I am in love with myself

Jian Yixi's apologetic voice could be heard clearly through the thin door panel.

An Mu walked to the bed wearily and sat down. The morning sun shone through the window, and the curtains were drawn at noon yesterday.

She watched the replay of the live broadcast, and knew that when she called, Jian Yixi was broadcasting live and it was inconvenient to answer, while Mao Mao was afraid of revealing his secrets.

Maomao said that they called her back after that, but they turned off the phone several times.

They were also a little anxious at that time, afraid that she would be really angry and had already retreated, but before they could leave, the sports committee brought people in.

After that, the mobile phone was not in their hands, so naturally they couldn't get through no matter what.

An Mu actually understood that Jian Yixi was her, but not her. From the moment she was reborn, Jian Yixi became an independent person, and she was no longer on the same line with her. She had no right to interfere with Jian Yixi at all. .

She called over and over again, in fact, already a little nervous.

But she just couldn't control herself at that time, including now, she still can't control her emotions.

She dared not imagine the consequences of failure.

She couldn't help but wanted to rush out and grab Jian Yixi and beat her hard so that her memory would last forever!

It's been a long time since she's had this uncontrollable feeling.

She doesn't like this feeling.

She needs to calm down and think about all the things that have happened since her rebirth.

The relationship between her and Jian Yixi is unequal, and it is becoming more and more unequal.

Jian Yixi was afraid of losing her so-called friend, so she even did not hesitate to co-act with Maomao.

And she...

Jian Yixi feels that she treats her well, appreciates her, is willing to listen to her in everything, and trusts her wholeheartedly, but in reality?Is she really nice to Jian Yixi?

She taught Jian Yixi in the hope that Jian Yixi could grow up quickly and take good care of her adoptive parents.

She cared about Jian Yixi to make up for the regret of not being able to take good care of herself in her previous life.

Everything she did for Jian Yixi started from herself, never Jian Yixi herself.

She is not good to Jian Yixi, she is not even her friend.

She wants to control Jian Yixi more, and she hopes that Jian Yixi can develop in the direction she imagined, grow up quickly, and be able to be independent.

But she forgot that Jian Yixi was only 16 years old, she couldn't ask her to be 28 years old.

What happened last night, Jian Yixi did not think carefully, but it was also the result of her teaching to get to the bottom of it.

She desperately hopes that Jian Yixi will grow up, and Jian Yixi is influenced by her, and she is also eager to prove herself, just like a child who has worked hard to get [-] points in the exam, hoping to be praised by the teacher.

As a teacher, at this time, she should praise Jian Yixi for what is right, and then warn Jian Yixi for what is wrong. This is the correct response.

She knows everything, but can't do it.

She can't state her point of view calmly at the moment. When she goes out now, the most likely thing she will say is: Do you have a brain? !Did you think about the consequences before doing this? !

In fact, she would have spoken harsher and harsher than that, and might even be tempted to hit her.

She has violent tendencies, and usually loses control when she is emotional. Although it is not very serious, she has seen a doctor in her previous life and has improved to a certain extent. She has never had an attack in this life, and she cannot guarantee that it will not happen now.

An Mu lay down and covered herself with the quilt. Jian Yixi's apology was choked with sobs, which made her even more upset.

She covered her head, closed her eyes, tried to relax her breathing, and calm down her emotions.

She really needs to sort out her thoughts, well.

Now it's not just Jian Yixi's problem, she has her own problem too.

Accompanied by the sound of apology, An Mu unconsciously fell asleep. When he opened his eyes again, it was already dark outside the window, and the street lights were still not on.

An Mu stared at the window in a daze for a while, then got up and got out of bed.

After opening the door, there was no one at the door. She glanced at the door of Jian Yixi's room next door, and it was tightly closed.

She yawned and went into the bathroom. She didn't know whether it was the discomfort caused by the upside-down day and night, or the exhaustion after the nervous tension. After sleeping for so long, she still felt very uncomfortable.

After washing up, when she looked up, the door of Jian Yixi's room opened at some point. Jian Yixi huddled behind the door, her ponytail hanging loosely behind her head. It looked like she forgot to take off her hair tie before going to bed, and her hair was broken. Messy, red eye circles, swollen, swollen and ugly eyelids, the whole person is like a road that has just experienced a heavy rain, a mess from head to toe.

