Rebirth of Inescapable

Song Bai slept soundly along the way, the colorful neon lights fell on him one after another with the movement of the car, shining on his pale cheeks, he frowned, as if he was enduring some great pain .

He woke up once after getting on the expressway, and he was relieved to see that the direction of the road was the direction of the sea, but soon fell into a coma again.

I don't know why, Qiao Yi felt very uneasy today, that terrible sense of fear kept rising, this feeling made him more uncomfortable than Song Bai's disappearance last time, he had been feeling very powerless and oppressed, he turned his head and glanced at Song Bai, seeing that he was still in a coma, pulled up his clothes for him. At this time, it started to rain outside.

Rain in November is very rare. It is so cold that it seems to be pierced directly into the bones of the people. Soon the outside is confused. The bell hanging on the key in the car is ringing regularly. It was Christmas last year. Song Bai gave it to Qiao Yi during the Spring Festival. Even though he just threw it to him casually, Qiao Yi still cherished it very much and stayed by his side all the time.

What kind of sea can you see in this weather?Even if it arrives, it's just a fog, but Song Bai is as persistent as if he pursues his rationality the most, and he doesn't want to turn back.

They drove for more than three hours, and when they arrived, it was already past one o'clock in the morning, with the waves in their ears and no one around.

"Ah Bai, we're here." Qiao Yi called softly, thinking that Song Bai's deep sleep should not be heard, but he didn't know that his eyes opened in the next second, with a very clear and calm look. , if it wasn't for the abnormal flush on his face telling Qiao Yi that he was still sick, Qiao Yi would have thought that Song Bai was fine.

Through the window, he looked at the black sea outside. In addition to the rain, there was the sound of waves. In fact, he couldn't see anything. Song Bai pulled off his clothes, reached out and opened the door. Qiao Yi was surprised: "You What do you want to do?!"

"Go down...to see."

"You're crazy!" Qiao Yi scolded in a low voice, "Do you know how cold it is outside now? You go out even if you have a fever!"

"I want to go...let me go and have a look." Song Bai persisted, and he didn't know if it was because he was sick or he was showing weakness. His eyes seemed much gentler, and Qiao Yi had no strength to resist. Gritting his teeth, he hugged Song Bai tightly, resting his chin on his shoulder, and said sullenly, "Why? Why do you have to come and see the sea? Ah Bai, what do you want to do?"

Song Bai's body became slightly stiff, and he suddenly let out a low laugh, "Are you afraid that I will harm you?"

"I'm not afraid of you harming me, I'm afraid of you harming yourself." Qiao Yi kissed his cheek, "You know, you are more important than myself."

Song Bai coughed twice, obviously his physical strength had reached its limit, he looked outside, "Time is running out, Qiao Yi, let me take another look, I don't want to regret it."

"What nonsense, there is still enough time. When you recover from illness, I will take you to travel around the world. You can see the sea and blue sky in various places. As long as you want, I will take you there, okay? "

"Then take me there now." Song Bai stared fixedly at the darkness ahead, "Let me... take a closer look."

Qiao Yi followed Song Bai's gaze and looked out of the car window, and he said, "Ah Bai, I will let you go, so... please be well."

It took a while to see Song Bai nodding his head, and a hum echoed in the car.

There was no umbrella in the car, so Qiao Yi could only wrap Song Bai up with a coat, and then covered him with a blanket, like spring rolls, and walked out of the car with Song Bai in his arms.

The temperature at the seaside was extremely low, Qiao Yi couldn't help shivering, and hurriedly asked, "Will it be cold?"

Song Bai shook his head, "I'll do it myself."

"No, you're in such poor health, I can still hold you this way." Qiao Yi smiled wryly, and slowly moved towards the beach.

The rain quickly soaked his clothes, and his hair was wet on his forehead, as if someone took a basin of ice water and poured it directly on him. There was no such strong sea breeze as expected, but it was terribly wet and cold Even so, he still walked forward step by step, and the sound of the waves in his ears became clearer.

"Abai, do you still remember the first time we met? It was raining like this that day, and I often wondered, if you hadn't taken me back then, what would it be like now? You would have a good life, and I, Maybe he's gone already." Qiao Yi leaned into Song Bai's ear and said.

"Who...knows?" Song Bai's eyes were indifferent.

