

Are you tired enough to fall asleep?

He squatted down and reached out to wipe away the wrinkles between her brows.Just like the time when she sprayed water, Atobe hoped that she would open her eyes and look at herself with a smile.laugh at yourself.

But this time, it really won't happen.

It's an extravagant hope.

It's such a cold day...you'll catch a cold.Although, her rosy cheeks have already proved that she has been ill for a long time.

She took off her coat, even if she only wore a thin V-neck shirt, it was so cold that Sother would cover her body.

The cold wind is blowing.Frozen cheeks and trembling palms pinching the phone.

hesitate, hesitate—

I have been hesitating lately, and after hesitating, I have to make a decision.Make up your mind, the key pressed by the thumb has been changed.

Yushi Ninja, here's a chance.A chance at redemption...

Thinking of the phone beeping, it miraculously got through.It was also connected... A strange emotion spread from the soles of his feet.I don't know if I regretted making this call or what?The moment the phone was connected, Atobe was already thinking of hanging up.

However, his actions slowed down the operation of his brain.

The phone over there has been picked up by Renzu.

"Atobe?" The hoarse voice gave reason to believe that the person was also being tortured at this time.

"..." There was a long silence, and the eyes looked involuntarily at the girl on the wooden chair again.She has curled herself up.It's like building a shell to protect itself.

"At the side gate of Dongda University, come here within 10 minutes." After 10 minutes, if he doesn't arrive, he won't give him any more chances.

Even if it's just a chance of atonement that I don't want to get.

Without explaining the reason clearly, Atobe only said something hastily, and then hung up the phone.

Then, take a leaf that fell on her face.Resolutely turned around...to hide in that invisible turtle shell.

10 minutes.For 10 long minutes, Atobe stared at that position without moving.He was obviously so cold that he wanted to curl up...but he didn't seem to feel it, he didn't even give himself a break to let out the heat, and let the cold attack.

Last minute...

Disappointed.lost it.

That guy noticed her on the wooden chair from the very beginning.

Yushi Ninja... I can't do it, so let me do it for me now.This is redemption...

Gritting his teeth, enduring the biting cold wind, Atobe turned around and disappeared into the cold wind.Abandoning the panicked figure behind him, and his good brother who had been with him for many years.Reminiscing about the pitifully few memories alone.