Jian Yixi looked at her pitifully, but didn't dare to come over after thinking about it, she looked wherever she went.

An Mu walked to the sofa and sat down, took out his phone and ordered takeaway.

Her taste is basically the same as Jian Yixi's, so there is no need to ask Jian Yixi, just order it directly.

After ordering the meal and turning off her phone, she raised her eyes to Jian Yixi.

"come over."

Jian Yixi hurriedly opened the door as if she had been pardoned, walked timidly like a little daughter-in-law to the sofa, and sat down cautiously.

"Do you know where you went wrong?"

"I know, I shouldn't make a claim, I should report to you in advance."

An Mu got up and poured a glass of water to her, then poured himself another glass.

"You were wrong, you gave up the principle."

Holding the water glass, Jian Yixi raised her eyes to look at her, her swollen eyes looked both exasperating and funny.

"Me? Abandon the principle? What principle?"

"Safety first principle."

Jian Yixi opened her eyes slightly before she realized it.

"I thought..."

"When you don't have the ability to correctly assess the situation, the first thing you have to do is prepare for the worst, not take it for granted."

Jian Yixi who was interrupted silently lowered her head.

An Mu continued: "Even if you haven't eaten pork, you've seen pigs run away, right? How many bloody but realistic incidents are in the news? Rape, murder, abduction, organ stealing...there are too many, the first thing you should think of is yourself Will you encounter the scariest kind.

Nothing is worth taking such a big risk.

It's not just about exposing Jian Yihu, it's actually like this for everything.

It doesn't mean that you can take a smaller risk. This depends on the return you get.

There is absolutely no need to take this risk when the risk you take and the reward you get are seriously disproportionate.

This is like buying a high-risk fund, but you can only get the benefits of Yu Ebao. You say, is it worth it? "

Jian Yixi bit her lip and lowered her head, she didn't know how to drink while holding the water glass, her mouth was so dry that her skin was sticking out.

An Mu reached out and pushed her water glass. She froze and took a sip slowly.

An Mu said again: "Anyway, please remember that no matter what you do, you must first ensure your own safety, and the second is what you want to achieve. No matter what, you should not rush for quick success."

Jian Yixi pursed her wet lips, stared at the water glass, and thought of something, her voice choked up.

"I'm not afraid that there will be no firewood to keep the green hills... I will never dare again in the future."

After all, she took another sip.

"I really know that An Mu is wrong."

An Mu sighed slightly, and reached out to pull away her messy ponytail. Her long hair was scattered on her shoulders. It was as dark as the gloomy night outside the window, except that the night was decorated with neon lights, but she only had a small pale face.

"I ordered chestnut chicken and fish-flavored eggplant, as well as a borscht soup, which should be here soon."

It was just an ordinary sentence, Jian Yixi stuck the water glass that had just left her lips back again, raised her head and drank it in one gulp, and coughed uncontrollably without paying attention.

An Mu quickly started to pat her on the back.

"Slow down, no one will grab you."

Jian Yixi coughed and coughed, the coughing sound gradually changed, her figure became smaller and smaller, clutching the empty water glass, hugging her arms, tears scattered like raindrops.

"I'm sorry An Mu...I'm sorry...I'm really really sorry..."

The soft sobbing and sincere apology soaked An Mu's troubled heart like a drizzle.

Maybe it's time to slow down.

Jian Yixi needs time to adjust, and so does she.

An Mu reached out and wrapped Jian Yixi's narrow shoulders into his arms, rubbed her chin against her black hair, her beautiful eyes were half closed, and her voice was rare and gentle.

"Why are you crying all of a sudden? You don't want to say that caring about hot water is also caring?"

The soft figure in his arms froze slightly.

An Mu laughed.

"Really? You are too easy to coax."

"Why coax me? I did something wrong, I should coax you."

The thick nasal voice penetrated into the eardrums, and Xu Shi completely relaxed in her arms, with a different kind of coquettishness. An Mu never knew that he could make such a voice before, and he was a little dazed for a moment. realism.

"Hurry up and wash up, I won't wait for you when the meal comes later."

After a meal, Jian Yixi regained her vigor, her eyes were still swollen, so she just took the opportunity to do a live broadcast again, to give everyone an explanation for what happened last night.