"I was thinking, maybe I fell in love with you from the first time I saw you. I love you very much. I have loved you all my life. It's just that my love always makes you so painful. I'm sorry... really I'm sorry."

Qiao Yi didn't know his mood at the moment, and always had the illusion that if he didn't say anything, it would be too late. He couldn't suppress this terrible thought. As he spoke, his voice was hoarse, and he hugged Song Bai in his arms. Tighter, as if he was about to disappear, whispering almost pleadingly: "I always make you so sad, every time I want to make you happy, but it always gets worse and worse, my temper is so bad, and It must be hard for you to be with me, I know, you have always hated me so much, no matter what I say or do, you also don’t like me, but you must not know how many times I have fantasized that you are actually love Look at me, hehe——isn’t it ridiculous? Although you don’t want to talk to me every time, I just think you’re shy... Forget it, let’s not talk about it, you will think I’m ridiculous... …But Ah Bai, I really love you, so much that I don’t want my life.”

He stood on the beach, the rain had drenched his whole body, looking at the little lights far away, he suddenly felt a sense of vicissitudes and loneliness.

"Ah Bai, the sea." He said.

Song Bai turned his head to the side, quietly watching the waves climb up the beach, and then slowly recede. There was a slight smile at the corner of his mouth, and he struggled to stand up.

The body is still very weak, he squinted his eyes and looked into the distance, "These years have passed, no matter how painful it is, I still can't escape, I can't say that I will live better without you, but... if I don't have you, I will definitely There will be no pain now."

"Abai..."

"I'm very tired, and sometimes I don't know what to do? It's painful, like someone is cutting my heart piece by piece with a knife every day."

"..." Qiao Yi looked at him in pain, with a very sad expression.

Song Bai smiled faintly, as if he could disappear in the wind and rain, he looked towards the direction of the sea, "So I'm leaving, to a place I want to go."

"What?" Qiao Yi suddenly looked at Song Bai strangely, seeing that his expression was so relaxed that it made people tremble. At this moment, he was still feeling a sense of relief. He smiled and told Song Bai in a very pleasant voice. Qiao Yi: "I want to go there, because there, I can find what I want."

Following the direction of his finger, Qiao Yi looked at the vast ocean. The rain washed him into a mess, and his voice was extremely ridiculous: "Ah Bai...are you kidding me?"

Song Bai shook his head, "So... let's say goodbye like this, thank you for bringing me here." As he spoke, he walked forward step by step.

Qiao Yi thought Song Bai was crazy, did he think he would let him do such a stupid thing?

He rushed forward and grabbed Song Bai. According to their physiques, and Song Bai couldn't even stand upright now, he was determined to be unable to resist Qiao Yi, but at that moment, Before Qiao Yi even realized what happened, his hands were locked behind Song Bai's back, his knees bent, and then his body pressed again. In less than a second, he was pressed to the ground by him. His movements He was extremely nimble. I was afraid that he had been prepared. He found out a rope from somewhere, and soon wrapped Qiao Yi around. Before Qiao Yi could struggle, he felt a slight pain from needles on his arm. Turning his head, he saw Song Bai hit Qiao Yi with the contents of a needle.

Stumbled from Qiao Yi's body and stood up, this kind of physical exertion seemed to have reached the limit, Song Bai squatted down with squinted eyes, looked at Qiao Yi, and said lightly: "Don't be too disappointed, I have learned this pose for three years, I only know this method of self-defense, I have never used it before, you... are the first one."

"Abai...Abai, what do you want to do?" Qiao Yi's voice was extremely nervous. He looked up at Song Bai's relaxed and indifferent expression, and his whole body broke out in cold sweat. He had never shown this to him before. facial expressions, never.

Song Bai stood up with a smile, probably dizzy, he took two steps back to stand still, supported his head, and brushed his wet hair, "I don't want to do anything, I just don't want you to hinder me." As he spoke, he Looking at the time, "I have already sent a text message to Chen Zhi. He is probably on his way now. He will come over when he sees your car. If you are lucky and the waves don't hit you, you may still be alive."

"Ah Bai, wait a minute, let me go first."

"Oh, by the way, Xiaobao seems to have eaten a little too much recently, and he has gained a lot of weight. Remember to take him for a walk when you have time. Also, he doesn't like milk, but likes dried fish. Remember to feed him .”