The live broadcast was very successful, not just because of the swollen eyeballs that made me cry for a long time, but mainly because of the traffic brought about by the breaking news of #见义湖纪妹妈秀遇见针rape#.

Jian Yihu's case has just been sentenced not long ago, and this has caused such a big mess, and it is the most eye-catching gang rape. It is conceivable that Jian Yixi's live broadcast is not popular.

Originally, Jian Yixi didn't want to be famous because of this, and didn't care about her image, so she casually put on a coat and started the live broadcast, not to mention makeup, and her swollen eyes were afraid that netizens would not be able to see clearly, so she deliberately slapped the camera.

All the other female anchors have a beautiful face and thin face, and they have to put on beautiful makeup, but she is the only one... unique.

In all fairness, compared with Jian Yihu's hardcover appearance every time, her appearance is not comparable at first glance, but after seeing too many beauty filters, and looking at her again, this image of a pure school girl who is really down-to-earth is even more beautiful. People like it.

Jian Yixi first thanked the netizens who helped her call the police, and then thanked all those who cared about her, and briefly described the development of the matter afterwards. Needless to say, the sadness of being treated like this by her sister, the swollen eyes represent everything.

The police also quickly investigated and found out that the truth of the matter was not much more than expected.

Jian Yihu, who was first contacted by the Sports Commission, said that no matter what happened, she would remain loyal to her.

Jian Yihu took advantage of the situation and asked the sports committee to monitor Jian Yixi, waiting for an opportunity to take revenge.

After the exam that day, the sports committee followed behind them. Hearing what they said about online dating, he turned around and told Jian Yihu the news.

After that, Jian Yihu instigated, the sports committee first found Wang Shiwen who liked him, and asked Wang Shiwen to contact Mao Mao, and took Jian Yixi and Mao Mao to the pedicure hall under the guise of pedicure coupons.

The sports committee chose the pedicure hall because the owner of the pedicure hall is timid and greedy for money, and the other is because the sports committee dare not do this in their own ktv, for fear that their family members will find out and stop them.

The gangsters that the Sports Commission found were a few years older than the Sports Commission, and they often hang out with each other. They are really full of poisons. When they heard about this, they immediately agreed to help, and felt that strong women are the safest. Once the video is shot, no matter how unwilling you are, you have to submit to it, and you can use it as a threat to continue enjoying it later.

No one expected that the car would overturn from the very beginning.

All the suspects have been arrested and brought to justice. Except for the Sports Committee and Jian Yihu who may be sentenced lightly because they are minors, although the others are attempted, they are not voluntary attempts, and the clearly stated intention of gang rape is definitely heavier than attempted rape. Fixed-term imprisonment I can't run away.

Seeing that the end of the new year is approaching, it is impossible to get a verdict if there is no trial before the year, but Jian Yihu is also doomed to be unable to celebrate the New Year at home.

Because of Jian Yihu, Wen Qiaoyun deliberately approached Jian Yixi once, playing the card of family affection, hoping that Jian Yixi would testify in court, and said that everything was just a joke, so that Jian Yihu would not have to go to jail.

Jian Yixi only replied to her: "Don't you think your request itself is a joke?"

Wen Qiaoyun became angry from embarrassment, yelling that she would not let her live a stable life, and she would not let Jian Yixi have a good life.

Jian Yixi called the police on the spot. Although Wen Qiaoyun's clamor was not heard at 110, at least a case was filed.

"If something happens to my parents, the biggest suspect is you. There is a report on it. You should think about it before you take action. Don't shoot yourself in the end. By then, there will be no one in Jane's house." gone."

Blink of an eye is the day to receive the notice.

Jian Yixi took the third place in the school and easily entered the elite class 200. Maomao got more than [-] in the exam and was in the middle grade. After the ordinary class, they will not be ranked according to their scores, and they will be divided into mixed classes after the semester begins.

An Mu passed the exam...

Jian Yixi opened her eyes slightly, and turned to look at An Mu in the crowd looking up at her grades.

On a rare sunny day, the winter sun was high, but the wind was still cold. An Mu was wearing a thin uniform, her slender neck was raised in an elegant arc, and a few strands of curly long hair floated on her white chin. She squeezed into the noisy crowd. In the crowd, the red lips were slightly pursed, and the expression on the face was indifferent, as if completely out of it, without being disturbed by anything, standing alone, quiet and indifferent.

An Mu passed the exam... 52. Although he was good, he was kicked out of the first class and could only go to the second class.

Jian Yixi wanted to comfort her a few words, but the words rolled out of her mouth but she didn't know what to say, any comfort seemed pale and powerless at this moment.

Jian Yixi felt that she was useless, she didn't even know how to comfort her, so what else could she do?

An Mu came over in response to the reputation, and met her flushed eye sockets, his eyes were dimmed, and he reached out and dragged her out of the crowd.

"It's better than I imagined. I thought I couldn't even get into the second class."

"Well, you are indeed very good. You just came from abroad and you can pass the exam so well. You will definitely be able to enter the first class next time!"

An Mu curled his lower lip, smiling slightly and forcedly.

"Let's go back to class first, and we have to hand out homework at the class meeting"

The busy morning passed quickly, and the two of them went home after eating. The train that Jian Yixi bought directly to Shunyi was a bit slower. At least there was no need to reverse the train. The high-speed train that An Mu bought went directly to Beijing.

An Mu's car was at six o'clock in the evening, and Jian Yixi was at two o'clock. An Mu sent Jian Yixi to a taxi and waved goodbye.

Jian Yixi suddenly rolled the car window and said with a smile, "Let's buy cooking pots next semester!"

An Mu was stunned, and the wind blew by, messing up her long honey-brown hair, and the white down jacket was so beautiful that it was not stained by the dead leaves.

An Mu didn't ask her why she bought the pot, but just brushed her messy hair with her hand. Her amber eyes were full of complexity that she couldn't understand, and she waved her plain hand.

Jian Yixi's heart sank inexplicably, and she couldn't explain what was wrong. Seeing An Mu's figure getting farther and farther away, her heart sank more and more.

It's just going home for the winter vacation, what's wrong with her?

She rolled up the car window, took out her phone and sent An Mu a message.

[Meng Xi's written talk: Don't you even ask me why I bought the pot? 】

[Yanyuzhou: Is cooking instant noodles more convenient? 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: Isn't instant noodles just instant noodles?Instant noodles Instant noodles, of course, are used for soaking, what to cook?I just want to go home and learn how to cook with my mother, and cook for you later~]

[Yan Yuzhou: Let's go, wouldn't it be nice to have some time to do some more quizzes? 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: It's not delicious, but it's still delicious. 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: That's it!Waiting for the return of Chef God! 】

An Mu returned her expression of slapping the table and laughing.

Why didn't you reply "OK"?

It's obviously just a trivial matter that even sesame and mung beans don't count, but Jian Yixi cares inexplicably.

She wanted to repeat it again and asked An Mu to say "yes" or "wait for you", but she felt that she was too hypocritical. Although An Mu didn't show it, she must be unhappy when she was kicked out of the first class. It's common sense not to be in the mood to joke, but she is too nervous.

Putting away his phone, he looked back at the road where An Mu had long since disappeared, imagining that he would come back next semester and cook a table of delicious dishes by himself. An Mu looked surprised and happy, and couldn't help but smile.

An Mu watched Jian Yixi's taxi leave, took out his cell phone and dialed it to his little aunt.

"Little aunt, can you arrange the middle school you mentioned last time?"

The little aunt smiled and said, "You're finally thinking about it? I'll ask your uncle to do it for you in the afternoon, and your school has to say something about it, and you have to transfer your student status."

"I've already told the school."

"Okay then, come back first."

An Mu put away his phone and walked back to the apartment. He checked the water and electricity of the doors and windows, emptied the refrigerator, and turned off the electric and water valves. Then he poured a cup of hot water and leaned against the balcony warmly.

The Jian family has nothing to worry about, just find two people to watch over.

Jian Yixi needs time to grow up slowly.

She also needs time to stabilize her neurotic and violent tendencies.

especially……

She needs to correct the increasingly unequal relationship between them. Jian Yixi doesn't need to think that she is a benefactor, and she can no longer use Jian Yixi as a tool to make up for regrets.

At the same time, this can be regarded as ... the last lesson of puberty for Jane Yixi.

——No one will always be by someone's side, and the only one you can rely on is always yourself.

The author has something to say: Is the update early today?

Because I have something to do during the day, I stayed up until almost four o'clock before I finished writing

Miraculously, I don't have a headache in the middle of the night!

Hope you don't have a headache when you wake up during the day!

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