"...Ah Bai." Qiao Yi's voice trembled, and he looked at him in despair.

But Song Bai looked very happy, and his voice became much lighter: "Your father gave me a salary of 12 yuan before, and I never had a chance to spend it, and the publishing house still owes me [-] yuan in translation fees and hasn't called me yet." , if you have time, remember to help me get it back, and then... find a way for me to give it to my parents."

"Abai, if you dare to do something, I will never let it go!" Qiao Yi changed her begging just now, gritted her teeth and shouted viciously.

"Do you think I'm going to die, do you still care about your threats? It's too late..." Song Bai's voice gradually weakened, as if it was just a flashback, "It's too late, it's already like this, we, No one can go back."

He turned around and walked slowly towards the sea.

Qiao Yi's hands were bleeding, but he had no strength in his body. His face was flushed red, and the veins on his head were popping out. He hissed and roared, "Come back! Come back to me! Go! Come back quickly... Please... Ah Bai, come back! I promise you anything, I will let you go, please! Ah Bai! Ah Bai... Ah Bai..." Qiao Yi said With one cry, the sound seemed to tear the whole world apart, so sad that one could hear the sound of blood flowing, mixed in the wind and rain, drifting far, far away.

Song Bai's footsteps did not stop at all, the firm and steady steps showed his determination, the icy sea water covered his knees, he walked expressionlessly, and suddenly remembered the poem by Haizi: I would like to face The sea, spring blossoms...

I don't know what kind of mood he was in when he was lying on the rails?Is it also such a relief?

Qiao Yi's angry shout resounded through the sky like a seabird, but there was no one here, not one... not at all.

He no longer knew whether it was tears or rain on his face, his whole eyes were widened to the limit, looking at the figure that was gradually disappearing, his voice had completely changed, despair like the sky was falling, endless fear, he kept repeating: Ah Bai... Please, come back, I let go, I don't want anything, you are free...

The cold rain pierced his bones, Qiao Yi was lying on the beach, his heart was as dead ashes, he kept muttering in his mouth, no one could hear what he was talking about, there was no sunrise this day, the world was still dark, it was like the end of the day, Tomorrow without hope.

When Chen Zhi arrived, the situation was very bad. Qiao Yi was half submerged in the sea, and he kept moving, leaving a trail of dragging on the beach. Thinking of the desperate thought, thinking of following Song Bai, the clothes on his body were worn out, his wrists were bloody due to struggling, he seemed to be saying something with a hoarse voice, barely I can hear a word so sad that weeping blood: come back...

The sea water was bitterly salty, and Qiao Yi's clothes fluttered with the waves. He suddenly remembered Song Bai's side face on the boat that day. I hope to live by the sea, because the book always says that the sea is a symbol of freedom, blue and boundless.

He always longs for freedom, but he can't even give him what he wants most, which always makes him so painful. He once gave himself so many opportunities, but he never thought about him when he was trapped by his side. What is most needed is to blindly make him uncomfortable, how sad he must be, he must be disheartened to choose such a path.

Chen Zhi ran over, and the bitterly cold sea made him tremble. He grabbed Qiao Yi and dragged him to the shore with great effort. They tortured me in a ruthless way, the feeling of being cut by a knife and having nothing to love in life is more suffocating than suicide.

Qiao Yi never blamed him for anything, he knew that he was always very smart, he had many chances to kill him, but Song Bai didn't, every time he stopped at the most critical moment, Qiao Yi always Self-deception said, he must be reluctant, maybe, he also likes me a little bit.

This time, he was forced to act, but he still didn't expose the most important thing. With just that little storm, no matter how much he tossed about it, it wouldn't last long. His ultimate goal...is to use his life to fight back. Declare all injustice.

Chen Zhi picked up Qiao Yi and ran to the direction of the car. His hoarse words suddenly sounded vaguely in his ears. He frowned and asked, "Where is it uncomfortable? Is it cold? Just get in the car." I need to change my clothes quickly..."

"... Regret." Qiao Yi murmured, Chen Zhi only heard the word "regret", and asked in confusion, "What regret?"

"I regret it..." Qiao Yi said again, "Abai... you're right, I... regret it."